Fuck you.

- Ethans POV -

Working at the restaurant had gotten awkward immediately. Of course, that would be expected. Kyle and Rosa took it really personally that I am allowed to be friends with Kaizer. You know what's even better? They're even more mad about Kaizer protecting me. Like I can do anything about that.. fucking hell.

I just decided to ignore them. I have always apologised to everyone for everything, even when it wasn't my fault. This time, I'm not going to apologise. They're acting like fucking children and need to admit that they're in the wrong. It's crazy that I'm not allowed to be 'friends' with the guy that I've known since I was 4 years old, because one of them had caught feelings for them. Hell, I'm not even fucking friends with Kaizer.

I walked into the kitchen and Rosa and Kyle's conversation stopped immediately. They gave me a glance before they continued talking, but now whispering. What the fuck? Is this high school or something?

"... I can still hear you whispering." I mumbled sarcastically. Rosa scoffed while Kyle rolled his eyes. I turned around to face them, really fucking annoyed.

"Do y'all really need to act like fucking children? We're all adults here. Maybe, Kyle, you should've fucking told me about your insane jealousy issues. Communication is key, right Rosa? That's what you always said. Kyle, Kaizer doesn't even fucking like you! Are you just being blind on purpose? And you guys really need to get a reality check if you think that I'm in the wrong for talking to my old bestfriend of.. what is it? 20 years?"

I didn't even bother to hear their cursing and childish arguments. I just grabbed the dinnerplate and walked out. I smiled at the table and handed them their food. I'm getting really sick of their childish games.

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I have started smoking more recently. Blame the people in my life. I leaned against the wall of the restaurant and watched people walk by. I lit a cigarette and lifted it to my mouth. I took a drag and blew the smoke out, watching it disappear in the air.

It had been a few days since I blew up on them. I guess it kinda worked since they didn't talk shit about me anymore. Now we've gone to strangers. I hope it won't stay like this forever. I mean, yeah, they can be damn bitches, but we were the best bitches together.

It's silly, really. Fighting over a man. Hey, I'm not fighting over him. Fuck no. They are. They think I want to steal him, blah blah blah. All bullshit.

I pushed the cigarette out against the wall and threw it in a bin. I always made sure to be as nature-friendly as possible. I really do fucking love nature.

I went back inside and started working again.

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At the end of the shift, Rosa walked up to me. She seemed.. panicked? Scared? I don't know. I watched her basically running to me.

"Uh.. Ethan..? I gotta tell you something.."

Fucking finally. Will she really apologise? I had to fight the urge to smirk.

"So.. you know that Kyle didn't show up today? Because he's... sick?"

I frowned. Is this how her apology starts? I just nodded.

"Yeah? So what?"

"Well, he isn't sick. He actually went to hang out with Kaizer, but he hasn't been answering his phon-"

"WHAT?!"

I stared at her in shock. She flinched when I yelled at her. How can they be this fucking stupid? No nonononono no... fuck.

I walked to the side of the road and stuck my thumb out.

"H-Hey! What are you doing..?"

"I'm going to Kaizer's. What else would I fucking do?"

A taxi stopped and I quickly got in. I paid the driver. Rosa ran over and got in too.

"Why the hell would you do that? Are you still fucking jealous?"

I laughed without any humor behind it.

"You don't know Kaizer like I do."

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I had let the taxi bring Rosa home. It took a lot, but I managed. No way in hell would I take her to Kaizer with me.

The taxi pulled up and I thanked him. I walked inside the lobby of the hotel and went to the desk.

"Excuse me miss, in what room does Kaizer Raiven stay in?"

She gave me a suspicious smile and awkward smile.

"Uhh.. that's client confidentiality. May I ask your name, sir?"

I huffed in frustration. I remembered that I had Brian's phone number. I walked away from the woman at the desk and went to a more private place. I dialed his number.

"Hello?" His bubbly voice spoke up from the other line.

"Brian, thank god..."

"... Ethan! Hey!"

I huffed at his excited voice. This man is truly innocent.

"What room is Kaizer staying in? It's an emergency."

The other side of the line went silent.

"Uh.. it wouldn't be a great timing right now. He told me not to disturb him. Wait. Let me handle it okay? What message do I need to leave?"

My irritation was growing by the second.

"Brian, I swear to god I will visit every single room. Just tell me where the fuck he's staying." I said with urgency.

I heard him pulling the phone away and some voices in the background. It wasn't clear on what they were saying. After a few seconds a deep sigh was heard.

"Room 103."

"Thank you!"

I hang up and ran up the stairs, not bothering to take the elevator. I had to get up there as quick as possible...

I reached floor 3 and walked down the hall, searching for the room. When I finally found it, I went to knock on it, but before I could a voice called out.

"Excuse me sir? What are you doing here?"

I looked to my left and saw a huge, muscular man standing there. He was wearing a suit and had an earpiece in his right ear. His hair was brushed backwards and he wore black glasses. He looked like a real life bodyguard.

Suddenly, the door opened and Kaizer was leaning in the doorway.

"Let him, Xavier. I expected him."

The man nodded and disappeared in the room across from Kaizer's. That was the same man at the restaurant who got mad at me for spilling the red wine. Oops.

I faced Kaizer and all my anger appeared again. I poked my finger in his chest.

"Where. The. Fuck. Is. Kyle."

He tilted his head to the left and gave me a confused look. "What? You mean that nerdy dude you kissed?"

