Chapter 13: Want

am static, staring at her. What the hell is she saying?

"Ano ulit yun Maxine?"

"You heard me just fine, Col is not at home." She crosses her arms on her chest, still leaning against the door.

I start to look around, I'm alone with her in my apartment and she is blocking my way out.

"You told me she needs me."

"I know, I lied, I need to talk to you." She declares as it justifies her lying and coercing me to come here.

"So, you tricked me? You could just have asked me to talk to you."

I despise when people manipulate me, what's wrong with a simple 'let's talk, please?' Why can't she apply it? And why does she never ask me things instead of bossing me around? I could bet a thousand dollars she has never used the word 'please' in her life.

"Oh, could I now? Hindi mo nga ako pinansin for the whole week." It was a statement, not a question.

"No, I haven't, it just happened, Very busy kasi ako this week maxine, it's not that I'm avoiding u"

"Save it, Quinn, you didn't come here in the apartment once this whole week. I'm sure you would need to take something from your room or even talk to your brother at least once." She seemed annoyed with me. She is not a fool, and she doesn't even pretend she is believing in what I'm saying.

"As I said I was pretty busy," I seriously affirm the audacity she has, to be doubting me like that. Ok, I indeed avoid her, but couldn't she be at least a bit stupid, or at least pretend she believes me? It is called courtesy.

What am I thinking? She cannot even say 'please' why should I expect she would be well-mannered?

"Say what you want, we both know why you acted like that. But this is not what I want to discuss with you."

"So ano yung gusto mong pag usapan max?" I asked, also crossing my arms on my chest. If she wants to be annoyed, well, I'm annoyed too.

She springs moving in my direction, my instinct reacts quickly running away, stepping back each time she comes closer. I immediately use the couch as a shield, positioning myself in a way it is between us. I need to retain some distance from her. She is dangerous to me, now I know that. The last time we kissed, she got me begging her to fuck me, who knows what can happen this time.

"I want to talk about what happened last week, in your room, for a start." She moistens her lips. God her lips, just work as a reminder of how tasteful they are.

"Ano'ng meron don?"

If she thinks I'll be the one admitting it, she doesn't know me at all. I'm already embarrassed that I threw myself at her, and she rejected me. Maybe it doesn't seem like it, but I have my pride. A lot of it, Jeremy used to call me 'tuff head', let me declare about it: I'm not!

"Are you having a lack of memory today? Or do you think I'm the kind of guy who would fall in this game of yours?"

"I don't care what you think Maxine, just spill it out. It is you who wants to talk to me remember? And not the other way around."

"You are so feisty sometimes." She is watching me, pouting, while she is reflecting. If I didn't know her better, I would presume she is admiring me. "Ok, so I will be clear. I want you." She proceeded.

"What?"

"Come on Quinn! You know already. I. Want. To. Fuck. You." She paused separating each word. "Badly." She finishes sucking her lower lip. That awakens something inside of me. My lower parts are throbbing, and I desperately wish it was me sucking her lip.

I gasp, how should I reply to it? Ok, I want to fuck her too, but I'm not used to being this open about something. Especially not this. Does she assume I'm used to sleeping with guys easily? Well, I did tell her to fuck me last Saturday. Maybe I gave her the wrong impression.

I don't know for how long I remained staring at her, considering whatever I would tell her, opening my mouth just to close it again, resembling a fish.

I think it was long enough because after she took a long breath, she spoke again.

"I know you want me too, Quinn." She pronounces it in such a sweet tone, watching deep in my eyes. If it was any other girl, I would think she is talking about love and not purely sex. I can't deny the point that I want her, as badly, if not more than her. "So, the question is, were you serious sa sinabi mo kay mila nung naguusap kayo sa hallway nung na lockan kau ng apartment?"

"Ano?"

What is she referring to?

I glance at her, she is grinning again, same as that day, when Mila and I have been locked outside the apartment and talked about the vibrator in the hall. I would recognize this evil grin from miles away.

"Were you eavesdropping on us?"

"Yeah, you already know I was, get over it."

My mouth drops open, is she serious?

"I want to know if you were serious when you said you are not looking for a relationship, that you prefer to have a fling. Did you mean it?" She asked me, putting her bottom lip between her teeth again and analyzing my reaction.

"What does this have to do with you? It's personal stuff you shouldn't have heard."

I must admit it, since that day when I saw her running to the kitchen and grinning evilly, I knew something was up. Everything makes sense now. She was listening to our conversation, that's how she knew about the vibrator and its location. After all, it was on the very same day I couldn't find it anymore. It was when she took it. The question is, how much has she heard? I know we have talked about a lot of personal stuff, has she heard it all?

"This has everything to do with me."

"And why is that?" I asked petulantly. She is disturbingly irritating.

"Because I want to have a fling with you Quinn. But I want to make everything clear first. I don't do dates, I'm not a girlfriend kind of girl"

"Well, nalaman ko naman na un."

She grins with my response, as it is something she should be proud of. Well, she probably is, maybe she even has a list of names that she keeps under her pillow. The big chance is it contains half of the city. Imagine her future wife trying to find a name for their daughter without using any of her ex's names. The poor woman will end up naming her child 'Ida' or any older name. If, and that is a big IF, Maxine hasn't attacked any asylum. I won't put my hand on fire about it.

Well, having a list implies she knows the girls' names. Debatable.

It makes me wonder why me? Am I a challenge? An excite defiance since she has to cover it from my brother? At least she knows my name.

Am I patronizing her? Nooo0...

"So, are you in? Can we have a fling? A no strings attached relationship where we just have fun with each other? I can provide you with a lot of fun Quinn." She said the last part very slowly. And restarts to move, skirting the couch to reach me.

I haven't apprehended how aroused I am before she said this. I could hear her accent get stronger depending on the word she is pronouncing, complemented by her husky voice just makes my panties completely soaked. I fight against the urge to touch myself right there.

Instead, my instinct acts again, and I restart to move in the opposite way she is coming from, not knowing why but aiming at the apartment door. I feel like she is a lion and I'm her prey, she is hunting me, her eyes are eager. She is good on the hunting thing, though. She senses me heading towards the door and changes her way, blocking my way out. "Answer me, Quinn, I won't let you leave without answering me."

"I don't know Maxine. I'm not looking for a relationship, but at the same time, I'm not comfortable establishing things like this and being sure we are not going anywhere even before starting anything."

"But we are going somewhere, Quinn." She tells me, smiling.

"Uh?"

"Yeah," She said excitedly; "we are going to your room, or my room now. You will go firstly, and you will wait for me naked on your bed."

I pant.

"What the hell?" In your dreams, sassy girl.

"Yes, I will prove to you how good this," and then she points her finger to her and me, revealing she is talking about us. "Can be. You will agree with me by the end of it." My mouth opens again. I'm often astonished around her. She is too sure about this, about her power over me.

"Pano mo naman nasabi na susunod ako sa mga inuutos mo?"

"Because there is only one important thing you have to know about me, Quinn."

"What is it?" I asked rolling my eyes.

"I always get what I want and I want you."

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