What's That Supposed To Mean? - 49

Chapter 49

As soon as I confirmed everything with Leona and her brother, the door behind me opened. Of course he'd notice me gone; he's been obsessed with keeping me safe lately. I hated being a burden like that, even though I know he would say that I wasn't.

"Sam, what's going on?" Noah's worried voice came, his footsteps coming closer. I would never get tired of the way his presence affected me.

"It's okay, don't worry."

I explained the whole situation to him and how Liz's attack was due in two hours. Noah immediately woke up the pack and started sending them out around the territory. If this didn't end now, today, I would seriously freak. I've had enough drama with Liz and her shit. It was tiring and annoying.

I made sure everyone was busy before sneaking in to my cousin Willa's room, a room where no one thought to look for me. I had to think this through and make a plan. I hated doing this behind their backs but desperate times call for desperate measures.

The only thing to really stop this was me going alone. If I died while ending Liz and her people, I'd die for my family.

But now, don't think I am some kind of fearless warrior who is going to risk her life for her loved ones just like that. No, I am very scared and nervous and I can only hope that this works out the way I plan it to.

Also, I need to figure out a way to get pass the guards of my pack and Leona's pack standing around now. Damn. This is going to be so much more exhausting than I thought.

After literally two hours of non stop planning - except for the moment where they were searching for me through mindlink and I had to assure that everything was fine - I was finally ready for a break. I was pretty much finished with the plan and what strategy I'd use but not the part where it might come to a fight with Liz and her people, which I was sure it would. On that part, though, I'd have to improvise.

My break consisted of checking on the planning and preparing, also making sure no one suspected me for being gone so long. I hated lying to them but it was for their safety. And I really had to go soon. I checked the clock every two minutes, my insides twisting and turning from nerves. Noah was going to kill me for this. Ari, too. And my dad, oh my dad. He'd probably have a heartattack just hearing this. I knew how much they would all mourn if I died but I also knew how much I would mourn if it was the other way around. Yes, I know, I am being selfish too now but I'm sorry, that is how I feel but definitely not the entire reason to why I am doing this.

Sometimes you just have to take the matter in your own hands and fix things. That's what I am doing now. And it is going to work, whether I survive or not.

“Sam, I need you!” Arianna called, breaking me out of my thoughts. I blinked, nodding as I followed her. I have to act normal. They'll notice the smallest things, trust me. Everyone is on edge right now.

“You okay?”

I nodded.

“What can I do for you?”

“Okay so I'm doing the drawing of their territory and I've drawn every entrance I can remember. Am I missing anything? It's important that we have all entrances otherwise they can attack us without us knowing and that will be a disaster.”

I checked the drawing, trying to remember if there was something more she had to add. Nothing popped up.

“It seems legit. Can't find anything missing or wrong.”

“Great thanks. What are you doing right now?”

“Um... I'm just making sure everyone is good for the moment... You know, if they need help or something else.”

“Yeah, okay. I'll continue on with this then.” She gave me a look that I knew immediately, even from a mile away I'd understand what that meant, but I ignored it now. She knew I was off and I wanted to punch myself in the face. I was going to blow my cover. Damn her for being so observant.

“Okay, I'll keep moving.” I walked away quickly, hoping and praying she'd let it go. And by the way, it was time to get out of here. I had to make sure Noah didn't suspect anything first. He has to think I'm still here and working. I searched for him with my eyes, finding him alone by one of the tables, focused on some paper. I walked over to him, putting my hand on his shoulder.

“Oh, hey,” he said, snapping out of whatever he had been thinking about. “How's it going for you?”

“Right now I'm just checking on what everyone is doing,” I said, my heart bleeding by the thought of lying to him and then leaving with no assurance that I might be coming back. Shit. I should not have come to him now. He's only making me insecure about my plan. “You?”

“It's okay, I guess.” He sighed. “Tiring but I'm trying to come up with more ideas for the actual approach. I'm putting everyone in teams and all that.”

I hugged him, my hands sneaking around his waist. He leaned his chin on my head, rubbing my back. How can I just leave him? What was I even thinking?

No. Stop. I have to do this. This is why I am doing this, for them, to save them.

“I love you,” I said, pressing out a smile. “Continue on with this now, I'll come by again later. Gotta go empty my bladder.”

He laughed, his small frown over my sudden emotional moment gone.

“Okay. I love you.”

I chuckled, making a face as I kissed his lips for maybe the last time ever. I hurried over to my house, smiling at my father, Uncle John and Bo Raven as I passed the livingroom. I grabbed my bag, putting in everything I would need and tried breathe. I had to leave this place very discreetly and make the guards think I wasn't up to something. It might be hard but it's worth a try. Maybe I shouldn't bring a bagpack, though? That would definitely give something suspicious. No, I have to leave it here.

Strapping one knife on each leg under my tights, I pulled my boots back on and grabbed a sweater over my tshirt. I hid some weapons by the waist, making sure they stayed in place. Grabbing my cellphone, I took the paper I had written everything on and left.

“Where you going?”

I stopped, turning to my dad who was standing in the kitchen alone.

“What? Nowhere. Well, right now I'm going to the guards, showing them the plan for their stands, the teams and all that. After that I'm back to working with-”

“Okay, okay, not so detailed,” he chuckled lightly. Gosh. I walked over to him, giving him a hard hug.

“I love you.”

“I love you, too. Sometimes you scare me with your mixed emotions. You're such a girl.”

I laughed but inside I wanted to cry. He will be really scared once he knows where I am heading.

“Maybe because I am a girl,” I said, smirking. He just laughed, ruffling my hair.

I walked out the front door, my plan starting now.

“Hey, Mason!” I called. “I'm showing the guards the drawing and the the plan for where they will be standing and so on, just preparing them a little. If anyone wants be, I'll be behind the house, okay?”

“Yeah, okay.” He nodded and I gave a breath of relief, hurrying to the back. I smiled at the guards as I approached them. They looked at me confused first, probably why I was coming towards them.

“Hey guys, sorry to bother you but I'm just letting you know that I am going to make sure the drawing of our territory is correct on this side. I'm not going far, I'll be just a few feet away.”

I knew they were ordered not to let anyone pass but since I was female Alpha, they became unsure. I'd break them, though.

“Uh... You're not really supposed to go out there, Miss. Johnson.”

“Fred, come on. I'm not going that far. What I will do is for the safety of this pack. Do not worry, okay? I already told Mason so he knows.”

Well, I was not lying on that part.

“Okay. But we'll check on you in a few minutes.”

“Absolutely. Keep your eyes open for the enemies, guys! Love you!” I ran out to the forest, chuckling a little at their faces when I said the last part. I had to, I felt like I was pretty much walking right into my death and I felt like I had to at least express my feelings somehow, so a small and simple “I love you” had to do it. I just hoped they knew that I really meant it. My pack was one of a kind and I would not trade them for anything else in the world, even if I did not personally know every single one.

I pretended to be focused on measuring and checking around the first minute as I slowly walked further in to the forest. Then I ran. I ran for my life, knowing that if I wasn't fast enough, they'd search for me, not find me and get in a panic zone, freaking out.

My next move was just getting to Liz and her people, so I kept running into right direction. It's pathetic that I pretty much knew the way there without having to think hard about it.

After a few hours of running, first hour in my human form and the rest in my wolf form, I had finally arrived. I was fully dressed, my weapons in place and my mind set on only one thing: ending it all.

As I walked up the hill, the view of the big building I once was inside of appeared before me. This was it.

It's now or never.

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