Mixed Emotions

Jezzabelle's POV

"This is to much" I gasp after seeing how packed the entire hotel suite we were in is.

I knew Alessandro wanted to buy me clothes for our mini vacation, but looking at all the bags and stuff in our large suite taking up most of the space was to much.

"Anything for my rose" he says kissing my forehead as I roll my eyes.

If I knew he was going to literally buy me everything I touched at the mall we went to, I wouldn't have touched so many things in the first place.

Our day started out by shopping for clothes which ended up with Alessandro buying me every piece of fabric my hand touched at the stores we went to. I told him I didn't need most of the clothes he got since we were only going to be here for three more days. But Mister rich CEO insisted he could just ship them to my house later so it wouldn't be such a hassle to carry them all back to our suite.

Then after shopping, he managed to surprise me with my own make up artist that dolled me up. Afterwards he had me dress into a beautiful golden gown that he had personally customized and made for me by some of the best Italian designers he could buy. Only to surprise me after we had dinner with balcony seat tickets to see an Italian opera show at the Teatro alla Scalla Opera house.

I had no idea of how opera's were actually like since I have never been to one before plus when I've watched clips of opera's shows before I always thought they were kind of funny and strange to actually watch.

When in reality, after Alessandro brought me to the opera show tonight and we watched the show 'Tristan and Isolde', I ended up crying at the end of the four hour long show. Which was awkward since I barely liked to cry and when I watched sad movies before I never shed a tear.

I think after realizing what was happening in the show and seeing the ending, I cried so much that Alessandro had to hand me the handkerchief in his suit pocket that made me cry even more considering how lovingly it made us look like in other peoples point of view.

Unlike the other couples sitting around us in the balcony seats, they were all here in their official and real relationship. I became sad after noticing how me and Alessandro must look so fake to the other couples there that smiled at us when we walked out of the building. They probably thought we were also a real couple like them but in reality we were like two lovers that were just enjoying each other till the end of our vacation.

"My people will be sent up here tomorrow morning to take all your stuff to your home. Don't worry about it, I'll take care of everything" Alessandro says making me come out of my own thoughts.

"Come, let's have some wine and sit on the balcony. The sky in Italy looks more beautiful than the skies in the states" He jokes while grabbing two glasses and a bottle of red wine, leading me to the balcony in our suite.

When we got to the balcony, I sat down on one of two chairs and looked up at the beautiful night sky.

Alessandro stood by the small table between the two chairs and poured red wine into both of the wine glasses. Handing me one, he moved to the other chair and took a sip from his cup.

"Alright, what's wrong?" He asks suddenly making me look at him confused.

"What are you talking about?" I question back trying not to choke on my wine.

"Ever since the ending of the opera show, you've been looking so deep in thought. I would be happy if it was the show giving you some interesting thoughts but by the way you've been silent towards me the whole ride back, I think it has something to do with us, right?" He explains while looking back at me with a nervous look.

"By your silence now, I'm guessing you regret what happened between yesterday am I correct?" He continues while letting out a forced laugh making my heart clench.

"No! I told you before that I would never regret what happened between us" I quickly say while getting up to sit beside him on his chair as he sips his wine quietly.

"I was just thinking about our relationship when we were at the opera house. I don't know why but I had a strange feeling in my stomach when I looked at all the beautiful couples that were seated around us over there that looked so real. Like they were so happy and content with their official and real relationship while me and you..." I mutter off sentence trying to figure out how to say that I was jealous of other peoples relationships because my own was slowly breaking off on its own.

"Look at me, rose" Alessandro's deep voice brought me back out of my deep thoughts as I looked up nervously.

"If you don't want to have this little charade we're putting up here, then you can tell me and we'll fly back home first thing in the morning. Tell me right now, do you want this to stop?" He asks while keeping his eyes on mine as I thought it over before shaking my head.

"I don't have a problem with this, but I just can't understand why I feel ten times more happier with you than when I'm with my own fiancé. Am I such a bad person for loving the way you make me feel whenever we are together?" I groan against his hands cupping my face before feeling his lips kiss every tear that was falling from my eyes.

"I can't tell you what you're supposed to feel for me, but one thing I will say is that no matter what another man does for you, shouldn't make your heart race more for them than the man that you let claim you by the small ring on your finger" he soothed me as I felt my heart beating harshly against my chest.

