Chapter 16
Playbook (The Holland Brothers 2)
The event spans the parking lot of the Mavericksâ stadium. Tents are set up along the front and people are everywhere.
Brogan leads me through a private entrance where weâre handed VIP lanyards. Itâs weird seeing my name printed on the badge. Somehow that little detail makes it all seem too real.
My date doesnât seem to notice that Iâm in my head, freaking out. Brogan chatters away, pointing out people he knows, introducing me to some, waving to others. Heâs well-liked, which isnât all that surprising. He has some inside joke or camaraderie with everyone from the parking attendant to the coaches. And I feel all their questioning gazes on me like the force of a thousand suns.
But none of that prepared me for the moment we stepped into a group of his teammates.
âSix!â They yell in unison. A couple of them look familiar from the club or the bar, but all together they look so big and intimidating that itâs hard to focus on any one for too long.
Each of the guys is wearing their jersey, showing off wide chests and thick arms. The closer we get, the smaller I feel.
The largest guy steps forward and I gulp as he bear-hugs Brogan, lifting him off the ground and shaking him like a ragdoll. The others laugh it off, so I guess heâs not going to die, but ouch. My bones hurt just watching the interaction. Brogan is six foot three, broad and muscular, and heâs being tossed around like he weighs nothing. Itâs impressive really.
I catch one of his teammates staring at me with a curious expression on his face. Itâs not disbelief exactly, but he does look surprised. Iâm not sure if itâs because Brogan brought a girl or if itâs specifically because he brought someone like me who so clearly doesnât fit in. The few other women in playersâ jerseys have that look. Perfect hair, perfect bodies, perfect smile. Iâm not insecure normally, but this is all just a lot.
âOkay. Okay. Down, boy.â Broganâs voice is tight and he inhales deeply as his feet are returned to the ground. He sounds like he ran a mileâ¦or had the air forced out of his lungs.
âYou commanding me like Iâm a dog, Six?â the giant asks with a lift of one brow. He has an easygoing smile, but I think he could crush Broganâs head between his colossal hands if he wanted to.
Brogan obviously doesnât value his life because he pats him on the head and says, âGood boy.â
That has the guys all laughing again, and Brogan steps back to my side. If heâs going to die, I guess heâs taking me along with him.
Slowly, each of their gazes slides to me. I donât usually blush, but I can feel my face warming and I have to fight the urge to use Brogan as a shield.
âThis must be her,â the giant says. âI thought you were putting us on. Damn, sheâs beautiful. Whatâs she doing with your ugly ass?â
Brogan scoffs. âIâm a fucking catch. Right, London?â
My eyes widen and I open my mouth to speak but I have no clue what to say. Luckily, it doesnât seem like heâs really expecting an answer.
He continues, unfazed, âBut youâre not wrong, she is gorgeous.â
My face is officially on fire.
âThese are my teammates,â Brogan says, bringing a hand to my lower back. The light touch keeps me from bolting, but just barely.
âI could have guessed,â I say with a small laugh. I smile and let my stare travel quickly over all of them. âHi.â
The giant is the first to approach.
âIâm Slade,â he says. âNice to meet you. Sorry I roughed up your boy.â
âIâm sure he deserved it,â I say, surprising myself with how easily the words tumble out. Then second-guess myself. Maybe I should be quicker to defend my fake boyfriend.
Slade lets his head fall back and he lets out a laugh that makes my insides shake.
âI like her.â He winks at me and smiles at Brogan.
Another guy edges in front of him. âTripp. Glad to see the rookie here finally screwed his head on right.â
I have no idea what that means so I just keep smiling and lean into Brogan a bit like Iâm snuggling up to him, but actually Iâm just trying to keep myself upright. These guys are a lot.
âWe better get to our spots before the head of PR comes looking for us,â another guy says. âNice to meet you, London. Iâm Cody. Let me know if the rookie needs to be kept in line.â
âWill do,â I promise.
Brogan takes it all in stride. A few of them cuff him on the shoulder as they head off.
One player hangs back. Heâs the one that had the curious expression earlier. He has dark brown hair that has a reddish tint in the sunlight and hazel eyes that seem to see through me. He isnât as tall or as broad as Brogan, but heâs still both of those things.
