Chapter 103

Chapter 103

***Chastity***

I woke up early the next morning, excited for my trip home. I couldn’t wait to spend two weeks home

with my family. By the time Lexi, and Colby arrived at my room I was ready to go. After taking one last

look. around to make sure I had everything I wanted to take, I grabbed Lilac, my purse, book bag, and

left. Colby, and Lexi seemed pretty excited as well.

“Hey guys, are you staying at Jax’s place again?” I asked.

“Yeah.” Colby answered.

“Why don’t you take over one of the other apartments in the house?”

“We considered it, but after we’re both finished with school I don’t know if we want to continue living in

the pack house. I don’t want to take over the space then end up moving out. Plus we’re not there often

enough to really take one of those spaces.” Colby explained.

“Oh. Yeah. I guess that makes sense. Do you think you would want to live in the pack house?”

“Honestly, I’d rather continue living there, but it’s not only up to me.”

“True. What do you think Lexi?”

“I kind of want to have my own house, but at the same time, I like being surrounded by people. I’m not

sure yet though. We have time to decide.” Lexi answered.

“True.” I agreed.

“Why don’t you all use that house for pack gatherings any way? You call it the pack house, but it’s

really not any more. We have people in, and out constantly at Dark Moon.”

“True, but Dark Moon’s pack house is a lot bigger, and more set up for large gatherings. Our pack

house is really too small any more to hold that many people. That’s why we have the Community

Center that was built about 30 years ago.” Colby responded.

“Why is the pack house so small?”

“When our pack was first established there were only about 20 members. The original Alpha didn’t

expect our pack would ever get so big so he built the place to accommodate that size pack.”

“Have any of the following Alpha’s consider expanding it?”

“It has ben several times.” I answered.

“Yes. Rowen’s wing was added not long before the Community Center was built. When the Community

Center was built Joe’s dad put a vote to the pack to decide if they wanted to continue to use the pack

house as the main gathering spot, or switch to the Community Center. He did inform them that the cost

to upgrade the house to make it useable for the entire pack would be incredibly high, and would take a

lot of time. Essentially, at least the entire first floor would have to be ripped out, and rebuilt. The pack

didn’t want that. They were happy with the Community Center. At that point it was decided that the

pack house. would become the Alpha, Beta, and Gamma home as well as their office.” Coby explained.

“But we haven’t been using the Community Center much over the years.” I stated.

“That’s only been like that over the last 5 or 6 years. No one really knows why though.”

“Rowen said because of it’s condition.”

“Yeah. It hasn’t been well maintained. Jax told me about Rowen upgrading the whole thing.”

“Yeah. It is starting to look really good.”

“I know. Jax took me to see it when we were home for Thanksgiving. Your suggestion for the Craft

Show is really going to benefit the pack in more ways than just that.”

“I’m glad. We have a great pack, but we seem so distant from each other.”

“I agree. As do Jax, and Rowen. Jax told me that while he, and Rowen were in school they were trying

to find ways to bring the pack back together as they should be.”

“Good. I hope they came up with some good ideas.”

“They had one or two, but from what Jax told me it was you, and Molly that who have had the better

ideas, as well as having more ideas.”

“Small fry, males tend to think on a larger scale, and more about protection, and such. They’re not

always great about figuring out how to get people to connect on a personal level. They love their pack,

but are not always good at figuring out the intimate needs. That’s what us females are for.” Lexi added.

“Hey.” Colby protested.

“Am I wrong?”

“Well I’m not really sure.”

“It’s the females that create more of the relationships with others than the males.”

“That’s not true.”

“If you think about it, it is.”

“How?”

“Take us for example.”

“Um. Alright?”

“When we first met you hit on me before even having a conversation.”

“We had talked a little on video chat with short stack before.”

“No, we really didn’t. You, and Chas talked for a bit then disconnected. We never really spoke beyond

hi, and goodbye. You knew my name, but I’m not sure you even really knew what I looked like besides

my

face. Sort of.”

“Yeah. That’s true.”

“When I first met Chastity she was talking to Norm. She defended me to him about my attitude at the

time, and even suggested I needed a friend. She wasn’t wrong. She got me on a personal level,

without even knowing me.”

“I wanted to know you on a personal level.”

“You wanted in my pants. That’s a different kind of knowing. Chastity wanted to know me for me.”

