twenty six

Jeremiah held onto Ivan firmly, but comfortably as he was on his lap.

Letting Ivan ride him, his hands covering his mouth to conceal the noises wanting to come out. Jeremiah reached up and pulled his hands down, grinning up into his eyes.

"Don't conceal your moans, I want to hear them," Jeremiah inhaled his scent deeply as he cradled the back of his head, bringing him closer against him, "I want to hear all of it...I want you to...hold my child again."

Ivan's eyes widened, pulling back some as he gripped his shoulders. Staring down into Jeremiah's soft ones, he knew this wasn't him trying to place some kind of dominance over him. He could tell by even his hold that he was serious...

And he wanted that too.

Another child.

"Are you sure?"

"Of course...why wouldn't I be sure? It's you...if I could have ten kids with you, I would. I'm not lying... The thought of nine more little versions of us just makes my heart race." Jeremiah started to get shy as he saw the way Ivan's face began to turn pink. "But...it's ultimately up to you. You are the one holding the baby and it's a lot of work. I will have as many as you are willing to carry."

"I know..." Ivan smiled down at him, wrapping his arms around his neck. "And I'm willing to have as many as you want. What you want, I want."

Jeremiah's smile softened upon Ivan as he pulled him closer. "That's my line."

The both of them began to hold onto each other's hands, looking into one another's eyes. Fully loving one another as they began to make love with a child in mind.

The idea of that angered one person.

Luv, as he got to watch Ivan and Jeremiah hold one another. With the idea in both of their minds that they wanted another child together.

Another child that Luv never got to have with Primus.

And just when Ivan was about to kiss Jeremiah, he suddenly felt himself faltering. Feeling that same feeling of being unable to control his own autonomy. He tried to lean towards him again, but suddenly felt like he was being forced back.

Because he was.

Luv taking over his body as he gripped Jeremiah's shoulders harshly.

"Primus!" Luv yelled, trying to get his attention despite the predicament he was in. Jeremiah looked at him and felt completely disturbed by him breaking through.

Especially at this time, when they were having sex.

"You're so rude, you can't just appear whenever you want to. Give Ivan back-."

"Shut up." Luv sneered sharply in his face.

Jeremiah was taken aback by how desperate Luv looked now. He wasn't even seeing him, but trying to see the person who wasn't ready to speak to him entirely yet.

"You can't force something to happen..." Jeremiah tells him calmly, trying to steady Ivan's body as he didn't want to continue moving anymore. It wouldn't feel like he was having sex with Ivan, but with Luv instead. "I heard your story and I understand that you made threats to force things to happen-."

"Don't speak to me as if you truly know what has happened! We both lived it, experienced it, I started this! And the one person I want to speak to after hundreds upon hundreds of years doesn't want to speak to me! How many times do I have to say it? Have I not said it enough? That I am sorry? And if I haven't, I'm sorry!" Luv apologized desperately.

Jeremiah grinned solemnly, beginning to remember Ivan's apologies. How he remembered thinking he didn't need to keep hearing it...that he already forgave him.

Except he couldn't speak for Primus' pain that was much more grander than his own. It extended out for so many years...

As he thought in silence, Luv glared into his eyes. "I know you can hear me Primus."

Primus didn't say anything and Jeremiah couldn't hear him either. Except they all knew he was there.

The longer they sat in silence, the more angry Luv became. His frustration was building because it wasn't fair to watch Ivan and Jeremiah live the life Primus and him once had. They could get it back if they just...talked.

Except Primus refused to speak to him.

"This is pissing me off!" Luv pulled himself off of Jeremiah's dick, about to throw his legs over to stand.

Until Jeremiah felt a feeling he hadn't felt before either. Except it was the exact same feeling that Ivan felt as Primus took over his body.

He grabbed ahold of Luv's arm firmly, and Luv instantly knew that was him.

When he faced him, Primus was glaring down at him. Shaking his head at him in disappointment...

"You continue to do more and more that proves to me...that you haven't changed."

Luv looked him dead in the eyes, and even though it was technically Jeremiah's body...it felt like Primus' again. He wanted to rush him at that moment and hold onto him, but he could tell that that wasn't going to happen.

He sat silently, waiting for Primus to speak again. To say something that he could actually respond to. Only for his eyes to move off of his.

"You continue to do these things...that tell me you aren't changed. The way you once were is still there, and why will I engage with that?"

"I...was motivated by Luka...keep in mind," Luv just wanted to say quickly, seeing Primus' eyes narrow on him, "I'm not trying to say...that he is the reason this all happened. I could've not let him influence my thoughts and words, but I did. Somewhere within me, he knew that I was discontent with myself...somewhere deep down. Because I never thought about it before, I promise. It was...one thought long, long ago." Luv turned completely to face Primus as he grabbed his hands. "I missed you more than you'd ever believe at this point...right?"

Primus looked at their hands, glancing back up at Luv. Only to pull them from his and watch his expression darken.