âLondon, this is my brother, Archer,â Brogan says with more affection in his tone than earlier.
âOh.â I glance between them. They donât look that much alike, though they are both handsome in their own ways. Brogan has a more playful air about him while Archer appears more serious, almost broody. Though he smiles at me now, and Iâm rethinking my initial assessment. Charm must run in the family. âHi! Itâs so nice to meet you. I didnât realize you played for the Mavericks too. Thatâs rare, right? Two brothers on the same team?â
Archer glances at Brogan and then me. I feel like Iâm missing something, but I donât know what.
âWell, Iâm not doing a whole lot of playing lately.â Archer glances toward his right leg and when he does, I notice the hearing aid. When he looks back up, his hair falls back over it. âIâve been struggling with an ankle injury,â he says. His smile falls and then reappears, though not as believable. âYou two were pretty convincing walking in here. I donât think anyone will suspect it isnât for real.â
A flare of panic rises, but as quickly as it comes, it goes. Brogan said he told Archer, and it is nice to have one more person I donât have to pretend in front of.
âOf course not,â Brogan says. âI told you we could pull this off.â
I wonder what those conversations were like between the brothers. Does Archer think this is a terrible idea? If he does, he doesnât say so now.
âReady?â Brogan asks, and he looks almost giddy about spending the day pretending to be my boyfriend in front of all these strangers.
âI guess so.â I am not nearly as giddy. Brogan is great, but I am way, way out of my element.
The three of us walk toward the event together, but weâre stopped by a man in crisp black dress pants and a red polo shirt with the Mavericks logo on the left side of his chest, and a lanyard like the ones we were given. He has that frantic energy about him of someone in charge. The clipboard in his hands also is a telltale sign.
âArcher, Brogan,â he greets them and then scans the paper attached to the clipboard. âArcher, you are in the autograph tent, and Broganâ¦â He looks up and from Brogan to me. âYou are in the autograph tent at eleven. Until then, you and your partner can help in the free health evaluation tent. Cody talked to you about the dunk tank?â
âYep.â Brogan gives the man a nod.
âPerfect. Weâll slot you in there after you finish signing.â
âThanks, Anthony.â Brogan claps him on the shoulder, and the guy startles a little and stumbles to regain his footing.
âMingle and have fun!â he calls after us.
âIâll catch you two later.â Archer turns, walking backward away from us. âMight want to hold hands or at least walk a little closer.â
Broganâs laughter dies off as his brother gets out of hearing distance. I wipe my palm on my shorts in case he decides to take my hand. He steps maybe an inch closer, but keeps his hands to himself. We talked easily on the drive over, but now that weâre alone again and on display, I canât find a single thing to say to Brogan as we cross the parking lot.
People are starting to walk around the large circle of tents and activities set up. I have to guess by the sheer space allotted for it that many more people will be coming today. A crowd has already formed at the autograph tent when we pass by it. Young kids are grinning as they get the jerseys on their backs signed, plus hats and footballs, and other miscellaneous items. Some adults are waiting too. They shake hands with the players and pose for pictures.
A local radio station has music going and it provides a euphoric background to the warm summer day.
âWhat do you want to do first?â Brogan asks like weâre out on a real first date with no agenda instead of on a tight schedule run by the polo-shirt-wearing Anthony. Heâs wearing a big grin and looking more excited than his teammates had. âAre you hungry?â
He points at a snow cone truck. Next to it is a food tent with long cafeteria-style tables set up. The scent of hot dogs and hamburgers fills the air as we pass it.
I shake my head and bring my hands up in front of me. While twisting my fingers together, I glance over at him. He looks so comfortable in his own skin. I get that weâre on his turf, so to speak, but there isnât any environment yet that Iâve seen him look any other way.
And Iâm still nervous. I canât put my finger on exactly why. No one is watching us and his teammates seemed to accept me easily enough, but this feels like a big deal, and Iâm wondering if we can really pull it off.
âI have a surprise for you.â That boyish grin of his widens as he turns to face me.
I canât help but smile back. He has that kind of pull, causing me to mimic his actions without being conscious of it.
âWhat?â I ask.
