Chapter 12

"Hyung I am so sorry!" Jimin hyung said running his hands through Yoongi hyungs hair, "I didn't know you were hurting this much. I am so sorry for even bringing this up!"

"No, Chim! Listen it's for the best. Hobi was the only one I have ever said all this to. It was buried somewhere deep and I never wanted it out - but it feels nice to not hide from you guys anymore!"

"Hyung please talk to us about it if it helps you heal, please cry if you need to!" Tae hyung pleaded still clinging onto Yoongi hyung

"I - yeah- I- I thin - k I will!" he said in between sobs

I finally wiped all my tears away, and cleared my throat so I wouldn't whimper; "What made him do that hyung?"

"I still have no explanation other than his mental health. It must have been bad since he went through this once and he was scared of going through it again? His mom told me they moved away because he was suicidal back then and he never told me any of this! I was ready to fix it all, I was ready to ruin my reputation and let Taek and the boys make me their bitch. He didn't even talk to me, he pushed me away and refused to see me. I only blame myself! We shouldn't have been in public like that, you know?"

"Hyung, you couldn't have prevented that! None of this is your fault. You were just a guy in love! That's the crazy thing about mental health... it controls and consumes a person so much so that they think the only answer is taking their life." Jimin hyung was looking at hyung with so much concern, "But hyung" he said laying his head on Yoongi hyung's shoulder again, "I can't imagine how happy you made him before all of this! He was struggling to find happiness but he found that in you, I know he did."

Yoongi hyung let out a smile at that.

Taehyung hyung sat back down on his chair next to me as my eyes followed him. I quickly decided to look back at Yoongi hyung as my hands reached for his under the table. "Keep going hyung, you can do it! What happened after?"

"I don't remember much. I was a mess after it all, I blacked out the next couple of months in my head, I was like a walking zombie having no recollection of anything that went on other than the fact that I missed him, that I was sad and that I was absolutely broken inside! I barely got through classes, couldn't tell my parents I was sad cause my boyfriend died cause they still thought he was my friend - until they got a call from school basically saying I had to step it up if I wanted to graduate. That was a whole other fight. Parents don't understand when their kids go through depression anyways."

Jimin hyung wiped Yoongi hyung's tears and nose with the sleeve of his hoodie now.

"You know!" he said sniffing, "I was just mad that I was always living a lie - the only true thing about me was my name. I swore to myself to just be myself and to stop trying so hard to be someone I was expected to be. I went to school, studied the way he taught me to, pretended he was there right next to me all along, and finished but the real story happened at graduation. I made it right? I was excited right?" he let out a chuckle

"When they called my name I went to get my diploma, and before walking off stage, I don't know what in me made me do this, but before he could call the next person, I grabbed the microphone from him and yelled 'MY NAME IS MIN YOONGI AND I AM GAY!' " he was full on giggling now

This made me giggle along with him, because I had a flashback to when we first met, and he had to make sure I knew this about him before he even thought about being friends with me.

"Decided I wasn't gonna be anyone's bitch!" he scoffed his face thinking back on his story - "told them all to fight me about it if they dared. You should have seen Taek's face. That douche wasn't expecting that at all.. but you also should have seen my parents face. Yeah they didnt like that, at all!"

"Is that why you don't talk to him them hyung?" Tae hyung asked

"Mhm, I ruined their reputation. Dad said he didn't want a son like me , and Mom well I never know what she has to say cause she never says it - just hides behind him." I watched his face turn a bit dark at that. "Told them I am leaving to pursue music as music was the only thing that kept me from ending it all throughout my entire life. And well they called me useless cause I wasn't a doctor or a lawyer! Not even a business man, God! They expected too much from someone that never cared about school in the first place! Told me to leave their home and do it alone - and I did. I am almost done too!" he snickered

"Did you guys know Yoongi hyung held two part time jobs plus did freelance producing to live and save for school? Isn't he cool?" Tae hyung added gleaming with smile. It gave me comfort to know how much Tae hyung loved Yoongi hyung. I was staring at those two and their love for each other with the biggest smile on my face.

"Hyung you have never told me that!" I complained, "Dang hyung you are so much cooler than I thought!"

"Boy! I have always been the coolest! But yeah it's nothing! The companies I freelanced for, one of them agreed to send me to college with a scholarship so I can work with them after!"

"And you'll be done in a couple of months!" Jimin hyung lifted his head off Yoongi hyung and looked him straight in the eyes, "I am so proud of you hyung!" he said gleaming with a smile

"Thank you guys! I am so sorry for the depression that spilled out of me today but thank you for coming to my ted talk!"

"Hyung, you're amazing! I don't know if I could ever!" I said

"Don't say that Kooks, be true to yourself! And hey... I didn't say any of this to bum you guys out, I promise. It's ah, only hard cause... because being true to yourself means others will hate you, you know? I know your story is different! I am excited so see where it goes!"

