39. I'm sorry

Chapter 39: I'm sorry

Kelsey's POV

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I sat there on the cold grass, hugging my knees whilst I was lost in my thoughts. I hurt Ethan once again, exactly on the day he wanted to express his love for me. I was always one to ruin everything, and I hated that about myself. It was stupid of me not to notice how he truly felt about me. He had made it clear that he loved me on so many occasions, and yet I decided to remain blind of it all.

I couldn't believe that somebody could love me, so I just chose to refuse it. The difference in that moment was that I couldn't refuse it. He had put it in letter, on a necklace which he wanted me to wear. I never thought that I could be so happy knowing that he loved me, but I was, and I was because I felt exactly the same way he did, the only difference was that it took me far longer to realise it.

"Princess." Ethan's voice broke me out of my thoughts, and I looked behind me to see whether the voice was all in my head, or if he was truly there. My heart stopped as I saw him standing there, his eyes red and puffy with his hair so attractively messed up. "Noah told me you'd be here," he said as he sat down beside me, looking straight ahead of him.

"Yeah, I needed a place to think, and the lake my mother used to bring me to was kind of the best option," I said, earning a small smile from him.

"If you remember correctly, it's also the lake where we had that great reconciliation night," he said with a dimpled grin, making me smile.

If I was going to be honest with myself, I actually went there because of that fond memory I had with Ethan, and also because it was a greatly peaceful place where I spent some of the best childhood times.

"Thank you, for the locket. No one has ever done so much for me," I told him truthfully after a moment of silence, wanting him to know that I did appreciate his present, even if my dad had already beaten him to it.

"It was no problem. Okay, maybe it was a little bit because it took me forever to find the perfect one, and it has a 'K' on it so it was like made for you," he blabbered, seemingly getting flustered.

I found myself smiling at the cuteness of the boy in front of me. He never ceased to amaze me, and I never got tired of just sitting back and admiring the person he had become. I found myself pitying the people who would never get the opportunity to know him like I had. Ethan was a great asset to people's lives, and I was glad that he had stumbled straight into mine.

"I'm sorry for jumping to conclusions," he said with a sigh. "I shouldn't have assumed that it was Aaron's. I've been rejected so many times by you that my mind simply did it for you this time," he said with a slight chuckle, wanting to lighten the mood.

"No, I'm sorry. I should have told you it was my mom's from the start, it would have prevented all of the unnecessary fighting," I said, not wanting him to take the full blame for everything that happened.

I was guilty as much as he was. In my head it was evident that he had realised it was my mother's, especially since he had seen the picture of it. If I had told him first and foremost that it was my mother's locket, he would not have thought that Aaron had given it to me to begin with.

"I'm the one who didn't let you finish what you wanted to say," he said, shaking his head. "I feel like an idiot."

I looked at him questioningly, wanting him to expand on what he had just said. He was not an idiot to me. All he did was jump to conclusions, which was something we all were guilty of doing once in a while.

"I've spent all day looking for the perfect locket, while your dad gave you the one you've always wanted, so my locket is nothing next to your mom's," he said with a slight frown. "But, I'm really glad you have the one that makes you feel closer to your mom," he said, smiling finally.

My eyes flicked up to meet his, finding his words both sweet and upsetting. I couldn't believe that he thought that I would appreciate his any less just because I had my mother's locket. I could see the sad look in his eyes, even if he tried to mask it with a smile that didn't quite reach his eyes. He looked at me when I placed my hand on top of his, my mind urging me to touch his cheek, yet opting against it.

"Eth, just because I already have one doesn't mean that I don't appreciate what you did for me. I can always wear both of them together they're go perfectly well together, and that way I won't only have two special people with me, but also you and the guys. What more could I possibly ask for," I said, finally earning a real smile from him.

"You mean that?" He asked, needing a bit more reassurance.

"Yes, I do. And yours is as special as my mom's," I nodded.

I smiled as Ethan pecked my cheek out of the blue, his face reddening as soon as he did so. "Erm, so you like it?" He asked.

"Of course I do."

He looked at me momentarily before biting his lower lip and sending me a smile before getting up and offering me his hand, to help me get up too. I looked at his hand pensively before taking it. As soon as I was standing up in front of him, he took a step closer to me and gently took my other hand in his as well, looking at our attached hands.

"You know,I truly meant that thing that I spent two hours carving at the back of your locket," he softly said, his voice sounding as if it could break at any moment.

"You carved that yourself?" I asked in surprise.

He nodded his head with a dimpled smile, his eyes glistening. "I love you Kelsey, I've loved you for about nine years now," he chuckled before gnawing on his lip nervously. "So I guess what I want to ask you is that, erm, maybe you would, would you maybe like to be my girlfriend?"

I stood there silently for a moment, just staring straight at his vulnerable looking eyes, as if what I said could either break or make him. Many days were spent thinking about whether I was ready for that, and even if I still wasn't fully convinced, I loved him. I couldn't give him the answer that would break him.

"I'd love to be your girlfriend Ethan."

He let out a sigh of relief, a giant grin appearing on his lips before he picked me up and spun me around in glee. "Gosh, your silence was killing me. Don't you ever do that again," he said. "I'm so glad that I'm finally able to call you mine," he said before putting me down.

"Excuse me Ethan, I am my own person," I joked, making him roll my eyes at me, the smile never leaving his face.

"You know, yesterday I told you how I wanted our next kiss to be in a special moment," he said getting closer to me, making my breath hitch. "And this.." he whispered, "is the best moment to do just that."

Our lips brushed and I automatically got on my tip toes to kiss him. The moment our lips touched, butterflies erupted in my stomach. His arms snaked around my waist, whilst mine snaked around his neck, playing with his hair. I could feel my mind starting to get foggy as I felt light headed, a sense of euphoria flooding through me.

I was finally able to see first-hand what love felt like, and I was madly in love with Ethan Walker.

A/N: AAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH guysss KETHAN FINALLY KISSEDDD!!!! (Still working on the ship name) I have a feeling you guys won't be throwing any furniture today! #Stop furniture abuse 2k17

I just realized that I did a thing I hate most, I put the juiciest chapter on a Friday so then you guys have to wait all the way till Monday to continue reading like some mean people do with shows..Well....Oops..

But I hope you guys still loved it! It touched my heart just writing it so I can't imagine what it did to your feels right now. So do you guys love me now?? Huh?? Huh???

I told you that it was going to be an amazing chapter and I was right....Hopefully. Anyways, did I bring back some feels with the camp rock song? I added that for extra feels you know. I kinda got in the disney movie vibes lately and I don't know why.

Anyway, I love you guys so much and I just wanted to write the best chapter for you..But now I have to think on what to write for the next chapter because I have no idea so imma go do just that. See you guys on Monday.

Stay perfect xoxo

Love,

~M