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Y/N

It was Christmas Day as we were getting ready for the party my mother was having which was downstairs. I was in the mirror looking at myself. "Is it-" I started off "not too much, you look pretty" serenity assured as I just stood there looking at myself. "Have you told Spencer about what you had going on in New York?" She asked as I fixed my hair in the mirror some.

"Serenity what are you talking about?" I asked  "what are you talking about?" I asked. "Y/N why do you have these?" She questioned as I turned seeing her hold up a prescribed bottle of "oxycodone". "Y/N don't do this bullshit here. You're here to have a better life" she said. "I only used it a couple of times after my father passed" I admitted. "Well it doesn't look like there's a lot in here" she brought up.

"I had some when I wasn't talking to Spencer" I added "are you serious?!" She asked as I just stood there. "I'm not addicted to them they just calm my nerves down and make me fall asleep easier." I argued. "Take a fucking melatonin then" she started off then headed for the bathroom. "I'm flushing these down the toilet"  she said as I just sighed and watched her.

"You're being over dramatic for what?" I asked "dramatic?!bitch are you high?!. You almost died last time!" She expressed then looked at me. "Oh my gosh you're on it right now" she brought up as I looked at her crazy. "No I'm not" I truthfully said. "Then why you asking those dumb ass questions?" She asked. "Serenity relax" I simply said. "No, after this party I'm letting your mother know and I'm letting Spencer know too" she said.

"Serenity no, I heard how they did Liv and please no" I pleaded. "No every time I think you're done you pop up with another prescription. No what kind of best friend would I be enabling this shit?" She asked as I sighed. "If you tell Spencer, he's not going to deal with me anymore" I said as she shook her head. "I don't care they need to know what's going on so they can deal with it now before it becomes what it did back then" she said as I just sighed.

"Go get help it's okay to do that" she assured "and your aunt was fucked up for introducing that to you" she added. "Can I at least tell Spencer myself?" I asked. "Yeah" she answered grabbing her phone "Jordan's here" she said before going downstairs.  I placed my earrings in my ear

as there was a knock on my door and I didn't turn around.

"Come in" I said as I looked up in my mirror seeing Spencer come in and close the door behind him. "Merry Christmas" he said as I smiled "Merry Christmas" I said. "You look pretty" he complimented as I looked down at my dress

As I was about to thank him but he stopped me.

"Don't do it" he warned. "Thank you Spencer" I thanked as we smiled.

"can I um talk to you about something?" I asked as he nodded. "What's wrong?" He asked as I picked my necklace up from the dresser about to put it on but he stopped me taking the necklace out of my hand.

"Uh when I was fifteen I was with my aunt and I would stay with her from time to time when my father was working. So one day I had a really bad anxiety attack and my aunt gave me an oxycodone to relax me" I started off and looked down at my hands. "And when I didn't relax off of that she gave me a second one" I said as I felt him look at me.

"It sounds like she was trying to kill you" Spencer brought up concerned as I felt tears fall from my eyes. "I then started taking it every time I would feel any type of anxiety and one time she told me to take three and I was out of it, I had to go to the hospital and because I was scared I never told on her or told anyone else til today what really happened." I explained.

"Are you still taking it?" He asked as I just played with my hand. "I took a break for like a year and when we went to my fathers funeral my aunt suggested I take them to cope with the lost of my father." I truthfully said. "I didn't take much because I was in counseling but when I stopped talking to you It was like it was there and I took it to not feel any pain" I admitted as I looked at him and he dropped his head.

"I wanted to tell you before you had to find out through someone else. So if you don't want to deal with me, it's fine. I understand" I said before looking back down at my hands.

I then dabbed my tears from under my eyes and did a minor fix to my make up. I then felt Spencer move my hair over my shoulder.

"I'm not letting up that easy" he said as I looked at him and he stood behind me placing my necklace on. "We all got a past

Y/N" he started off as I looked at him through the mirror. "just promise me you're going to get help" he said as I nodded. "I promise" I softly said as he turned me around and hugged me.

"So since we starting Christmas on the bad news first" I started off as I gave him a look "what'd you do?" I asked. "Not me what your cousin did" he said as I just sighed "which one?" I asked "Olivia" he answered. "She was being nice but you know" he said with a shrug. "Layla's in this house isn't she?" I asked. "Yes but Coop, Patience we all got it under control" he said. "Ashers here too" he quickly added as I just looked at him.

"You lucky you're cute" I said making him laugh.

"But Y'all better because she in my house now" I warned placing my heels on as he chuckled. "Let's go before people start wondering where we're at" he said grabbing my hand. "You should probably go downstairs first" I said to him. "Girl come on" he said moving me in front of him as we headed downstairs seeing the house dark but lights everywhere, full of people dancing and talking.

I then seen Patience wave at me as I smiled and waved back. Serenity just smirked as we walked towards them.

My uncle and his family was here, as my mother had a couple of her co workers here along with their kids, the whole dance team was here, Spencer, his mother and brother, Chris, Coop, Serenity, Patience, Alexis and her boyfriend Christian then Asher and Layla. It was a lot going on but it was nice.

"What were you two doing?" Serenity asked in my ear as he was going around dapping his boys up. "I told him" I admitted "and how'd it go?" She asked as I faintly smiled "it went good" I said smiling over at him. "We just want you to be okay" serenity said placing an arm around me. "Yeah I know" I said hugging her back. "You two was up there for a minute" Patience teased. "Yeah Spencer dicked me down in the matter of five minutes" I sarcastically said making serenity and Patience laugh.

"Wait you two are together?!" Coop asked over the music. "Nah we're just friends it was a joke" I said as we all shared a laugh. "Well you need to go dance with your FRIEND so I can dance with my girl" Coop said taking Patience away as I laughed. Jordan and Chris then left Spencer linking up with serenity and Olivia as I just went and leaned on the walkway of   The area Everyone was dancing at.

I just smiled at everyone boo'd up including my sister. I then seen Spencer out the corner of my eye come beside me as I just smiled at him. "They left me" he stated as I let out a small laugh. "Yeah but they're happy" I said watching them all dance. We then seen Dillon come up to us "look at you looking all beautiful" he started off as Spencer and I shared a look and a small laugh. "You doing good because your brother didn't even call me beautiful" I said to Dillon as Spencer chuckled.

"You better treat her right because as soon as I turn 18 she'll be the first person I call." Dillon explained as We just laughed.

"She'll be married with kids by then I'm sure" Spencer said as I  laughed. "You want to dance?" Dillon asked me as I giggled. "I don't want to leave your brother hanging" I said. "He can third wheel" Dillon said as Spencer chuckled "alright move" Spencer said mushing him some as I laughed.

I then seen Ms. Grace waving at Spencer and I "mom wants you" Spencer lied as Dillon turned and went over to Ms. Grace. "I don't know he's starting to have more game than you" I said as he chuckled. Ms. Grace then pointed to the ceiling as we looked at her crazy before looking up.

We looked up seeing a Mistletoe "well shit" I said to myself as he chuckled. "I already knew it was up there" he started off as I laughed "no you didn't" I said. "Yeah I did, because I'm the one that put it up there" he said turning towards me with a smile. "No you did not" I said as we smiled at each other before he kissed my lips.

I slowly kissed back placing my hand on his cheek. We then pulled away and smiled at each other before we felt eyes on us. We turned our heads seeing both our mothers grinning. "I will not hear the end of this" Spencer said as I laughed "let me move from under here before other people start expecting us to kiss" I said "or before Asher might meet you under the mistletoe" Spencer joked. "Ha Ha Ha" I sarcastically said as he followed behind me chuckling.