"I loved him for so many years, but I just can't understand why my heart races ten times more when I'm with you then when I am with him. Tell me, why do you like me so much?" I ask knocking him off guard as he wiped my tear stained cheeks.

"What is there not to like about you?" He retorts as if it was the most obvious question.

"Don't tell me that I'm beautiful, gorgeous and every little detail all the magazines I've been in has already said about me. I want you to tell me exactly from your own real words, what do you like about me? Is this thing that we have now just because you wanna have sex with a world wide famous model or that you want me to stop being with my fiancé?" I demand feeling frustrated at my own thoughts and emotions.

"You wanna know what I like about you? Everything. From the moment I saw you inside my company, I knew you were the woman for me. Yes I did notice how beautiful you were at first glance but seeing the way you smiled and carried yourself throughout that whole building even with a group of people surrounding you that day, you managed to catch my eye more than any one else in the whole entire building. Something inside of me instantly felt a connection to that beautiful woman smiling back at another man that wasn't me that day. Of course I'm jealous of your relationship with that waste of a man. For the past 4 years that he's worked for me, I've seen him disrespect and disregard you at every chance he got. I'm not a man that would willingly break apart a relationship but after so many years that I've had to watch him criticize you and push you away in public for his own egotistical needs, I knew I had to do something to show you what it's like to be with a man that can love and adore you the way you deserve to be treated. I may have been attracted to your aura and allured by your looks at first but every day since the first time I saw you, I ended up falling for you more and more" He explains as I felt tears falling from my eyes uncontrollably.

"Like the first time you rushed into my company with no make up on and wearing the most random clothes ever. The first month that you started bringing your boyfriend lunch, I watched as you stumbled through the office corridors trying to make it on his lunch date only to realize he wasn't working that day so you left grumpily using your oversized jacket to block your face from the paparazzi at the front of the building that I had my men removed before you left. Then the day that you came to the company picnic and ended up spraining your ankle while playing in the potato sack race with the rest of the employees kids. Before you even got out of the sack, I had a group of paramedics haul you out of the park to go straight to the hospital. And when you brought your boyfriend homemade chicken pot pie and a slice of chocolate pie, he yelled at you to take it away since he was on a diet. I remember watching you leave it at the front of my office door trying to make it look like it was someone else but I already saw you through both my cameras and my slightly opened blinds" He continued making me laugh at the memory.

"I knew you were watching! Your staff told me you were to busy engrossed in your work that you always end up being stuck with in your office. So I tried to give it to you inside your office but your door was locked and I guess you were to busy to answer. I didn't wanna throw it away so I just left it in front of your door like a gift before running away. I didn't know who else to give it to since everyone else was already on their lunch break" I reply with a snort as he laughs along with me.

"It was delicious by the way. If you weren't a known model, I would've taken you as a chef with how tasty your cooking was" He says as my cheeks heated up at his words.

"Do you know how shameless you sound when you talk to me?" I tease him while running my hand against his light stubble starting to grown under his chin.

"Am I a shameless man for wanting to spoil my woman with sweet nothings for how ever long she's willing to hear it" he replies making my body tense at his lips now planting soft kisses down my neck.

"Mister Anderson!" I gasp when I feel his large hands squeeze my clothed ass on his lap.

"As much as I love seeing this gown on you, I really wanna unwrap it like a gift to see the sexy present on the inside of it" he mumbles before lifting me into his arms while continuing to nip at my neck which I'm sure was going to leave more bite marks than the night before.

"Where are you taking me?!" I gasp while wrapping my legs around his hips after he pulled my gown up so that it was bunched up around my hips.

"There's a million places here that I want to ravish you on, but tonight I'll start off with this small table to taste my favorite meal between your thighs. Then after that, I can watch that sweet ass of yours jiggle against me while I'm pounding you hard against those railings. We can even try to see how long it'll take for the people in the other buildings around us to yell at us for making to much noise" He grunts while placing me onto the table he was just pouring our glasses of wine on.

Although I wanted nothing more than for him to take me inside the hotel since I wasn't really much of a public sex type of girl, after hearing his sexy words, I couldn't help but lay in submission while he quickly got to work on taking the beautiful gown off my body.