“That’s because I already knew you were my mate. How could I not want in your pants?”

“COLBY!” I gasped.

“Can you honestly tell me, short stack that you didn’t want in Rowen’s pants when you first realized he

was your mate?” Colby asked.

“Actually I can.”

“Bull!”

“Colby, think about what my life was at that point? What I wanted from Rowen was his protection, and

safety. I knew squat about sex at that point. Only little whispered things, and that something physically

happened between two people. I also knew it was messy, and smelled funny.”

“Messy, and smelled funny?” Lexi giggled.

“You have never had to clean up after two people after they’ve had sex before. You have no idea just

how gross being on that end can be.” I responded, wrinkling my nose.

“Colby!” Lexi growled.

“What? I NEVER had sex in the pack house. Yeah I messed around a bit, but the 4 of us guys would

leave. the house for sex. It was our agreement.” Colby explained.

“Really?” Lexi questioned.

“Yeah. We didn’t want a female we were messing around with to get too comfortable, and our

bedrooms, in our home was only meant for our mate. We NEVER wanted another female in there. We

never wanted our mate to wonder which females had been in that space.”

“Oh. That’s…..in a weird way that’s kind of sweet.”

“Thanks. Anyway. Who are you talking about Chastity since it wasn’t any of us males?”

“Fiona. She had a rotation of males in, and out of her room since she was 15. As soon as they were

done, no matter the time, day or not, I was called to clean up the room. I had to change the sheets,

clean up any stains, clean up condoms, if they used them. All of it. It was gross!” I responded.

“That’s terrible, and disgusting.” Lexi gagged.

“Yeah. Very much so.”

“Why did John allow that?” Colby questioned.

“I don’t know, and I never asked. It wasn’t my business. I was just told to clean it up, and keep my

mouth shut.” I answered.

“So gross. Anyway, back to my original point. Do you see what I’m saying about males being less about

the personal level in connecting?” Lexi asked.

“Yeah. I do. It does makes sense.” Colby responded.

“Males care more about what a person can do than who they are.”

“True. Well unless it’s someone important to us. Our mate, and families we want to know all about

them.”

“Of course you do because you want to true, strong relationship with them. Everyone else is just an

outsider in a way.”

“That’s also kind of true. Chas, you’re doing a good job looking out for, and helping our pack. We’re a

strong pack, but I think with you, and Molly our pack will become what it once was, and ultimately

stronger.”

“I hope so. I know it’s because our pack is so big, but that’s no reason not to try to bring the pack closer

together.” I said.

“I agree. Packs should be more like a big family instead of all just living together for the sake of

community.” Lexi stated.

“It’s hard with a pack our size though.” Colby said.

“True, but if Dark Moon can do it, then so can Moonlight.” Lexi said with a shrug.

“What are some things Dark Moon does to keep the pack close?”

“Understand that it can be a little harder for us as we have several higher education schools on

property with people from other packs coming, and going all of the time. I don’t know how Uncle

Jeremy, and Robert manage sometimes. Anyway, some of the things we do are things like street fairs.

We do those 4 times a year. The warriors are rotated so that if they worked during one, they’re off on

another. They also do movie nights, and a Halloween parade for anyone who dresses up. There are

dinners, plays, concerts and parties of different types during the year. There is also Tradesmen week.”

Lexi explained.

“What is Tradesmen week?” I questioned.

“For a week all of our Tradesmen open up their businesses to the public for demonstrations or classes

so people from the pack can observe, and learn.” Lexi answered.

“Huh? That’s not a half bad idea.” I said.

“The warriors also get a week where they can give lessons, and do demonstrations.”

“Now, I like that idea.” Colby stated.

“Of course you do. It does have it’s own ulterior motive though.” Lexi said.

“What’s that?” I asked.

“It gives the pups a chance to see what their options are as they become adults, and hopefully choose

a career path. Especially teens who are floundering, and don’t know what they want to do. If they’re in

a family of warriors or Tradesmen, but aren’t interested in that path, they can see what their other

options are up close, and personal.” Lexi explained.

“That makes sense.” I said.

“Yes it does. I bet our pack would love something like that.” Colby stated.

“I’m sure they would. Besides, with Rowen starting that warrior program, it will help get more people

interested in it.” I agreed.

“How is that going any way?” Colby asked.

