Chapter 11

"We shouldn't have said all that. We should have tried to know the truth before accusing that poor girl. How are we ever going to apologize enough? And Arnav bitwa you released her video with nasty comments, how can be so cruel? Ho my god, how will I repent for the sins "Nani wept

"we have to apologize to her Nani, hey bagavan how will I face her after saying things so nasty about her" Anjali cried loudly and Mami trying to pacify her. Arnav couldn't stay there and listen to all this knowing if he was thoughtful enough to learn the truth , all this could have avoided .

He took solace in his room just like Akash who doesn't know how will he show his face to payal ever again. He stood there when her sister was abused and he did nothing but to show disgust.

Arnav sat at pool side not knowing how to repent and for which mistake he has to repent. From the day one all he did was to hurt her. He was cruel to her and showered abuses at her. He hasn't said anything new to her today. He has been accusing her of all these things from start then why does he feel he will live to regret everything he ever accused off. Why did it feel like somebody is chocking him? Why does it feel like his heart is weeping?

Why did he do all these without trying to know the truth? Yes, he was afraid of history getting repeated, worried about di's happiness. But if that was the reason why did he come and say the family about all this. He should have never let his di know about it if her married life was his priority. He should have done things some other way. Then why did he felt the need to punish khushi, to hurt her then and there. Why did it felt like she betrayed him, why did he felt so jealous that made him do things which could have handled in a better way? When he heard about engagement why did it felt like somebody is snatching which belongs to him.

MA...what have I done? I hurt that girl just because she managed to bring the emotions I have hided .I punished her for pushing me to be a better man. I refused her because I couldn't accept that a middle class girl could stir my heart. Make me feel the unknown feeling which I was running away from. Why do I feel like I will never find peace without her? Why do I feel will never find happiness if it is not with her ma? Why did I felt like I will die the moment I heard about her engagement, the immense anger to burn down anything and everything that come between him and his girl, the range to destroy anything that... that took his love from him...

HIS LOVE? His love.....his girl........love is that what he feels for her....

Is this what he was always refused to accept? Is that why he always wanted to see her, have the immense joy seeing her happiness and immense pain he always felt when he see her tears just like today even when most of the times he was the cause for the same. He loves the girl he clime to hate. He loves the girl whom he has never left an opportunity to hurt, who he mercilessly abused. The need to destroy anything that comes in between him and Khushi even if that's she herself. Isn't why he did all those things downstairs? His Di's life was just a wrap.

MA....What will I do now? How will I go and tell her about my feelings? Will she ever forgive me for everything I did to her.? Will she trust me if I say her about it? I need her ma...I need her in my life badly ....

Khushi....is she okay? Why is he feeling like she is not okay?

"How will she be okay after the stunt you pulled today "his conscious mocked him.

That when he remembered Shyam saying she was sick and down with fever .To make it worse today's incident would have affected her .....Arnav loathed himself for everything he did. Why is he like this? He was worried. He immediately took his phone and called khushi .Switched off. He tried the landline number...Busy. He desperately wanted to know if she is okay...safe...He immediately took his car keys and left. But to his bad luck he was stopped by his nani who wanted to have a word with him immediately.

Gupta house...

The moment they saw khushi at the door step they knew something bad has happened. They took a weeping Khushi to bedroom and made her lay down. Khushi hugged Payal while still laying and cried bitterly.

"Jiji...They...they said I lure men...i have ...have charms..to tr..trap even married man."Khushi with great difficulty managed to say in between her sobs.

Payal tried to calm her down after so much efforts from her , Buaji and their Amma ,khushi stopped crying. Later Khushi explained everything that happened at RM ..every single word thrown at her. Gupta too cried at their girl's fate to bore everything without any fault of her. After an hour when Shyam phoned Buaji said him that they are not angry with him but she will never let her titilia suffer any more at the hand of Raizadas.

Later the day, Guptas shifted an unconscious Khushi to a nearby hospital as the fever and today's events took toll on her.