Chapter 17

To Tegan     *******   A mild sex scene! You have been warned

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As much as I try to relax, my brain can't stop worrying. It is travelling at a million miles an hour and there was no hope of stopping it.

Zithanial had set up a nice hot bubble bath for me to relax, had lit a few candles and only took his exist after I forced him to leave. It's not that I don't like his company, but I couldn't focus on Zithanial right now - not with Adrian like he is.

Just with that thought it brought back images of the past events. The hearing, Saxon, the gun, Adrian and all the blood. The doctors told me that it looks worse than it is, but - he wasn't even moving. There was no scream or groans of pain, no gasping for breath, no breath at all.

My body starts to shake first with only little tremors, but as my sobs get louder and louder, I am engulfed as the crying rakes through my body.

Boom! The door burst open and my guardian angel rushes to my rescue once again.

"I'm sorry but I couldn't just stand there is and listen to you cry," he said as Zithanial gently pulling me to his chest, immediately soaking his shirt.

At this point, I didn't even care that that I was naked, I didn't care that Zithanial could see, I didn't care how loud I was being. I let it all out. I let out the frustration of all these years of torment, all the times I had to keep it bottled inside, all the times where I couldn't do anything. I cried for me and all I missed. And I cried for Adrian. The only family I had left who could die in a matter of hours.

I'm not sure I long I was there crying, the water had turned cold against my skin and Zithanial's shirt was now dry again. At some point he had started stroking my hair and back and I only just registered it now. The calming effect that a mate has with the tingles that rush down my back with every stroke. It feels like he is lending me his energy.

I lift my head off his shoulder and look into his eyes, beautiful green eyes that are staring back at me with love. I close my eyes and move my lips towards his, Zithanial met me half way but let me take control of the kiss for once. I reach up and tangle my wet fingers in his hair, turning so my exposed breast are pushes again Zithanial's hard chest. His arms come around my waist leaving me with no way to escape, not that I would want to, not this time. I brush my tongue against his closed mouth and immediately my tongue is met with his. The kisses are slow and sensual, every moment adds to the lust in the air. Almost by their own accord my hips starts rocking, feeling a burning desire.

Suddenly Zithanial pulls back, "If we go any further I won't be able to stop, are you sure you want this now?"

I pause for a moment, is this what I want? Yes. Is this want I should be doing now? Honestly I am not sure, is it normal to crave the need of my mate and want to consummate our mateship whilst the outcome of Adrian's recovery is still unanswered. I don't know, I am not sure what is normal anymore. But what I do know is that I need my mate, and I need him now. Preferable in me.

"Yes," I say confidently, "Yes I want you now."

I barely get the whole sentence out before Zithanial sweeps me out of the bath and into my feet. "I'm not holding back now little mate, you are mine and I plan on showing that to you." My eyes stay connected with his as he walked backwards into the bedroom, pulling me with him.

Zithanial's eyes scan down my body, taking in every detail. His eyes light up like green fire, burning with desire. Desire for me. It was like seeing his gaze light a fire within myself as well, like the switch had flipped and suddenly the  seductress in me had awaken and was ready to take her mate.

Zithanial's legs hit the back of the bed, he sit on the edge and brings me in close. My breast seem to be the perfect height bringing them directly in front of this face. Connecting his eyes with mine, Zithanial leans forward and kisses the underside of my breast, working his way up to the nipple and forming a light suction; drawing it into his mouth. Tingles erupt across my body, my nipples immediately responded by hardening to stiff points.

"You have too much clothes on," I mumble in my bliss. I hear a chuckle and a rustle of clothes, my eyes open long enough to see Zithanial taking off his shirt to reveal a god worthy set of muscles. Lust consumes me and I push Zithanial back into the bed and my hands went to his button and fly.

"It is only fair that you are naked too," I make quick work of pulling his pants down only to get a shock. Commando style. I take a gulp, this should be an interesting task.

Zithanial props himself up on to his elbows and smirks, "You okay there little mate?"

"I will be," I purr climbing up onto him.