Chapter 61
Sinful Blaze (Chekhov Bratva Book 1)
I believe everything Pasha told me (and showed me, several times over).
But I still donât trust Brittany Cleary as far as I can fucking punt her.
Itâs been a few days since he told me what she tried to do. Heâs convinced thatâs the end of itâbut I know better.
Sheâs not the kind of person to simply take her L and then skip off into the sunset.
Not without a fight.
In the past, I wouldâve let her scratch and claw to get what she wanted. But Iâve never had something I wanted this badly. And make no mistake: I want Pasha Chekhov. I want the life heâs promised me, the love heâs shown me, the baby heâs given me.
So if Brittany thinks she can take him⦠sheâs got another thing coming.
All of that is why Iâm in the sexiest maternity outfit I can wear in public. The sweater cowl is off-shoulder and shows off my décolletage, with the rest of the dress hugging my curves and baby belly.
The shoes are the only real disappointment. Any other time, Iâd be going to war in sky-high stilettos to show off my bare calves and remind Pasha of the many, many times Iâve wrapped them around him. Make Brittany seethe with jealousy.
But my daughterâs added weight says, âAbsolutely not.â
So I sigh, recalculate, and hop around the bedroom while tugging on a sexy pair of flats that still show off my legs, but in a more comfortable way.
Now, all I have to do is my hair, makeup, and jewelry.
Then itâs battle time.
Bring it, bitch.
Part one of my Keep Brittany The Fuck Off My Man Plan immediately goes awry when I get lost in the Chekhov International offices. Why there are three sets of elevators is beyond me.
To my relief, I spy a familiar face. âMak!â
Mak turns around at the sound of my voice. Initially, he looks a little surprised, but then his eyes widen for a whole other reason. His brow pops up and so does his smirk. âDo I want to know what youâre up to? Or is this one of those couples-only things that will haunt me if I find out?â
I feel my face heat up. âI, uh⦠uhmâ¦â
âSay no more,â he reassures me with a shudder. âYou look like you need some help, though. What can I do for you?â
âYou wouldnât happen to know where Brittany Clearyâs office is, would you?â
Mak catches on. âAh. Right. Her. Come with me.â
My stomach flips as he offers me his elbow and leads me out of the elevator hall. My daughter, too, does an irritated little flip as if sheâs practicing her roundhouse for this bitch who dares try to steal her daddy.
I have to smile just a tiny bit. I have a feeling this kid is going to be one hell of a fighter, just like her mama.
âWeâve undergone some restructuring recently,â Mak casually explains while we walk. âAmid the process, weâve decided to go in a different direction for our analytics and marketing consultants.â
âUh⦠right. Totally. I completely and one hundred percent understand what youâre saying.â
He gives me a nudge. âHe fired her ass, Daphne. Brittany, her pops, the whole Cleary Consulting company. Dismissed with prejudice.â
I grind to a halt in the middle of the hallway. âHe what?â
Mak is grinning like the cat that caught the canary. âOh, yeah. Dropped the hammer. Same day she sashayed into his office thinking she could sink her claws into him. Pash made a whole scene of it, really.â
My heart does a somersault. âOh. I, uh⦠I didnât know. Didnât realize, I guess. I feel kinda stupid now. I came all this way, looking like this, to⦠I donât know.â
Mak grins and presses a button next to a lone elevator door I hadnât even seen. âIâm happy to call her back into the building if you want. Iâm sure Pash would love to watch you beat the daylights out of that woman. Wearing a bikini and slathered in baby oil, probably.â
âNo thanks. This is cashmere.â And then, in a sudden wave of self-doubt, I sigh. âBesides, I donât have any real right to be so⦠so⦠territorial. Weâre not actually a couple, you know?â
When I glance up at him, I have to take a step back. Heâs looking at me like Iâve just lost my mind.