“He said it’s going well so far. Those interested in becoming instructors have been sent to Alpha Theo’s

pack to begin their training. The facility build is as coming along nicely. He’s hoping to have everything

up, and running by the summer. Right now he’s putting feelers out to other packs on interest in the

program. The Rogue leader has already contacted him back, and they are in talks about sending some

from his sub packs for training when the program opens. Apparently that’s the one thing he’s short on.

The majority of his sub packs have no trained warriors. He wants his people to feel safe, but doesn’t

feel they do. Robert has already sent Rowen applications for their most promising students for

consideration. The difference being that we would trade students.” I explained.

“Trade students?” Colby questioned.

“Yes. Since Dark Moon has a lot of higher education schools, we would send people there to attend

their programs while their warriors come here for our program instead of paying for them to attend the

school. Rowen said it’s a win, win.”

“What does Rowen plan to trade with the Rogue Leader?” Lexi asked.

“Rowen said he, and Joe have applications from some of our pack members looking to explore the

world, meet new people, and stuff like that. They’re reviewing the applications with the Rogue Leader

to see what his sub packs need then they are going to see if the people with applications out would be

interested in going there, at least temporarily to help or possibly build a life.”

“Why would people want to leave Moonlight?” Colby questioned.

“Rowen said that what they do we might not have an additional need for, and those members may

flourish some where else. Others are mate hunting. There are also cases where there Isn’t much room

to advance in their field simply because all of the spots are full. He wants our pack members to reach

their full potential, and if they can’t or it may take them a long time to do it, he wants to give them

whatever. opportunity he can to achieve that.”

“I never thought of that.”

“Believe me, neither did I. I wasn’t too happy with him when he told me about letting our pack members

go, but once he explained it, it made a lot of sense to me. We shouldn’t hold our pack members back

just because we don’t want them to leave,”

“You know it’s not common for pack members to even want to leave their pack unless it’s for their

mate.”

Lexi said.

“It wasn’t no, but Rowen said one of the things he learned in school, and while on his tour is that we

should consider our pack’s happiness, and well being over what we want. The world is changing, but

we werewolves haven’t. In the human world it’s very common for people to move to other places for a

multitude of reasons, be it for school, jobs, family, friends, a mate or husband or wife in human terms,

or just because they want to go some where different. We’re so possessive of our members that we

don’t allow that, but we may be holding people back simply because we’re possessive. Is that really fair

to them? Rowen doesn’t think so. He feels we should be more like humans in that regard in allowing

our members to expand their horizons, with the understanding that the pack member must be accepted

by the Alpha of the pack they go to, otherwise they cannot go. Their connection with our pack doesn’t

break until they’re accepted, permanently They are also not allowed to just wander. We have to stay

within the boundary of our laws. They still have to protect our race.” I said.

“How will they get the Alpha’s approval?” Colby asked.

“Rowen will send the Alpha the person’s file, and set up at least a video meeting, or an in person

meeting, if it’s possible. They have to do that even if it’s temporary.” I answered.

“You didn’t have to do that to attend Cloverland, and I didn’t for Denu.” Colby stated.

“Because we’re not there to be a temporary member of the pack. Nor are we there to try to become

members. We’re simply there for our education at one of their schools. Our interaction with their pack is

minimal at best. If you weren’t mated to Lexi, and I wasn’t friends with her, we would have no

interactions with their leaders. Yeah maybe we would go into town sometimes, but mostly we would be

at school. These people are looking to enter the pack for various reasons be it training, helping, work,

or finding their mate.”

“That’s true.

“Yup.”

“Sounds like Rowen is really going to be a great Alpha.” Lexi said with a smile.

“He really is.” I responded proudly.

“Can I ask a question that’s not about this subject?” Lexi asked.

“Sure.” I responded.

“When are you going to start staying in Rowen’s apartment instead of Jax’s.”

“I can answer that one.” Colby stated.

“Ok. So answer it.” Lexi grunted.

“When Chastity is ready for that step. He doesn’t want to push her. He also doesn’t want her to feel

obligated to move in with him if she’s not ready.”

“He’s right. Rowen, and I talked about it a couple of times. He’s waiting for me to want to live with him

before I do.” I added.

“But you never stay in his place.” Lexi stated.

“I know.” I said glumly.

“Do you want to stay there?”

“I… not yet. You have to remember I’ve spent so many years alone that I want to be surrounded by

people for awhile longer. Rowen understands, and respects that.”