âI wasnât sure how into the whole hanging out with strangers thing youâd be. Or hanging with me for that matter.â
âIâm fine,â I say quickly, hoping to reassure him. The last thing I want is for him to worry about me when he should be working. âI can hold my own and I promise I wonât embarrass you or anything like that.â
One of his dark brows arches and his smile twists into an amused smirk. âYou think Iâm worried about you embarrassing me.â
âYouâre not?â
âThatâs funny. Seriously. Itâs endearing that you think you could possibly embarrass me when anyone who knows me would say thereâs no way you could embarrass me more than I embarrass myself on a daily basis.â
A little of the tension Iâve been holding eases. Broganâs gaze dips down over me and lingers on his jersey. âYou look incredible, and after the way you handled my teammates, I donât think I need to worry about you junk-punching anyone that gets out of line.â
I arch a brow. He expected people to get out of line? I thought this was a community event.
âNo one will mess with you,â he says as if realizing where my thoughts had strayed. âBut I feel better about leaving you alone now.â
âLeaving me alone? Where are you going?â The questions come out in a panicked squeak.
Weâre standing just past the food tent and my anxiety spikes at being left to fend for myself. Despite his faith in me, I donât know if I can handle that. What if I say the wrong thing to someone? I donât know that much about Brogan and his time with the Mavericks.
âIâm not going far. Iâll be right there.â He tips his dark head toward a large white tent in front of us. Signs indicate free health evaluations, and I can see a line of kids waiting to have their hearing and vision tested, and some older folks having their blood pressure taken.
âAnd where will I be?â Hopefully not in the dunk tank.
He turns then and I do the same. Two women sit at either end of a table with children seated in front of them. Paints and brushes are scattered on top of the table. A little boy has half the Mavericks logo painted on one chubby cheek, and the girl on the other side is going for a pink heart.
âI signed you up to face paint,â Brogan says, stepping closer. Itâs hot out, but I enjoy the extra warmth radiating off him. âIs that okay? If youâre not into it, I can tell Anthony that weâre so in love you canât stand to be away from me for that long.â
I tear my gaze from the table to him. Something about his expression tells me he isnât kidding. And I can see where a girl might fall for him hard enough for that sentiment to be true.
My mouth opens to reply with some witty, cutting remark, but I canât find the words. Iâm oddly touched that he considered how I might want to spend my time at this event even though Iâm here for him.
And the other thingâ¦I think Iâm disappointed that I wonât be spending the day with him. Weird. Then again, I doubt any of the children waiting in line are going to ask me about Broganâs latest stats so thatâs a plus.
Heâs still waiting for me to say something, so I shake the thoughts from my head. âItâs perfect, actually. Thank you.â
The proud smile on his face makes my stomach flip.
âIâve never painted anyoneâs face, but hopefully itâs not that complicated.â
âI have no doubt that youâll be awesome at it. Maybe later you can do me.â
Does my mind go straight to the gutter? Yes, yes it does.
âMaybe,â I squeak out, and I could swear by the way he fights to keep his laughter in check that he knows exactly where my thoughts went.
âJenna.â He looks around me and the woman sitting closest to us lifts her gaze from her work and smiles at him in the way Iâm noticing all women do. Even ones that donât consciously realize they want to sleep with him still are affected by him.
âThis is my girlfriend, London.â
His girlfriend. I wonder if Iâll ever get used to him saying it. Likely not before this whole thing is over.
âHi.â She turns her attention to me and waves a paint brush. She has long blonde hair and a friendly smile. âItâs nice to meet you.â
âYou too.â
Brogan leans in and his scent of cedar and citrus comes with him. âIâll be in there if you need me,â he says and points again at the tent. âGood luck.â
âAre you sure you donât want your face painted first?â I ask him, raising my voice over the noise as he moves away from me. Frankly, the practice sounds nice. Also, each of his big steps away from me has me wanting to run after him and attach myself to his side. I stop myself. I am a smart and independent woman, dammit.
But I am not exactly a kid wrangler. Sierra got all the maternal instincts. Kids kinda freak me out if Iâm honest.