âWhat?â
Mak shakes his head with his own heavy sigh. âNothing. Iâm just wondering if you need your invitation engraved and sealed with wax. Or if a simple email invite will do.â
âInvite to⦠what?â
âTo the pending happily-ever-after you are so obviously a part of.â He holds the elevator door open for me and gestures me inside. âSince living with my brother, carrying his child, and getting what I assume is a daily dose of Vitamin Dick isnât enough of an invitation to call him yours, would you like it in linen, parchment, or vellum?â
I narrow my eyes at him. Mak grins and leans inside to press another button, but he doesnât join me.
âThis opens up directly into his waiting area. Youâll have to get through his secretary, but something tells me you wonât have a problem with that.â
And with that, the door closes on Makâs smug smirk.
Heâs rightâonly a few moments later, the door reopens and Iâm walking into a luxurious waiting area furnished with velvet lounge chairs and a sleek marble reception desk. A stunningly beautiful blonde woman types away at her laptop, seemingly oblivious to my arrival.
But then her gaze flicks upward and catches me. âGood morning! Can I help you?â
I offer her my warmest smile and make my way over to the desk. âIâm here to see Pashâer, Mr. Chekhov.â
She scans me with a judgmental eye. âDo you have an appointment?â
âNo, I justâ ââ
âNo one sees Mr. Chekhov without an appointment, unfortunately.â
If it were left up to her, this would be the end of the discussion. Iâd accept my losses and turn tail back to the elevator.
But Iâm looking at herâand at her very low necklineâand seeing someone who is so obviously Pashaâs type. High cheekbones, perfect hair, flawless skin, slender in all the right places and curvaceous where it counts.
And clearly staking territory she doesnât have.
Well, maybe she does. This is her workplace. She is guarding her boss.
âCould you please let him know Iâm here? Daphne. Covington,â I add. âWeâre, ah⦠I mean, heâs my⦠umâ¦â
Way to chicken out, loser. I rest a hand on my baby belly so sheâll maybe see what Iâm trying to communicate, since Iâm unable to grow a pair and spell it out myself.
Her perfect brow arches. Those lips that look made for wrapping around certain body parts twist in a cold half-smile. âIâm afraid I canât do that. Mr. Chekhov is very busy today.â
âOh. I can come back laterâ ââ
âHeâll be very busy later.â She stands and walks out around the desk. Her dress stops mid-thigh and leaves nothing to the imagination. I bet quarters ricochet off her butt cheeks like bullets.
And, unlike my fat pregnant ass, she can wear killer heels that scream, Fuck me!
I donât stand a chance against her.
She knows it.
Sheâs making sure I know it, too.
âListen, honey.â She pulls off her glasses and tucks them into her dangerously low collar. âI donât know what business you think you have with Pasha, but itâs clearly not hereâotherwise, your name would be on the schedule.â
Maybe she doesnât know my name. Maybe he doesnât talk about me here, in his own office, at least enough for her to recognize Iâm the one carrying his child as we speak.
Maybe sheâs rightâIâm not that important to him.
âThanks.â I force a smile. âHave a nice day.â
Iâm halfway to the elevator when I hear a door open.
âDaphne?â
The fact that he doesnât sound pissed or irritatedâactually, he sounds surprisedâmakes me turn back around. I give him a shy little wave. âHey, Pasha.â
He frowns at me. âWhere are you going?â
âYouâre busy. I shouldnât have justâ ââ
âSays who?â He aims his frown at his assistant. âHow long has she been standing here?â
One thing I notice: he doesnât look her over. At all. Sheâs obviously flaunting everything sheâs got and he either doesnât see it or doesnât care.
Another thing I notice: Miss Priss is wavering under his increasingly stern gaze.
âShe doesnât have an appointment,â she stammers. âI checked your booksâ ââ
âDaphne doesnât need an appointment. Ever. You know that.â
I level my gaze at the woman. She knows?
Iâm seeing her mask slip a bit. The batting of lashes, the fake laugh, the forced-yet-sultry smile. âPash, you never said anything about her,â she coos with a pout.