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After getting rid of as much clothes on me he could, he pushes my knees back and spreads my legs. His lips tease the insides of both thighs. He blows gently on my moist folds sending a shiver through my body. His tongue reaches out and flicks over my hard little bud and then plunges into my steamy passage.

"Oh god" I moan in bliss.

He clamps his lips around my quivering lower lips and continues to pleasure me with his tongue. I squirm on the table and push against his mouth. My hands find the back of his head and try to pull him into me. My moans become louder and more desperate. My thighs begin to shake. My toes curl. The pressure in my belly becomes unbearable. It releases in a violent orgasm.

I buck and jerk against his mouth. Ripples of pleasure grip my insides in a wave of bliss. My shrieks and squeals fill the air. His tongue laps up the juices pouring out from my opening. I move my hands from his head to my breasts. My fingers pinch my burning nipples. I arch my back and grit my teeth. Another wave of spasms grip my pussy.

His tongue moves to my clit fluttering across it like the wings of a hummingbird. Two fingers plunge into my quivering chamber. It feels like my insides are going to burst from the explosions of pleasure gushing out from between my legs. I hear a scream and realized that it has come from my own mouth. My breasts heave up and down as I gasp for air.

My body is still shaking when he finally pulls away. He removes his expensive black and white suit and kicks off his shoes until he is standing in front of me completely naked. Staring up at him in awe, my eyes ran over his large tatted body that looks like a Greek sculpture with beauty marks all over. His over-sized member juts out that I can see was throbbing with life.

Alessandro pulls me up towards him until I was in lifted up into his arms. With one arm around my waist and the other on my thigh, he carried me to the railings and pinned me against the edge of the railing which scared and excited me at the same time.

I mean I was scared about being fucked on the railings 7 floors above the ground but after seeing Alessandro guiding the swollen tip of his huge shaft between my folds, all the scared emotions changed to one of need. I feel his bulging knob at my entrance and know I am about to get what I have so desperately craved ever since I got a taste of it from the night before.

"Fuck me, Mister Anderson" I hear myself saying uncontrollably as he smirks down at me.

His hips leap forward driving his hard meat deep into my body. He plunges into me again stretching my tight passage to accommodate his size. He continues to plow into me filling me like no man has ever filled me. Every nerve ending in my body can feel his hard, almost violent, thrusts.

My head jerks backwards each time he slams into me. He wraps his hands around my thighs to keep my body from moving away. I grab the railings in a death grip in an attempt to maintain my bearings but it is a losing cause. I feel like I am being torn apart by the non-stop explosions ripping through my pussy.

"God yes... fuck me... FUCK ME..." My screams of pleasure turn to whimpers of exhaustion.

He finally stops moving. His huge cock is still buried deep inside me. The walls of my vagina twitch against him as the convulsions slowly subside. The stranger pulls me into a sitting position and kisses me hard on the lips. He lifts me into the air and cups the cheeks of my ass. I throw my arms around him.

He holds me like a feather with his cock buried deep inside my body. I pull myself up his length and plunge down impaling my pussy on his huge shaft. I do it again and then again and again and again. He guides my movements with his hands and thrusts up into me each time I come crashing down on him.

"Oh god... yes... more... fuck me..."

He staggers across the porch with me impaled on his stiff shaft. We knock over one of the chair as I desperately held on tightly and rode him like the whore I have become.

He slams my back against the porch wall and fucks me hard jerking my head upward on each powerful thrust. My heels dig into the cheeks of his ass. My fingers claw at his back. I sink my teeth into the thin skin of his neck. I can't get enough.

Suddenly Alessandro lifted my body to press my chest against his as he pumped into me one last time and with a deep growl he came in me deep then as if all my bones just disappeared from my body I felt myself pass out in his arms.

It wasn't until we were back inside the bedroom of the suite that I awoke in shock.

Of course I've had sex before with Brad, but never in the many years that we've had vanilla sex that I've ever passed out from having such a powerful orgasm.

"You ready for round 2?" Alessandro says making my eyes widened in horror.

Did he really expect me to continue just like that? After just waking up after passing out for the first time from sex?!

Seeing my scared expression, Alessandro let out a chuckle before handing me a water bottle.

