39. I HATE YOU

-"You?" I'm shocked after looking who has came here. I can't even imagine.

-"How're you princess?"

-"Adam. Eva. You both. Here?"

-"I wanted to invite your friends also so I asked Faisal and he told me about your friends." Dad said.

-"Thank you Dad." I can't believe that Faisal told him about Adam and Eva.

Eva came and hugged me.

-"You're looking very beautiful. I've never imagined that you'll look this much pretty in these type of dress." Then she whispered in my ear. "Your husband is dying to kiss you."

I glared at her and whispered shut up. Why the hell everyone is saying these kind of things? Firstly Lucifer Bhai then Mom Dad and now Eva also.

Then Mom Dad went to attend guests and Bhai walked to us. But where he had gone?

-"Hey Rehan!" Adam went and hugged Bhai.

-"How're you Adam? I saw you after a long time. Where were you?"

-"Bhai. Adam. You know each other?"

-"Yes. Not even me Faisal also knows him. He's Adam Howard son of Martin Howard. He's a film producer."

-"You never told me." I said to him.

-"It's not that important. I want to be known because of my own work, not because of my father."

-"That's why we didn't told you that. I promised him. Sorry Zoya."

-"You don't have to apologise. Leave it all and let's enjoy the party. And you know what Adam, you will be known because of your own work. Just keep practicing your football skills, okay?"

-"She's absolutely right." Bhai said and put his hand around my shoulder. "I've also heard that you're selected for national team."

-"Yes. This is my last year of college, I'm just waiting for exams."

-"That's great."

-"You know Rehan coming to US is becoming memorable. I met my bhabhi and new friends also."

-"No Aliya, the squad is not completed yet." Rehan Bhai said.

-"Who is left Rehan?"

-"I'm left." Jay said and came running to us.

-"You're late Mr. Jay Welson." I said crossing my hands over my chest.

-"I'm Sorry and........" Then he looked at me from head to toe and his mouth hung open. "You're looking very beautiful." He completed his sentence.

-"Thanks and you're also looking very handsome in this sherwani."

-"Thank you Zoya."

-"Meet my friends. He is Adam Howard and she's his girlfriend Eva Mendes."

-"Hello Adam and Eva. I'm Jay Welson."

-"Hello Jay." They shake hands.

-"And she...." I turned to Alia Di Who was already looking at Jay.

-"I'm Alia Anderson, Rehan's cousin."

-"Hello Alia." Then they shake hands.

-"What should we do now?" I asked.

-"I'm feeling hungry. Let's go and eat something." Alia di said.

-"I can't go now. I have to talk with others."

-"Okay. Then you go Faisal."

Then Faisal walked away and we all went to eat. He didn't even talked with me. Fine then. I'll also not talk to him.

TIME SKIP TO 11 PM

-"It's very late now. You should stay here."

-"But Masi....."

-"No but. It's my order that you all are staying here. No one is going anywhere."

-"Masi but I've to go office tomorrow." Faisal said.

-"So? If you'll not go office for a day then what wrong will happen?"

-"Thanos will destroy the universe." I said slowly but Mom heard me and she glared at me. I immediately shut my mouth.

-"You will not go anywhere. And Jay, Adam and Eva, you three will also stay. It's my order and I will listen none of your excuses. Understand?" She said strictly.

-"Yes aunty." They said in unison with head bowing down. I giggled at their situation. I've never seen them this much scared before. They three glared at me.

-"What happened? Why are you laughing?"

-"Nothing Mom."

-"So Rehan, go and give some of your clothes to Adam and Jay. And Zoya and Faisal you both have your clothes here right?"

-"Yes Mom. And I'll give my clothes to Eva."

-"Fine then. I'm going now. And Zoya and Rehan, if you did any argument and mischievousness then......"

-"No Mom. Why will we do anything?" I said innocently.

-"Yes Mom. Why will I fight with my little sister?" Bhai said putting hand on my shoulder. We both made puppy face.

-"Don't give me that look. I know how much obedient you both are. Now go and sleep everyone. Rehan will show you your rooms."

Then Mom left and Bhai showed everyone their room.