“But you’re alone in your room at school.”

“If you think about it, the majority of the time I’m alone in my room is when I’m sleeping. At least your or

Norm is with me most of the time. When I am alone, I hate it. When I’m by myself I either video chat,

have music going, or a movie playing so I don’t feel so alone.”

“Oh. I….I didn’t realize that.”

“Yeah.”

“I have to be honest with you about something, short stack.” Colby said.

“What’s that?” I asked.

“When Lexi, and I first went to ask about a mate apartment, I asked them about a two bedroom so you

could move in with us.”

“You did?”

“Yeah. Unfortunately the only way to get a larger apartment was if we had a pup.”

“He did. I was there. After that bad night you had, I went to talk to Dee-Dee to see if she could help us

get a bigger apartment due to extenuating circumstances. She tried, but she couldn’t.” Lexi added.

“Oh. Thank you. I wouldn’t want to do that to you guys though.” I said quietly.

“What do you mean?” Lexi asked.

“You two are mates, and need your one on one time. You should have your own living space to connect

just you two.”

“You live with Molly, and Jax when you’re home.”

“You can’t use that as an example.” Colby stated.

“Why not?” Lexi questioned.

“Well first, she was brought to their apartment right out of the hospital. Chas needed someone there to

take care of her as she couldn’t really do anything on her own due to her injuries. The second being

that Jax, and Molly had already agreed to have her move in with them when they got home. He knew

she was in a small, throw away place while he was gone. He hated it, and wanted her close.” Colby

explained.

“I didn’t know that.” I said.

“They didn’t tell anyone. He was just going to do it, and to hell with what anyone said about it.”

“Oh.”

“Yeah.”

“The other thing with Molly, and Jax is that I’m not there often because of being away at school. The

majority of their time is spent just them. With you two I would be there all of the time.”

“That’s true.” Lexi agreed.

“Oh. Lexi, I forgot to tell you. I talked to midwife Wanda this morning. We can spend at least two days a

week with her while we’re home. If we want to do more we can just show up.” I told her, excitedly.

“Awesome! I have a question for you, that I hope doesn’t upset you.” Lexi said.

“What’s that?”

“I know you want to replace her when she retires, but…ummm….with you being Luna, do you think

you’ll be able to be head midwife? Will you have the time?”

“Oh. Yeah. I thought a little about that last night.”

You did? You never seem to want to…sorry. I shouldn’t bring this up.”

“No. It’s ok. It is something I have to at least think about. I’m not sure if I’ll have the time to run the

department, plus be a good Luna. Clair, and Beth seem pretty busy with their duties.”

“Beth doesn’t have a Beta, and Gamma female yet though so her situation is different.”

“I know. Clair retired from being Luna, but she helps Beth. Also didn’t your mom, and Blake’s mom

decide not to retire until the guys found their mates?”

“Yeah they did. I think the King has arranged a mating ball for a few months from now. He wants Dark

Moon to host it as we’re the biggest pack after Royal Pack. Darren, and Blake plan to go, if it happens.”

“I hope they find their mates.”

“I do too. Darren is beyond ready. Sure he had his fun with females over the years, but he said he’s

tired of it. He wants to settle down. He hasn’t even spent time with a female outside of his group of

friends in

months.”

“I didn’t know that.”

“Yeah. The only females he spends time with are the ones mated to his friends.”

That has to be tough sometimes.”

“I’m sure it is. Back to my point, what do you think you’re going to do?”

“Well I think I may let you take the midwife Wanda’s position, and I’ll be your secondary.”

“Really? Me? Why me? It’s always been your dream to step into her role when she retires.”

“True it has been, but the rest of my dream has been to have a life with my mate. My mate happens to

be the Alpha which comes with responsibilities I hadn’t expected. I would choose you because I trust

you, and I know you can do the job. I think we should find a third person though. Just the two of us

won’t be enough.”

“Too bad Norm isn’t interested.”

“I know. That would have been perfect.”

“Yes it would have been, but at the same time I don’t see him ever wanting to live away from his family.

like that. Sugar pop is all about his folks, brothers, sisters, nieces, and nephews.”

“That he is.”

“So do we start looking when are next round of classes starts?”

“I think we should.”

“Alright then. We’ll do it. By the way, thank you for your faith in me, and I’m sorry you have to give us

your dream.”

