Part 17

Part 17

For the first time, Sai got to know how important she has become in Virat's life. She couldn't believe at first. In the morning itself she was doubting that her presence doesn't even affects him. She has been proved so wrong. May be he doesn't love her but she definitely holds prominent place in his life in this short span of time or else he won't be sounding so upset about not seeing her whole day. Its true that soon this will not be enough for her in this relationship as an only answer to unconditional deep love is reciprocation of same feelings from the other one but for the starting, for now, whatever they have developed between them is more than enough for her.

Virat still looked baffled with the outburst he just had. Sai came near him and with shaking hands cupped his face as she looked at him lovingly. He for the first time had displayed his vulnerability and let her take a sneak peak into the realms of his deep thoughts. And she didn't want him to stop, she wanted to listen more.

Virat did obliged her, he held her hand in his hands and continued his monologue, "Tum janna chahti ho na ki maine tumse college party ke end mein dhang se baat kyu nahi ki? Kyunki mujhe jalan ho rahi thi. Yes, I was jealous of your friend Ajinkya. I know I shouldn't be but what to do. The way he was dancing with you, holding your hand...." He took a pause to take a deep breath to calm down his anger which returned as he remembered college party night and also tonight's pub incident.

He continued after a short pause, "I wanted to punch Ajinkya straight on the nose like tonight I did to that lewd man in the pub. I am not some possessive and jealous guy but the moment I saw that guy touching you, I wanted to kill him right there. I lost my mind. And you....Who gave you that dress? I like western dresses but you are perfect the way you are. Which stupid person picked up that dress for you? And how dare you go wearing such dress to that place? The way everyone was looking at you.....I was seething from inside...." Virat felt anger rising inside him again and he pulled her close to him holding her hair. Sai gasped at his sudden change in demeanor but didn't back away. She kept standing close to him. Tonight, she wanted him to bare it all whats going inside his heart and mind.

"You are looking gorgeous. For few seconds, I even forgot to breathe when I noticed you there. But I would prefer you dress up like that only for me. Only I have the right to see you like this, only I can touch you, hold you....kiss you..." Virat said as he traced her lips with his thumb.

Sai was lost in his eyes, the sudden built up sexual tension between them was killing her. She wanted him to close that distance between them, claim her lips like he wants to, mark her as his...only his. But then she remembered how he avoids her always even after coming close to her, she looked away from him and broke their moment.

She pushed him away from her and asked him, "You give me hope every time when you come close to me but then you quash them mercilessly by avoiding me. Why you keep doing that? You don't like it with me or what? Am I not good enough for you?" Sai asked as her heart broke by even thinking about his rude behavior.

Virat was stunned for some time. "You think I don't like it with you? Are you out of your mind. The truth is I can't seem to get enough of you. You think are not good enough for me that's why I avoid you? How can you think like that? When the truth is that I am not worthy of your love. "

"What! What was that even supposed to mean?" Sai couldn't understand his logic.

"How can I explain this to you...." Virat trailed of as he ran his hand in his hair in frustration. He never thought Sai would be clueless about his predicament and cook up her own theories around it.

"I am attracted to you like...some force is pulling me towards you....like we are magnets. I go all crazy whenever I come close to you but then I don't love you...so I feel guilty of taking advantage of your feelings....had you been any other girl I would have not given a f**k about it but you are different...this is not some random hook up or one night stand. You are my wife and this is our marriage, a marriage is supposed to be sacred, a relation of mutual respect and equality...and the high pedestal you have put me on in your life...your unconditional love....it overwhelms me...unnerves me...I think that since I don't have those deeply engraved feelings for you yet so I can't just keep it limited to physical intimacy between us. I am just a selfish man full of needs...I cannot use you to fulfill them. You deserve that much respect from me." Virat explained his dilemma.

Sai was touched by his words. She misunderstood his feelings and confusion for his arrogance. "Virat, I have told you before but I am again telling you that...main aapka sarmaaya hoon, adhuri hoon aapke bina...you have every right over me....then why do you think like that? I know in this relationship, may be we both are not at the same page but I also trust us to be there soon. Please don't hold yourself back until then because it pains me, may be even more than you not having same feelings like mine. I cannot tell you in words what I feel when you touch me.....it feels like till now I was only existing but when you touched me you made me feel alive....If I had the power I would have stopped the time when we became one....like two bodies one soul....When you avoid me I feel like I am incomplete....like you are there with me but still far far away....I crave for you....yearn for you so much that I fear one day I will go mad...." Sai broke down crying her heart out and slumped down on the floor.

Virat looked at her. He realized he was only thinking about himself. He had never thought before that Sai needed him as much as he needed her. He had thought and in fact Sai had always portrayed it like she doesn't expect anything in this relationship. But now her act was over and she showed her vulnerability for the first time. This affected Virat...in a way that he realized that she is also not some goddess devoid of expectations and needs. She is as much as human as him and she needs him right now. Virat was once again drowned in the deep ocean of her love and this time instead of making him nervous it was soothing to him. He didn't want to come out of it. They were like two broken souls and it was high time they started mending themselves.

Without any word he came near her and picked her up in his arms and placed her on the bed. She held his hand and pulled him towards her, afraid that he would leave her. Virat kissed her hand in assurance then leaned down to kiss away her tears. Sai closed her eyes in content.

Meri.. adhoori.. kahani..

Lo.. dastan.. ban gayi

Ho.. tune chua aaj aise...

Main kya se kya ban gayi

She only had a moment to sigh when next thing she felt him kissing her on lips. The moment she longed for had come finally. She slowly started leaning back on bed taking him with her. She reciprocated and the kiss turned passionate. She didn't want him to go away so she kept pulling him closer until he was on top of her.