-"You don't have to show room to Eva. We both will stay in my room." Alia di said.

-"It's not fair. I will also join you."

-"That'll be great." Alia di exclaimed.

Then everyone left to their room and I took Eva to faisal's room for taking clothes. He was present in room but he didn't even looked at me.

What the hell is wrong with him? If he is ignoring me then I'm also not dying for his attention. I will also ignore him. I went in Alia Di's room and we three slept after talking a lot.

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I woke up because of a loud beep voice. I opened my eyes and saw Bhai holding a whistle. I understand what he did.

-"You!" I shouted and ran behind him.

He ran downstairs and I followed him.

-"You can't catch me!"

-"I'll not spare you Mr. Rehan Sheikh!" I ran behind him. He hided behind Faisal who was coming from jogging.

-"Firstly catch me."

-"What are you doing?" Faisal said.

-"Move away." I pushed him away and ran behind him. He ran in hall and I was behind him.

-"Zoya! Rehan!" Mom shouted and we both stopped. "Oh God! You again started."

-"Mom it was Bhai. He....."

-"No Mom it was she....."

-"No Mom he blew that whistle so loudly....."

-"Mom but I......"

-"Shut up you both! I don't know when will you both grow up. If you don't want to get scolded then go and get fresh you both. I want you both on dining table within 10 minutes otherwise you have to eat salad."

-"NO!" We both shouted and ran upstairs.

I went in Faisal's room. I took a bath and got ready. I came in room from bathroom and found Faisal in room talking on his dabba. I left downstairs banging the door.

I sat on dining table between Jay and Adam. Faisal came downstairs and he looked at me with narrow eyes.

-"What happened Faisal? Come sit."

-"Yes Masi."

He sat beside Rehan Bhai infront of me.

What do you expect?

That I'll sit beside you even after being ignored?

No way.

You don't know how stubborn I am.

After breakfast we all sat in garden. Dad and Mom was telling us stories about Rehan Bhai and Faisal.

In afternoon we had lunch and then we left. I am sitting beside Faisal on back seat, Zack is driving the car and Mr. Ignoring is busy in his dabba, talking with someone.

We reached home and he directly went to his room. I also went in my room. I sat on bed and threw the pillows on floor.

I glanced at clock and reminded something.

-"Crap! I didn't called to mummy yesterday."

Where's my phone?

It's in Faisal's jacket. I had put it in his jacket when he was in bathroom, because I didn't have any pocket and I didn't wanted to hold it.

I walked to his room but it was empty. So I went downstairs in his study room. The door was open

-"I have to make Zoya sign those papers."

Papers? What he is talking?

"I have to get it all done before one year ends."

I peeked inside and found him talking on phone. He was turning papers of a file he was holding.

"No, that time she didn't signed the divorce papers."

Divorce papers?!

"You know it. Yes that time I only made her sign contract papers of our marriage. That time the divorce papers were not ready so I didn't made her sign that."

*laugh*

"She is so naive and dumb. She signed those papers without even reading."

Contract? Our marriage was just a contract? He wants me to sign divorce papers? Tears fell from my eyes. I stand clinging to wall.

"I have to get rid of those photos..... What? I didn't told you about that?

Remember that time when those men broke out in penthouse and she was in hospital....... Yes. That day when she went to birthday party, next day I got some intimate photos of her and a boy........ Yes. You're right."

"Love? You think that I can love someone? The person who don't even have a heart can love someone? That........."

I heard footsteps coming near me. I immediately hided in the guest room beside study room. I heard the voice of closing of main door. I got out and found that he is gone.

I walked inside study room and found that file on table. I picked that file with my shaking hands. I said to myself

-"Zoya. You trust your Faisal right? He can never do this. He can never give you divorce. It's true that he don't loves you. But you are his Jaan, you're his angel.

Trust him. He can never betray you. He is your love. Trust your love."

I wiped my tears and opened the file. I read the first five and first paper has my photo which I put in my college application.

These papers has every information about me. From my birth date, to my hobbies, my likes dislikes and my academic achievements. It has every information about my 18 years of existence.