I scoffed and crossed my arms. I stormed past him inside. I searched everywhere. Living room, bedroom, kitchen, bathroom.

"Maybe you should look behind the curtains, or inside the fireplace. That would be good hiding places too." He said sarcastically as he saw me frantically searching. I stood back up and glared at him.

"Where is he? I know he was here."

He smirked and cupped my cheek.

"Are you jealous, Love?"

Just the urge to bite his finger off..

"If you even damaged a strand of his hair, I'll fucking murder you. Did you murder him? Hurt him?"

He scoffed and his expression went back to neutral.

"Wow, you think so highly of me. Yes, I totally would murder him in a hotel room and invite you over so that we can get rid of him together! That is actually a nice date idea..."

I rolled my eyes and pushed past him. Fucking prick. I looked under the coach and froze. Kyle's shoe. I stood back up, acting like I didn't find anything.

"Did Kyle even come by?"

"Yeah. He left like.. 20 minutes ago? Rosa texted that you were going to give us a little visit. He told me about your fight."

I narrowed my eyes, still not trusting this. I walked to the kitchen and grabbed a knife. I pointed it at him. He raised an eyebrow.

"Is this really necessary, Ethan?"

"WHAT DID YOU DO TO HIM?!"

He gave me a look like I was a lunatic.

"I SAW HIS SHOE, YOU SICK FUCKING PSYCHO BASTARD!"

My anger reached a limit and a few tears fell down my face. He tried to come closer to wipe them, but I ran off into the bathroom. I locked the door.

He pounded on it.

"Ethan! Ethan, open the door! God damn it..."

I heard him sigh and I sunk down on the floor. He's dead. Kyle is dead.

I flinched as I heard his shoulder collaps with the bathroom door, trying to break it open.

"Ethan! I didn't do shit! Look, he left his shoe behind on purpose... He wanted revenge on you, so he hid some personal belongings of his! Just call him through my phone and you'll see he is just fine.."

His slams got more aggressive and the door was starting to budge. I got even more livid. Lying his way out? Typical fucking Kaizer. Why did I even believe that a man like that is capable of changing?

I stood up and held the knife in front of me. My hands shivered badly as I held the knife. Finally, the door burst down and Kaizer stood there, breathing heavily. He slowly walked to me and came closer and closer. In a moment of anger, my brain fogged with it, I tried to stab him. I missed and he pinned me to the wall, holding my wrist so tightly that I dropped it. We both panted heavily as he glared down at me.

I smashed my lips against his, catching him off guard. I pushed him off me and walked to him, kissing him again. He groaned and grabbed my face, kissing back aggresively. I threw all my anger and irritation in the kiss as he threw all his frustration. He grabbed me by the thighs and lifted me up, not daring to break the kiss off. I groaned as he bit on my lip and sucked on it. I opened my eyes and saw his half-lidded eyes, filled with desire and longing, staring back at me. I opened my mouth and pushed my tongue in his mouth, smirking as he moaned.

I buried my hand in his hair, pulling on it harshly as his tongue fought back. I gasped as he pushed his tongue back into my own mouth and pushed his own in it too. I groaned as he got even more aggressive. He slowly walked to the couch, our minds foggy, and laid me down. He broke the kiss for a second, just to stare down at me. I turned red from embarrassment, from the kiss itself and from how messed up I would probably look. Tear stains on my cheeks, my face red, hair messy, swollen lips.

He grabbed my thighs and pushed them apart before he slotted his body between them. He pushed his chest into mine and cupped my cheeks.

"I love you.."

He whispered before he dove in for another aggressive kiss.

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I laid on the couch, watching a movie. Kaizer was laying on top of me, between my legs. One arm was wrapped around my waist as his other hand rubbed over my side. His face was pressed into my neck. I had my arms behind my head as I relaxed and enjoyed the movie.

"... Can I still call Kyle?"

He chuckled and nuzzled in my neck, leaving a few kisses.

"Mm.. only if I get another kiss.."

I slapped the back of his head softly, earning a whine. He huffed and grabbed his phone, handing it to me.

"Finee..."

I unlocked it (the passcode was still my birthday) and went to contacts. I clicked on Kyle's and called.

The phone rang 3 times before the call connected.

"Kyle, you alright?"

"Y-yeah, yeah, I'm okay. Why?"

I sighed, relieved. My gut was now filled with guilt. I guess Kaizer did tell the truth...

"Nothing, nothing. You should text Rosa. She's worried. And your shoe is still at Kaizer's."

"... Yeah.. about that? You remeber when I told you I wanted to move away? Well, I.. uh.. I did. And please don't contact me again. Tell Kaizer I'm sorry."

With that he hung up. What the fuck? Did Rosa and him fight?

I mean, he did tell us he wanted to move away and leave his old life. Didn't know he meant me and Rosa too..

"... Kyle is gone."

Kaizer lifted his head and looked at me with worry.

"You okay, sweetheart?"

I nodded and laid the phone away. I guess everyone wants a new start.

I gave my attention to the tv and Kaizer's hair, running my hand through it.

"He told me to tell you he's sorry. Mind explaining that?"

He sighed and pressed a kiss in my neck.

"I got angry at him since he said something bad about you. After that, he stormed off, crying. He said 'fuck you' and left."

He shrugged and tried to bury himself further into my body. I hummed and thought about it before I shook my head.

"Weird, I guess. Whatever."

I pressed a kiss in his hair and smirked at the small smile that formed on his face.

Is this what happiness feels like?