14

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For some of you this might technically be a triple update yay me lol

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There was a month and a half left before Suzy's wedding and Jennie was grumpy because of two things. One, there was a month and a half left before she would have to break up with Lisa and two, Lisa had been avoiding her the last week.

At first, Jennie did believe Lisa might be too busy to come visit them with Chaeyoung like she usually did. She tried to convince herself that was the case but then another week passed.

She only saw Lisa at lunch twice and though Lisa held her hand or would occasionally feed her or gave her a peck on the lips in greeting, she seemed off. Like she was avoiding engaging Jennie directly.

Jennie panicked. She figured Lisa might have caught on to her unrequited feelings. She probably felt uncomfortable after that night when her father called and Jennie had been a little forward. Though it was in their contract that they should break it off should one of them catch feelings, Lisa was obviously too kind and honest to do that so she was avoiding Jennie instead.

So Jennie was grumpy.

She went through more ice cream than normal. She holed herself in their makeshift charity command center turned office and worked on finding new cases and followed up on her old ones. She went to the library and studied until her brain hurt so she could be exhausted enough to go to sleep at night without tossing and turning as she thought of Lisa.

Her only consolation was that she always got a good night text from Lisa.

She heard the ding and ran to check her phone, though she already knew what it would say.

My Idiot

Goodnight Baby Brat. Sweet dreams. I'm sweet so dream of me.

Jennie rolled her eyes at herself. Lisa didn't know how close to the truth that had been lately. She texted Lisa back like she usually did. She waited a full ninety seconds before replying though.

Goodnight, Idiot. Did you do your homework?

My Idiot

Ugh. You're always so demanding.

Did you? 🤨😡

My Idiot

Yes. ☹️

Okay, you're allowed to sleep now 😌

My Idiot

Thank you, your highness. 🙄

Don't you mean Ice Queen 👑🥰

My Idiot

I don't know why I thought giving you a nickname that has the word Queen in it was a good idea. 🤦🏼‍♀️

Because even an idiot can recognize a Queen when they see one! Night!!

Jennie wanted to keep texting her, but Lisa was avoiding her too much and she didn't want to seem clingy. She should have known this would happen. Lisa had commitment issues even with the people she liked, of course she would avoid Jennie like the plague if she found out Jennie liked her.

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Lisa sighed from where she was laying on her bed in her dorm room when she got the last text. Dropping her phone on the bed dramatically. She got more out of Jennie this time at least. Usually Jennie only texted her back two, three times at most and that had only happened once.

"Why are you sighing when you're the one avoiding her?" Chaeyoung said. Knowing Lisa was doing her routine goodnight texts to Jennie. Though she kept denying that she did that on the first week but Chaeyoung knew better.

"I'm not avoiding her."

"It's what you do Lisa."

"I've been busy. Dance stuff. Planning fellowship stuff."

"Jimin works just as hard as you at dance and I've seen him in the studio only on his normal albeit still excessive practice days so I know there's nothing going on for you guys that you would have to go every single night because he would be there too. Fighting with you for the room with the good speakers again."

"Homework too."

"I've never seen you do more homework in your life than you have the last week and a half. I think by now you finished your senior stuff already despite still being a junior."

"Chaengie just drop it."

"No Lis. I know why you're freaking out and I wish for once in your life you would just commit."

Lisa groaned. "Not you too."

"Jennie told you the same thing didn't she?" Chaeyoung said knowingly. It didn't take a genius to figure out Lisa had commitment issues. Not that she blamed her. Not after being abandoned by her father and her mother dying.

Lisa chose not to answer.

"What are you afraid of Lis?"

"Nothing, it doesn't matter. She doesn't like me back anyway." Lisa protested.

"You might be dense but you know that's not true."

"Maybe there's an attraction there or a little crush but that's it and anyway what's the point now!" Lisa blurted out, frustrated over the situation.

"Oh." Chaeyoung realized. "I see. It's not your commitment phobia after all, you actually have changed. This isn't about her liking you back either. It's about the fellowship and you having to leave her?"

Sometimes Lisa wanted to hug her best friend. Sometimes she wanted to slap her. She thinks it might be the latter right now because why did she always get things out of her like that.

"I leave in a month and a half. What can we build in a month and a half if she actually likes me back the way you say she does. I'll just end up hurting her when I leave. We're supposed to break up anyway. It's better that way."

