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Y/N

"What's going on with you?" I heard as I quickly turned seeing Spencer leaning on my room door. I quickly paused my tv that was playing music and got up.

"What the hell are you doing here? No how the hell did you get in the house?!" I asked pulling the lounge dress I had on down as he just looked at my dress.

He then cleared his throat as his eyes quickly went to my face. "Your mother let me in" he started off nervously some. "Aren't you supposed to be at practice? Why are you even here?" She asked. "You haven't been talking to me. Every time I look at you,you don't even look in my direction, you don't acknowledge me. Every time I'm trying to talk to you or get your attention you ignore me. I thought we were good?!" He questioned.

"That's why you missed practice?" I started off "what the fuck is wrong with you Spence? You missed practice because I was avoiding you?" I asked "does that even make sense?!" I added.

"Look I can't talk to you at school , you're ignoring my texts and calls clearly so, me telling coach I'm sick for one practice is straight" he said as I just bit the inside of my cheek and crossed my arms.

"Well you got to go" I started off heading for my door but he stopped me. "So we're really not going to talk about why you're avoiding me?" He asked as I sighed. "Spencer please?" I asked. "Why won't you just simply tell me why you're avoiding me? I literally watched you look at one of my texts and you still didn't respond and the fucked up thing about it was you knew I seen you" he expressed clearly hurt as I just looked down.

"I'm up here" he softly said as I just looked at him. "Why you acting weird?" He asked looking down at me. "No why you acting weird to ME?!" I thought to myself. He knew what he was doing asking me shit all soft.

"Just go home please? I got some homework I got to finish" I said. "Y/N" he called out. "Spencer why?" I asked "don't you have a girl friend?!" I questioned. "Because of you, aight?" He expressed walking towards me some.

I just stood there not knowing what to do or say. "So you're jumping through all these hoops of trying to talk to me and missed practice-" I started off "for you" he said as I looked at him and just seen he wasn't bull shitting which made me a little scared. Scared not because I was scared of him because I actually felt safe with him but scared because of him being adamant about me. What boy at our age is really adamant about a girl unless they trying to fuck and then even then they let up.

"So talk to me" he added "Spencer if I talk to you, really what would it change?" I asked "we won't know because you haven't said anything" he shot back. "You have Layla and I have homework, so" I started off as he wasn't budging he just simply shrugged his shoulders.

"You dead ass?" I asked "yeah because the one thing you can do is tell me why you're avoiding me. I would respect it more if you told me" he expressed. "Layla and Olivia is the reason why I'm avoiding you." I answered. "I came down for summer break thinking I wasn't going to like any guys, and ended up liking you." I truthfully said.

"I thought I was going back home so I thought you'd be out my system once I got back home but things happened." I added

"Now I realized us hanging out was creating drama, drama with you and your girl, drama with me and her, drama with you and Olivia, drama with me and her. Hell even drama with Cam. It was too much" I started off.

"And I just want to go through junior and senior year without unnecessary bullshit and without being noticed but it's kind of hard so what better way to avoid the drama then to stop talking to you?" I questioned. "So I've been avoiding you" I admitted.

"I don't even know what to say" he started off "yeah I'm sure you don't" I simply said "and what is that supposed to mean

Y/N?" He asked. "Meaning we should've never got as close as we did and we should've never had that kiss" I admitted as we just looked at each other. "Because now look at what it's causing" I added. "Besides Don't ruin what you got with your girl for one girl" I brought up.

"How can I ruin something That's already ruined?" He asked. "So why be with her and waste her time?" I questioned

" because I know that the girl I truly want isn't going to date me because of two other girls." He expressed

"You avoided me for weeks and didn't give no explanation and the thing Is I would've never did you like that even if Layla was in my ear." he said

"It's just better for all of us" I said as he just nodded and placed his hands in his hoodie pocket.

"We can talk and be cool but I just think we need to dial it back some" I suggested before I gave him a kiss on his cheek as he looked at me and I pulled away slowly. He was leaning in to kiss my lips as I was going to kiss him back but I just placed my hands on his chest and looked down.

"I'll see you at school tomorrow" he said before kissing my head as I just nodded and he walked around me. "Make sure you not missing anymore practices" I said as he just chuckled and I faintly smiled. He walked out the front door downstairs as I went to go lock it.

I just looked at the ceiling "God what are you doing?" I asked before going back upstairs. I turned my music back on and continued to do my homework. My phone vibrated notifying me I had a text. I picked my phone up seeing a missed call from Cam along with a text from him.

Cam: can we talk?

I read as I scrunched my brows at the text some I paused my music  and decided to call him. He answered on the second ring. "Hello?" I answered "Hi Y/N" he started off then sighed "I uh been wanting to talk to you and get up the courage to talk about the night at the party" he started off as I sat up.

"Um yeah" I said "I wanted to apologize to you. I know this doesn't excuse my actions and I'm not excusing them because I should've never gotten that drunk first off and I should've never been forcing myself on you. That's not like me and it was wrong" he explained as I didn't know what to say or how to react I didn't want to come off as a bitch because he is apologizing .

"I know you might not want to deal with me after this situation and I can't fix any trauma that I may have caused but I just wanted to apologize" he expressed as I looked down. "Well thank you for your apology." I thanked. "We can just be cool from a distance until the time is right to be closer" I assured. "Thats understandable" he said as we said our goodbyes and I let out a breath of relief.

About three hours later I heard my mother walk into the house loudly. For what? I don't know but she did. "Y/N!" She shouted as I placed down the book I was reading. I went downstairs as I seen my mother and Storm. "Can you get my phone out of the truck please?" She asked as I just straight faced her. I went out to the car opening the door as I seen a puppy just sitting there.

"Awwww" I said with a big smile as I took it out of the Car, realizing it was a girl. I heard my mother come outside. "Your therapist said an emotional support animal was good for grief so I got you a puppy" she explained as I smiled then thanked her.