"I'll give you a few minutes to rest, but I'll be awaiting for my round 2, rose" he says winking at me while going on his phone to check his emails in front of me.

Taking a few sips of water, I moved the bed sheets seeing the only thing on me was my stockings and the garter piece from the lace lingerie set I had on earlier.

"You ready?" Alessandro asks planting kisses against my bare shoulder making my stomach churn.

"I want you to turn over and put that pretty ass in the air, can you do that for me rose?" He whispers into my ear before biting my ear lobe as I nod quickly submitting to his enchanting voice.

Moving my body around to lay on the bed before pushing my knees up so I was arching my bare ass up to him, I feel his big palms rub against my cheeks.

"After being with you only two times, I've learned how sensitive your body is. I've realized overstimulation tends to be your favorite way of going over the edge"

He speaks out as I groan into the bed sheets feeling his fingertips rubbing against my drenched core. It wasn't until I pushed myself onto his finger did he shove them inside my needy cunt causing me to let out a satisfied whimper.

He fingered me until my legs were shaking and my hands were gripping the bed sheet to tightly. I could feel my juices making loud sounds as he continued his assault on my quivering core that was beginning to leak down my shaking legs.

"I've also learned that my kinky little rose likes it rough, doesn't she?" He asks suddenly making me nod at his words while still rolling my eyes in bliss.

"Then let's see how rough you like it" He says before the great sensation of his hands left me empty, making me groan.

Before I could complain, the sudden feeling of being filled to the hilt made my body arch deeper into the soft bed sheets. Having all of him inside me at this angle was to much for me, especially all at once.

His girth was to much to hold in one of my hands and I couldn't even hold his full length with both my hands on it side by side, this man was really blessed.

"You're to big" I mewl out while trying to hold onto anything I could find to keep my shaking body down.

"Take it, rose!" He snaps while progressing his speed and began to literally fuck me like an animal.

The soreness and exhaustion from our first round was finally catching up to me when the torturing pace he was setting on me made my body ache. Using the small strength I had left in me, I tried to crawl my way towards the headboard.

I honestly felt like I needed a break from his continuous pounding, but Alessandro had none of it as I felt his hand suddenly grab a fist full of my hair and pulled my body up against his hard chest.

With my back against his chest, he moved his hand that was in my hair to grab my chin to make me look back at him over my shoulder.

"You trying to run from me, rose?" He asks while slapping my ass with his other hand making me moan.

"I'm gonna cum" I whimpered in a small voice as he pulled my chin so our lips connected while my orgasm shook the hell out of my tired and sore body.

I fell to my side thinking it was already over until I noticed Alessandro got up and held my down by my throat before sticking two fingers inside me, hitting my g spot harshly.

"Fuck!" I shout while my eyes rolled back and I gripped the sheets pulling them further off the bed.

He was groaning I knew he was close but he was too invested in me. My back arched and i sucked in a deep breath.

I came so fucking hard my whole body locked up, Tears began to come out of eyes and my mouth hung open with no sounds coming out. He moaned out still hitting my spot, My vision went black and I screamed out from the overstimulation.

"I can't Alessandro! I can't!" I shouted while grabbing his wrist and trying to push him off but he wouldn't budge.

"Please please please it's too much sir" He stopped at the last word I called him but didn't take his fingers out.

"You're my good girl aren't you" He asks while leaning down to suck on my aching nipples.

"Yes sir" I immediately answered trying to say whatever I could to get him to give me another quick break.

Thankfully he did, he slid his fingers out and sat up on his knees. Seeing his still hard throbbing length so close to my face now on the bed, I moved as quick as I could to wrap my mouth around him before he could stop me.

"Rose" he groaned out as I hallowed my cheeks to take him deeper.

He's given me so many earth shattering orgasms this whole night and I never even gave him a proper thank you. So instead of seducing him with my tired and very much sore core now that was still aching even after his fingers and member left my body, I decided to put my mouth to work.

Trying to muster up every tiny bit of energy I had left before I would let my tiredness consume me, I used both hands to help me. While I let my drool run past my lips to slobber over as much of his length I couldn't take in, my hands were pumping the rest of it while my mouth focus on his pulsing tip.