"Hurting her? Not you?" Chaeyoung smiled. "You're thinking about her more than your own feelings and yet you say you don't love her."

"Shut up. I don't."

"You do, and now that I know this isn't your normal Lisa complex of running away from your problems, I know you won't be able to stay away from her. So I won't press you anymore because you'll just do it on your own." Chaeyoung said and Lisa didn't like the satisfied smirk she had on as she crawled into bed. "Night Lis."

"Goodnight you stupid mind reader." Lisa said grumpily. She heard Chaeyoung giggle from under the covers.

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Chaeyoung was right. Lisa wasn't able to stay away from her. As much as she tried to force herself to avoid Jennie. She missed her. A lot.

She saw her in the quad eating with the girls looking all pouty and cute as she absentmindedly flipped through some massive book that Lisa could probably never understand and hardly touching her food.

Lisa decided to have lunch with them for once.

She climbed in the bench beside Jennie a little too abruptly and Jennie jumped, holding her chest in shock. "Lisa! You scared me."

"Sorry baby brat." Lisa leaned in to kiss her.

Jennie pulled back after a peck but Lisa grabbed her neck to pull her back in for a longer kiss.

"Hey." Lisa said once they pulled back.

"Hey." Jennie said and Lisa noticed a slight blush. "Um—you weren't busy today?"

"I missed you so I skipped what I had planned to do." Lisa said honestly.

Jennie figured Lisa was playing her part as her fake girlfriend again but she still couldn't help but smile at what she said.

"I missed you too." Jennie answered back.

Lisa had really missed that gummy smile. She stopped avoiding Jennie after that, unable to help herself.

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Jennie found out Lisa was going to have to leave for the fellowship a few days after Suzy's wedding and although her heart hurt because Lisa would be leaving for a year, she figured it was a good thing.

She really needed to get over her. A year would be enough time right? Lisa clearly didn't return her feelings and they were going to have to break up anyway and they were supposed to stay friends after that and Jennie figured that might be a little hard so Lisa leaving for a year was probably a good thing. By the time she got back Jennie would have settled her feelings and they could be friends for real like they had pinky promised.

"So, did you figure out all the places you were going to go?" Jennie asked Lisa. They were both in her makeshift office. Lisa had been planning her trip and Jennie as usual was alternating between studying and doing things for her charity.

Lisa perked up, "Thailand for sure, I need to include my home country, but I'm also probably going to go through Syria, Yemen, El Salvador, Somalia—"

Jennie flipped her chair around so fast to look at her it startled Lisa.

"Lisa! You're not serious!"

"What?" Lisa asked confusion.

"Those are all war torn countries! I know you're not going there for the scenic shots, you're too reckless for that! You're planning on going into the thick of it aren't you? You can't!" Jennie scolded her.

"I have to! This isn't just about an IPA anymore. You inspired me actually. I did a lot of research and these are all the places where children suffer the most. Their conditions are awful right now. Photo journalism helps. People get motivated to help when they see pictures! They don't just blindly believe the news these days."

"You're going to get yourself killed!" Jennie said angrily.

"Baby brat, come on. Why are you so mad?"

"You're an idiot Lis." Jennie said as she rushed out of the office and went to her own room, slamming the door forcefully.

Lisa flinched.

She followed her a few minutes later and Jennie was laying down on the bed, pretending to be asleep.

Lisa crawled in behind her, hugging her to her chest. They avoided the subject that they were now touchy behind closed doors too altogether. They just kept doing it now. Mostly cuddling. Lots of pecking. Sometimes chaste kisses.

"Do you not want me to go?" Lisa asked.

Jennie turned in her arms. "I do, just not there. I thought you were just going to do your normal stuff. Taking beautiful pictures of people doing mundane things but somehow making them seem extraordinary. Not you going off into a war zone." Jennie said grumpily.

Lisa sighed.

"What if I could help them though? If I could help one kid it would be worth it. Look at all you've done."

"I know Lis, trust me it feels great, like you're actually helping the world be a better place but can't you like go to orphanages or something? Find homeless kids here? Why there?"

"Because that's where they need the most help. That's where most of the displaced kids are. They get lost in the crowd of thousands."

Jennie sighed, rolling on top of Lisa and burrowing into her neck.