I turned the paper and found contract papers. It's saying that me and Faisal are getting married for only eighteen months and after that we will part ways. There will be no connection between us after the contract ends. I will not come back and will not interfere in his life. If we got sexually close then there will be no child and if it happens then he will have whole right on it and I am not even allowed to meet. I am not allowed to have any relationship with other men until contract ends. I am only marrying him for money and I will not expect anything else. The period of contract can't be increase. I will get five percent of his income after divorce.....

Land slided down my feet. My knees gave in and I fell on floor.

Divorce?

I put the file on table and found a brown envelope.

-"Photos....."

I opened it. There are very bad photos of mine and a boy in bed?

This boy...... He's the one in that photo of dead body. Has Faisal killed him?

No. He can't do that.

But what if he did? How can I trust him? He broke my trust. Tears started flowing from my eyes. My heart is shattered into millions of pieces. He betrayed me. We we're only married for eighteen months.

What wrong I did? Why he played with my feelings Why he played with my emotions? Why he broke my trust?

I want answers. I want answers to every question. I was silent until now. But not today.

TIME - 8:00 pm

I was standing in balcony looking at the stars. Just then two hands circled my waist. The touch which always made me feel protected, the touch which always made me feel the luckiest girl in the world, is now giving me pain. The pieces of my heart are pricking in my chest.

-"Jaan. Why're you standing here in cold?"

-"I was feeling very suffocated inside." The memories of us are suffocating me. The memories we made in our home.

-"But you should have wear something warm. Don't worry I'm here to give you warmth." He said and pulled me more closer.

"You know how much I was craving for you? Yesterday you were looking very breathtaking. I just wanted to kiss you. But I was controlling myself whole time. And in night, when I wanted to spend time with my wifey, but you went away.

That was not fair. Why you were running from me? Now you can't run from your lion my little wifey."

He turned me and started kissing my neck. He slided his hand under my top. His cold hand got in contact with my bare waist and I shivered. His hands started moving on my waist and his lips are kissing my neck and jaw. He slided down my tshirt from left shoulder and kissed it. He moved his lips closer to mine but I pushed him away.

He looked at me with narrow eyes.

-"Don't touch me."

-"Jaan?" He came near me again but I pushed him and went inside in hall. He came behind me.

-"Jaan. What happened?"

He stand infront of me and hold my both arms. I pushed his arms away and tears fell from my eyes. His face turned worried

-"I said don't touch me." I speak gritting my teeth.

-"What happened Jaan? Are you angry because I touched you that way? Fine then. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry if I made you uncomfortable. Please Jaan trust me I will never do anything without your permission."

-"Trust? Are you telling me to trust you?"

-"Jaan. What are you speaking? What's wrong?"

-"I should be the one to ask you this question. What's wrong? What wrong I did? What was my mistake?"

-"What are you saying I can't understand......"

-"You never understood me."

-"Jaan. What you want? Tell me. I will do anything but please tell me what happened? Why are you talking like this? Why're you crying my angel?"

-"I want answers. Tell me what was in those papers which I signed that day before our marriage."

-"That was our marriage papers. Jaan. That is not important. The thing that's important is that we got married and you became my wife. Don't you trust me?"

-"I was blindly trusting you till now."

-"Jaan? What do you mean? What you want? Why're you talking in riddles? Just come straight to the point."

-"Fine. That day the papers I signed was contract papers right?"

-"How you........."

-"We are married for only eighteen months right?"

-"Jaan. It's not......."

-"After that we will be divorced......" I said that word and started crying.

-"Jaan listen......"

-"Yes or no!"

-"Yes. That was contract papers and we're married for only eighteen months."

-"Why? Why for eighteen months?"

-"Because I wanted to get my family house and company which is in London. And according to dad's will I could have got that only if I had got married before turning 24 to an Indian girl. So I........"

-"So you used me for getting property and money."

-"No......"

-"Why're you speaking lie until now? Why're you trying to fool me? I'm a naive and dumb girl who signed those papers without even reading."

-"You heard that?"

-"I heard everything. I also saw those photos. You didn't told me about that. That boy was the same whose dead body's photos I got."

