50. Loosing is for gaining.

ROOHI.

After continously yelling. I was too tired to fight the door out. So I hugged my legs and had no other choice than to sit and cry.

How can this happen to me and him?  And what is Jatin trying to do?

What the hell is happening?

Wondering all the questions and releasing the tears in my eyes. I was shattered inside. The pain was unbareable for me.

All the memories of Rudram playing in my head.

The best and worst.

His love and wrath.

His support and betrayal.

Everything. But despite all the nice and cruel memories. All I was feeling was pain and suffer.

This was unfair, to me and him. This is so not right. And I will never let this happen.

I must be out. Finding heart for him. But look at me. I'm stuck at a place I can't get out from and am nearly dead from all the ache inside me.

I have heard. I have read that life is a game. And use your players well. But this time I was the player for life. He played me all this while. Leaving me with nothing inside at all. No matter what now. I am never gonna forgive this world. If I have to see his death. I will give the world mine.

Either he lives. Or we both die.

Because the burden of regrets and pain is too much to handle. Too much to endure. Too much to suffer.

I will not.

After an hours passed by  with me in this pain.  I saw Jatin walking towards my way. His face was all red and tears were rolling down continously from his eyes. I don't understand this. I don't understand him.

Why is he crying after making me leave here with no clue of what the fuck is going on? He came towards my door and unlocked It. As soon as the button hit up I threw the door opened and walked out in haste and slapped him.

"How can you do this to me??  What the fuck is wrong!?" I yelled not understanding his suffering as all the worst was running inside my head.

"What happened? What happened? Why are you crying? What about Rudram? What happened to him?" He heard me and pushed me as I fell on the ground.

"This happened because of you! You should have died before you were ever born. You should have been dead. All because of you!!" He yelled and punched the car.

But I was already to lost in his words that I had no questions to ask.

After he whimpered for a while. He looked up at me with dead stare. Releasing the words my ears were craving to hear.

"He survived. Rudram survived!"

All the ache and pain inside me went away with the breeze as I stood from the ground and grabbed him.

"Do you mean it? He is okay. He is fine." I asked him and jumped.

He is okay. He is okay!! He is okay!!

I pivoted to run inside the hospital to see him. But Jatin's word made me stop.

"Won't you ask? Where the heart came from?" He said to me as the realisation hit me. I turned again and looked at him. Once again all the possible worse things in my head. My breath stopped and my eyes stopped from blinking.

"Chairman gave his heart away. He killed himself for your happiness."

His words like a dagger cut through me. While I lost my senses and fell on the floor. My lips open to speak something but I don't know what.  My eyes widen to drip tears but it was hurting to much to release while I wasn't breathing.

"Ahhh!!!!" I yelled loudly as I sobbed inside me feeling so much pain. "Ahhhhh!!!" I kept yelling as everything inside me was not dead.

"He decided to die for you. Just because he thought you can be happy with that man. But let me clear you one thing. You won't be forgiven by anyone, now if you choose to live with him.  I don't give a fuck about karma or people or his life. I will kill him instead." He kept his words going while I was not in sense to understand them. What he was saying?

He threw a brown envelope on me.

"He left this for you." He said and started to walk away. I with a fumbling hands tried to open them and a huge bunch of paper came out with another small paper folded.

The bunch was the WILL he left for me. As I sunked in fear opened the folded paper.

Dear queen,

You must be hating me right now. For doing something so evil without telling you. And I know Jatin and everyone must be blaming you as well you yourself for all this. But my love , let me tell you. Whatever I did was not for you. I made you get your payback from everyone. But this time in was my chance to do it. I must payback for what I did back ago. Only if I would have stopped your mother at any cost, or would have supported her when she was struggling, you wouldn't have to suffer all your life. I was the sole reason for all your pain. So I must give you , your happiness in return.

Don't blame yourself Roohi. You deserve happiness of the entire world. So don't stop yourself from getting it. I only had some more days left as I was already on death bed but that young man had his entire life to live with you. I have lived enough. I have seen enough. It was his turn this time. Just think I died because of my illness.

This is right Roohi.  This is what it was suppose to be like. And I know now you are planning on separating with that man.

But this is my order.

You must live with him. Being happy for all your life. Look how lucky I am. I'm going to my daughter now as well as I will live with my grand daughter. I will get to live with both of you this time. So no regrets. You must embrace this. I love you my queen. Rule the world.

Your Naanu.

"No!!!!"

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Did any of you thought this was going to happen?

Both of them survived but still we feel heartbroken don't we?

This because neither a sad ending nor a happy.

What can we call this than?