30. I HAVE BECAME IMPURE

I should not have behaved like this. I should learn to control myself. She is very innocent, she don't even know what her touch does to me. I shouted on her. Again. I was hell angry on myself for shouting at her. I was punishing myself by not talking to her. Only I know how hard it is for me to stay away from my Love, to not talk to her, to not touch her. And in that blue dress she was looking like a princess, no, no, let me correct, she was looking like a queen, my queen. I just wanted to kiss her senselessly and hold her close to me all the time in the event. But that time my punishment was not over. I punished myself for 16 hours. I glanced at clock it's time now.

I quickly opened the door and looked carefully in the corridor it was empty. She would be not asleep yet so I'll go from door. I got near her room's door and hear a loud sound came from her room of something falling and breaking. I knocked the door then I heard her shouting. Rehan and Jay was passing from corridor I told them that I heard Zoya's shouting. We three broke the door.

And the scene I witnessed that made land slide down my feet. A man was forcing my Jaan. Hearing the door voice that man immediately got up from her. He is Mr. Kapoor's spoiled son.

She immediately got up from bed running and hugged me tightly. She was crying very much.

-"Faisal......" She sobbed.

-"Jaan. Nothing will happen to you. I'm here now." I told her sweetly and broke the hug calling Rehan "Rehan!"

He came and hold her close to himself. I moved to that man. I will kill him today. My blood is boiling. He looked at me fearfully. I hold him from his collar punching him. I again punched him making his face bleed. He will be punished for touching what is mine.

-"How dare you touch her?!!! You b*stard!!" *Punch*

He fell straight on floor. I kicked him blood came from his mouth. Jay came from behind and held me back.

-"Mr. Khan calm down."

I shouted and got out of his hold

-" Leave me! I'll kill him!!" I hold his hand and twisted it he shouted with pain "You dared to touch my Jaan!!! I'll make your life hell!!" I again kicked him he again came and hold me back.

Kapoor was breathing heavily his face covered with bruises, blood coming from his mouth.

I got out of Jay's hold and moved to Zoya directly. I hugged her protectively and wiped her tears. She hold me clutching my shirt tightly

-"Faisal....... Faisal he....he....." She was unable to speak because of crying. I rubbed her back softly to comfort her

-"Jaan! Your Faisal is here to protect you. No need to be afraid."

Rehan called Mark. He came with two men and they made that Kapoor stand dragging him out. He stopped in front of us and glared at her

-"So you sleeps with married men, but didn't let me f*ck you......" *Punch*

This time it's not me who punched him, it's Rehan. If the gaurds weren't holding him he would have fallen down with the force of punch. He hold his hand with another one. I think it got fractured. But it's not enough for what he did. After police I'll take care of him personally.

-"Don't you dare speak one more word about my sister. Otherwise you'll regret for being able to speak."

-"I'm saying truth, look how she is clinging to him." It's enough now. This man has guts to speak this much after been beaten also. Now I can't let this bloody drama to continue.

-"SHE IS MRS. ZOYA FAISAL KHAN MY WIFE." I announced.

-"Your wife?" That man exclaimed. Colors drained out from his face. He would have realised that how big sin he had done.

Mark dragged that man out of the room. I looked at my Jaan. I hold her chin and made her look at me. Her face full with tears.

-"Jaan....."

More tears fell from her eyes. She looked down sobbing. I cupped her face "Jaan please don't cry. Look I'm here with you. He's gone."

-"He was.....was forcing me. I...... I begged him to leave me he......he was saying bad things..... I was alone.....he.......he was....was going to rape me." She cried bitterly. I can't even imagine how much pain she would be feeling right now. Her condition is breaking me. I am feeling like someone is chopping my heart into pieces. I can't see her like this. Since the day we have came here nothing is going fine.

-"Rehan! Tell Mark that we're leaving. I will not let my Jaan stay here for another second."

-"But Faisal it's almost midnight, it'll take so much time to reach back and Cutie is not fine also."

-"Yes Mr. Khan. It's very late please stay here for night."

-"We'll leave from here in morning."

I broke the hug and carried my Jaan in my arms in bridal style. I walked to my room and made her sit on bed. I sat beside her and wiped her tears.

-"Jaan please don't cry...! I can't see your tears. I promise you I will not spare that bad man. I will......."

-"Mr. Khan!" Jay interrupted.

-"What happened?"

-"That Kapoor is creating scene outside police officer is calling you."

-"That bloody Kapoor...... Tell Rehan to go there."

-"He's already there but the officer is calling you."

-"Jaan. I'm just coming, okay?" I left the room closing door behind.

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I entered in room but she was not there. I heard voice of water falling from bathroom. I got relieved knowing that she is here only. I sat on bed waiting for her but she didn't came outside it has been 10 minutes. I immediately went to bathroom door and knocked it

-"Jaan! Jaan what's taking you so long?" No answer. "Jaan!"

-"Just leave me alone for sometime." I heard her faint voice from inside. I can sense she is not alright. I banged the door

-"Jaan! Open the door!" Silence "I said open the door!!"

-"Leave me alone!"

-"No! I'll not leave you. Open the door otherwise I'll break it!" No answer "I said open this f*cking door!!!"

The sound of water stopped and the door opened. I got shocked to see her drenched in water from head to toe. Her eyes were red, puffy and full with tears. Her body was shaking. I got furious to see her like this. I closed my eyes and ran my hand through my hairs furiously trying to control myself from bursting on her for doing this stupid thing. I held her hand and dragged her in the room and made her sit on couch. I took a towel and covered her body with it. With another towel I dried water from her hairs. Her whole body is very cold. I took out my tshirt and trousers from wardrobe handing it to her.