“But I’m not. I’m still going to be a midwife. That was always the real dream. I wanted midwife Wanda’s

spot because she is our only midwife.”

“That’s true.”

“Did dad tell you that Naomi came to him the other night, and apologized to him for what happened

with. you?” Colby asked suddenly.

“No. I haven’t talked to dad in a few days.” I admitted.

“She apologized to him, and also gave him pictures she had of your mom that she found. Dad said

she’s been going through boxes she had in her closet, and found them. She told him she wished she

could apologize to Brinna as well, but it wasn’t possible.”

“Oh wow.”

“Yup.”

“Has she apologized to you, Chas?” Lexi asked.

“Yes. When I was home for Thanksgiving. The day I showed her my laundry system. She also told me

about how she ended up being apart of all of that.” I answered.

“How did that happen?”

“That’s her story to tell. All I will say is that Aurora found her weak point, and manipulated it to get

Naomi to do what she wanted.”

“That sucks.”

“It does.”

“Can we not talk about that female any more? She was poison.” Colby growled.

“That she was.” Lexi agreed.

“Subject dropped. Oh, Colby, Braxton told me that you’re helping him teach his first pup class this

week.” I stated.

“I am. I didn’t expect him to start it so soon, but with dad’s help he’s ready sooner than we thought he

would be.” Colby said.

“How can he train pups when he’s still in training himself.” Lexi asked.

“Pup training is fairly basic. It’s mostly moves, and such. The harder training doesn’t start until your

teens, and only if you want it.” Colby answered.

“Ah. Where is he doing the training?” Lexi questioned.

“There is on old gym that is two blocks away from the town center. It’s sat empty for a few years. Dad

rented it for Braxton, and fixed it up. There is space for pup classes. Gina is trying to talk him into

adding dance, and gymnastics classes for pups that want to do that instead. Braxton isn’t a fan of the

ideal though.”

“Why not? Those kinds of things are good for pups as well.” I protested.

“I think it more has to do with his lack of knowledge or understanding of those activities. It also doesn’t

help that he couldn’t even begin to teach those kinds of classes.” Colby responded.

“I can see that.”

“Does your pack have those kinds of classes for pups?” Lexi questioned.

“I don’t know honestly.” I answered,

“Kind of. There are a couple of moms who teach those on a small scale, in their homes. Besides that,

no.” Colby responded.

“Is there interest?” Lexi asked.

“I have no idea.” Colby answered.

“Neither do I.” I said.

We continued to chat as we drove home. There were a few things I needed to think more about, that

were brought up during our conversation. One of them being staying in Rowen’s apartment. I had only

ever spent one night there. Other than that I rarely stepped foot in his home. That made me feel a little

guilty. He always came to where ever I was. I really didn’t do the same for him. When he came to

Cloverland he stayed in my room. When we were home we would go out on dates then go back to

Jax’s. He never even asked me about staying in his apartment. I knew why he didn’t as we had

discussed it, but the more I thought about it, the less fair to him it seemed.

He put so much into us, but did I really put in that much effort? Yes I planned things for us to do when

he was at Cloverland. I also would ask him to come visit, sometimes. I did text, make calls, and even

make some of the video calls. I would ask him about things going on in his life, and was genuinely

interested in his work. We rarely talked about our future though. Part of that may because of my stance

on not talking about the future Luna thing. I could be wrong though. Was I really not putting the same

amount of effort in as Rowen was? I wasn’t sure. 1

“Hey. Can I ask you question” I finally spoke up, ending Lexi, and Colby’s conversation.

“Sure small fry.” Lexi responded.

“What’s up short stack?” Colby said.

“Um, am I not putting enough effort into my relationship with Rowen?” I asked nervously.

“I’m not sure I know what you mean.” Lexi stated.

“You might want to explain a little. I don’t understand either.” Colby added.

“Um. Most of mine, and Rowen’s visits are him coming to Cloverland. Yeah I plan stuff for us to do

when he’s there, but most of those visits are him planning to come, not me asking him to. Yeah I text,

call, and video chat with him, but I feel like he does more of the reaching out. I’ve only ever stayed in

his apartment once, and only walked in the place a handful of times for a few minutes. I never even ask

to go there. When I’m home, he plans everything, but I never make suggestions or ask to do

something. I just kind of follow his lead.” I explained quietly, looking at my hands.

