45. DIVORCE

-"What the f*ck Faisal?! Why you kissed her?" Rehan shouted.

-"I don't know Rehan. She was going to fall, I hold her, our face was very close, I got lost in her deep brown eyes and........"

-"And you kissed her?" He asked and I nodded. "What you did after that?"

-"I left to my room after telling her to have dinner." I said while looking out of glass.

We're in my office, in my cabin. I was so shocked to saw everything here. I thought that I'll see her name on my cabin door and my cabin would've been very changed by now but, everything, literally every single thing was as it was I left before and it was my name on my cabin door. Not only about my cabin, my room at home was also in same condition. But I found a recorder in my drawer, that was not there but I didn't touched it.

I am so shocked to see that she didn't changed anything. Just one thing has changed, my company. I never ever imagined that anyone other than me can handle the position of CEO of Khan Group of Industries, but she does. She managed it better than me. It is no doubt that she is a topper and is very intelligent but still. CEO and my little angel Zoya.

-"You're smiling thinking about her right?" Rehan said glaring at me. I got out of my thoughts and got confused for a while.

-"Smiling?"

-"Yes Faisal. You're smiling. You were thinking about her right?"

-"Rehan......"

-"Yes or no?" He asked interrupting me and I nodded. "What happened to you Faisal? How can you forget everything she has done?"

I got up from my chair and walked to glass wall. I put my hand on it and looked out.

-"I'm not able to stay away from her Rehan. Everytime I sees her innocent face everything fades from my mind. I'm not able to figure out the truth. Her eyes, everytime I looks in her eyes, I just finds pain in them. She looks at me with trust and love." I said dreamily remembering her eyes.

-"Love? Oh! Now I understand! She told you that she loves you right?" I looked at him shocked. "Am I right Faisal?"

-"Rehan....."

-"She said or not?" He asked and I nodded. "That's the real problem Faisal. You still loves her. Even after knowing that she betrayed you, yet you loves her." He said and sat on chair holding his head in his hands.

-"Rehan. I can't believe that she can betray me. Look around friend, can you see any difference? Everything is same just as I left. I'm feeling like I was not gone for two and half years. And you know Rehan how efficiently she managed my company?" I opened the file and put it in front of him. Bella gave me this report about whole years in morning. Rehan glanced at it and his expressions changed to shock one.

-"Faisal this....."

-"She made the profit rate doubled." I told him.

-"But still Faisal. The money that was coming from this was of hers only. And why're you trying to prove her true?"

-"Because she trusts me."

-"But she loved someone else. And...."

-"What if she never loved him?" Fero said and we both looked at him. He is sitting on couch.

-"What do you mean Fero?" Rehan asked.

-"What if Zoya never loved Jay? It can be true that only Jay loved her, but she didn't." Fero said.

-"Can it be true?" I asked with the last piece of hope.

-"No! It can't be true." A female voice came from door. We looked at it and found

-"Alia. What're you doing here?" Rehan asked. She came in closing door.

-"That's not the matter Rehan. The matter is that, when Zoya didn't loved Jay, as Lucifer is saying then how can she get pregnant?"

Hearing her land slided down my feet. I was going to fall but Fero held me. I looked at Alia shocked.

-"Alia! Do you have any idea about what you're saying?!" Fero shouted on her.

-"I clearly know what I'm saying. Look at these reports yourself." She hand me a file.

I opened it and fell on floor after reading it. Fero and Rehan came to me.

-"What happened Faisal?"

-"Abortion...." I whispered and they both looked at me with dead face.

-"What're you saying Faisal?" Fero said.

-"He's saying truth only. These Reports says that Zoya was four months pregnant when she aborted the baby six months ago."

-"How can it be possible?" Fero whispered shocked.

-"Why can't it happen? We all knows that Jay and Zoya loves each other, then why can't she get pregnant? It's not like that Zoya is a pure holy angel, she just looks innocent and she makes use of her innocent looks. We all know that how immediately after news of Faisal's death she became CEO and transferred his property to her name. How she didn't even mourned and started coming to office as CEO.

Rehan you yourself know that how she used to go out with Jay. They used to go for dinners and dates, and in office also. That Jay used to spend his time here with her, even more than his own office. And this abortion report says every bit of truth."

-"But Alia what if there is something else which we can't see?" Fero said.

-"Lucifer. What happened to you now? About Faisal we can understand. He loved her that's why he is not able to accept the truth, but you? Atleast you should accept the truth." Alia told him.

-"Mom was right. I did the very right thing by trusting mom instead of Zoya." Rehan said.

-"You're right Rehan." I said and they all looked at me. "How much I'll make fool of myself by trusting Zoya? I thought to trust her again, but after looking at this, I hate her." I said signing towards the reports. You did the most biggest mistake by betraying me. I thought that you're very innocent, that's why I always used to control myself. That's why I never crossed my limits. But what you did in return?

You betrayed me. You broke my heart. I never ever had a heart, you gave me this heart and you yourself broke it. Now I'll break you.

NIGHT

-"So finally you came. How was your day at office? Everything went good?" She asked while coming to me smiling. I'm feeling very disgusting even by just looking at her.