Sehme hue

Sapne mere

Haule haule angdaiyan le rahe

Thehre hue

Lamhe mere

Nayi nayi gehraiyan le rahe

He kept placing butterfly kisses all over her body as if to compensate for all the time he distanced himself from her. Sai allowed herself to be carried away by her wanton desires. She tugged at his shirt when he was busy showering her with kisses. He straightened a little so that she could open his shirt buttons and pull it off his body. He was amused by the speed with which she did the task. She had for the very first time taken the lead, initiated something other wise it was always him and his wayward heart who gave in to the sexual tension. First, emotionally now sexually, he was liking the way she was opening up to him, claiming her right over him and it absolutely turned him on.

Zindagi ne

Pehni hai

Muskan

Karne lagi hai

Itna.. karam

Kyun na jaane

Karvat lene lage hain

Armaan phir bhi

Hai aankh num

Kyun na jaane

O saiyan.....

As she finished discarding his shirt she started placing kisses all over his chest and Virat was going mad with each passing second. He struggled to curb the urge to stop her slow torture and take matters in his own hands and make rough and passionate love to her right there, right now. But tonight was all about her, he wanted her to have her way with him.

She caressed his back and spent some time on sucking his neck ultimately leaving her mark there. Meanwhile Virat started working on her dress. It was not much of a task as it came off by just pulling down the chain from back. As it was a bodycon dress, it didn't fell off, he got to peal it off slowly from her body like unwrapping some gift. Once the dress was gone, it left her bare from the upper body. He gasped as he took in the view before his eyes. He had expected to see her bra but since it was off shoulder dress, it was fitted in the dress only and with the dress gone, there was nothing left to hide her assets. He looked at her, his eyes darkening with lust. Sai was breathing heavily, her hair all messed up, makeup almost ruined, almost naked in front of him, she looked a sexy mess and he wanted to devour her.

He expected she would shy away from him but she surprised him when she herself took his hands and placed them on her breast. She needed him to feel her everywhere probably wanting to ascertain his right over her so that he never have doubts again about making love to her. He took the hint and started caressing his womanly assets. He fondled one of her breast while she arched her back to shove them more into his rough hands and he focused simultaneously on sucking the other one. Sai moaned in pleasure and pain when felt a tender bite on her chest. Then the intensity of the bite increased a little giving her a tingling sensation all over her upper body. She was in pleasure heaven when that tingling sensation started connecting to the core of her womanhood and she almost wanted to scream out his name. when finally he diverted his attention her whole cleavage and neck was filled with his markings.

Odhu teri kaya

Solah singar main saja loon

Sangam

Ki yeh raina

Is mein tyohar main mana loon

Khushbu teri

Choo ke

Kastoori ho jaun

Kitni pheeki thi main

Sindoori ho jaun

Virat looked at her expressions and he knew she would want him inside her soon. He straightened himself and balanced himself on his knees as he gestured her to do away with his pants like she did with his shirt. There was some excitement on her face, she carassed his manhood over his pants and gasped as it was hard as rock for her. But her excitement only lasted for few seconds  as she fidgeted with the zipper of his pants and chickened out at the last moment. And his shy Sai was back again. He understood now he will have to take it further from here. There is only so much she can do in the beginning. He let out a small laugh as he removed his remaining clothes himself while she blushed profusely. He caressed her inner thighs before his hand settled on the waist band of her panties. He took his own sweet time to remove them completely.

Sai drew in sharp breath when his fingers reached the spot she wanted so badly to be touched. The silky and slippery folds of her core flower told him that she is ready for him, still he took his time to pleasure her by his gentle massages around it. He continued his work till she moaned his name several times and lastly said in almost pleading tone, "I need you...now, Virat."

That was his undoing, in a swift motion he pulled back his hand and before she could have time to expect him, he had already entered her core. Both closed their eyes feeling each other as intimately as possible. Sai couldn't hold it anymore, her emotions got better of her and some silent tears made her eyes wet. She felt loved, she felt completed, she felt like she belonged to him and he belonged to her.

Sur se zara

Behki hui

Meri duniya thi badi besuri

Sur mein tere

Dhalne lagi

Bani re piya

Main wahi bansuri

Right now, being inside her felt the most right thing in the world to him. When they made love the first time, that time his hormones were the guiding force behind his action. He hadn't given much thought about the emotions involved. Yes, it was great sex that time also but tonight, it was on different level. Not the pleasure of sex but the pleasure of being in her arms, seeing that satisfied grin amongst the few tears was giving him the high he has never experienced. If making love to her felt like this then he wanted to spent rest of his life like this, buried deep inside her, inhaling her fragrance, seeing that undying love for himself in her eyes. He realized he never have experienced anything like this before in his life.

Zindagi ne

Pehni hai

Muskan

Karne lagi hai

Itna.. karam

Kyun na jaane

Karvat lene lage hain

Armaan phir bhi

Hai aankh num

Kyun na jaane..

O saiyyan.....

None of them remembered how long they stayed like that, it was only after a while Virat started moving away against her double the pleasure for both of them.  For the first time Virat shut of his brain completely and there was no angel devil fight in his mind. Sai was his only reality as his heart was in synchronization with hers. They made slow and passionate love all night long till their bodies gave away and surrender themselves to fatigue and tiredness.

"I love you Virat" Sai murmured before falling asleep in his arms.

"Hmm...and I love that you love me." Virat whispered back as he also closed his eyes taking her in his arms. He knew everything has changed between them from now on...changed for good.

Mere

Aasman se

Jo hamesha

Gumshuda the

Chaand taare

Tune..

Gardishon ki

Lai badal di

Laut aaye

Aaj sare

O.. saiyyan...

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to be continued....