chapter 98

The moment I landed on him made me feel like home. This is my home, to be beside him. To be with him. He is my home, and after months of hardships, I am finally home." We'll uh... Wait for you upstairs." A boy standing beside us said, making me realise that he was not alone. I proceed to pull away and immediately gave the other boy a bow. I soon realised that there were three of them together, and they were the boys I talked to before on his birthday."It's nice to finally meet you, Dara." The other boy says before leaving, flashing me the brightest smile I've ever seen in my life. "You too Hoseok." I smiled back and turned to see Namjoon. "Nice to see you Namjoon."Namjoon smiled back at me, but it was a weird smile. It almost seemed forced, like he never wanted to see me at all. Maybe he was just tired from the practice... I heard that he's very focused when it comes to training."We'll be upstairs." He repeats and soon they were off."Oh my god, Yoongi! " I squealed, wrapping my arms around him again. "It's so funny. I was about to go back to the train station because I thought that I got the address wrong but you're here and I'm just so ex-""What are you doing here?" He asks, his lips forming a thin line."I'm here to see you here ofcourse." I said, feeling a bit discouraged but that wasn't enough to make my happiness go away. "I missed you so much. You have no idea how crazy I wa-""You have a bag with you." He says, pointing at the lavender trolly that was laying down on the street, two feet away from me."Y-yes." I stuttered. "I'm here now, jagi. We can finally move in together, and I'll finish my university while you go on training but I'll find a job too and it w-""Dara.""It will be the best thing of our life. I can't wait to live with you. We don't have to see each other through screens no-""Dara!" He says louder than the first time. I did not wanted to stop talking. I wanted to finish. I wanted to tell him how much I missed him. I wanted to remind him of all the plans we made together that he was seemed to have forgotten."What?" I ask, tears starting to form in my eyes. "What is it?""When I was still back in Daegu, there was something I didn't tell you cuz you might have got hurt..." He started, his hands cautiously reaching out for me to try to calm me."Tell me." I demanded quietly, preparing myself."I couldn't tell you back then but you have every right to know." He sighs, closing his eyes as he clicks his tongue in pain. "There was a rule that was made clearly by our managers...""No." I whisper, tears falling down from my cheeks as I step away from him. "No, no, no, no, no.""It was a no dating policy and I didn't have any courage to tell you about it. I'm so sor-""But you wanted me to move in with you!" I snarled, betrayal and sadness mixing in my heart. "I was so in love with you back then that I thought we could hide it." He explained, a needle puncturing my heart. "T-that maybe, it would work until my managers couldn't do anything about it anymore.""Was?" I speak, feeling like he had just repeatedly stomped on my heart for the million times. "You WERE in love with me?""I still love you ." He says, his eyes becoming red and swollen. "But not as much as I did before.""Why?" I asked with desperation laced in my voice, my breathing becoming shallow as tears steamed down my neck. "What happened to that feeling? Where has it gone?" "To my dreams." He took my hands and held them into his cold palms. "I didn't expect it to happen, but I love it way more than I love you now."I begin to let my emotions burst out, tears coming out of my eyes like it was a fountain and there is no way to stop it. I felt broken and shattered, and I've never felt this hurt before.No one else could have possibly hurt me like he just did."I'm sorry." He says pulling me in a hug that I was shaking away from. "I'm really sorry but I can't give up on my dream now.""It's okay." I lied, more tears sprouting it of my eyes. I bend down and reeched for my bag as I hurriedly walk away from him. "It's okay.""Dara!" He calls for me, and no matter how hurt I was at that moment, I couldn't help but look back at him. His eyes were blood shot , his lips trembling, his cheeks at from tears. "Thankyou for everything."My body acted before my brain could realise what I was doing. And before I knew it, my lips were pressed against his, our tears mixing together. I pulled away from him and he whispered the last words, "Thankyou for everything Dara. I will never forget you."I quickly unclasped the necklace that he had given me. The necklace that symbolised how much he meant to me, the necklace that makes me remember him every time. I take his hand and put the necklace in the middle of his palm, with tears falling down my cheeks repeatedly. I close his hand with mine, his finally gripping tight on the necklace."Thankyou for being a part of my life." I whisper while I straightened myself as I walk backwards away from him, giving him one last look. A smile curved in his lips, contrasting his sad eyes. I waved at him as I felt an urge to go back and hug him but I had to fight it.He's happy now.He's free now just like what he had wanted.I turned around as I continued to bawl my eyes out, finally realising what just happened. And then I remembered the exact words that my mom told me the months ago.' He's never going to choose you from his dream.'She was right. I wish that I would have just listened to her. I wish that I could just erase everything that I'm feeling for him.But isn't this what I wanted? For him to finally become happy? For him to finally reach his goals?I looked back from my shoulder again as I continued to walk further away from him. He waved back and bobbed his head down as he started to cry, his hand covering his mouth. Namjoon started to wrap his hands around his shoulders and soon, they all joined him.And that was the last time I saw him in person.וווו×Do rate and review💜