-"I want a report till morning." I said and she looked at me confused.

-"What report?"

-"Report about every single dollar that came in my company and you spent behind me."

-"But Faisal you should contact Mr. Raynor for this work."

-"Who's Mr. Raynor?"

-"He's head of Finance department. He has every detail about expenses and......."

-"But I told you to make that report. And I want it till morning, that's final." I declared.

-"Okay husband. But now come have dinner." She said smiling.

-"I'll not have dinner today." I started to walk upstairs.

-"But Faisal I cooked favourite food of your........" I turned and shouted.

-"Are you deaf?! I told you that I don't want to eat! Now don't disturb me and do the work I gave you. And do the hell with your food." I moved upstairs. I was going to open door of my room but my heart said otherwise. I turned and slowly walks near stairs. I glanced down and found her standing at same place. She was crying. I felt sharp pain in my chest looking at her tears. But I turned and walked to my room.

I can't trust her again. I hate her.

ZOYA'S POV

(Faisal's study room)

-"What you did to my money? Where you spent millions of dollars? Why there's not any information about that?" He asked glaring at me.

-"Actually Faisal that......"

-"What actually?!" He yelled and got up from his chair angrily. He walked towards me taking predator steps. He is looking very scary. I took steps back in fear. He caged me between wall and himself. "Since last two years, you spend four million dollars without even any information. Have you ever seen this much money before?"

-"Faisal....." I tried to speak but he held my arm very tightly. I hissed in pain.

-"You sold yourself to me for one million dollars. Remember?"

Hearing his words my heart clenched. He told me to never bright that topic ever again but he himself is now talking about that. He knows that it is the most sensitive topic for me.

"If I wouldn't have bought you, then your mother would have been dead. That time you were like a beggar."

-"Faisal leave me. Please....." I requested looking down. He held my arm more tightly and I cried in pain. Tears escaped my eyes. "It's paining. Please leave me."

He moved more closer to me and I was trapped between his body and wall. But he didn't left my arm.

-"So you're in pain because I'm holding your arm? But what about the pain you gave me? You know in how much pain I am? Huh! Tell me!" He yelled and I closed my eyes in fear.

"I never had a heart. But you gave me a heart. I never ever believed in love, but you made me believe. I never trusted anyone but I trusted you more than myself. Where I went wrong? Tell me?" He whispers while moving his face close.

-"I can't understand what you're trying to say." I told him but he shouted.

-"SHUT UP! Don't try to play dumb. You know everything. You know about what I'm talking. Why you betrayed me?"

-"I didn't. I love you Faisal. I can never betray you." I told him and he laughed. He moved away from me.

-"You loves me? Or you loves Jay?"

-"No. I don't love him." I said defending myself while moving towards him.

-"Really? Then who was the father of your child?" He asked and I looked at him with big eyes.

-"My...... My... My child?"

He threw a file in front of me on floor. I bend and saw it. I got shocked looking at it.

"How you got this?"

-"Why? Shocked that I got to know your truth? With whom you slept Zoya?" He asked walking to me. I glared at him

-"Faisal." I speak sternly. He came and clutched my hairs.

-"Don't you dare glare at me." He speak gritting his teeth.

-"Aahh! Leave me." I requested crying in pain.

-"I'll leave you, but not now. You have to pay before you leave." I looked at him being shocked and confused also.

-"Before I leave?" He left me with force and moved away from me.

-"For how much time we were married according to contract?" He asked while standing with his back to my side.

-"Eighteen months." I whispered and he poured wine in a glass.

-"And it has been two years since contract ended. So it means that we're not married now." He said while drinking wine.

-"What..... What do you mean?" I asked with so much difficulty.

-"Sign the divorce papers and leave."

I felt like soul left my body. I was going to fall down but I stood taking support of wall. Tears fell from my eyes involuntarily.

-"D..... di... div.... divorce...... divorce papers?" I gasped.

-"Yes. Divorce papers. Why? Don't you want to be free from this unwanted, false relationship? You want to live with your lover right?"

-"Faisal. I loves you. I had loved you, I love you and I'll always love you. I haven't betrayed you and I don't loves anyone else. You wanted to hear it right? I'm saying it. I love you Faisal. I love you a lot."

-"Don't you dare repeat this again! God knows with how much men you've slept with and whose child was that."

-"Please Faisal. Trust me. Just listen to your heart and trust me. We've gone through the same thing before also. That time also you thought wrong of me. But after that you regretted not trusting me. Now it is same situation. This is not true Faisal. Please trust your love. Please trust your Jaan Faisal. I'm your wife."

-"You're not my wife Ms. Zoya Abbas. I hate you. You're no one to me."

-"I am Mrs. Zoya Faisal Khan, I am your wife and you're my husband. Please don't speak like this." I requested while crying.

-"You're not my wife anymore." I nodded negatively and walked near him. I put my hand on his shoulders.

-"I'm your wife Faisal. I can't....."

-"Don't touch me with your dirty hands." He said removing my hands. I cupped his face

-"Faisal listen......" He removed my hand with so much force and slapped me.

He slapped me. I cupped my cheek with my hand.

