49. You'll never be alone

Chapter  49: You'll never be alone

Kelsey's POV

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I nearly squealed with joy as soon as the doorbell rang, my father's voice confirming that Ethan had arrived as he opened the door for him. Ethan and I didn't have a lot of time left with one another, and even a couple of minutes away from him left me with a heavy feeling in my chest as I wanted to spend as much time with him as I could before having to move.

I walked towards the front door, and smiled as soon as I saw Ethan standing there, talking to my father. "Hello beautiful." Ethan said, his eyes brightening as soon as he caught sight of me, making my heart swell with affection.

"Hi," I replied as he came up to hug me, his scent making me I reply, moving slightly so he could step inside.

"So how can I help?" He asked as the three of us walked into the living room.

"Why don't you two go get started on Kelsey's room?" My dad asked us with a small smile.

"You sure you don't need any help dad?" I asked.

"Yeah, I'm fine, you two go," he said as I nodded. "Keep the door open at all times," my dad yelled with a smile of amusement on his face as we started climbing the stairs, making my cheeks burn bright red while I sent a glare his way.

There was no reason for him to try and embarrass me on the last days I had with Ethan. I was an awkward person, and I could feel myself getting tense after he said those words. I cleared my throat as I opened the door to my room, which I hadn't been in for about three months.

It had lilac walls with plenty of pictures on the wall, as well as a couple of posters of my favourite bands and singers. My double sized bed stood in the middle of the room just like it always had, and on the other side of the wall I had the desk which dad had made for me when I was eleven, and the light pink chair decorated with red flowers on the back which my mom had gotten me for my third birthday. That chair was the last gift my mother gave me when she was still alive, and it meant a lot more to me than anybody who saw it could ever realise.

"Wow, your room is cute," Ethan chuckled as he stepped in and took a good look around. I could tell that he was messing with me, probably finding my room as being too childish for somebody my age, but I couldn't care less. I loved it just the way it was.

"Thanks," I simply replied as I placed a box on my bed and started taking down the photos from my wall-photos which had been there for years.

"These photos are beautiful, there are so many of them," Ethan said, looking around.

"Yeah, my mom and dad loved taking photos. They both met at some photography class, and they got me my first camera when I was two, which I couldn't even hold properly," I said smiling at the memory.

I still remembered the day my father showed me the recording of it. It was amazing to hear my mother's voice, and her laugh at my actions. I often found myself replaying it after that first day, wanting to memorise my mother's voice so that it never disappears from my brain.

I took a break from taking down my photos and took a step back, wanting to take one final look around me. Removing the photos from the wall seemed like something so final for me, and I found the move hitting me even more as I was emptying my room. Days were spent trying to find the perfect spot for each photo and poster, and having to take all of them down seemed like a chapter of my life closing indefinitely.

"Kelsey," Ethan sighed as he made his way towards me, his arms wrapping around my waist as he brought me closer to him. "This is going to be a great experience for you. You're going to a new country, meet new people, make new memories," he said, staring directly at me with broken eyes trying to be masked by false happiness.

"Ethan, I'm not ready to leave all of this yet, and I wish I can do something about it, but I don't know what to do. I can choose to stay here and be happy with you guys, but that would mean leaving my father alone in a big city, with nobody to be there with him through all of his success and his downfalls. I have to be there for him E, but my heart aches every time I think about leaving you," I said, tears streaming down my face. I had been holding all of that in for days, and letting it out allowed the tears which could not come out finally stream down as I sobbed in my boyfriend's arms.

"This feels like one of the High school Musical movies where the Gabriella leaves, she leaves in every movie, but this feels more like the last one," he chuckled dryly as he tried to wipe my tears away gently.

"That movie always made me cry, it's worst to actually live it," I replied as I wiped away the rest of my tears and continued taking stuff down and placing them in the boxes with a heavy heart.

I smiled as I turned to the stuffed animals on my bed. When somebody has a lonely childhood as I had, they would find stuffed animals as some of their closest friends, and that was exactly what I had. Each and every animal on that bed had a story behind it, and even if my father had told me to leave them there, I couldn't .

"Are you taking your stuffed animals?" Ethan laughed as he grabbed Peggy the Panda from his position on the bed and lifted it up to my face.

