Chapter 51

Savannah's POV

Ah my head hurts. I groaned as I moved my body. It felt like pain and somehow numb. What

happened to me? I opened my eyes but it was still blurry and I couldn't see anything clearly.

Shaking my head I rubbed my eyes trying to get rid of the blurriness. God my head was spinning

and aching like it was about to blow. I sit up holding my head in my hand. Suddenly a few images of

last night flashed. Me sitting in the mini bar then drinking alcohol that I have never drank before.

What the hell was I thinking at that time to jump into the conclusion of drinking and ending up

getting a hangover? Wait why I am feeling like there's something missing?

The crack sound of opening door reached my ear followed by a cold rough voice "you are finally

awake"

My blood ran cold and I felt my body shiver. I looked up only to find the dominating brown eyes

glaring down at me. Fuck this is what I was missing isn’t it? Him coming to get me last night?

"You are here?" I asked. By now all my blurriness flew out of the window and suddenly I felt my

mind become sober.

"Oh, you recognised me?" He mocked and walked towards me in slow motion. His steps made my

heart jump. I don't really remember what kind of thing I did last night. I hope there's not much of a

thing.

"Here" he forwarded a glass.

"What's this?" I looked at the container then to him.

"You are suffering from a hangover so it will help you relax. Drink it"

Being helpless I grabbed the glass and drank the water. The taste of sourness filled my mouth.

Looks like lemon water.

"When did you come?" I asked him once I finished my water.

"You didn't remember?"

"I can hardly recall anything” I replied guilty.

"Since you know you have no connection with the alcohol world then why did you go for

experimenting with it to such a high extent? Even choosing the hard one? Were you trying to blow

your mind?" Hardwick frowned.

I sighed. I knew this would happen. I never touched alcohol before. Whatever I had was always mild

one. And last night I drank the hard one, losing all my sanity. And God that too in the crowning

ceremony of my own brother. I need to find time and apologise to Dev. How can I be so reckless to

do something like that? Getting drunk on such a big occasion?

"Are you listening?" Hardwick's hard voice brought me back to reality.

"What?"

He narrowed his eyes, almost glaring "you, first you left the pack house without any information

then you got drunk last night. Tell me the hell were you thinking? Do you know how worried I was?"

My jaw dropped. Is he accusing me? I glared at him. How can he say that?

"So now it has become my fault?" I supported my body on my knees then put my hands on my

waist glaring at him "how can you accuse me like that? It's you who disappeared like you never

existed in this world leaving me all alone in your pack then your ex lover showed up threatening me

like a queen of the pack and asked me to adjust myself in this situation and give her a way out to

live by your side. I had to handle all these things yet now you are blaming me because you were

worried. Have you ever thought about my own feelings?" I yelled at him.

Hardwick looked taken aback by my sudden outburst. He looked stunned for a moment before

frowning.

"What? What the hell did that woman say to you?"

I rolled my eyes "do you want me to give you a detailed explanation now? Isn't it clear that she

wants me to make her marry you?" I gritted my teeth in anger.

He shook his head "that bitch, after all the fucking hell she put me through she still has the gut to

utter such nonsense" his fist clenched and he gritted his teeth.

"I really did wonder that she got such huge courage to threaten me with her past relationship. It was

clear that she already has a good connection and now she is using it properly to get you back. How

romantic! I am really touched" at the end I mocked him then turned my attention from him looking

at the other side.

"No, this is not what you are thinking" he tried to explain hurriedly.

"Oh believe me this is what I am thinking all the while. I don’t need your explanation” I gave him

mocking smile.

"Fuck that slut" Hardwick cursed again. He walked towards the bed and said again "you are taking it

in wrong way"

"Really? " I shoot a glare at his side "then tell the fact you two had sex is it also wrong?"

A kind of helplessness flashed in his eyes and his eyes darkened. Though I know the truth, it still

hurts to know the past actions of him even if at that time we didn't have any connections.

"I won't lie to you. It's true that we had sex but that was nothing romantic. There's no emotion, not

any agreement. All of that action was the effects of alcohol that possessed my body and I couldn't

stop myself" he explained.

I looked away from him. I felt him grab my hand but I didn't turn to look at him.

"Please believe me. I really don't want you to get hurt"

"I'am hurt" I replied as I looked into his eyes “I am really hurt. And the person who hurt me was not

anyone else but you. It's you who hurt me so much. Why? What kind of sin did that hurt me like

this?"

Hardwick closed his eyes for a moment. I can see the pain reflecting on his face. Most of the time

his face would remain emotionless but today seeing his painful look it suddenly clenched my heart.

It felt like his pain was stabbing me deeply.

He let out a heavy sigh "I am sorry. I never meant to hurt you no matter what" he shook his head.

"But you did," I told him. "I asked you so many times to tell me the truth. Because I knew it would

come out one day whether you like it or not because the past doesn't leave us when it is too dark. It

hurts me so much to know about the past which involved you greatly whether you were willing or

not. I am hurt because I wanted to know the truth from you but unfortunately I have to find it from

other people. You said we are mates but you couldn't trust me enough to share your past events. Is

this how you put your trust in your mate?"

"No don't say that" Hardwick shook his head "please don't say like that. I knew it was my fault for

not telling you the truth but I was scared"

I frowned. Am I hearing right? The great Alpha of Dark Forest was scared? But scared of what? What

made him so scared that he could not tell me about his past?

