Easy To Hate & Hit [25]

ASHER

It has been 48 hours. 48 hours since surgery, and she still hasn't woken up. 48 hours and Mr Dante and Miss Hannah never left her side of the bed once.

But they are not quite different from us. Me and the boys haven't gone to school for two days now. We only leave to bring  Mr Dante and Ms Hannah food and clothes and then come back.

Alex is a disaster. He blames himself for everything. You can see it on his face. He hasn't said a word about it, though.  Whenever we open the topic, he ignores or changes it to work.

Who thought we cared that much for her? I almost missed her snappy attitude.

She has healed a lot since the accident. The doctor said there was no permanent damage. She is just in a coma because she pushes her body way too much, and it needs time to heal. She also had a fractured arm, which they put on a cast.

It pains me to say this, but she does overwork herself.  She always works after school. I even heard she works shifts before school. How can she even do that? I mean, it does explain why she always looks tired.

I was now sitting on the couch beside her bed. I was sitting between Alex and Chris, who were just staring ahead like me. Ms Hannah was sitting in the chair next to Sara's bed.

It is ridiculous. I know. But we all just want her to wake up. We've sat in this room for hours just waiting for her to open her eyes.

Just waiting for her to open those beautiful blue eyes. "Come on Sara, damn it! Just open your eyes" I cursed under my breath. The doctor said she would have been able to open them from the first day if her body wasn't so weak and tired.

"I'm gonna bring coffee do any of you want?" Chris asked standing up. Before any of us could answer we heard a groan. Alex and I immediately stood up along with Ms Hannah.

Sara was trying to sit up. "Hey hey take it easy" Alex said rushing to her side. Sara quickly flinched away.

"Don't touch me. Don't touch me! DON'T TOUCH ME!" Sara screamed pushing Alex away with her good hand. She looked terrified.

"Sara it is me!" Alex tried calming her down but she refused.

Ms Hannah quickly stepped back.

"Please don't touch me stop!" Sara continued screaming. Chris ran out and came with the doctors.

"What is happening to my daughter?" Miss Hannah asked worriedly.

A lot of nurses came and pinned Sara down careful not to touch her hand. She kept screaming to let her go but they injected her with a sedative.

Her body relaxed after a couple of seconds and they laid her back down. Her eyelids started closing slowly and she drifted to sleep.

A few minutes passed before Mr Dante came rushing to the room. "What happened is she awake?" He shouted before we motioned for him to lower his voice. "Slow down honey she is fine" Miss Hannah whispered to him.

The doctor led us outside. "This is normal for people who went through such traumatic experiences." The doctor said to us.

"What is normal? Someone tell me what happened. " Mr Dante demanded loudly.

"Sir please lower your voice your daughter is asleep. Miss Sara woke but she was screaming for people to stop touching her. People in her case tend to lose sense of reality around them when they first wake up. It looks like she was reliving a past trauma. We gave her a sedative and she is asleep. But don't worry she is gonna be back to normal when she wakes up" the doctor explained.

Past trauma? What does he mean?

"What do you mean past trauma?" I asked shock visible in my voice. "I have no way of knowing that young man. She is the only one that will be able to tell you such a thing" the doctor said before excusing himself saying he would come to check her when she was awake.

We all looked at each other not knowing what to say. Alex was awfully silent. Well, he should be.

"Do any of you two know anything?" Mr Dante asked and we quickly shook our heads. Mr Dante sighed before going back to Sara along with his wife. Sara should wake up in an hour or two.

The moment Mr Dante closed the door behind him Alex collapsed to the ground. Chris quickly got him.

Alex was breathing heavily. He was clenching and unclenching his hands.

"Do you think I- I caused her this? She was terrified of me! My only sister is terrified of me" he said shakily.

"Alex you don't know that yet man. It may be something else" I replied trying to assure him.

"She is terrified! She shouldn't be terrified of her brother!" He shouted. "Shush! Do you want your dad to hear you? She was terrified of everything. Not you. You heard what the doctor said. She had no sense of reality in there she might have not even recognised you stop taking everything personally. This is not about you" Chris said before pulling Alex up.

"Now pull yourself together and get inside and be with your family" Chris said pushing him toward the door.

Alex straightened himself and took a deep breath before opening the door and going inside with me and Chris right behind.

We went inside and saw Sara awake. "What happened?" Alex asked his Parents. "My phone started ringing which woke her up" Mr Dante replied.

"Sara, how do you feel?" I asked. Sara just looked at me blankly. "I've been trying to talk to her but she is not answering. I called the doctor and he is coming" Mr Dante said anxiously pacing around the room.

"Sara, can you hear us? Are you okay?" Alex asked her. She looked at him and nodded.

