27 | locked in

some time later ..

"naomi!" i called. "nae- nae!"

"yeah?" she came trotting quickly into my bedroom.

"where're your shoes mama?" i kneeled down to her. "go get your shoes so i can put them on."

then billie entered the room. "okay," she said as she walked up to me with sage in her arms. "she has on a fresh diaper and her bottle, diapers, and wipes are in here," she pointed to sage's bag.

"okay baby," i pecked billie's lips.

"oh wait her snacks!" b exclaimed as she realized. "my baby needs her snacks."

"mama can i take snacks too?" naomi walked back into the room.

"of course you can," billie pinched her cheeks. "you wanna take your goldfish?"

"no i want the gummies!" nae exclaimed excitedly.

"okay i tell you what," billie kneeled down to her. "you put your shoes on the right feet and then i'll get your gummies."

"yaaaaaaay!" she started jumping up and down.

i giggled. "com'ere baby i'll help you," i told naomi.

i picked her up and set her on billie and i's bed so that i could put her shoes on the right feet.

"mommy where are we going?" she asked me.

"we're going to a special award show called the grammy's," i started. "this'll be mama's first performance in years and we're gonna watch her sing," i smiled, and nae did too.

"limo's here!" i heard billie yell from the other room.

"okay," i kissed naomi's forehead. "cmon."

-

hi besties, been awhile.. again.

i know.

naomi is now 4, and sage is 2. they're the sweetest if i do say so myself. but don't get me wrong, they definitely keep billie and i busy.

i think billie and i are great parents but it's definitely funny to think about at the same time because billie is still childish and goofy. and i am too.

so, naomi is into coloring books, unicorns, and slime. she has also developed a love for puzzles which she learned from her grandpa patrick. she has dark brown hair and a tanned skin complexion like me. we can tell she's very smart and creative which makes us super excited for her future.

now, sage has an obsession with baby dolls as if she's not a baby herself. but she loves pushing her little play stroller around. she's also heavily into musical instruments so we bought her almost every toy instrument you can think of. so it seems we may have two future artists among us.

oh and sage has a more paler skin complexion, like billie. but of course, we used the same sperm donor for the girls so that they actually are blood related. however, they look just like their moms.

anyway, as far as us all. we're living in hawaii and loving it there. the girls are bilingual as they're learning english and hawaiian/ polynesian. and billie has learned to speak it as well. oh and we also spend a lot of time at the beach.

and yes, they know about their older sister.

now, billie and i clearly took a break from our big career lives to get the hang of parenting and what not. but it's time we get back to it.

billie has been writing songs over the years that she will soon put into her next album. and she was invited to perform at the grammy's this year which is why we're currently in los angeles.

me, im technically "old" for a model, being 30. so i no longer walk runways but i've been secretly working on designing my own clothing with billie.

yep, that's right!! billie and i our creating our own brand that will include clothes, fragrances, skincare, shoes, etc.

i'm excited because im super into fashion so it'll be my chance to style some super creative pieces. and billie's excited because she's also a big fashionista. but she's also ready to bring more environmental friendly clothes/ products to the world.

can you guess what the name of our brand is called?

-

"why am i nervous?" billie looked at me in the limo.

"maybe because you haven't performed in front of a big serious crowd in like 4 years," i chuckled. "you got this though, no pressure. everyone will be so happy to see you."

"you're right," she took a deep breath. "i got my girls with me, i'll be fine."

"yes," i nodded. "and finneas will be right there next to you."

billie smiled.

this is what she wore ^

billie's performance was amazing. the girls were so happy to see their mama perform in front of a ton of people. they couldnt stop smiling and clapping. when billie came and sat back down, she put naomi in her lap and took a breath of relief.

-

days later..

we are still in los angeles, just taking this time to visit with billie's family and friends. and of course our margie, liz, and frankie.

today billie has an in person meeting with her team so they can discuss upcoming details about her new album and everything.

however, the girls were having a hard time sitting still and being rather quiet so i decided to just take them to a park to let some of their energy out.

once we made it there, i put both of them in the swings and pushed them for a little bit. then afterwhile, sage got sleepy so i put her in her stroller so she could nap. and i sat on the bench and watch naomi as she continued to play around on all of the playground equipment.

while sitting, someone came and sat next to me on the bench, a pregnant woman who had sunglasses on.

i glanced at her, doing the quick grin that you do to a stranger.

"holy shit," the girl said. "leilani?"

i looked at her and she took her sunglasses off.

"amelia?" i rose my eyebrows. "oh wow, um hi."

"what the fuck i havent seen you in forever," she expressed. "congrats on your two kids," she nodded.

"thank you," i smiled. "uh congrats on yours," i chuckled as i pointed to her belly.

she smiled and rubbed it. "so is this one of them?" amelia asked as she looked at my sleeping sage.

"yeah," i grinned as i looked at sage too. "and my other one is right there," i pointed.

but naomi wasnt there.

and my heart sank.

"um she was just right there," i quickly stood up.

i looked around and i did not see her.

"naomi!" i yelled.

"mommy!" i heard her call out.

i looked toward that direction to see her smiling in the arms of some man. and as the man got closer, i realized who it was.

"what the fuck do you think you're doing?" i said sternly to que as i snacthed naomi from him.

"relax," he chuckled. "i recognized her from you guys' social media so i just played with her. i told her i knew both her mommies."

i just squinted.

"babe how do you know leilani?" amelia looked at him.

my mouth dropped. "oh this is a fucking joke."

amelia furrowed her eyebrows as she looked at him and then at me.

"so you're having his baby?" i asked her.

"yeah," she nodded.

"yall are a couple?" i asked.

"yes," she started to get an attitude.

"well that's definitely one i didnt see coming."

"ami i missing something?" she rose her eyebrows.

"so, neither of you could have billie so you just decided to have each other," i said as i tried not to laugh.

"haha," she mocked. "look, it may be weird but it was so long ago. grow up, lani."

"i mean thats not the only reason its weird."

amelia just squinted at me.

"did he not tell you that he has a deceased child?"

she furrowed her eyebrows.

then i tilted my head at her, begging her to catch on.

her face then dropped. "oh my god," she looked at que. "you fucked leilani and had a child with her?" she said as she threw her sunglasses at him and walked away.

he glared at me. "that wasnt your place to do that."

"think of it as your karma for all those times," i grinned.

que sighed. "great, that means no head for me tonight," he said as he sat next to me on the bench.

i looked at him with disgust. "ew."

i looked at amelia who was now swinging on the swings. i sighed. "naomi, you wanna go swing next to that lady and cheer her up?"

"yes!" she excalimed in excitement as she ran to amelia.

a smile grew on amelia's face as she began to play with naomi. maybe she's envisioning the future life with her own child.

"so.. you and billie good?" que looked at me.

i just nodded. "we locked in."

he chuckled. "thats good then. yall deserve it."

"damn right we do," i nodded in agreement. "damn right."