"Fuck, I love your mouth" I hear Alessandro groan as I felt myself getting excited at his words.

Sucking hard on his tip, I moved my other hand to move lower towards his balls that I massaged while continuing my assault on the rest of his engorged cock.

"Fuck!" He hisses as I gently grazed his length with my  teeth before sucking harshly on his throbbing tip.

"I'm gonna cum" He moans out sexily making me moan around him.

By the way his hands moved trying to push me off him so he wouldn't accidentally explode inside me, I grabbed both of his hands just as the feeling of his warm release shot down my throat.

Looking up through my thick eyelashes, I watched his head fall back after seeing my mouth was still on me while he was shooting out spurts of cum.

By the way his legs were shaking, I could tell he was really having a great orgasm. He was groaning and moaning so loudly and even feeling how much he was unloading inside me, I could tell he was enjoying this way more than I expected.

After feeling his last hip jolt upwards into my mouth, I moved my mouth off him with a pop while continuing to swallow every last bit. His eyes stared back as I made sure to clean his length off before licking my fingers clean from the rest of the mess.

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"You're truly a fucking sex goddess. I don't know how you do it but no other woman I've been with had made me cum that hard and especially with just her mouth"

He says suddenly grabbing my face to kiss me as I was surprised at how he didn't care about the fact that I still had his taste all over and in my mouth. But I'm guessing it didn't really matter since I loved when he made me taste myself last time on his fingers which he said was the hottest thing he's ever seen me do.

"I don't think I'd be a sex goddess considering I've only been with two guys my whole life" I muttered while laying next to him on the bed as he laughed.

"Doesn't matter, you'll always be my little sex goddess" he says before planting a kiss on my forehead before lifting me up into his arms.

"Did you really get hard again that quick?!" I gasp in shock at how quickly he wanted to have round 3 already.

"Sorry to burst your bubbles my beautiful sex goddess, but unless you wanna sleep in a bed with our sweat and juices soaked into it then I suggest you take your head out of the gutters" He replies making me turn red at the realization of him carrying me to the bathroom.

"Let's get cleaned washed up while room service cleans up after us" He says while placing me down into the bathtub gently.

"When did you manage to run me a bath and ask room service to clean up after us the whole time we were here?" I ask confused as to how the bath tub water was already filled and warmed up with bubbles and rose letters everywhere.

"I have my ways. All you need to do is relax. I know how tiring you are after how rough I was with you, so you can rest now while I make sure to clean you up good" He answers back while reaching on top of the bath to grab the shampoo bottle he bought me earlier.

"Mister Anderson, I honestly don't understand how a man like you is still single"

"And what kind of man am I, rose?"

"You're literally like every ideal type for women. You look cold and intimidating on the outside but on the inside you're like this kind and gentle man that oozes romance and many great qualities of a great husband. Why don't you already have a woman with you?"

"I have you with me now, don't I?"

"Yeah but-"

"It doesn't matter. I could care less about what any other woman wants me. I've seen and been through to many women already to realize what type of women are always surrounding me and trying to be with me for their own intentions. I want nothing of that sort near me and I would rather die than put my own heart out on the line for any woman to try to sneak in and steal my money and break my heart in an instant"

"Maybe you need to have better people around you? How is it that I am any different than those other women you are talking about? What if I might have an intention in being with you?"

"And what might that be, rose?"

Being put on the spot, I immediately looked away trying to hide my red face heating up at my own dumb words.

"Look at me rose" his hand went under my chin to face me towards him as I looked up at him shyly.

"I don't know how many times I have to tell you how much you mean to me, but compared to any other woman on this planet, nobody holds a candle to you in my eyes" he says before planting a soothing kiss on my lips.

Goddamn, my poor heart could not bare hearing another romantic line this man has been giving me since the moment we started talking to each other.

On one hand my mind is telling me that I should feel guilty about being with another man behind my fiancé's back but on the other hand, my heart beats faster every time I look back at light brown eyes of this man in front of me.

I was stuck between the man I've loved for the past 10 years and the man that showed me how a real man would treat a woman that he actually cared about.

What was I going to do after our vacation was over? Was I going to go back to the normal life of having regular lunch dates and going back home to living and waking up to the man that I was with for almost half of my entire life? What the hell was I going to do?!

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