"Thank god I thought you became deaf" Miss Hannah said in relief. Sara looked at her blankly before getting up. She groaned when she moved her hand a bit too quickly.

"What happened to me?" Sara asked finally. Oh my god, how I missed hearing her voice. It was dry and raspy but still like music to my ears.

We were about to reply when the doctor came inside. "Hello, Miss Sara. We've been waiting for you to wake up." He said in a sicking happy voice.

She nodded to him to continue. "What is the last thing you remember?" He asked her.

She glanced at Alex and then at Mr Dante. "I was going for a run after having dinner with my brother and his friends. And then I was crossing the road and suddenly heard a crazy amount of horns. And a car came flashing and then... oh my god I was in a car crash" she replied.

"Good it looks like your memory is perfectly fine. Yes you were in a car accident and you were in a coma for two days" he started.

"Two days I was asleep for two whole days?" She asked baffled.

"Yes. It looks like you only have two fractured bones in your arm which we put a cast to and surprisingly no bruises. You will have to come to check your arm every two days." He said to her and she had her mouth open in shock.

"Only?" She asked.

"This is very minor damage considered to your case ma'am you ran to a high way this is considered nothing. I wrote you a couple of medications take them from downstairs and be sure to take them on time" he replied.

"You also have to fix your diet your immune system is quite bad for your age. And please don't let me start on your weight" he said and she nodded. He then excused himself and left.

"I'm going to sign your discharge papers and come back okay?"Mr Dante said carefully.

"Are you okay sweetheart?" Mr Hannah said coming closer to Sara. She wanted to hug her but Sara moved away.

"It hurts when someone touches it I'm sorry" Sara told her mother pointing to her arm.

Mr Hannah backed away looking hurt.

"Sara, what happened? I've never seen you go for runs. Why were you not home?" Mr Hannah asked Sara looking serious.

Sara looked at us. She knows if she tells her the truth Alex will be doomed. Alex looked down shamelessly. He feels responsible for all of this.

"You don't know me! I go for runs all the time but how will you know? You don't even have time to sit and get to know me. You don't wanna know me! You just feel guilty for abandoning my ass when I was young!"Sara screamed at Ms Hannah before running to the bathroom with watery eyes.

Mr Hannah stood there for a couple of seconds looking at the bathroom door. "Excuse me I need to find your father" Ms Hannah said before exiting the room.

Alex was in shock he didn't know what to do or say. Suddenly we heard a loud crash coming from the bathroom.

We all rushed to the door. Alex tried to open it but it was closed. "Sara please tell me you are fine" Alex screamed through the door. Chris tried opening the door but he miserably failed.

"Get away guys I'm gonna break the door," I told them. They nodded getting away from the door.

"Sara if you can hear me I'm gonna break the door. So if you are next to the door please get away okay?" I screamed for her.

I took a few steps back. I took a huge breath in before shoulder-bashing  the door with full force. And Again. And again till the door burst open.

We found Sara sitting on the toilet hood with broken glass pieces all around her. I studied her for any injuries and I was relieved until my eyes landed on her hand.

"Oh my lord what happened to your hand"Alex cutted my thoughts. She busted her knuckles and it was bleeding horribly.

Alex quickly took off the scarf he was wearing and added pressure to Sara's hand.

"What were you thinking punching the f***ing mirror? Oh my-  you have glass pieces in your hand. How are you just sitting like this" Alex said screaming at her while anxiously studying her injury.

"This is not the time Alex. Go find a doctor I will apply the pressure" Chris ordered Alex.

He tried taking the scarf but Sara beat him to it. "I don't want any doctors," Sara said sternly to them.

"Are you nuts you need to get that cleaned" Alex said to her.

"Stop acting like you care! Stop! I just screamed at the person that I am supposed to call Mother. Just because I didn't want to snitch at you." Sara screamed at him.

"She can hate me! I'm used to it! But I don't want to be a girl who broke down your family! So stop acting like you care you hate me! You made sure I knew that! " Sara continued hot tears streaming down her face.

"I- don't ha-te you" Alex stuttered out.

"Oh yeah right. You probably wished I would die" she spitted at him.

"Sara don't say stuff you will regret later" Chris said to her.

"Why? Why should I be careful about what comes out of my mouth?! He can cuss me, hit me, make me want to kill myself and no one tells him anything!  But I should be careful." She shouted at him.

"Okay think the fuck you want but you are gonna clean those damn knuckles and now," Alex said after straightening his posture and putting on his emotionless face again.

"Fine but I'm gonna do it on my own" she said and stood up. She exited the bathroom and started searching the room drawers.

Seconds after she found a first aid kit. She sat on the bed opened it and started looking around for stuff.

We were just standing around her. She pulled out some rubbing alcohol, bandages and tweezers.