“Ah. Your situations are different Chas. Until recently you were even unsure if he would stick around.

You also had little knowledge on building a relationship with another person. You didn’t know what you

enjoyed doing. You didn’t know you could ask someone to do something. You also weren’t used to

communicating with anyone outside of what was expected of you. Rowen is teaching you these things

through actions instead of words.” Colby explained.

“But….but is that fair to him?” I whispered.

“It’s not always about fair small fry. Sometimes it’s about need. Rowen knew, and still knows what you

need so he’s giving it to you.” Lexi responded.

“But what about what he needs?” I asked.

“Short stack, you are fulfilling his needs by doing things with him, being by his side, talking with him,

and becoming comfortable with him. He knows when you’re ready, and comfortable you’ll step up.” Lexi

stated.

“Also remember he is an Alpha. Alphas are wired to be in control, and being the one calling the shots.”

Colby added.

“Also their goal is to make their mate as happy, and comfortable as possible. They bend over

backwards. for her in every possible way.” Lexi said.

“But….” I sputtered.

“Has he ever said anything to you about any of this?” Lexi asked.

“Well no.” I answered.

“Then don’t worry about it. As we said, you’re fulfilling his needs.” Lexi stated.

“Well not all of them.” I muttered.

“What needs…..nope. Never mind. Not talking about this.” Colby said making Lexi giggle.

“Chas, do you remember what we talked about when we were home a few weeks ago when we

discussed this subject?” Lexi asked.

“Yes.” I answered, blushing..

“And what did I say?”

“That a male’s greatest pleasure is getting his female off.”

“And that’s enough of that.” Colby grumbled.

“Oh hush.” Lexi slapped Colby on the arm.

“Please don’t talk to my baby sister about sex.” Colby begged.

“She needs to talk to someone about it.” Lexi protested.

“No she doesn’t. She’s sweet, innocent, and pure. She’ll stay that way for the rest of her life.” Colby

stated. firmly.

“So it’s ok for me to do all of the dirty, nasty things you enjoy so much, but if Chastity wants to do the

same with her mate, it’s not?” Lexi asked, causing my eyes to widen.

“Guys! Please! I don’t want to hear about this!” I squeaked.

“Of course it’s not. She’s too innocent for that. She’ll never do any of those things!” Colby protested.

“Keep telling yourself that, but are you still going to believe that when she’s pregnant, or has a few

pups. running around?” Lexi asked, trying not to laugh while I was sitting quietly blushing, and staring

at my hands.

“Yes! Immaculate conception! That is the only way my sister will ever have pups.” Colby growled.

“Hey! That’s not very fair!” I complained.

“Why isn’t it?” Colby asked, looking confused.

“I have to sit around, and listen to all of you talk about the things you do with your mates all of the time.

Why am I not allowed to learn what you all are talking about for myself?” I asked, unsure of why I was

having this conversation.

“We don’t talk about this stuff every often.” Colby protested.

“Colby, I was sitting right there when you talked about handcuffing Lexi to the bed two weeks ago, and

making her cum so hard she almost passed out. Not something I wanted to hear about by the way, but

that’s the besides the point. I heard it any way. I hear about the things Marcus does to Norm too.” I

stated, blushing, and trying not to gag.

“Shit. Sorry. You don’t need to do those things though. You’re too innocent for that.” Colby whined.

“Why?” I asked.

“Because you are.”

“You better have a better reason than that otherwise your favorite handcuffs will be disappearing.” Lexi

stated, crossing her arms over her chest.

“You like them too.” Colby joked.

“COLBY!” I yelled.

“Sorry. I….I….It’s just that I look at you, and still see that tiny pigtailed girl chasing Jax around the yard,

climbing up on his back, and laughing. Yeah, I was a shit to you, but I look at you, and see the tiny pup

who would come up to me with a book in her hand, and ask me to look at pictures with her, or play

Don’t Break the Ice. Man you loved that game. You would giggle right along with us when we played.

Even though you didn’t get to play with the family.” Colby answered quietly.

“I’m not a little girl any more though. You, and Jax seem to forget that. I’m an adult now, and I have a -

mate.” I said quietly.

“Yeah. I know.” Colby sulked.

“Colby, do you think that maybe part of the problem is not only you being the over protective brother,

but also that you wish you could do things differently with Chastity?” Lexi questioned.