-"I didn't wanted to tense you....."

-"Oh please Faisal! Don't show me your fake concern. Since the very first day I came here I was just taking care of you. I was just trusting you blindly. You hurted me. You called me with names. You controlled my life. But I was so blind. I was so focused on keeping my promises that I forgot myself. I put my self respect, my ego, my everything on stake just for you. I trusted you. I cared for you. I gave you my everything. But what I got in return? Betrayal and a broken heart."

-"No Jaan."

-"Yes Faisal. It's true. It's the damn truth. You betrayed me. I never forced you to tell me anything. Even after meeting David and Fiona, even after knowing about Roshni Di. I never forced you. Because I knew that it hurts you so much.

But you could have atleast told me about us. You could have told me about the contract so that I wouldn't have lo......." I stopped in between before saying loved you.

"You could have atleast told me that we're together for only eighteen months and after that you will give me divorce."

-"No. I can never give you divorce."

-"Why?"

-"Because you're my wife."

-"Contract wife."

-"Just shut up! Don't you dare say that. You are my wife. You are Zoya Faisal Khan."

-"For eighteen months only. After eighteen months I will be Zoya Abbas again. You will give me divorc......"

-"I told you that I can never divorce you."

-"Why?!"

-"BECAUSE I LOVE YOU DAMN IT!" He shouted.

-"What?"

-"Yes. I love you. I love you Jaan."

-"No. I don't trust you. You can never love anyone. I don't trust your love."

-"Trust me Jaan. It's true that I married for only eighteen months but slowly I fell in love with you."

-"No. It's all a lie. I will not fall for your tricks again. I have always suffered because of you. You're a lier. You broke my trust. You betrayed me. You has played with my feelings and emotions. You has just used me for your property and your desires. You has just given me pain and suffering. You has broken my heart. I hate you."

-"No Jaan. Please don't say that word. I can't bear your hate. You can curse me, you can shout on me as much as you want, you can punish me. I will do anything for your forgiveness. But please don't hate me. I can't bear your hatred. I'll die if you'll hate me. I want to hear 'I love you' from your mouth. I can do anything for it."

-"Never. You will never hear that. Now I understood that why everyone left you, because you never cared for anyone. You just cares for yourself.

I hate you Mr. Faisal Khan. I HATE YOU!"

I shouted and ran upstairs. I lied on my bed and cried hiding my face in pillow. My heart is hurting like hell. I'm feeling very betrayed.

I don't know when I fell asleep.

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I woke up because of a sweet smell. I looked around and found a bouquet of orchids on side table of bed.

There was a note on it.

"I'm sorry Jaan. I love you."

I got up from bed and went in bathroom. I took a bath and got ready for college.

I came out of bathroom and found lots of chocolates on my bed. I put them all in a polythene bag and went downstairs. He was  standing near dining table. I walked to him, I put the bouquet and chocolates on table. I walked away but he held my arm.

-"Jaan..."

-"Leave me."

-"Jaan listen....."

-"I said leave me." I removed his hand from my arm and went out. I sat in car with Zack and left for college.

In evening I returned home and found a big teddy bear on my bed. I put that in his room and locked the door of my room.

I was studying when I heard a loud sound. I immediately ran in hall and found a thick red color liquid of floor which is going towards kitchen.

Fear engulfed me. Faisal? I immediately went in kitchen and found him standing. He was holding a wiper in his hands. I found that it was a tomato sauce bottle. He looked at me and smiled

-"You thought that I got hurt? You cares for me so much."

-"No. I don't cares for you."

-"Oh really?" He said smiling. He move near me and tried to touch my face but I move away.

-"I hate you. I don't cares for you."

I said and his smile instantly faded. My heart ached looking at him but I moved upstairs in my room. Tears fell from my eyes. I wiped my tears.

In night around eight pm

*Knock knock*

-"Jaan! Come dinner is ready."

-"I'm not hungry."

-"Jaan! I know that you're angry with me but atleast eat something."

-"I told you I don't wanna eat. Just go away!"

-"Jaan please don't be stubborn. You has not eaten anything since morning. Please Jaan."