"We finally start to get along and you decide to try and go and get yourself killed. Like an idiot." Jennie said grumpily.

Lisa smiled, kissing the top of Jennie's head.

"So you'll let me go?"

Jennie snorted. "As if you would listen to me. Reckless idiot." Jennie grumbled as she absentmindedly traced Lisa's collarbone.

Lisa didn't respond because she thought if Jennie really asked her, she probably wouldn't go to those places but most importantly, if Jennie asked her to stay completely. Lisa probably would.

Which is why she never broached the subject of telling Jennie her actual feelings. It would just get messy anyway. She was content to do this with her, taking as little as she could get before she had to leave.

Maybe when she got back she could confess and they could start all over, for real this time.

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The only problem was everything started to feel more serious. They acted like a full blown couple now. They never talked about it, but they kissed and held hands everywhere and hung out anytime either of them had free time. The kisses weren't always chaste anymore either.

It was almost like both of them were milking the time they had left.

Lisa started spending the night at Jennie's pretty much every single day. Chaeyoung and Lisa's dorm was barely lived in now because now that Lisa was over there every day, so was Chaeyoung, not feeling guilty anymore for leaving Lisa behind.

The other thing was, they had sex. Again. Neither of them could tell you who started it first but their make out session turned into heavy petting and then they were suddenly both naked and panting and it didn't just happen once. It happened multiple times and every time it happened it got less "this is just to get off" and more like "I like you and I want to make you feel good."

It was clear that's what was happening because they stopped threatening each other in jealousy and started moaning each other's names more and focusing on each other instead. Not to mention there was a hell of a lot more eye contact now. It was intimate. Too intimate.

Though neither of them ever talked about feelings.

Jennie was confused. Lisa had avoided her altogether for weeks and then she suddenly turned into the doting girlfriend she used to be but not just in front of people now. She did it when they were alone too. It gave her hope that maybe Lisa did like her back after all and this wasn't Lisa just using her for kisses or sex since she couldn't be with anyone else while they were fake dating.

Jennie's brain was scrambled but it all came to a head two days before Suzy's wedding.

Jennie was bracing herself for the break up. She was moping around the house, Chaeyoung and Jisoo were on their date night and Lisa had a dance thing. The doorbell rang and Jennie shuffled over, milk ice cream tub in hand to answer it.

"Lisa?"

"Hey baby brat." Lisa said happily, kissing her on the lips.

"I thought you had practice."

"Canceled it."

"Why?"

"Cus I missed you."

As usual Jennie blushed. Lisa had become flirtier and flirtier and Jennie figured she just liked to mess with Jennie.

"Charmer."

"What were you doing?"

Jennie held the ice cream up in answer.

"And?"

Jennie blushed because she had literally just been walking around the house, eating ice cream and thinking about their impending break up.

"Just thinking." Jennie answered vaguely.

"About?" Lisa asked curiously, noting something was bothering Jennie.

"Stuff."

"Stuff like what?"

Jennie shrugged.

Lisa got close to her and hugged her to her chest.

"What's bothering you baby brat?"

"I guess I was just wondering how we were going to break up and stuff, are we doing it at the wedding?" Jennie mumbled. She didn't want to ask but she needed to brace herself for when it was going to happen so her heart wouldn't break into tiny little pieces. Maybe if she knew beforehand it would break into regular sized pieces. She doubted it though, she was in too deep already.

Lisa froze.

"That might be a little suspicious don't you think?" Lisa said deflecting.

"Okay, yeah. So when?" Jennie said, unable to keep from pouting.

Lisa dragged Jennie to the couch who shuffled behind her. Jennie was wearing sweats and a hoodie that were entirely way too big for her and it made her look all kinds of adorable. Lisa sat her down, taking the ice cream from her.

"When do you want to break up?"

Jennie shrugged. She didn't.

Lisa leaned in to kiss her and as usual Jennie let her even though she was probably confused at the turn of events considering they were just talking about breaking up. Lisa tried to give her an answer through the kiss. She tried telling her she liked her and didn't want to break up but their situation was complicated and she hoped Jennie would give her a chance when she was back. She kissed her like she never had before, not holding back. She ended up on top of Jennie, as they both made out laying on the couch.

Lisa felt shivers as Jennie scratched the back of her neck with her nails like she usually did when they kissed.