âYou mean do I want you to do me?â He winks. Damn him. He knows exactly what heâs saying, and my face is getting hot again. âLater, sweetheart.â
Blowing out a breath, I watch him disappear into the tent across from me.
Jenna gives me a quick rundown of the brushes and paints, plus a handy sheet with different art pieces the kids can pick. Most of them are pretty basicâfootballs, the Mavericks logo that Iâve already seen several little boys and girls proudly wearing, unicorns, hearts, and a variety of other adorable animals.
Iâm feeling as confident as one could expect until the first little girl sits down in front of me and demands I make her into a butterfly. She looks to be around four or five, but she has a whole lot of sass and determination in her little body. When I ask if she wants it on the right or left cheek, she corrects me, and thatâs how I end up spending way too much time doing a full-face paint. The end result is pretty great, if I do say so myself, but the line has grown exponentially. And one full-face paint turns into another and then another. I get faster with each one, but Iâm damn near sweating as I try to keep up with the other two women painting faces.
The kids are bouncing in place impatiently and some of the parents look annoyed.
I stand between customers to wash out my brushes and walk closer to Jenna. She gives me a knowing smirk and I shoot her what I hope is an apologetic one.
âIâm so sorry. I couldnât tell her no and now theyâre all asking for it.â
âAre you kidding? Itâs amazing. Look at that line.â
Yeah, thatâs what Iâm worried about. âIâm going as fast as I can.â
âDonât sweat it.â She waves me off. âYouâre working for free and there are lots of other things they can go do if theyâre tired of waiting.â
âThank you.â
Her smile widens. âYouâre good at this. Have you done it before?â
âNo. Never.â
âBrogan said you are an artist though, right?â
I donât know how Brogan knows her so itâs hard to speculate what else he might have told her. Maybe sheâs also aware weâre not really dating. Whatever the scenario, Iâm filled with pride that he chose to add that piece of information about me when talking to people. Itâs silly, but with so many others in my life not believing in my work, Brogan so easily calling me an artist means something. Which is why I donât give her any of my usual canned responses that I just do freelance work.
âThatâs right. Graphic design, mostly illustrations.â
âAnd now face painting.â She holds up a paint brush with flair.
âMy turn! My turn!â A little boy plops into the seat in front of my chair and bounces excitedly.
âI guess I better get back to it.â
She blows out a breath that sends her blonde bangs up into the air. âTheyâre cute, but demanding.â
After two hours of painting the faces of mostly adorable small children, my time slot is over. I offer to stay since the line has only gotten longer, but Jenna thanks me profusely and then shoos me toward the tent that Brogan disappeared into earlier to âspend time with my man.â I guess maybe he didnât tell her that itâs all an act.
The health evaluation tent is packed, but I find Brogan easily. Heâs in the back right corner surrounded by kids. The only reason I am able to see him is that heâs several feet taller than all of them.
My smile inches higher as I navigate through the crowd toward him. I just knew heâd be wherever the most people are. While one of his teammates is standing behind a table with inflatable footballs and other free swag, looking uncomfortable every time someone approaches, Brogan is laughing and chatting away with a little boy wearing red headphones over his ears at the front of the hearing test line. The boy is sitting in a chair and behind him a man presses buttons. The little boy raises his right arm, then his left in response to the test.
The line for the test rivals the one for face painting, and my guess is that has more to do with the Maverick player helping out than a wave of interest in having their hearing evaluated. My steps slow as I get closer to him. Brogan helps the boy remove the headphones and then holds out his hand for a high-five.
The glee on the boyâs face is so sweet as he smacks his tiny palm against Broganâs much larger one. I can see now why the Mavericks do this for the community and I have newfound respect for the organization and the players.
Brogan reaches for a roll of stickers on a folding table that blocks off one side of the test area. When the boy stands from the test, Brogan takes one and presses it to the kidâs shirt.
âNice job, little man.â
âIt was just like you said.â The boy grins, showing off two missing front teeth. âIt didnât hurt at all.â
âYou were amazing and so brave.â
He bounces off and Brogan turns slightly. His gaze scans over me and the line of waiting kids to my right, then he does a double take back to me as if just realizing who he saw.