She grabbed the rubbing alcohol with her casted hand and proceeded to pour it on the cut.

I quickly stopped her and grabbed it from her. "Are you out of your mind, Sara it gonna burn like hell" I said to her.

"I know what I'm doing Asher give me back the damn alcohol" she spitted at me.

"Sara no. You don't know what you're doing. It gonna hurt a million times more"  I said to her. She does not know what she is doing.

"Well I guess I want to be hurt" she said to me blankly, snatching back the rubbing alcohol.

She poured it into her hand not even wincing. She then took the tweezers with her casted hand and proceeded to take the glass pieces out.

Every time she took a glass piece out some blood gushed out. I bet it hurts like hell.

When she finished she looked up at us and sighed." Usually I can do this alone but due to the known circumstances I need some help" she told us and Alex smirked.

"Oh does little princess need our help" Alex said. But quickly realised what he called her when he saw Sara's facial expressions change.

She looked hurt. "I'm so sorry Sara it just slipp-" Alex started but she stopped.

"I changed my mind I'll do it alone" Sara said a single tear rolling down her face.

"Sara I swear it slipped. I didn't mean to-" Alex started but she interrupted him again. " It is fine Alex." She sighed aggressively wiping off the tears.

"Let me help you then," Alex said approaching her. "No! I'm perfectly fine alone back the hell up!"She screamed at him.

Alex stumbled back in pure shock. "Then let me help you Sara" Chris offered to her. She looked at him and ignored what he said.

She took a big cotton piece and placed it on the bed. She then drenched it with alcohol.

We were all confused about what she was doing. She then took a deep breath in before placing her back of her hand on the cotton harshly. We all gasped in surprise.

A small grunt left her lips. "Are you out of your mind! Damn! Sara, are you okay?" I screamed in complete shock.

As a person who always has these kinds of wounds. Trust me this hurts like hell. It is like pouring lava on your hand.

She then took a gauze and wrapped her wrist. "See no big deal," she told me.

I was about to tell her how she was being ridiculous and she needs something to reduce the pain when both Mr And Mrs Carter came in.

"Everything is finished. We can now go home baby" Mr Dante told Sara and she just nodded standing.

Mr Dante's eyes landed on the emergency kit that was sitting on Sara's bed. "What happened?" He asked suddenly turning serious.

"Nothing" Sara replied to him. He scanned the room and saw the blood droplets all around the floor. He walked to the bathroom and saw everything.

"Someone better tell me what the hell is going on right now!" Mr Dante screamed at all of us.

I sighed not knowing what to say. Will Sara be made if we tell her dad what happened? I looked at the boys and they were as confused as me. I looked at Sara to see what she wanted us to say but she was frozen.

"I asked a question someone speaks now!" Mr Dante screamed again.

"Sara" I called her.

No answer.

She was shaking. She was just looking ahead of her and shaking.

"Sara answer me when I talk to you! "Mr Dante said to Sara.

Again no answer.

Mr Dante walked closer to Sara and touched her shoulder.

Sara quickly came back to reality  and flinched away.

SARA

I froze.

''Sara what did you do" he screamed. I tried picking up all the glass before he come's downstairs.

I started picking up the beer bottle pieces when one piece impaled to my hand. I winced in pain.

Sara you better tell me what the hell you did!

He came down and saw the bottle broken on the ground. He marched to me grabbed me by my collar and pulled me up.

"Dad I'm so sorry it slipped" I  cried.

You pathetic piece of trash look what you did" he screamed pushing me to the ground glass pieces percimg through my back skin.

And kicked me.

And kicked.

And kicked.

I came back to reality when Mr Dante touched me. I quickly flinched away still feeling Dad standing above me.

"You answer me when I talk to you Sara okay? I don't tolerate any disrespect do you understand?" He told me sternly.

I blinked away the tears that collected in my eyes and straightened my posture.

"Yes sir. I do understand" I replied. I knew that how he would be. I knew that's how would this turn up. I knew I would be back to following orders.

Mr Dante sighed comping a hand through his hair. "We talked about the sir part Sara" Mr Dante said sighing.

"Yes, we did. I'm sorry Mr Carter" I replied.

Dad always told me to call him by his family name because I didn't deserve to call him Dad. I think he is right. No one would want to be my father. Not even my biological father.

"Look Sara I'm sorry for screaming at you, I'm just worried about you, okay? " Mr Dante apologised to me softly. I was in shock.

"I punched the mirror," I told him slowly. I closed my eyes ready for a slap, a punch, anything. But nothing came.

I slowly opened my eyes and saw Mr Dante looking down at me with soft eyes. "I'm not gonna hit you, Sara. I will never do that. Do you understand me, baby?" He told me. A single tear slipped from my eyes.