They made out for hours because Lisa couldn't get enough. Her mind racing almost as fast as her heart was. Lisa finally, reluctantly pulled away, watching as Jennie slowly opened her eyes and Lisa admired her kiss swollen lips, pecking them one last time.

"I don't want to break up." Lisa said simply. She had been going back and forth, whether to tell Jennie her true feelings but after Jennie brought up their impending break up Lisa realized she didn't want to let her go.

"What?" Jennie asked perplexed, questioning her sanity because there was no way she heard that right. She really needed to lay off the sugar, she'd eaten way too much ice cream that day and now she was delusional.

"I don't want to break up. Ever." Lisa told her again. "I broke the rule. The one rule I wasn't supposed to break."

"Lisa. Lisa what are you saying right now because if it's what I think you're saying and you're playing with me that's not funny. I know you figured out a long time ago that I liked you and you started avoiding me and I get that because I probably made you uncomfortable with my feelings but it's really cruel if you're using them against me right now." Jennie said, eyes welling in tears, shoving Lisa off a bit. "You've never been cruel Lis, even when we fought."

Lisa wouldn't budge, leaning down to kiss her again and Jennie hated how she couldn't resist her despite thinking she was playing with her.

"That's not why I avoided you. I avoided you because I realized I had very strong feelings for you. At first I wanted to run away from them so for the first couple of days it was because of that. I thought you might not like me back. Then I realized that didn't matter because even if you did like me back I was about to leave and I thought I would hurt you if I confessed and you felt the same way so I avoided you so I wouldn't tell you how I felt, but it was so hard."

"Lisa promise me you're not playing with me right now?" Jennie said, caressing Lisa's cheek because she was already falling into her despite her skepticism.

"I don't want to break up Jennie. I want you to be my girlfriend, for real. I want you to be mine and be able to brag about it to everyone like I've done ever since this started and not be lying for once."

"You're leaving." Jennie answered sadly, leaning up to peck Lisa on the lips.

"Then ask me to stay."

"No way Lisa. This is your dream. I could never ask you to give up your dream."

Lisa sighed heavily. "I had a feeling you would say that."

Jennie pulled Lisa down to kiss her again.

"Do you plan on finding any girlfriends while you travel? Or dating?"

"No." Lisa said making a face because she couldn't imagine being with anyone but Jennie now, it had been that way for a long time already.

"Then why do we have to break up just because you're leaving?" Jennie asked hopefully. "Why can't we stay together?"

"You won't see me for a year Jennie. Maybe I'll be able to come back here a couple of times but for the most part I'll be gone. I can't ask you to wait that long."

"I want to. There are things called phones you know? Even in those places you're trying to go to. I know it'll be hard sometimes and you won't be able to call me but shouldn't we try?"

"You're serious?"

"We've wasted so much time Lisa. We pretended to hate each other for years, or at least I did. I don't know if you barely just started liking me but I realized I've liked you from the very beginning but I was stubborn and proud and I thought you hated me so I was in denial. We can just delay the break up right? If it gets too hard? We can always still break up."

Lisa could hardly contain her grin.

"Baby brat, did you actually say yes to being my official girlfriend just now?" Lisa teased her giddily.

"Yes. Idiot." Jennie rolled her eyes but smiled wider.

"No cheating while I'm gone." Lisa warned.

"Please! You're the one that's going to be traveling the world and meeting all these beautiful women from different countries!" Jennie pouted. "You better not cheat, because I don't care if you're in the middle of a desert I will come find you and hurt you."

"Maybe I'll cheat just so you can come find me then." Lisa smirked. "So my girlfriend will actually come visit me."

Jennie smacked her hard. "I swear to god Lisa!" Jennie glared at her angrily.

"I'm kidding, I just wanted to see the angry kitten. I haven't seen such cuteness in a while." Lisa said, pecking her lips.

"You're not funny." Jennie said grumpily and Lisa liked that too so she kissed her again and Jennie seemed to be pacified.

"Wait, so when's our anniversary? Today or when we started fake dating? I need to know these things. Good girlfriend reputation to protect and all."

"You'll be getting me gifts and taking me on dates for both anniversaries." Jennie said haughtily.

"Spoiled baby brat." Lisa said fondly.

"You love to spoil me." Jennie countered.