“I….I don’t know. I never thought about it. What makes you think that any way?” Colby answered.

“Darren.” Lexi said simply..

“Darren? What about Darren?”

“My brother is protective of me too. When I started dating Anthony he gave the whole don’t hurt my

sister speech, and did all he could to keep me from getting hurt. When Anthony came back with a mate

no one knew about, especially me, Darren punched him, and knocked him out. When we mated, he

had the same. conversation with you, but he was never once resistant to the idea of you, and I having

sex. He was honestly a little shocked that we didn’t that first weekend. He told me he didn’t like the idea

of me having sex, but since my first time, and every time after was with my mate he accepted it. Hell

we talk about sex with each other. It was more about losing his little sister to another male than

anything.” Lexi explained.

“It’s a little weird that you talk about our sex life with your brother.” Colby grunted.

“He was my best friend until Chastity. There is nothing we don’t talk about. Also, not the point here, at

all.” Lexi stated.

“I know. I….I really don’t know why the idea of you having a physical relationship with Rowen bothers

me so much Chas. Hell even dad is more accepting of that than Jax, and I are.” Colby said.

“You talk about my sex life, or lack of it with dad?” I squeaked.

“No. Molly told dad about that conversation with Rowen we had a few weeks ago. Dad wasn’t happy,

and laid us both out. Told us we were being assholes, and that sex between you, and Rowen was your

business. To stay the heli out of it.” Colby said.

“Oh.”

“Look, I’m sorry. It’s just weird for me. OK? I don’t even like thinking about it.”

“Do you think I like talking about it? Colby, you need to remember something.”

“What’s that?”

“I knew about sex in broad terms until recently. As in I knew it happened, but not exactly what sex was,

how it happened, why it happened, that touch like that felt a certain way, nothing. I only really knew it

was messy, and that females got pregnant from having sex. Yes I have learned a lot more from

listening to all of you, as well as talking with Molly, Lexi, and Melissa. I’m embarrassed to talk about

sex, much less think about it. What I do know is that I need, and want to learn. I also know that I need

to experience these things on my own. I NEED you, and Jax to leave me alone about it. I don’t think

you two realize that every time you get all upset about even the mention of sex, and me, you make me

feel guilty for being curious. You also make me feel like I’m doing something wrong by even thinking

about it.”

“We do?”

“Yes, you do.”

“I’m going to sound like an asshole here, but there is a part of me. The protective big brother part, that

doesn’t want you to grow up, that is happy about that.” Colby admitted, and Lexi smacked him in the

back of the head, “You didn’t let me finish female. Chastity, the rest of me feels guilty for making you

feel that way. I’m sorry. I’ll try not to do that any more.”

“Thank you.” I said.

“I’ll talk to Jax about this too. He needs to know Not sure how he’ll react to it because he’s more

protective than I am, but I’ll try.”

“Thank you.”

“You really are an idiot.” Lexi grunted.

“We’ve established that, but I also didn’t know.” Colby growled.

“Whatever. You’ll be punished later.”

“But baby I like your punishments.”

“Not this one. Better call your dad, and have him put fresh sheets on the bed in your room at his place.”

“Oh come on Lex. I apologized, and I really didn’t know I was making her feel like that. How can you

punish me for something I didn’t know?”

“Humph.”

“Lexi, you really can’t punish him for something he didn’t know. Something I didn’t tell him. It’s not fair

to him.” I said.

“We’ll see. If you’re on your best behavior the rest of the day I’ll consider changing my mind.” Lexi

grumbled.

“I will be. I promise.” Colby stated.

“So if Rowen starts making out with Chastity, and grabs her ass in front of you, you’re not going to say

anything?” Lexi question, making my eyes widen, as I hoped Rowen wouldn’t do that.

“I can’t promise I won’t say anything, but I’ll try to only ask that he not do that right in front of me.” Colby

said.

“We’ll see.” Lexi sniffed.

“Ro…..Rowen wouldn’t do something like that, Lexi.” I squeaked.

Lexi just shrugged, and the subject was changed. I had to admit that now that Lexi put that thought in

my head, the idea had some appeal. I blushed badly at the idea though. That would be embarrassing

for him to do that in front of, well anyone. Thankfully I was drug from my thoughts by Colby, and Lexi.

The rest of the drive was spent in casual conversation that didn’t make me blush or uncomfortable in

any way.