"Yes, of course. They've been my best friends for seventeen years, I can't abandon them too!" I pouted as I took the panda from his hands and placed him neatly in the box.

"You sure are something different Kelsey Wilkinson," he chuckled. "And I'll never find someone like you," He continued.

*A/N: yeahh that's what they all say >.<*

"Well, I hope not. I've always wanted to be original," I joked, making him roll his eyes at me before taking a step closer to me, sending my heart in a frenzy as I looked into his eyes.

"Would it be selfish if I told you that I don't want you to leave, and that I want you to stay here with me forever?" He whispered as he caressed my cheek. I smiled, glad that he finally decided to tell me the truth about his thoughts on me leaving, but the smile soon faltered as I thought about how I wanted the exact same thing.

"No, because that's exactly what I want too," I honestly replied.

"This sucks," he said before giving me a peck on the lips.

"Sure does," I replied.

"Now we will never get to live our lives together and have 3 kids. Two boys and one girl," he said.

"What?" I giggled as he went on to give me multiple, soft pecks all over my face.

"What? It's not weird of me to have planned out entire future together," he said, a cute, pink tint on his cheeks.

"Yeah, okay," I replied as I slightly hit him in the arm before walking over to the other wall to take off more photos, despite finding what he said extremely cute.

The thought that Ethan and I could have had a great future together pained me. Because of the fact that I was moving, neither of us would get to know how our story could have went on. I would have loved to live the rest of my life with him if the universe permitted it, both of us bringing the best out of each others for days to come.

"I don't want us to break up," he said as he followed me, placing his hands on both sides of me and caging me between him and the wall.

I turned to look at him with a sigh, fighting the burning urge to grab him by the collar of his shirt and kiss him. "Me neither, but we can't be selfish with each other. It wouldn't be fair on either one of us if we just kept on going with this even after we're so far apart.Z"

"Kelsey, I've liked you for 11 years. Do you think the distance will be a problem for me?" He asked.

"Ethan," I softly said, my eyes locking with his.

I didn't want to spend my days wondering if he had met somebody else, and if he was still faithful to me, and I didn't want him to go through the same thing either. A lot of things would change by the distance, and I knew that by time, our feelings might too. It was best to end things as friends then doing something to ruin the relationship forever and regret it for the rest of our lives.

"I know, sorry," he sighed as he looked down, removing one of his hands from the wall.

"I love you," I told him reassuringly as I clipped his chin with my fingers and lifted his head up to look at me.

"I love you too," he said, his broken voice making my heart ache for him and our relationship. "Can I at least kiss you right now?" He whispered as he moved his face closer to mine.

"Ethan, I have to finish packing," I said with a pout, despite finding myself dying to kiss him.

"Well, I don't think I can wait that long," he said, his voice getting deeper as he brought his lips to mine, our lips moving in sync.

I knew that that kiss was different than any other we had shared. I could feel the urge coarse through me, neither one of us wanting to break apart from the other. Heat rose from my stomach to my chest as Ethan moved his body even closer to mine, our chests pushed into each other. His hand moved to my waist as mine flew up to his hair, tugging slightly as a soft moan escaped his lips. My knees felt as if they were giving in right before Ethan picked me up, my legs circling around his waist as my back rested against the wall, his body pushing impossibly closer to mine.

The feeling of his mouth against mine was like a drug, and I couldn't get enough of it. Never, in my seventeen years of life, had somebody been able to make me feel the things Ethan had, and I knew that there was the possibility that nobody else ever could.

"Ethan," I breathed out as his mouth moved to my neck, my arms placing on his chest to try and push him away slightly.

"Hmm?" He mumbled as he kept on placing kisses on the side of my neck and my cheek.

"Ethan, I really have to continue packing," I sadly said, knowing that if I didn't stop him in that moment, I would not have been able to.

"Okay," he sighed, his red plump lips pecking my lips once more before putting me down, both of us flustered and breathing for air.

The fact that I would never be able to experience something as beautiful as that with Ethan ever again pained me, and I continuously questioned the universe why I couldn't just be happy with the man I loved.

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Ethan and I carried on packing for the next couple of hours, as Ethan constantly tried to make me laugh with his random jokes. I loved how he was able to put a smile on my face after everything that was happening, and despite feeling horrible that we were going to have to break up, I was glad that he and I could still be friends, and that he would still be there for me whenever I needed him, just like how I was going to be there for him.