Before I could question him he said again "I was scared to lose you. It has been so many years that I

was trying to find my mate but I never got one. Then I started to lose my interest in finding one and

buried myself in pack work. After my parents died I only focused on my pack. That was until you

walked into my life and changed everything. I kidnapped you that day because I couldn't control

myself. I wanted you to stay by my side forever. And the reason I refrained myself from talking

about my own past is because I didn't want to lose you. It was already hard enough to find you and

if I told you about my past and if you had left then I couldn't bear that pain. I never want to go

through the feelings of loneliness again. So I tried to hide it from you. But I never expected that that

damn bitch will show up out of nowhere"

I looked at him as he explained himself carefully. I let each and every word of him to digest in my

mind. I sighed.

"I wanted to tell you but I couldn't. If I knew that she would come back to ruin my life again then I

would have taken the situation in my hand" he gritted his teeth. "I would have never let her step in

my pack again”

"That's why I said you don't trust me much” I told him. "If you trusted me enough then you wouldn't

let fear consume your mind and heart. You would have told me everything that happened”

He looked at me with guilty eyes. I really don't want him to have such an expression. So I cupped his

face "I followed you from my pack to yours why? Because I have placed all my belief and trust on

you along with my heart. Then how come you thought that I will leave because of your past. I am

hurt because it was not you who told me about your past. It's kind of insulting to know the secrets

of your mate from another person. I just wanted you to have trust in me that I will never leave you,

no matter what. You have to trust me on this point” I tried to explain myself to make him

understand me.

"The matter of Delaney and I happened when we were teenagers. She was sixteen and I was twenty.

Delaney and I almost grew up together but separately. She used to be the daughter of a pack priest.

But I never gave any importance to her. Dad used to trust Ajim, Delaney's father in pack matters. On

the day of my 20 birthday Delaney confessed to me saying she has a huge crush on me and wanted

me to take her as a girlfriend. I denied it because I never saw her in such a way. For me she was

always the member of the pack and a daughter of the priest. I never had any like romantic affection

towards her"

"What happened after that?" I asked.

Hardwick sighed "after the celebration, me and some of my friends had toast. It was a happy time

and I was enjoying my time with my friends. I never thought that after being rejected Delaney would

choose another way to make me accept her. She spiked my drink and I was so drunk that I couldn't

understand what's happening around me. I was tipsy and couldn't even walk properly. I felt

someone helped me to walk. My vision was blurry and my mind was messy so I don't know who it

was. After we walked into my room my body fell on the bed and then I really don't know what

happened next. In the morning when I work up I found myself naked and Delaney was sleeping

besides me"

I frowned at his explanation "that could have been just some act. How come it was clear that you

two had sex that night?"

"Well even though I don't know what exactly happened that night, the next morning Delaney had

hickies on her body and there was blood on the bed. She was a virgin and from all of those aspect

everyone concluded that we slept together”

I rolled my eyes. May be they really had sex but this matter was not clear. Hardwick was drunk so

the person who helped him to get into his room was absolutely Delaney. She plotted it too well for

everyone to think that whatever happened between them was a mistake.

"What did others say about that matter?" I asked him

"My parents didn't take the matter too seriously while Ajim made it a big matter. He wanted me to

give him a good explanation about his daughter. She lost her virginity and in future when she will

find a mate it will be difficult for Delaney because no man will want a woman who lost her virginity

to another male. At that time Delaney said it was her fault and she has a crush on me. Ajim asked

me to take his daughter as my wife when time comes if not then he will not leave the matter easily”

"It more feels like he is colliding with his own daughter” I rolled my eyes.

Hardwick chuckled "at that time I was not sure of it. Firstly because of Delaney’s terrible act. And

secondly because because of what we had that fucking night"

"What happened then?"

"Ajim started to nag to give his daughter a title. Because of this matter dad started to get angry and

finally removed Ajim from his post. It made Ajim more ferocious. Delaney cried and asked me to

help her. I confronted her then she admitted that it was her who spiked the drink and she was the

one who lost her own virginity to me" He rubbed his temple.

"She could stoop to that low point? Looking at her no one could tell how black her heart is. She

could do anything to get what she wanted. She could even utter nonsense that you both had deep

affection and I am middling between you two"

"She is just a bitch who couldn't control her greed” Hardwick hissed.

I knew the story but the deep connection between him and Delaney was opened by him. Luina's

aunt also said that He and Delaney were found sleeping together the next day but how it was

unknown. Now hearing the story from Hardwick I can finally understand this matter.

"How was the reaction of your parents after she confessed the truth?”

"Ajim was shocked. He never thought his delicate looking daughter would do such a shameless

thing at such a young age. As for dad he was too angry. Because of Delaney the whole pack elders

started to accuse me of molesting an innocent girl. So when Delaney confessed in fear dad was

beyond angry. She caused the reputation of the pack drown in the sea of Shame so he ordered to

send Delaney to East side”

"East Side?" I frowned. I have heard this name. I also got to know that most of the pack Elders live

there but why was Delaney sent there? Is it because of her sin?

"She was, the next morning without anyone Knowing. Ajim didn't even look at his daughter after her

confessions. I really pity him for putting so much trust to someone who couldn't stand on his ideals”

"How long is that matter?”

Hardwick smiled "so curious to know huh?"

"Tell me please” I shook his arm.

He chuckled "7 years"