Chapter 2008 - A Difficult Decision (19)
My Youth Began With Him-Webnovel
Translator: Noodletown Translations  Editor: Noodletown Translations
Huo Mian: ââ¦â
âWhatâs with the long face? Iâm just teasing youâ¦â
Tears were running down Huo Mianâs face nonstop. Even though Huo Siqian was a bad guy and she once wished death upon him, she couldnât stand having to see him die in front of her.
She was a doctor and she knew that death was inevitable. However, she couldnât stand to see a person she knew slowly die in front of her. To her, that would be one of the cruelest things in the world.
âMian, talk to me and I wonât sleepâ¦â
âOkay, Iâll talk to you.â Huo Mian was sobbing and couldnât even talk properly.
Little Bean looked at her mommy talk to the big bad guy. She didnât dare to cry right now. She was also surprisingly calm.
âMian, remember when you were sentenced to death⦠Do you know what I was thinking back then?â
âNo.â Huo Mian shook her head.
âI thought that I will have someone replace you before they executed you⦠Everyone would think youâre dead so I can take you away from this place. We would go to some island in the Pacific Ocean and build a house there⦠Itâs very pretty there. Itâs warm all year round and weâd be living right in front of the sea⦠The house will be the way you like it, Chinese style⦠We will plant lavenders in the front yard and roses in the back garden. There would also be a fountain and a pavilion and a bridge⦠We can also grow our own vegetables⦠We can live a life in nature, away from all the conflicts⦠It would just be the two of us. I would be in your heart and you in mine⦠We would live there, grow old together, and have our own kidsâ¦â
Huo Siqian spoke of his dreams with all his energyâ¦
Huo Mian couldnât stop her sobbing.
âThat sounds really niceâ¦â Huo Mian said as she cried.
Huo Mian always thought that Huo Siqian was so evil that all his thoughts were probably dark and evil.
However, what he just described was something so beautiful that Huo Mian could even vividly imagine it in her mind.
He painted the most beautiful and romantic picture in the world.
She never thought that deep down, Huo Siqian would have such a beautiful and pure side. However, that beauty had a prerequisite â Huo Mian had to be there with him.
âMian, I never loved someone so deeply as I loved you⦠I loved you before Qin Chu and I love you more than Su Yu⦠Yet, Iâm the saddest one of all because you wonât even look at me. Your smile is such a rare treat for me⦠Itâs not fair⦠Itâs not fairâ¦â Huo Siqian coughed twice while saying this. He was in pain both physically and mentally.
âYouâre wrong, Huo Siqian⦠Love is unpredictable. It doesnât come when youâre most prepared. Just knowing another person for a long enough time⦠I love Qin Chu so it doesnât matter when he came into my life⦠Heâs âthe oneâ for me⦠But you, so many people loved you, but you never valued any of them,â Huo Mian tried to soothe Huo Siqian.
âThey loved me? Who are you talking about? Are you talking about people like Mo Xueâer or Yan Ruoxi? From how I see it, their love for me was cheapâ¦â Huo Siqian mocked.
âNo. As long as you love from the heart, itâs not cheap⦠You say you love me but you also did so much harm onto me⦠From how I see it, if you really love someone, you would never hurt them⦠Su Yu never hurt me and thatâs why I treat him as one of my most important friends.â
âI did what I did because I want to be with you, Mian⦠Iâm not greedy⦠For my entire life, I only have one wishâ¦â Huo Siqian slowly closed his eyes and opened it again. He looked weary but still looked at Huo Mian with adoration and even a hint of self-contempt.