25 | you ready?

2 years later

- billie's pov -

i woke up early to run to the store and grab some groceries. i decided to go to the local farmers market to get some fresh items.

leilani and i love coming here together. i wish she could've came with me today but oh well.

i don't mind going alone.

i grabbed a bunch of fresh produce, along with some other things and made my way back home. i parked the car and brought in the paper bags of food items and set them on the counter.

i went to the bedroom to check to see if leilani was in there but she wasn't.

of course, i should've known.

i went back to the kitchen and hummed to myself as i put the groceries away and then began making breakfast.

once the food was done, i put on a plate and made my way outside to the back patio. i smiled at the beautiful clear sky as i set the plate down on the table out there.

"don't touch my food," i chuckled. "im about to go fix your plate now."

"what did you make me?" lani cheesed.

"all the things you want," i giggled. "double eggs, double bacon, double everything."

"yay," she smiled. "ugh i wish i could've came to the market with you."

"it's okay," i shook my head. "you'll be able to soon."

"not soon enough," she chuckled as she looked down.

i went back inside and fixed lani's plate before bringing it out to her. i then pulled me up a chair to the table and we ate our breakfast together.

we then went back inside and sat on the couch, turning on the television.

"are you gonna come to yoga with me today?" she looked at me.

"are you even able to still do that shit?" i rose my eyebrows at her.

"billie," she tilted her head. "im pregnant, not disabled. yes, i can do it."

"you're 8 months though babydoll," i sat next to her on the couch.

"there's a reason it's called prenatal yoga," she started. "cmon, it's couples night."

"fine, i'll come. but if that shit sends you into labor then you're gonna have it right there in the studio."

"oh my god please don't wish that," she pushed my shoulder.

-

oh.. hi, hello. it's been a minute. maybe i should catch you up, yeah?

let's see, last time we talked was 2 years ago during the trial. if you can't already tell, the jury found leilani not guilty.

we were overfilled with joy but were definitely ready to be through with that situation so we left new york immediately so that we could focus on healing.

we flew back to LA where we stayed for a couple of months at my house before deciding to come back to Hawaii and stay for at least a couple years.

it's just so much more peaceful and less drama here. having lani keep her house in hawaii and me keep my house in la so we can stay in both places whenever we want was one of the best decisions we ever made.

but we're doing good, great actually.

hmmm, i feel like there's something else im forgetting to tell you.

oh right!

we've both taken a break from our careers to just be with each other and live and travel and have fun. of course we traveled a lot anyway, but now it's never work related travels.

plus, we're also taking a break for the baby.

oh yeah, leilani's pregnant.

and we're over the moon excited!!

we were both very ready and we found the perfect sperm donor so we couldn't pass it up. she's now 8 months, and she's the cutest pregnant woman i've ever seen. reminds me of when she was pregnant with kaia.

of course, we'll never forget about our first child.

we both ended up getting kaia tattooed on our wrist. and you guys know leilani got my name tatted on the side of her ass, so i got her name tatted on my pelvic area.

4- lifersssssss

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via leilani's instagram story ^

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"where are we going?" i chuckled as i sat blindfolded on the back seat of the uber.

"oh shush," leilani said. "you'll see."

leilani said she had a surprise for me but because she can't drive with her big ass baby bump, she called an uber so i wouldn't drive to my own surprise.

"almost there almost there," she said softly as she held my hand.

soon, the car came to a stop and lani directed me out the car after taking a full 60 seconds to widdle her way out of it.

she held my hand and led me until she stopped. "okay you can take the blindfold off."

i removed the bandana she had tied around my eyes and my mouth immediately dropped at the sight in front of me.

it was a horse and carriage. i instantly poked my lip out and looked at her. i used to tell her all the time how i thought those were romantic.

"oh lani," i hugged her.

"we only have so much time left alone, so i want us to experience the dates that we always talked about but never did," she told me.

i couldn't help but to blush. "i love you."

"i love you too, now cmon."

we walked up and greeted the man who will be guiding the horse. the carriage was so pretty and lit up with lights.

we sat in the seats and i began looking around in awe as this was apart of hawaii that i had yet to see.

"you might as well get comfy because he's taking us somewhere else," lani chuckled.

i furrowed my eyebrows. "what the hell else is there?" i asked.

