chapter 48

It was Christmas time when my parents decided to have dinner together at our house. This was very rare and I had never expected them to set aside one day since fir the post seventeen years of my life, they always had work during the holidays. But then again, that's not the only thing I expected not to happen.It has been a week after the karaoke night and it has been a week since I talked to him.I still can't believe that I had the courage to tell him. I managed to look at him in the eyes and tell him how I felt- that I liked him.I don't expect him to like me back, I really don't. Spending time with him was always enough for me. Just sitting in silence, listening to music, feeling his presence. I'd rather sit in awkward silence with him rather than hanging out and have fun with someone else.But he doesn't feel the same.And that's fine. I never thought of being his girlfriend anyways, it was merely just like a dream for me. Ever since I realised that I liked him, I knew that I was bound to get hurt. That was the reason why I didn't tell him right away. I knew that if I tell him what I feel, it would break our friendship apart. " Eat more, Dara." My dad said as he word his mouth with a napkin. He places it back in his lap and leans over the table to take the bowl of duck slices and hands it over to me." I'm full, thankyou." I said as I take the bowl from him, only to put it back where he took it from." You only had two spoonfuls dear." My mom chimes in, slicing the duck." You haven't have the best appetite this past week."" Arre you okay?" My dad asks as he looks at me, wrinkles forming on his forehead, and cheeks more visible than normal." Yes." I said, pushing my chair back from the table. I stood up and bowed infront of them. " Thank-you for the meal."I turn around and proceed to walk towards my room until dad's voice stopped me," Dara, do you want to tell us something? Anything at all!?"I stopped my every movement. What did he mean? I felt my whole body stiffen that it was too hard for me to turn around and face them. Do they know? Do they know everything that has happened?And even if I tell them now, will they understand?I just want to be alone for now. Alone with my own thoughts and nothing else. I can't keep up with any more stuff, I'm already going through something that I have never experienced before.But what if they already know?What if they know that I was the reason of putting someone to the hospital? What if they know that I didn't take my tests? What if they know that my heart feels like it has been gripped so much that I can't breathe anymore?Will they understand?" No." I whispered before luckily having the ability to continue to walk out of the room. As I turn to the corner from the room, I leaned my back against the wall and took a deep breath as I closed my eyes.I want them to know, they deserve to know.But not now.Not when I'm still hurting.♡♡♡A/n:-Just a filler chapter,lol.Thank you for reading and giving your reviews on this part.Nini🦋💜