As the kid at the front bounds forward and into the chair, Broganâs smile widens on me. âHey. How was face painting?â
âIt was fun.â I move toward him and then hesitate. âAm I allowed to be in here?â
âYeah, of course.â He wraps an arm casually around my waist and gives me a little squeeze. âI saw several of your pieces walking around. They look good. No shock there.â
âMy pieces?â
He points toward a girl in line with the Mavericks logo on her face.
âOh. Thanks. I was kind of slow and the others were way better at it, but I enjoyed it.â
âTake the compliment, sweetheart.â
Itâs the second time heâs called me that today and my stomach does this weird flip. I like it. I think if this were for real, it would fit us.
He keeps smiling at me and we are in a stare-off until the kid in the chair singsongs, âCan I have a sticker?â
Broganâs stare holds on me for another moment before he turns back around and drops his arm.
âAs soon as youâre done with the test,â Brogan promises.
I stick close and try to offer the kid a reassuring smile as the woman giving the test explains that heâll wear headphones and sheâll play a series of sounds and heâll raise his right or left hand depending on which side he hears it. The kid looks a little nervous now despite being so eager and confident before.
âItâs a piece of cake,â Brogan says as he places the headphones over the boyâs ears with care. âReady?â
âI donât knowâ¦â He glances around. âWhat if I donât pass? Sometimes I listen to the TV too loud and my mom says Iâm going to hurt my ears.â
Most people, myself included, would probably blow off this kidâs concern and promise that everything is okay. But Brogan doesnât do either of those things.
He squats down in front of him. âThis isnât a pass or fail test. Itâs just to get more information.â
âBut what if I canât hear?â He puts both hands over the headphones protectively.
âYou know what? My brother is deaf. He canât hear well, and heâs still the coolest guy I know.â
âHe canât?â The boyâs eyes widen.
âHe wears a special device on both ears to help, but without them, you could be shouting behind him, and he wouldnât know. Being hard of hearing or deaf doesnât mean you canât do the things you want. He plays football, watches TVâ¦and he uses his hands to communicate. Whatâs your name?â
âMichael.â
Brogan signs something then says, âI just said âItâs nice to meet you, Michael. My name is Brogan.ââ
âThatâs so cool. Itâs like a secret handshake. Can you teach me?â
âIâd love to, but this nice lady has a line of kids waiting. Think youâre ready now?â
The boy nods and his face grows serious as he wiggles in his seat to sit straighter.
Brogan chuckles, pats the kid on the knee, and stands.
My heart melts to the floor.
It goes on like that for a while. Some of the kids are eager; others are nervous. I stand next to Brogan, observing more than helping. Heâs good with the kids. He knows what to say or do to put them at ease. Heâs funny and goofy, which most of the kids love, but the ones that need more reassurance get that from him too.
About twenty minutes before his turn at the autograph tent, another player arrives to take his place. Brogan leads me outside and weâre immediately engulfed in people. The sun is high in the sky and itâs a perfect blue-sky day without a cloud in sight. Which also means itâs hot.
In the food area, we grab lunch. I get a hot dog and chips, and Brogan gets two hot dogs, a hamburger, chips, and a large pickle. We sit in the shade next to a couple of misters. There are a few other football players also eating, but theyâre scattered around among everyone else.
Iâm surprised to notice that nobody approaches the players, even though theyâre mere feet away from them. They all seem to want to respect their time while they eat. That doesnât stop them from staring though.
âI donât know how you ever get used to this,â I say as I open my bag of chips and do my best to pretend people arenât watching us. Him, really, but me by extension.
âWhat?â he asks, completely oblivious. He takes a huge bite of the hot dog while he waits for my response.
âEveryone staring all the time. Is it always like this?â
He nods while he chews, then takes a drink of his water before saying, âYeah, I guess so. But itâs all pretty new. No one was doing much staring before I was drafted, so I donât mind. Itâs a novelty thatâll wear off, Iâm sure.â
The shrug that accompanies that answer is so him. So casual and unaffected by being the center of attention. Itâs not like I donât think he enjoys it. He obviously does. But he seems to have a good awareness that itâs this fleeting, amazing thing instead of it being his entire personality and reason for existing.