âThatâs âMr. Chekhovâ to you, Ms. Fraiser. And you know damn well that Daphne Covington is my girlfriend.â
Ms. Fraiser gasps. I stand up straighter. Baby Chekhov does a victory cartwheel andâIâm pretty sureâflips her the double bird.
âY-you never saidâ ââ
âDaphne, come in.â Pasha extends his hand to me and doesnât move until I give him mine. When I do, he pulls me close, kisses me soundly, and gives my ass a playful little squeeze. âMs. Frasier, clear my next two hours. Iâll let you know if Iâm out for the day.â
âB-butâ ââ
Iâm ushered into his office before she can say anything more. The door shuts with a resounding click, and he locks it with a vengeance.
âSo.â Pasha leads me over to a comfortable chair by his desk. âWhat brings you here?â
I know he stood up for me. I know he made it exceptionally clear where I stand in his eyes, and where she stands as well.
But the way she looked at him⦠the way she talked about him⦠it wonât sit easy with me. Deep down, in my bones, I know something is off.
So I turn to face him, still standing. I donât want to sit down on this. âDid you sleep with her?â
Pasha stills. Looks at me.
Then he rubs a hand over his jaw and nods. âYeah. Yeah, I did.â
I want to throw up. âOh.â
âBefore I met you.â
I can swallow it back down. âOh.â
He leans against his desk and sighs. âWe were never in a relationship. I need you to know that. She wanted one, but she didnât exactly make that clear until it was too late.â
ââToo lateâ?â
âI donât date,â he explains. âEver. I live the kind of life where getting attached to someone can be dangerous. For them as well as me. Parisâmy assistant, hereâwas a convenient stress relief. I thought she understood that.â
I canât help itâI half-scoff, half-snort. âWow.â
âIâm trying to be honestâ ââ
âNo, no, itâs not that,â I assure him. I look up at him, into his handsome face and mesmerizing eyes, and feel the smile turn into something else. âItâs just⦠Do you ever look in a mirror? Record yourself talking? I donât think you do. Because if you thought anyone could just have casual sex with you and not want every part of you in their life⦠well, Iâd say youâre the dumbest smartass Iâve ever met.â
He cocks a brow at me. âIs that so?â
âIt is definitely so.â I tuck a strand of hair behind my ear as I feel my face flush again. I donât want to overstep, but thinking about him doing her over his desk has my possessive side rearing its ugly head in a way it absolutely canât afford to do. âAnyway, itâs none of my business. I shouldnât have asked.â
Pasha pushes himself away from the desk and tugs me into his arms. When I donât look up at him right away, he tips my chin up with a finger to force it. âEverything about me is your business. Everything about you is mine. Weâre together. A unit.â
I want those words to fix whatâs happening inside of me. They help, they definitely help⦠but thereâs still some of that acidic feeling simmering low in my core.
He presses his brow to mine. âYou didnât like my answer. Tell me how to fix it.â
I shake my head. âYou canât go back in time and undo the⦠the doing. I just have to deal with it. But I think Iâm learning that Iâ¦â My voice lowers into a near-whisper as I admit the part of me thatâs recently become more and more terrifying. âI donât like sharing.â
His answer is immediate. âSo donât.â Pasha leans back just enough to spread his arms. âStake your claim.â
Iâm not that kind of woman.
But right when Iâm about to tell him that, I catch a glimpse of myself in one of his decorative mirrors.
Heâs thoroughly claimed me. My entire body is covered and filled with reminders that I am his. Only his.
Lovebites, hickeys. Even the necklace he drapes around my neck every morning.
Who said this has to be one-sided?
Not him.
Not me, either.
Old Daphne looks on with shock and horror as I grab Pashaâs tie and pull him in for a searing, possessive kiss. Old Daphne yells at me to act like a lady. Back off. Be the doormat, because thatâs familiar and safe.
New Daphne kisses him harder, then shoves him down on his loveseat and climbs onto his lap.
New Daphne rakes her fingers through his hair and holds him in place for another lengthy taste.
New Daphne growls, âMine.â