-"Don't you ever touch me! You're a sl*t! You have no right to touch me Or even speak my name. You slept with other men, you got pregnant and killed your own baby, you spent my money like water and even after betraying me you're still telling me to trust you? Am I looking a fool to you?!

I just want one thing from you. Sign the divorce papers and leave. Please leave my life." He said while joining his hands and left banging the door.

Just as he left I fell on floor, tears are flowing from my eyes and I'm not able to stop them. My heartbeat fastened and I'm not able to breath. My throat felt very dry and it's feeling like someone is holding my throat and is not letting air pass through it. I can even hear my heartbeat myself.

I put my hand on my heart trying to calm down. But after what happened today, I'm not able to calm myself. I inhaled with my mouth but still I'm not able to breath. I cried more while struggling to breath. But I can't breath.

My medicines. I tried to got up but I'm not able to. I again got up holding chair but I fell down and my vision became dark.

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I opened my eyes and found myself on the same place. I got up holding table. My head is paining a lot. I looked around and remember everything. Fresh tears started coming from my eyes.

I wiped my tears and my left cheek pained. The scene flashes in front of me, when he slapped me. More tears fell from my eyes. His words rang in my mind

-"I just want one thing from you. Sign the divorce papers and leave. Please leave my life."

I took a sharp breath and my hands automatically went to a file kept on study table. I opened it and found divorce papers. He has already signed them. I hold a pen and put it on paper. My heart is yelling me to not sign them, but I have to. Because he himself wants it. I signed the papers a drop of tears fell beside my signatures. I glanced at my signatures, it's written as Zoya F. Khan. A smile came on my face while more tears came from my eyes.

-"From this moment, our marriage ended." I whispered and ran out of study room.

I went out of room and found that it's evening now. So it means that I was unconscious whole afternoon. I went in my room. I took out my books and put them in my bag. I took out a suitcase from cupboard and packed my clothes.

I opened locker of my cupboard and took out a blue jewelery box. I opened it and traced the shining diamonds with my fingers. I closed the box and hugged it. It was his first gift which he gave me on our first date. Our first and last date. I closed my eyes and more tears flew down my cheeks. I put the box on bed and took out a black feathery jacket and all the bags of clothes he brought for me. I sat on couch with a pen and notebook. I started writing a letter for Jay

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My dearest friend Jay,

You would have been thinking that what happened to your buddy that she's writing a letter to you. But Jay, it's the only option through which I can talk to you now. Because I know that if I tried to explain you everything face to face then you'll never support my decision. But you have to Jay. You have to support me this time also, like always.

You know it Jay, that how much I loves Faisal. You also knows that I can do anything for him. And this time, I'm going to do the last thing for him because after this......

I can't give Faisal the happiness he deserves. I can never complete his dream of having his own family. He deserves a happy life and I can't give him that. He deserves someone better than me Jay. He deserves someone who can complete his life. I am myself incomplete, how can I complete someone's life?

I want to tell you a secret that I have been keeping from you. There was an abortion which was done on my name. I can't tell you more about that. Faisal got that report and he thinks that I betrayed him. He thinks that me and you........

Jay. I tried to explain him. I tried to make him see the truth but he was not ready to trust me. He just simply told me to leave. He told me to sign the divorce papers and leave. He slapped me. Everything ended that moment.

I am broken. I am completely broken. I am done living with this pain. I can't bear it anymore. I can't bear more disrespect. I was a girl who lived for respect. But look what everyone made me? Everyone disrespected me, still I lived here. But now, my own love disrespected me, he himself told me to leave. Then how can I stay here?

I am leaving Jay. I am going away, very far. I will never come back. Please don't try to find me. I know that you'll be very angry on me after reading this letter. But please try to understand me. You're the only person who knows.

Jay, I want a promise from you, I want a last favour from you. You have done many things for me. Now also you've to do something for me. A last thing for me.

Promise me Jay that you'll not tell anything about my operation to Faisal. I don't want him to change his opinion towards me. He thinks wrong of me and please let him think whatever he thinks of me. That's the only way he can have a happy life. If he got to know the truth, then he'll find me everywhere. I know how stubborn he is, that's why I'm telling you to not tell anything. I want him to find someone better who can complete his life and who can give him everything he deserves. I want him to move on. I want him to forget me.

Jay. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry for giving you this much big responsibility, but you're the only one who trusts me and will never blame me for anything. I'm sending you a cheque of six million dollars. It's the money I've earned in these years. I used to take my salary. Please give this cheque to Faisal and tell him that Four millions are that which I had taken from company without any information, one million which he gave me on our marriage and one million for living in his house and everything he did for me. Please give him this cheque without any argument or anything. You'll not fight with him or will say anything to him. And for your information I took these four millions for making Faisal's fairy land and for study and living of all children.

And lastly, don't meet Faisal ever again and don't you dare hurt my Faisal.

Please don't tell anything to anyone. And.....

I'll miss you my best friend. Thank you for being there for me. And don't worry about me, I'll not try to commit suicide again and I'll live with respect.

Goodbye Jay

Have a happy life

Your best friend,

Zoya.

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