-"NO! I don't want to eat anything, specially when it is made by you."

-"Jaan...... Fine then. If you'll not eat anything then I will also not eat anything. And I will also not take medicines."

-"I don't care! I don't care if you eats anything or not. Just go away!" I shouted and my vision turned glossy.

-"Jaan. Please........." I heard his faint voice. I put my hands on my mouth to stop my sobbing. After sometime I heard footsteps fading. I cried and wiped my tears.

11:30 pm

I moved out of my room and went downstairs silently. I went near dining table and found untouched food. He was sleeping on dining table. I sat on my knees on floor beside him. His face is pale, there are dark circles under his head bandage is covered with his hairs. I moved my hand to touch his face

"She is so naive and dumb. She signed those papers without even reading."

His voice rang in my mind and I immediately got up. A tear escaped my eyes and I went upstairs.

FAISAL'S POV

The thing that was scaring me since months has happened now. She got to know about everything. She is thinking that I betrayed her.

And yes. It's the f*cking truth that I betrayed her. I has broken her trust. I has played with her feelings. I hided the biggest truth from her. I hided that our marriage is just a contract for eighteen months. I myself has forgotten that our marriage is a contract.

I has became this much selfish that I forgot about her feelings. I was just enjoying the feeling of love. I was just enjoying her care and concern for me. I was too caught up in the feeling of love that I forgot everything.

Since nineteen years I was craving for care, affection. I was craving for having someone whom I can call as family, whom I can trust, whom I can love, whom I can call mine.

I got my everything in her. She gave me happiness for which I was craving. She gave me my life. She taught me that what is love, which I didn't knew. She gave me a heart.

But what I did in return?

I broke her trust.

Now I have to make everything right. I have to prove that how much I love her. I will give her that much love and care that she will accept my love.

Around 1 pm I went in her room and found her sleeping. I went near her and touch her face her cheek is wet. Her pillow is also wet. She was crying.

I bend down and kissed her forehead.

-"I'm sorry Jaan."

Then I went in my room. Whole night I was restless. I tried to apologise by flowers, chocolates and teddy bear also. She likes them all. If any other time I would have given her these all then she would have been jumping with happiness. But this time, I really f*cked up big.

In morning I got a call from London. I've to go there. It's very important. I don't want to leave in this situation but I have to.

In morning around 7 pm I got ready and went in her room. I sat beside her. I moved away hair strands from her face. I looked at her beautiful face which is looking very sad. I caressed her hairs lovingly and she opened her eyes.

I smiled and she immediately got up.

-"You? What're you doing here?"

-"Just came to see my wifey."

-"Listen, first of all I'm not your real wife and you can't come in my room like this."

-"You're my real wife."

-"No. I'm just here for eighteen months after that we'll be divorced and I'll leave....."

-"Shut up! You will never leave me. I will not let you go anywhere."

I shouted and hold her hand. She immediately moved away and removed my hands from hers. I sighed.

"Jaan. I know that you're angry with me and you should be. It's your right to be angry on me because of what I did. But please don't push me away. I can't live without you my Jaan. I love you

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-"And I hate you."

-"Please. Don't hate me. I can't bear your hatred. You're the only one I have. I have no one except you Jaan. Please forgive me."

Her eyes turned teary but she didn't let her tears fall.

-"I don't care about you. You are no one to me."

-"I'm no one?" I hold her arms and pulled her closer. "I'm your husband you are my wife. And no one in this world can change the fact that you're mine."

-"Leave me....." Tears fell from her eyes. I can't control myself now. I moved closer and kissed her. She tried to push me but I didn't moved away. She pushed me so hard and I left her. She immediately ran away from bed and cried standing near couch.

-"You're mine Jaan. And I love you."

-"I don't care about you. I hate you! Just go away! I hate you Faisal Khan!" She shouted while crying.

-"I love you Jaan. I'll die if you hated me."

I went out and left in my car. I'm going Jaan but when I'll return, I'll not let you push me away. I'm just giving you some time. When I'll return I'll make you completely mine.

You're mine Jaan.

I love you.