"I believe you because of the obvious reasons."

"And what are those obvious reasons?"

"You miss what we once were before you made your choices," Primus answered quickly.

Luv smiled nervously as he came closer towards him, "Well, of course! If we just talk and go about things in a particular way, we can get that back-."

"We can't. I'm telling you; we cannot."

Luv felt his face get hot, looking away from Primus sharply. His hands balled up into fists as his frustration piled up more and more.

"But that's because of you."

"It is."

The both of them sat in silence, Primus pursing his lips some at Luv's expression. An expression that held resentment towards him and his choices. The way he chose to go about it...the only way he felt he could go about it...

"I'm asking...what can I do, Primus?" Luv asks shakily, sighing as he had yet to look at him again. "Luna...won't help any more than this. The curse was it, she has important matters to deal with-."

"I'm aware, and I wouldn't want her to be involved any more than she already has been. Have we not caused her enough trouble being stuck in that curse for all that time? And because of what?" Primus looked away, closing his eyes for a moment to speak to Jeremiah. "I apologize. He was not going to leave or do anything you said unless I came through once."

"It's fine...now I can at least understand what Ivan feels when Luv forces him back into his own body." Jeremiah chuckled, causing Primus to grin as he opens his eyes.

Seeing Luv already close to him, his face inches away. Luv gripped his face, tears welling within his eyes as he stared at him. He pressed his temple against his and watched Primus' eyes widen on him.

As he did something they both once did before.

Touch temples and communicate through the bond they shared.

Except as Luv gripped his shoulders, the tears began to slip as he couldn't hear anything. Primus was aware that Luv now knew the truth.

"You...broke our Bond?" Luv asked him shakily, yanking back from him as Primus didn't show any sadness. He got up immediately and Primus sighed. "That's all you can do?! All you can do is sigh after you broke off our centuries upon centuries Bond?! And for what?!"

"For lots of things. Don't be ridiculous-."

"I said I was sorry!" Luv shrieked.

Primus looked over, knowing that the Luka in this timeline was around somewhere.

"The Bond was tainted and ruined. There was no use in keeping it any longer. You...didn't love me and I broke it to help you. I was thinking...that I would much rather you be happy without me because I disappointed you so much. You were so angry and unhappy with me, so I let you go. Now, I wish I had broken it with me in mind too."

Jeremiah remembered when he asked Ivan if they'd like to divorce. All of the reasons Primus listed...Jeremiah felt that too.

He just wanted Ivan to be happy, and if he would become happier with him gone - he'd do that.

The difference was that he didn't act out on that. Now he wondered how long it took Primus to break it off... If he felt the way he felt about Ivan...then it took a long time for him to take it there.

Ivan, however, could feel a pain he had never felt before from Luv. And the scrambling of words that went through his head was so quick that he couldn't make out the words.

"Luv calm down...I know it's upsetting, but don't do anything you'll regret. I need my body back-."

"Shut up!" Luv shrieked at Ivan, standing up hurriedly as he pulled on some pants. "Why did you do this?! Why did you do this to us?! And because of fucking what?! I had a right to be angry! Yet at the same time, it was hard to move on! My Mate, let our daughter curse us and we lost everything! I have a right to be angry!"

"And I have the right to break the Bond. I mated with someone who was sweet, loving, gentle, and kind. You have become someone I don't even recognize. Of course I'm going to end it to save us both- Luv!"

Primus stood up as he watched Luv grab a jacket and run off. He hurried to pull on the nearest clothes as he heard Jeremiah panicking in his head to go after him.

"He has Ivan! Hurry!"

"I'm trying." Primus said quickly, running after Luv as he saw that a different bedroom door was open. "Whose bedroom is that?"

"That's Luka's!" Jeremiah cries out fearfully as Primus rushed in and saw that he was no longer in the bed. He turned around and just when he made it downstairs, he saw that the front door was wide open.

With Luv nowhere to be seen.

"I'm sorry..." Primus apologized quickly as he heard Jeremiah losing his mind. "I should've known. I was avoiding him because I knew he'd react like this to me removing the Bond. That's another reason why I was avoiding him too. He couldn't feel me anymore because I did such a thing...but he probably would've never assumed I'd do this."

"He took Ivan and he took our son! I do not want to hear about Luv, he's crazy! I just want to save them from his reckless actions! I want my body back." Jeremiah insisted, and Primus didn't hesitate once to give it back to him.

Jeremiah, in that instant, had his body back. And he ran out the house, full of just as much anger as he had before when Ivan left. Except it began to become worse because Luv took Luka too.

Unaware that Ivan was shouting at Luv in his head as he ran with their son.

"You are crazy! This is exactly why he removed the Bond. You're selfish and think only of yourself! You won't listen to any advice given to you when you of all people should be taking that fucking advice! And then you take Luka-!"

"Luka was always my son, he was never yours. You both are just living out the life Primus had-."

