Chapter 90

Zenovia

I had been holding back for too long, confused for even longer. But today there was no going back. The

ache I had felt in my heart, in my very soul, with him not being around, was too much to bear.

I had tried to push the thought of him away from my head, but the second he was close to me, I knew I

wanted his hands all over me, wanted his lips to kiss me, to worship me.

Today was going to be the day I awakened my wolf. I felt it in my

bones.

And there was nothing more interesting than having Callahan with me. He had been the one to train

me, to push me to my limits, so tonight I wanted to thank him for putting so much effort into me.

I wanted those eyes to never leave mine as he caressed me, as he called me ‘Zee, the name sounding

sweet as a forgotten, timeless melody to my ears.

So I shamelessly laid out my feelings in front of him. It was a risky affair since he could always break

my heart and telling him I fantasized about him was giving him power over me, but he had had that

power for way too long.

Denying that was doing me no good. As for the warning of Drusilla….we could see what happened to it

when push came to shove.

For now, I wanted to stay trapped in his arms as his lips kept kissing me hungrily. I arched back, giving

him more access as his lips opened mine.

My tongue lost the battle against him quite easily and submitted, just like the rest of my body. I felt as if

I was floating, as if I was flying as Callahan’s hands brushed my skin, each touch igniting a spark within

me.

I did not want to stop; I did not want him to stop…but the hour hand of the clock struck twelve and the

sound reached my ears. However, his ears were sharper, and he tore away from my lips after bending

me backward to leave trailing kisses on my chin.

He had barely begun, and the abrupt way he pulled back again made me grumble at the loss of

contact.

Heat was pooling in between my thighs, heat that only he could satiate. Was it my wolf who was feeling

the need to be with him, driving me insane, or was it my own selfish feelings?

I had no idea.

Callahan looked into my eyes, those golden eyes shining brighter like orbs and muttered, “I….think we

should go down and see if you awaken your wolf first. I don’t want to start something…just to be

stopped midway”

The

way his eyes darkened told me exactly what he had meant. And somehow, I did not feel afraid of it.

In fact, I saw myself leaning into his embrace, wanting to offer myself up to him.

“We have to go out?” I asked, and then bit my tongue for sounding so stupid.

Callahan pushed a lock of my hair behind my ear and muttered, “Yes. Being under the moonlight helps.

So let us give your wolf a full chance of showing up”

Saying so, he held out a hand for me and I slipped it in his effortlessly. There was a smile on his face,

unlike his usual smirk.

He seemed truly happy…or maybe it was my mind playing tricks on me.

But I let him guide me outside the meeting hall. It was on the ground floor and luckily, after such a long

and tiring meeting, everybody had left.

Now I was beginning to feel nervous all over again. What if I did not feel anything? What if my wolf

never showed up again?

I would not have the confidence to even look into his eyes after all the effort he had put into me.

However, Callahan pulled me close, and his touch was reassuring as he led me outside. The warmth in

his hands was comforting and slowly we made it outside the front yard.

Except for a few servants, there was nobody around. All the alphas and other members had left, yet I

was wary of making a fool of myself in front of the servants.

Awakening a wolf was a big thing, and I did not want them to watch as I transformed, it would make me

nervous.

Callahan looked at the sky that had a few clouds behind which the moon was hiding.

“Guess, you will have to wait for some time”

He said and I bit my lip nervously while looking around at the huge garden.

“Zee, relax. You will surely awaken your wolf this time. And even if you don’t, there is always next

month.”

However, I shook my head.

“I…I thought maybe I could go somewhere where I don’t have an audience,” I said, casting glances at

the servants who were busy with chores.

Callahan’s gaze followed mine, and he chuckled, “Oh, don’t mind them. They are so used to seeing us

run around like wolves that they don’t even bother anymore.”

But I was not convinced. He tilted his head and asked, “Or do you want to be alone? Like completely

alone?”

“No, I want you” I spoke so fast that the grin on his face was back again.

“Keep saying that and I will forget about your awakening,” He said, and I saw the way his eyes

darkened.

“I…I meant I wanted you to be beside me. I don’t want to be alone. Just not here”

I clarified, and Callahan seemed to be enjoying my situation. He chuckled and scratched his chin as if

he was in some deep thought.

“Do you want to go outside, then? But then, I don’t want rogues to attack us, so we have to be in a safe

perimeter.”

I nodded my head.

“Hmm, alright. Then we can go to the small trail that leads to the pack house. It is not very far and has

a good clearing in between where moonlight would fall on the ground directly”

He said, but I did not immediately agree to it. I had been thinking about the place I wanted to be at

when I found my wolf.

Last time, I had simply half-rolled in the mud and grass while my wolf tried to communicate with me and

show herself out of my body.

I did not want that.

Images of a night began flashing through my mind. A night I had spent with Callahan. The moonlight

had shone perfectly on the huge lake and there was ample open ground around it.

The night beside the lake where he had punished me, and devoured me.

Somehow, I felt the lake and the premises would be a good option to awaken my wolf and have no

audience except Callahan. It was also not too far from the mansion, but it was fairly secluded and

nobody frequented that place.

He was waiting for an answer, so I slowly looked up and asked, “Can we go to that clearing beside the

lake?”

And the reaction on his face was priceless. I saw the smirk disappear from his face and the golden orbs

fire up with an intensity that could have reduced me to ashes.

“Are you sure?”

He asked, and I nodded, “Yes.”

Callahan did not waste time as he turned us around and headed toward the garage, where several of

his cars were parked.

And my heart did a little happy dance when he chose the same car we had driven to the lake last time.

He hopped into the car and turned the ignition on while I stared nervously at the open door.

Maybe I was being too bold for stating what I wanted so directly and upfront. I had never been so brave

before.

And I hoped I would not disappoint myself tonight as I slowly stepped into the car and he began driving

it to our destination.