"just be patient, eilish."

the carriage ride was so nice and romantic as we enjoyed the scenery around us. we held hands the entires time and i even hummed a bit to serenade my babies.

but as we were riding, we started to approach a bright light and as we got closer, i realized it was a field of lights. then i realized it was a lantern festival.

my eyes got wide, i've always wanted to participate in one of these!

the man in the carriage handed us a big blanket that lani apparently had him hold. i glanced at her and she laughed at her own mischievousness. the man then dropped us off and we found a spot in the field.

we got our lanterns and lit them. we kissed each other on the lips as we let them go, watching them float away into the night sky.

lani and i laid back onto the blanket, taking a breath of relief and gratefulness. watching the planters float away into the sky was one of the most beautiful things i had ever scene.

-                      one month later                  -

"we're going, we're going!" i said to my mom on the phone as i was driving to the hospital. "no she's laid out in the backseat!"

"are you guys fully prepared for the stay?" mom asked.

"yes yes we packed the hospital bag last week," i continued to tell her.

"well how is she doing?" mom asked.

"her contractions are killing her mom! i know you hear her groaning and moaning!"

"billie you need to breathe," she said.

"how am i supposed to breathe right now mom?!" i yelled.

"by inhaling and exhaling air," she said with her smart ass mouth. "did you call her dad?"

"yeah," i answered. "okay okay im pulling into the hospital."

"okay good," my mom said. "now go have a baby."

-

lani laid in the hospital bed holding her belly as she was having contractions still. she had now been in labor for 3 hours and it was 2am.

i was sitting in the chair, playing any game on my phone to keep me sane. i was so nervous to become a parent.

i'd look over at lani every other minute as i felt bad. all she wanted to do was sleep but she couldn't. she declined their offer on getting epidural because she said her mom didn't have it, so she wouldn't either.

which honestly just means more pain for her.

-

time passed and i woke up to lani groaning loudly in pain. i immediately stood up and ran to her side. multiple nurses soon ran in not too long after.

"okay leilani it's time," one nurse said. "you ready?"

"yes," she nodded as her eyes were closed.

"breathe baby," i held her hand. "you got it, breathe."

the doctor was doing whatever they do and then she looked at me. "billie, let's getcha gowned up."

"huh?" i rose my eyebrows.

"you wanna be the first to hold your baby?"

i was shocked. i was not expecting to be asked that. i immediately looked at leilani.

"yes," she quickly nodded with a smile.

"oh- okay then," i smiled.

"come," she told me. "let's get you dressed."

they put me in this gown cover thingy, along with a little hat and gloves.

i went and stood next to leilani, holding her hand as she took deep breaths and pushed as hard as she could. "you're doing so good mama."

"almost there leilani," the doctor said.

lani then begin pushing harder, her eyes squeezing shut as she used all her force. she was also squeezing the FUCK out my hand.

"there's the head," doc said. "keep going leilani, keep going!"

lani then tapped my arm. "go see," she said, knowing that i wanted to.

i hurried to the end of the bed and watched as they guided the baby out. it was a really beautiful thing, believe it or not.

"we got her!" the doc said as our baby came out.

she immediately put the baby in my arms and tears suddenly streamed down my face. "oh my god," i said softly as i looked at our babygirl. "hello."

i then took her over to leilani. "look baby, she's beautiful. just like you."

i placed her into leilani's arms and lani smiled as her eyes began to tear up. "hi baby."

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via billie's instagram story ^

"hi sweet mama," i said to my daughter. "you're a stinky girl, and your mama needs to change you."

"i hope by mama, you mean yourself," lani grinned.

"fuck no," i chuckled. "you got it bookie."

"sure it's not your turn?" she came and wrapped her arms around my waist from behind, kissing the back of my neck.

"nice try," i turned to face her, kissing her lips. "but it's your turn."

-

so as you can see, we have the most beautiful little baby ever.

her name is naomi.

it means pleasant and gentle, just like we knew she'd be.

she's the most precious baby that there could ever be. and im super excited to live in her world.

margie came to the hospital right on time as lani gave birth so we let her cut the chord. and we asked her to be the godmother.

she immediately started crying because she was so "honored."

lani's family has gotten to meet our baby and my family plans on flying in soon to meet her so we're all excited for that.

yeah.. life is good.