Dishonest

Jake's pov

I knew his sickness was getting worse but not the point where he slides down a wall and passes out. I quickly picked him up and checked his pulse which, thankfully, he was still alive.

I don't know what I'm supposed to do.. I mean maybe I could..? No.. I can take care of him myself. Maybe then he'll forgive me...

I quickly ran towards the exit that was closest to us since there was no way I was letting the nurse touch him. What could they do anyway? This is between us.

I left the school and ran through the woods going the only place I knew he'd be okay. I rushed up the hill into my house and laid him on my sofa. Now I really don't know what to do...

What do people do when someone is sick in the movies? Wet towel? Soup? Whatever.

I rushed to the bathroom to get towel and started to wet it.

*Nathan's pov*

I wasn't sure if I was fully awake but I feel a lot of movement. Well I guess I am awake if I can feel but I can't open my eyes...

After a few minutes of me trying to pry them open I started smell something really good. I don't think it's food either..

That woke me right up.

I was going to sit up but I see a hand wiping my forehead. I followed the hand to the person and it was Jake with his eyebrows furrowed. Why is he wiping my forehead and why does it feel so aggravated?

It's like his smell is surrounding me...

I'm in his house aren't I?

I reached up and grabbed his hand and slowly sat up.

"You can stop now."

"Nathan! How do you feel?"

I placed my hand on my forehead to soothe the skin.

"I feel fine other than you trying to rub my skin off."

"Sorry.. I didn't know what to do."

"Clearly."

I stood up and looked around

"What are you doing?"

"I'm leaving."

He stood up from his stool that was in front of me

"You can't leave now."

"I said I'm fine."

"Yeah for now but what if you pass out again? Don't be irrational. Us being close helps to reduce the sickness."

"Us being close will lead to something that I clearly stated I don't want to do."

He grabbed my wrist gently which kind took me off guard especially with the sparks riding up my arm.

"None of that is in my mind right now. I just want to know you're safe so please stay?"

I accidentally stared into his eyes again and groaned. I pulled my wrist from his hands and crossed my arms.

"Fine just stop caring, it's weird."

"Sure."

He smiled and I sat back down on his couch. It's unsettling to see him being so worried and caring towards me. I definitely wasn't use to this and I don't think I ever will be. He pushed away the stool and sat next to me which I just got up and sighed. It's really quiet and I'm already tired of this awkward atmosphere.

"Do you have anything to eat?"

Not only was this a great idea to get him away from me but also because I'm hungry. Passing out took a lot out of me..

Wait... I'm hungry?

I guess being closer really does help.

"Uh yeah, what do you want?"

"I don't know just get me chips or something."

He got up and went into where I assume is his kitchen. I sat back down and really looked around. I expected his house to be a little dirtier than this. Actually a lot dirtier than this but it looks like it's cleaned everyday. Probably maids or something.

He came back with about five party sized bags of chips

"Why do you have so many?"

"I didn't know which one you wanted.."

I rolled my eyes and just grabbed one. He put the rest of them on the table behind the couch and sat back down next to me. I was trying my hardest to disapprove of his distance but there was a small hum in the back of my head overpowering my forced discomfort.

"So..."

"You don't have to talk."

We both silently sat there, eating chips which after a while he just decided to turn on his TV.

He should've just done that in the first place..

I wasn't paying attention to what was playing but I did notice the constant tapping sound of Jake's foot.

"We have to talk."

He shut off the TV and turned towards me. I probably would've said no if I hadn't been bored out of my mind. Not to mention I can't go anywhere anyway.

"So talk."

"The full moon is in a few days-"

"Not about that."

"Well at this point we have to. I know you're big on this 'I have no control' thing but letting yourself die? Isn't that a bit much?"

"I happen to think it's not enough."

"It's selfish."

I glared at him and stood up, him following my movement

"You have no right to try and preach to me about being selfish. I spent a year having to deal with you being selfish. You never seemed to care but now that you're life is the one that's on the line, I'm in the wrong?"

"If taking me down with you is what you want then fine but don't do this to yourself.. It's not worth it Nathan."

"It isn't about worthiness it's about doing what I want for once! It's about getting even!"

"So what do you want then!"

"Why is this hard for you to grasp? Leave me alone! It's so simple!"

"I won't leave you alone just to die!"

"Why do you care anymore!"

"I'm in love with you, Nathan! Did you forget that we're mates? It might not mean much to you, but it means a hell of a lot to me!"

I wanted to yell back but I couldn't think of anything that wouldn't be repeating what I've said already.

Once Jake saw that I wasn't going to respond back he sighed

"Like I said, I know you want to control your own life but being impulsive won't solve anything. I really am sorry for how I treated you and I know sorry won't fix anything but I don't want to just... lose you. I want to try and make amends with you, if you'd let me?"

I was irritated that I didn't say anything. Irritated because he was acting like he had walked the path of peace in a week and I was still the one who suffered.

I especially irritated when I felt my eyes  start to water. Not here. Not in his house.

Jake saw that I had calmed down and thankfully he didn't seem to notice what almost came out my eyes.

"So..? Where do we go from here?"

"To bed."

He smiled slightly and made his way up some stairs. I indolently followed him and he pushed open a door that I knew was his room. It was just filled to the brim with his scent which shocked my body. I covered up my falter by clearing my throat and crossing my arms.

"Nathan? Are you okay?"

Shit he noticed

"What? Yeah I'm fine.."

He shrugged in response and sat on his bed.

"I'm not sl-..."

"Hm?"

I felt a little dizzy and that hum in the back of my head was a little louder.

"I said um.. nevermind."

Jake furrowed his eyebrows and stood up walking over to me

"Are you sure you-"

"Yes! Yes I'm fine."

I quickly walked to his bed and sat down. Something is wrong. I can feel my body starting to tingle. Not in a good way either. Like pins and needles.

I cleared my throat and just laid down with my back towards Jake. If I just go to sleep the feeling should be gone right?

I inhaled but again I felt dizzy and I could tell it was from the scent of the pillow under my head. I cleared my throat again hoping that I didn't just sound like a growl. Maybe I should...

My mind is going blank. It feels like I'm being drowned out of my own mind.

Jake's pov

"Nathan?"

I heard him let out some kind of strained noise. I went to shake his shoulder but it felt like I was hit in the face with the most mouthwatering scent I've ever come across. It shocked me so much that I was frozen.

𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘦

I lowered my hand. It was like I could feel my pulse throughout my whole body. Nathan...

Hey guys it's me from 2022. So realistically I wouldn't have made the chapter like this because it wouldn't have made sense according to Nathan's feelings, but honestly this book seems like its being set up for the second one. There's not really a plot so I'll just keep it somewhat the same. Also.. I don't write smut anymore I KNOW I'M SORRY it's just uncomfy sometimes. Love yall.