It makes me like him even more. He could easily let it all go to his head, but he hasnât, and I hope he never does. Heâs a really cool guyâwords I am shocked to think.
âYour brotherâ¦Archer. Heâs the one you were talking about with the little kid, right?â I ask, then add, âI noticed the hearing aid when you introduced me earlier.â
âYeah. Thatâs right. Heâd probably kill me for sharing so much, but he really is the best guy I know, and I donât want kids to be freaked out by people that are different than them. People find out someone is deaf or has some other disability and that becomes their entire personality. Iâve seen it happen to Arch, seen the way heâs fought against it since we were kids. He learned to read lips because so few people around him knew ASL. He compensates a million different ways so that people donât feel like they need to give him special treatment.â
âI get that.â
âMe too, but itâs bullshit. We should be happy to make simple alterations to accommodate people that need it. Everyone should learn sign language. At least the basics. Andâ¦â He stops. âClearly I could go on and on about this. Sorry.â He offers a sheepish smile and then takes a huge bite to finish off one hot dog.
âNo, youâre right. The world would be a much better place if we all had a little more empathy.â
He grins at me, mouth still full. We finish our food with neither of us mentioning Archer again, but Iâm still thinking about what Brogan said as I watch him sign jerseys and hats for adoring fans and after when we head over to the dunk tank.
His brother is there and when he spots us, his smile widens.
âShouldnât you be doing something useful?â Brogan asks him as we stop in front of him. They have this teasing banter, but itâs easy to see how much they care about one another just in the easy smiles and goofiness they both slip into.
âAnd miss this?â Archer shakes his head. âNot a chance.â
Brogan sighs and glances at me. âIâll be back in thirty minutes. If I donât see you when Iâm done, Iâll shoot you a text.â
My brows tug together.
âIn case you want to walk around or whatever.â
âAnd miss this?â I ask, parroting Archerâs words.
Brogan lets his chin fall to his chest and chuckles. âPerfect. Only our second date and my girl is going to watch me make a fool of myself.â
âShe might as well get used to it,â Archer says.
Brogan punches him in the arm as he walks away. Archer moves to stand beside me, still laughing quietly. âAre you having a good time?â
I remember what Brogan said about Archer reading lips so I angle myself so itâs easier for him. âI am actually. Itâs obvious a lot of time and consideration went into planning it. Do you do a lot of big community events like this?â
âThis is only the second one weâve had to attend since we joined the team, but I think the Mavericks front office does a lot more.â
âDo you guys hate doing them?â
âItâs not that. I think itâs a great idea. Itâs justâ¦being forced to do anything makes it a little less fun.â
Brogan is getting into the tank now and sitting on a ledge with his feet dangling into the water. His grin is so wide you would never know that a minute ago he was worried about making a fool of himself.
âDoes he know that?â I ask as I tip my head toward where the first kid is about to toss a mini football toward a target.
âHe doesnât know how to not have fun. In case you havenât already realized that.â Archerâs smile speaks of a fondness and bond that cements what I already knewâtheyâre close.
âI think Iâm starting to get that,â I say with a small laugh.
Archerâs face goes serious, still smiling but thereâs a warning too. âDonât let him fool you, though. He acts like everything is great even when itâs not.â
âOh.â I glance back at Brogan. I feel like thereâs more he wants to say, but doesnât. âIs there something I should know?â
âNo. You already know heâs struggling with his reputation.â
I nod because I do. Seeing him in action today, Iâd forgotten. Itâs easy to be with him and lose sight of our reasons for doing this.
âIâm glad you two are helping each other,â Archer says. âBut I hope when itâs all over, this fake relationship wonât have caused more damage than it fixed. For both of you.â
âMe too. I promise to keep that in mind.â
He offers me a smile, and I can feel the weight of his relief. He cares about his brother a lot. I guess Iâd feel the same if it were Sierra in my shoes.
âSpeaking of helpingâ¦â I motion toward Brogan. Iâve been hanging back all day, not fully committing to this whole act. But the reminder of whatâs at stake for him, has me moving toward the table where theyâre selling chances to toss a ball at the target. âWant to help me dunk my boyfriend into a tank of water?â
One side of his mouth lifts. âDefinitely.â