"So, the girls wanted me to take you home with me, they have a surprise for you," Ethan said after we finish packing everything in my room, a dimpled smile on his face.

"I'll tell my dad," I nodded before we went downstairs next to him.

"Dad, can I go over to Ethan's? The girls have a surprise for me apparently," I said as I saw him, sweat trickling down his forehead because of all the work he had to do in the heat.

"If it makes you happy, of course you can go," he said before planting a kiss on my forehead and advising me to be back home by ten pm.

As we arrived at the beautiful house I had found myself to love, Ethan looked at me in all seriousness, telling me that he loved me and that in no way did he want to make me cry. His words scared me slightly, but I nodded nonetheless before following him inside and into the backyard.

I found myself slightly confused as to why we had to go in the backyard, especially since my goodbye party was supposed to be the next day. I stood there with a smile on my face as Lara walked up to Ethan and handed him a guitar before they the Walkers got into a straight line and looked straight at me with beaming smiles.

"Well, we know you're leaving, but we also want you to know that there's no way we'll ever leave you. You'll be with us forever, whether it's here or in our hearts. You'll always be our Kelsey," Noah started off, his words making me tear up.

"Yeah, so we all wrote you this song. We want you to remember it whenever you feel alone. We want you to remember us," Ethan said, sending me a smile that almost melted my insides before he started strumming the guitar, looking at me which such love and passion that made me want to break down right there and then.

*Waits for some special people of some special fandom to realize what song is going to be sung*

. (I know you want to peek)

. (Cheater -.-)

. (Are you sure you don't want to guess first?)

. (Fine, suit yourself)

*Okay, quick interruption. (story continues down below) OMG let me just fan girl for a second, he's so adorable my little angel (Aren't his lips like so tasty. Wait. Oops I said that out loud :X (BTW, clearly I do not own the video..Sadly ;-;)*

I let myself go in the harmonious sound of Ethan's voice, both the lyrics and the melody of the song making tears flow down at an unsteady pace. The words being sung were beautiful, and I knew that I was going to take them with me once I was in New York.

"So?" Lara asked as soon as the song ended.

"Aww, Kelsey don't cry!" Ellie said, noticing the tears streaming down my face.

"You guys!" I said in between sobs as I ran up to hug them, the ugly sound of my crying making nearly all of us laugh.

"We love you Kelsey. You really will never be alone," Lara said sweetly.

Ethan dragged me to the side as soon as everybody released me, kissing my nose before asking me if I was okay and wiping off the tears which were streaming down my face.

"Ethan, I don't know what to say. Thank you. I love you so much I can't even explain it. You're so special, you don't even know how special you are. Thank you."

He didn't even give me time to finish before crashing his lips on to mine, sending my mind in to over drive. I kissed him back with just as much passion as he was kissing me, not wanting the kiss to end, yet sadly both of us needing air to be able to live. Despite that, I knew that that boy was my air, and I could not live without him. That kiss meant a lot more than all of the others, even if I couldn't quite explain it, and I hoped that he would never forget just how much I loved him.

A/N: Hey jellybeans, as I explained at the top I'm not going to be able to publish tomorrow so I thought it would be better to not let you guys waiting too much and just update today. If you guys haven't read the last chapter feel free to go and read it.

A lot of you guys are mad at me for making Kelsey leave and told me to make her stay or something. Well first off, obviously if something happens and she stays I won't tell you about it yet -grins and winks- and secondly, please don't get mad for making her want to go with her dad. I try to make my characters as real as possible, like if I take myself for example I would never stay when my parents are leaving forever (though I'm not eighteen yet) but still an eighteen year old still needs the love that her father gives her.

Anywho, with that being said I'm going to give you guys a little hint. The book will go on with straight days, meaning, there will be no *1 year later* so if something happens, it will happen right away. Don't know if you understood that, sorry if I confused you.

Anywayssssss, I have to go now because my pet dragon wants me to take him out. I'm just kidding to try and make you laugh...Please don't call the mental hospital on me again ;-; (jk no one ever called a mental hospital on me...yet) It ain't my fault I have a big imagination.

Bye now,

Stay perfect,

Love,

~M