"Yeah, I think I do." Lisa answered honestly before settling in between Jennie's legs and grinding hard.

Jennie did not expect that at all and the moan that escaped her was a little too loud.

"Lisa what are you doing?" Jennie whimpered as Lisa kept grinding into her.

"Spoiling you."

"Then spoil me right." Jennie demanded.

"What do you want baby brat?" Lisa said groaning as she felt the friction between them.

"Take my clothes off already." Jennie whined.

If ripping Jennie's clothes off was an olympic sport, Lisa would have won all three medals and set the world record.

It was so much different this time, Lisa practically devoured all of Jennie's body, kissing every single inch. Jennie couldn't breathe let alone speak.

"I can't believe I waited this long to tell you I liked you." Lisa said as she kissed Jennie's neck and grinded into her. "We could have been doing this the whole time."

"I know, you're an idiot." Jennie moaned. "Make it up to me."

Lisa took that seriously.

All Jennie could do was watch Lisa work her way up and down her body, using fingers and mouth and tongue to drive her crazy and into the edge over and over.

She watched as Lisa told her she was her new favorite taste. She watched Lisa crawl up, leaving open mouthed kisses on her abdomen and telling Jennie she had the perfect body. She watched as Lisa whispered into her ear, telling her that ever since they were first together like this all Lisa could do was think about it while Jennie straddled her and Lisa went deep.

She felt high when Lisa came along with her several times and Lisa kissed her languidly before telling her this is all she's going to think about while she's away. That being intimate with Jennie all those times were beyond bliss for her.

Jennie finally had to stop Lisa because she couldn't take it anymore.

"Lis stop. I can't anymore. I can barely breathe let alone function and if you touch me one more time I might explode or pass out of exhaustion."

"That's the point baby." Lisa grinned.

Jennie rolled her eyes and made Lisa kiss her again.

"Can you just cuddle me please? I want cuddles too."

"I was planning to my clingy-after-sex girl." Lisa teased.

"That's actually not true." Jennie said after they maneuvered themselves to spoon on the couch, a blanket draped over them.

"What do you mean?"

"I hate cuddling after sex. I just wanted to cuddle with you that time." Jennie admitted shyly.

"Should I not cuddle you right now then? Since you hate it?" Lisa said with a smirk, pretending to get up. Jennie grabbed her arms and pulled her back.

"Don't you dare leave Manoban! You said you would spoil me."

Lisa gave her a light kiss on the back of her head, smiling so hard because although she couldn't see Jennie's face she knew she had glared during the first part and was now pouting. Lisa could just imagine it.

"I didn't really like cuddling until you." Lisa admitted too.

Jennie turned around to face her, tangling their legs together.

"Really?"

"Yeah. I used to get too hot. It used to start arguments with Su—"

Jennie clapped an angry hand over Lisa's mouth, glaring.

"Don't you dare say the airhead's name while I'm literally naked for you right now. Actually, don't ever say her name at all. Ever. Not in front of me and not to other people. You know what, you don't even know her." Jennie smiled in a way that was both sweet and threatening.

Lisa found it hot. She nodded and Jennie took her hand away.

"I'm going to have to say her name at the wedding thou—"

Jennie shoved Lisa and started getting up trying to run from the couch but Lisa was too quick, she snatched her up, grabbing Jennie by the waist before she got away and Jennie squealed as Lisa laid her back down in front of her.

"Where do you think you're going?" Lisa said as she spooned her again and put the blanket over them.

Jennie halfheartedly tapped her arms.

"Away from my disrespectful girlfriend who likes to bring her ex-girlfriend up when im literally right here." Jennie said pouting. "Let me go. You can talk about her to yourself."

"Girlfriend. I love that." Lisa grinned, kissing Jennie's head again.

"I've called you that before." Jennie said deflating immediately after that comment.

"Yeah, but it wasn't real."

"It was real to me."

Lisa grinned again. "It was real to me too."

They fell into a comfortable silence but Lisa wanted to tease her again.

"So since it was real that means only one anniversary then right?"

"Lisayahhh." Jennie whined. "Are you trying to get me to break up with you already or what?"

"Just kidding baby brat. I love the idea of getting to spoil you two different times. Then if we get married we'll have three anniversaries." Lisa said boldly.