"Why are we different hyung?" I asked

He smiled not saying anything, "I can tell you guys are a forever kinda thing."

"How?" I asked again

"Umm.. why you questioning him? Do you think we're gonna break up or something?" Tae hyung asked fully offended.

I really had to be mindful about what I say around him, sometimes he gets a bit sensitive. I was trying not to fully smile at how cute he was when he was mad and pouted like that. "No hyungie, I was asking cause I was curious that's all!"

"Yeah curious my butt!" he started to pout again only for Yoongi hyung to hit him smiling

"Stop it Tae!" he said giggling - which made Tae hyung lose up,  "And with that this free man is gonna get out!"

"I'll come with you hyung! Let's get coffee!" Jimin hyung said following Yoongi hyung out, not before kissing both mine and Tae hyung's heads

It was just us in the room again, and I looked at Tae hyung realizing I was still holding his hand. I gave it a gentle squeeze! "His story didn't scare you, did it?"

"No, just feel sad... for him!"

"Me too hyung! Promise me we won't be like that!"

"Oh never Jungkookie!" he got up quickly sitting on my lap and hugged me tight - "Never ever! We didn't meet each other yesterday, this is two years of friendship! Besides you are way too important to me, I am always gonna look out for you!"

He came down to me connecting our lips together grabbing my lips in his, I closed my eyes feeling the warmth and softness of his lips as he overtook mine. Then something new he hasn't done before happened as I felt his tongue on the outside of my mouth, seeking permission to enter. My eyes widened in surprise as slightly pulled back from him in shock.

"Sorry Kookie, I didn't mean to! Too soon?" he asked knitting his brows out of worry

"No, hyung! Was just surprised!"

"Well we will wait on that! Sorry Kook!" he said smiling apologetically

"Mhmm!" I nodded and smiled as I nuzzled myself to his neck feeling his warmth surrounding me. I was just happy I was with someone that didn't judge me

"Let's not worry about that right now or about Yoongi hyung's story, mhm? Besides we have a lot of kissing to do before Jin hyung gets home!"

"We literally skipped a whole day of class after my whole speech about procrastination! We need to actually study!"

"Oh yes I love when you say romantic things to me!" He said sarcastically

I lifted my head up smiling up him cutely.

He pecked me on the lips, "No really! Keep talking about school while I try to be cute to you Bunny !" he cutely screamed at me as he tried to get off me.

I pulled him back down, "Bunny? I thought it was muscle monster!"

"Well stop looking like a Bunny then!"

"Should I lift you up again?"

"No please!" he screamed squirming quickly away from my lap and running from me.

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It's been three weeks since our talk with Yoongi hyung, it's been about that long since we decided to turn our friendship into a relationship. If you ask me things have been going great, way better than I ever thought. I have no relationships to compare this to whatsoever, but wow I like being in a relationship. The man I am with probably has a lot to do with it.

Although, Jimin hyung told us we acted like an old married couple even though we are in the honeymoon phase of our relationship.

He's very dreamy. He will just sneakily try to kiss me, hug me or hold my hands literally everywhere forgetting the fact that we should be more chill about this especially in public.

If it's that bad in public imagine in private. I don't know when I will get more comfortable with the whole going in first to kiss someone thing because I always get anxious that he may not want to kiss me. I should definitely know my audience because at this point - with all the kiss attacks I have gotten, I don't think he will ever say no.

I was waiting for him to come back from his part time job as I finished up homework and decided to make some flashcards for us study at our dining table.

"What are you doing?" Hobi hyung asked as he was making his way into the kitchen

"You know! Studying!"

"Stu- what now?" he asked being dramatic, hands grasping at his chest "you're doing stuff for school?"

"Yeah, this whole business major thing is actually pretty interesting! I never realized!"

"Woah! Hold the heck up! Are you feeling okay?" he ran to me feeling up my forehead

"Yes hyung!" I rolled my eyes at him!

"No Jungoo I am so proud of you! Want me to cut you some apples while you study?"

"No mom, I am good!"

Hobi hyung hugged me from behind the chair and kissed the top of my head! "Want me to quiz ya?"

"Mhm, let me finish these first!"

"Okay hyung will stop bugging you then!" he tightened the hug once more before leaving to his room again, "Did you say Tae is coming?" he called from his room

"Yeah he should get out pretty soon!"

"Tell him to wash up and come here comfortably I can see him falling asleep here!"

I stopped writing unable to hold my smile.

"Did you hear me?" he asked walking up to me again

"Mhm, I'll text him!"

"You know I was telling Jin hyung that he should come here so y'all can just live together at this point!"

"That would be way too early wouldn't it?" It was Jimin hyung finally awake from his long nap, hair sticking up everywhere

I rolled my eyes

"Early?" Hobi hyung asked

"Easy! I meant easy, hyung! They gotta make it all hard ya know!"

I gave him a glare but Hobi hyung didn't seem to notice anything. "You know, I don't think Jimin hyung can share me with Tae hyung!"