" Don't be so sure Mr Dante. I'm easy to hate and hit." I replied with zero emotions lacing my voice. "I wanna go home please," I said to his shocked state.

"Alex go with your mother and sister home. I have some work to do. Asher and Chris go home and rest it has been a very long couple of days" Mr Dante said putting back his emotionless face on.

He then left the room. The whole room was silent. No one dared to utter a word.

"He is trying his best for you. We all are" My biological mother said to me. You guys wouldn't need to do it if you didn't abandon me years ago. I so wanted to scream this at her face but I knew it would only make this worse. So I sucked it up.

"Let's go. See you guys at school tomorrow" Alex told his two best friends. They both nodded before collecting their stuff and leaving. Why do they have too much stuff in here? Did stay here for the whole two days I was here?

"Can I have my phone?" I said to Alex. "It is in the drawer next to your bed" He told me the sound of pure hatred back in his voice. Just perfect.

I picked up my phone and headed outside with Alex and Mrs Carter.

We entered Ms Hannah's car. I sat in the back seat while Ms Hannah drove us home with Alex in the passenger seat next to her.  We arrived home quite quickly. And guilt was eating me alive.

They took me back in. They could've just said no and I would be on the streets. And I just had to act like the b**** I am.

The moment we walked home I went to my room. Closed the door behind me and started searching my drawers for my saviour. My saviour from my own thoughts.

TRIGGER WARNING ⚠ SELF HARM  ⚠

I opened my bedside drawer and finally found it. I saw the metal blade lying there.

I quickly grabbed it went to the bathroom and locked the door too. I took off my hoodie. I held the blade firmly with my casted hand and brought it to my other wrist. I slowly slid it through my skin, the piercing pain bringing me peace.

I sat for a few seconds watching the blood drip down my wrist like rain droplets sliding down a leaf. Slowly and drop by drop.

I sighed walked to the sink and opened the water, letting wash off the blood from my hand. I always said that I will not do it again. But as always I fail.

END

I stripped off the rest of my clothes. I grabbed a plastic bag from my drawer and secured it around my cast tightly and went inside the shower. I switched the water to hot and started slowly cleaning my body.

I poured some shower gel on my loaf and started slowly cleaning off the foundation I had on. The moment all the foundation I had on washed off I finally could see the extent of my injuries.' No bruises' he said. I at least have a dozen purplish bruises all over my body.

I am so relieved I actually covered my old bruises with a waterproof foundation because that would've been a hell of a long talk.

I got out of the shower. Put on some pj's and detangled my mess of a hair.

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I was sitting on my bed doodling when someone knocked on my door. I quickly got out of bed and unlocked the door revealing Alex. "Dinner is ready. Come down to eat we are waiting for you" he said blankly. I nodded and followed him downstairs.

Both my parents were sitting around the table. Alex sat next to his mother while his father sat on the head of the table. I didn't know where to sit so I sat across from Alex. Ms Hannah placed a plate in front of me. It had some vegetables, mashed potatoes and a steak. I haven't seen this much food in once in a while.

I took the fork and slowly started eating. I was starving but too tired to eat faster. Everyone was dead silent and all because of me.

"I am sorry" I suddenly murmured.

Mr Dante sighed putting down his utensils. "You don't need to apologise Sara" Mr Dante told me.

"I know you don't feel like your home but you will eventually" Ms Hannah said giving me a sad smile. Pity. It is written all over her face.

We continued to eat in silence but I broke it again after a couple of minutes.

"Can I ask you guys a question?" I said nervously.

"Of course Sara you can ask whatever you want" Mr Dante told me with a soft genuine smile. I looked at Ms 'Hannah and she gave me an encouraging nod.

I took a deep breath in and asked the question I'd been dreading to ask since I had known them.

"Why did you abandon me when I was young?" I said and the whole room's atmosphere changed.

"What did you just say?" Alex roared slamming his hand on the table. I flinched back.

"I want to know! It is my right! Did I cry a lot when I was a baby? Was I too much to handle? Why?!"  I screamed back at him.

"Did you just accuse my family of abandoning their own child!"He screamed at me. I am not accusing anyone of anything you have a live evidence in front of you

"It is fine Alex she doesn't know anything relax and quit shouting," Mr Dante told his son. What does I don't know everything is pretty obvious.

"We didn't abandon you, Sara. I am sure you have a lot of questions but I promise we will tell you everything when it is the right time," he told me. I was so confused but Mr Dante's words were final. I nodded and he gave me an appreciative smile.

"Now that we have cleared that I have an announcement today your cousins, aunts, uncles and grandparents are coming to see you. Like a small family reunion! " Ms Hannah said in pure excitement.

"WHAT?!" I asked in shock.

Author's note 📝

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