-"Wear it!"

I ordered and turned to other side. I will not leave her alone for a second after what she did.

-"You can turn now." She said slowly after sometime.

I turned. My clothes are very big for her but it's cute. She was looking down holding her wet clothes.

-"Give me your clothes I'll put them in bathroom."

I took her clothes and towels to bathroom. I got in room with first-aid box. She was still standing there. I hold her hand and moved towards bed. I made her sit on bed

-"Are you hurt somewhere?" She nodded negatively. I exhaled angrily "Look don't lie to me. Tell me are you hurt somewhere?" I sat beside her.

She moved forward her left hand, I slides up the sleeve of tshirt she hissed in pain. Her wrist has turned dark red it's having finger marks. I hold her hand and applied ointment on it.

-"Is your right hand also hurt?"

She nodded. I slides up the sleeve of her right hand. It's more hurt than left one. It was not recovered yet, the bone is fine but the muscles that got crushed are not fine. Her wrist has turned blue and the bandage is having little blood droplets. I changed the bandage. I looked at her questioning she slides the t-shirt from her left shoulder. Her neck and shoulder are having hickeys after treating them. I looked at her she was biting her lower lip too hard and her eyes holding tears like she's stopping herself from crying.

-"Jaan...?"

She slides up the t-shirt exposing her waist. It's having bruises and scratches of nails. I applied antiseptic cream there. I closed the first-aid box and put it on side table.

I glanced back at her and found her crying looking down. I cupped her face

-"Jaan. I understand what you would be feeling right now but please don't cry. I can't see your tears, they're making me weak."

-"Faisal.... If...if you would.... wouldn't had come....I....I would.... I would have been raped."

-"No! Don't say that. Don't think about the thing that didn't happened."

-"He....he touched..... touched me wrongly....I... I'm feeling very disgusting."

-"No Jaan! How can you say that?" I hold her close to me by putting my arms on her shoulder. But she removed my hands and moved away from me.

-"No Faisal. Don't touch me."

-"What are you saying, Jaan?" I said cupping her face. She removed my hands

-"No Faisal. I've..... I've become impure. A.....a man tried to ra.....rape me he....he touched my body. I...... I have become impure. I am not..... not pure anymore."

-"Jaan! What the hell are you speaking? You are......"

-"No! No Faisal. I'm not pure anymore.... I'm..... I'm feeling very dis.....disgusting of myself. I.... I tried to remove his.....his touch from my body but... but it's not going."

I hold her shoulders and made her look at myself.

-"Look at me!" I looked directly in her eyes, and saw immersed pain in them. I didn't saw that shine and cuteness in them. "Jaan! You know why I calls you 'Jaan'? Because you are my Jaan, my life. You are my happiness. And you are not impure. You are the purest girl I've ever seen. You don't have to think anything like this."

-"You.....you doesn't.....doesn't feel disgusted of me?"

-"NO! NEVER! How can you think that I'll feel disgusted of you? You are my Angel. And don't think like that ever again. And no more crying." I wiped her tears. "Now you should sleep it's very late."

I made her lye properly and covered her with blanket. I was going to lye on other side of bed but my phone rang. I was expecting this call. "I have to take this call, it's important." I kissed her forehead and switched off the lights. Then I moved to balcony and answered the call

-"Yeah."

-"How is Zoya?"

-"She is not fine."

-"Faisal you should have informed me before handing him to police, I would have taken care of him properly."

-"Fero. You think that I'll leave him?"

-"Nah. We'll see him after police. But where is she now?"

-"We were going to sleep but you called me so I'm here in balcony and she's sleeping."

-"Go to her. She needs you the most. We'll meet tomorrow. Take care of my Doll."

I ended the call and went inside closing the door. I moved to bed and find her sleeping. I lye near her and hold her waist to move her in my arms but I stopped because I didn't wanted to disturb her sleep.

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I woke up due to shouting sound. And found Zoya sitting on bed clutching the blanket. Her body was shaking badly. I immediately cupped her face

-"Jaan what happened?"

She jerked my hand and moved away.

-"No! Don't touch me!"

I hold her both shoulders and moved near her

-"What are you doing Jaan?"

-"Don't come near me!" She wiggled from my hold

-"Look it's me."

-"No! Leave me!" I shook her holding her shoulders

-"Jaan! Come in your senses! It's me. Your Faisal."

She looked at my face and tears escaped her eyes

-"Faisal..." She hugged me tightly and cried "Faisal please do something..... Please make me forget that..... Please remove these bad memories......." I fell her tears on my chest. I was feeling like my heart is being teared apart. "Please erase this memory! I can't live with this pain. He's..... he's haunting me. I'm....... I'm feeling scared." She cried very bitterly after that clutching my shirt tightly. Her pain is killing me. I pulled her more closer and rubbed her back softly to comfort her.

-"Jaan. I'm always with you. You don't have to feel scared. You are my everything. I'll not let anything happen to you. I'll always protect you. Don't you trust me?"

-"I trust you. But I don't want to be here." She said looking at me with pleading eyes.

-"Don't worry Jaan. We'll leave from here in morning. We'll go our home, okay?"

She nodded and I wiped her tears. I noticed that her body's temperature is high. I touched her forehead and neck they're very hot.

"You have fever. Your body is burning."

She would have gotten fever because of drenching in cold water and cherry on top is weather. I gave her medicine, made her lye on bed and sat beside her. She was holding my hand tightly and was looking at me.

-"Sleep Jaan. I'm here with you."

I caressed her forehead and she closed her eyes. After sometime she fell asleep. I wiped her little tears and lied on bed holding her in my arms.

-"I'm sorry Jaan. For not being able to protect you. I'm really sorry."

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