"Ya know, I am sick of you now so he can have you!"

Hobi hyung giggled at that as I ignored his sly remarks so I can text Tae hyung to come in pajamas so he can stay over. Hobi hyung walked back into the kitchen to get dinner ready, and Jimin hyung pulled up the chair next to me

"Soooo staying over huh? You need us out of the house?" whispering to me

"No hyung, don't be gross!"

He giggled quietly trying not to let any sound escape from his mouth, "You guys are sooo middle school! I thought things were gonna happen fast with the whole makin out soon after confessing feelings ish but dang!"

"Hyung! You know too much about us!"

"Ugh! Duh! That's my freaking right being your best friend! Now spill - what's wrong with you? I know it's you!"

I kept writing my flashcards trying to ignore him now.

"Fine don't wanna tell me, I was gonna go to the club with Yoongi hyung and I could definetly make Hoseok hyung come with us, if you wanted privacy." he wiggled his eyebrows at me

"Hyung no, go away!"

"Fine fine!" he whined, "don't need your hyung anymore!"

"Wait come back!"

He excitedly pulled himself closer to me, "Yes Kooks!"

"Ugh! Like how weird are you about making out?"

"Weird? What's weird about it? Didn't y'all do that like the first day?"

"Not exactly, and he tried it on me like a couple of days after but I wasn't too amused so he didn't do it again!"

Jimin hyung was trying not to laugh at me as he was painfully holding it in. Seeing my face he stopped "Kooks try it! It's Tae, he should know what he's doing! Plus its been three painful weeks! You're killin' him!"

"Hyung you are too comfortable with me!" I said

He smiled sighing slightly, "It's okay to be nervous Kooks! It's different you know? It's new for ya! I understand! It's totally okay to be uncomfortable but it's Tae babe! You'll be okay!"

"Yeah...hyung, babe don't suit you!"

"Okay bitch!" I earned an eye roll from him

"Ah yes! That's more comforting!"

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Tae hyung was in the room now as I quizzed him over vocabulary we should know over this test. He was doing pretty good. Jimin hyung decided to go out but Hobi hyung was too tired and decided to stay home and sleep early. He was quizzing us until now but went to turn it for the night.

"Hyung! Are you done? Cause I am definitely done!"

"Ugh when are classes tomorrow?"

"It's Friday! No class!"

"Is it Friday already? Wow we went to school everyday this week! I am extra tired!"

"Well I am proud of you! Isn't it cool learning stuff?"

"I guess!" he said a bit uninterested as he got up from his chair and held out his hands for me to take, "Let's go cuddle now! I am sleepy"

"Okay!" I grabbed onto him as we turned off the lights together still being freakishly close to each other.

He laid in my bed as if it his own as I turned off the light.

"Hyung!" I said as I laid down right next to him.

"Mhm?"

"Come here!"

I heard him scoot over closer to me in the darkness.

"Do you realize what the day after tomorrow is?"

"Mhm?" he asked again sleepily

"It'll be a month hyung!"

"Since?"

I let out loud sigh, he better be pretending right now!

"I am kidding!" he said forcing my arm open so he can squeeze himself onto my chest. "Of course I know!"

I held him close! "Hope it's the first of many!" I said aloud without thinking

"Hmm kinda clingy of you Kooks, I am gonna run away!"

I rolled my eyes at that.

I am still uncomfortable with a lot of things in this relationship as everything is so new to me. I am glad he's okay with it all and is very patient with me. I also love that whenever I do say exactly what I am thinking I get made fun of.

"Okay go, run away!" I felt him nuzzle himself even closer to me

"Na, I like you too much!"

"Now I am gonna run away!"

I felt him giggle below me as he placed a kiss on my neck which made me shiver.

"Hyung? Look at me!"

I felt him moving his head up to look up at my face. In the darkness I felt for his face cupping it against my hand. I heard him smile aloud. I went for his lips for a peck. It started off soft with me just kissing his lips but I felt him take a hold of my lips, fully taking over!

It all brought back memories of when this happened for the first time with the fireworks happening behind us. I smiled at the memory as I took over his bottom lip biting it slightly. He pulled apart from me after a while to catch his breath. I could feel my heart beating out of my ears now and wondered if he could hear it.

Before he could wait long I pulled him to me again, taking full control of his lips. I know it's dark but I could imagine hyung's state right now - how shocked and close to a heart attack he must be right now.

I did what he did to me a couple of weeks back, that thing I didn't let him finish doing to me. I slid my tongue slowly in his mouth and could hear his excitement. As he took all of me in him, all I could think of was one thing!

I like this man way too much.

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A/n: Hope you all liked this chapter! Wanted to bring the strong side of Yoongi just like how strong he is in real life! And Chim he's always the first person there when anyone cries, bringing out that comfort person in him was something I have wanted to do! Hope the rest of chapter was a nice and calm! Hope I made you all blush! ;) Thank you for reading and I purple you!