Jennie couldn't respond because she was blushing hard.

They eventually fell asleep.

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"Jendeukie what the hell!" Jisoo shouted as she saw her very naked cousin being spooned by an equally naked Lisa under a blanket. "The couch! You did it on the couch?!"

They both jumped and fell and Lisa barely had time to cover Jennie with the blanket but she wasn't so lucky.

"God now, now I have a mental picture of a naked Limario." Jisoo said clapping her hand over her eyes dramatically.

Chaeyoung was giggling as she handed another blanket from the other couch to her best friend so she could cover herself.

"I'm burning those blankets, and you're buying a new couch Jendeuk." Jisoo said seriously.

"Does that mean we need to buy you a new coffee table and a new bed too?" Lisa teased back.

Jisoo's face dropped.

"You did it on my bed?!" Jisoo shrieked.

Jisoo started chasing a cackling, naked blanket wrapped Lisa, throwing pillows at her head.

"Sorry Rosie." Jennie said sheepishly, "It just kind of happened. We didn't mean to do anything out here."

"Don't be. She acts like we haven't done it on that couch too."

"Chaengie!" Jennie said wide eyed and looking scandalized because she never expected the blonde to admit to something like that.

"It's like you said. We're together. People do things like that when they're together." Chaeyoung teased.

Jennie blushed.

"So, judging by the smitten looks and the fact you were doing it out in the open you guys finally made your fake relationship official?" Chaeyoung asked.

Jennie looked shocked. "You knew it was fake?" Then she immediately shook her head. "You know what, never mind why am I even surprised. Of course you knew. I'd even bet my charity that it wasn't even Lisa how you found out."

"I'm happy for you guys. It only took you three years." Chaeyoung said teasingly.

"I know, I know. You know everything and we should have just listened to you." Jennie said rolling her eyes playfully.

Chaeyoung giggled. "Not everything, just when my friends are super attracted to each other but are too stubborn to admit it."

"I don't know, you knew before we even met. Unless Jisoo was lying about you guys trying to set us up. How did you know then?"

"I don't know. You guys have just always fit to me. You give attitude and you're demanding and very meticulous and ambitious and Lisa is laid back and spontaneous and a little too carefree and reckless sometimes. You always get things done despite the incredible pressure you've always been under to be perfect. She always finds a way to have fun no matter what tragic thing might be going on in her life.

You balance each other out. She needed someone to put her in her place every once in a while and get her to be more serious and you needed someone to help you stop worrying and take things so seriously and find the joy in life and not just aim for your goals. To me, you're pretty perfect for each other. She helps you enjoy the journey, and you help her find the destination."

Jennie watched as Jisoo finally cornered Lisa and smiled fondly as Jisoo kept ramming her with a pillow.

"That's for doing it on my couch." Smack. "That's for scarring me by letting me see you naked." Smack. "That's just because you annoy me." Smack. "That's for scarring me the first time you had sex with my baby cousin!" Smack Smack. "You get two hits for that actually because no one wanted to hear that especially me."

"Stop it Unniiieeee." Lisa whined.

Jennie knew very well she could have stopped Jisoo but she was letting herself be hit.

"Idiot." Jennie said fondly.

"So what's going to happen when Lisa leaves? Is she leaving?" Chaeyoung asked because she had an inkling Lisa wanted to stay now.

"I asked her if we could try it. Long distance. I can't let her give up her dream for me, and like you said, we wasted so much time already." Jennie said a little sadly. Lisa would be leaving in about four days. Jennie's eyes welled up thinking about not being able to see her for a year. Chaeyoung was right about another thing, Lisa was pretty damn perfect for her, she didn't know how she was going to survive it.

Chaeyoung noticed and went for a hug and Jennie accepted it gratefully. If anyone understood how sad it was that Lisa would be leaving soon, it was Rosie.

"We'll be fine. She'll be back before we know it." Chaeyoung said, tearing up too.

"AND PUT SOME CLOTHES ON!" Jisoo shouted because Lisa had accidentally dropped the blanket dodging Jisoo's blows.

Chaeyoung and Jennie couldn't help but let out teary giggles.

"Crackheads." They both said in unison and started laughing again. They were grateful and happy that Lisa and Jisoo's friendship was always so chaotic because they never failed to make them laugh and right now, both of them needed some laughter.