"No! We are not. We were never Lunas over anybody! We weren't Gods! We weren't anything close to you two! Why must you continue the rhetoric that we aren't original? The one thing that isn't original is the fact that neither of us knew how good we had it until it was gone, that's it!" Ivan shouts as Luv continued to run down the sidewalk with no shoes on.

Luka asleep in his arms still, Ivan hoped he wouldn't wake up and hear what Luv was saying. Because Luka wouldn't know that was him, he'd think it was just his mommy speaking.

"I'm so fucking tired...I'm tired! Why do you get something I don't?! I won't let you have what Primus and I did not."

"And what is that?"

Luv ignored him, but Ivan already knew what that was.

Another child.

"It's not fair!" Luv cried, ignoring people who began to recognize Ivan and saw him crying with disheveled clothing and no shoes. Luka asleep in his arms as tears streamed down his face and he shouted to himself. "I said I was sorry! Why? Why?! What the fuck is the difference? If your Jeremiah can forgive you, why can't mine? They are the same fucking person! You two aren't special-!"

"Stop shouting like that! You're in my body! People will think I've lost my mind-!"

"Good! I don't care about that. My everything was taken from me! Everything! No one is trying to understand me! Why can't anyone see my point of view?!" Luv turned abruptly as he crossed the road and cars had to stop for him.

Almost being hit multiple times until he was on the other side, Ivan became fearful for not just his life; but Luka's too. Luv was beginning to put him in harms way too.

"Anytime someone does, you shoot them down. You're the one who's not letting people give you advice or say a word without you trying to argue. Just don't argue and accept it for what it was. You messed up, I accepted; so why can't you?"

"Our Bond is broken?! How can he truly understand?! I was about to let him into my mind to see and he fucking did that! That's why-?!"

"Ivan?"

Luv stopped, seeing someone look up at him in disbelief. That disbelief beginning to turn into fear as he saw he was holding Luka too.

Ivan became sick in that moment because the person before him was Tate of all people.

"What...what are you doing? I saw you run across the road and you're talking to yourself? What's going on-?"

"Mind your business." Luv snapped at him, trying to push past him only for Tate to grab him. "Who even are you?"

"Ivan what happened? Did Jeremiah break your Bond?" Tate found himself asking with a hint of excitement within his voice.

Luv looked down at him, beginning to smile as he held onto Luka tightly.

He felt at that moment...that if his life was over, Ivan's should be too.

"I-."

Suddenly, everything fell still.

Luv already knew what that was as he turned around, seeing Luna looking at him in disappointment. Her hands rubbed her face in anxiousness, frustrated with her mother's choices.

"Mother...you are out to ruin yourself and Ivan-."

"You knew your father broke our Bond. Why didn't you tell me?"

"That is not my place. I am sorry, but I cannot let you further damage what has been done. I am the Luna...I thought you would do the right thing and I would not have to be here once again. But...why are you doing all of the wrong things? All you have to do is-."

"What?!" Luv shrieked, red in the face as he felt like he was losing his mind. "I have apologized, I have tried to listen, I have done everything I could to the best of my abilities! What more do I need to do to fix things?! Tell me!"

Luna looked up at him, saddened by the person she saw.

While her father, Primus, was still the same. It seemed the curse had ruined and darkened her mother further. His character was something twisted and stuck.

"Were you not watching Ivan and what he did to break the curse?"

Luv remained silent as he looked away from her.

"Do not just say you're sorry. Say it and mean it-."

"I do mean it-."

"And stop interrupting people too." Luna sighed, shaking her head as Luv's lips tightened together in frustration. "Apologize, mean it, and change. Don't just apologize and stay the same. You can apologize, but that doesn't mean things will just go back to normal. You should know that."

Luv remained silent, tears beginning to stream down his face.

"I...have been silenced and trapped in that curse for so long. I just wanted to get out of it and Primus would miss me just as much as I missed him. I thought he'd put it behind him too, like I did."

"That's not fair at all, and you know that, mother."

Luv continued to cry silently, Luna going towards him. Caressing his arm tenderly, she knew that Jeremiah was still looking for him.

"You remember...how father was, right? There wasn't anything he wouldn't do for you. Before you became pregnant, you both were a duo - a team. You communicated, listened, no...interruptions. And when there was a sorry, it was meant and things changed. Stop justifying what was already done, it's too late. Just focus on now, because the more you bring it up...the more it hurts, you know?" Luna grinned solemnly up at him.

She hated saying her mother this way, but she also hated how much he was tormenting everyone else because he was tormented with himself.

"You have to go back."

"I can't..." Luv shook his head.

"Why not? Don't be ridiculous, mother."

Luv looked away, shaking his head again and just wanting to walk away. He felt like no matter what was done...Primus was over him and done.

"I'm already out here. What's done is done. Primus hates me."

"Father doesn't hate you. He's just hurt - everyone is! But don't run from it, communicate! I can't keep coming down here and stopping your choices. What you do from here, I won't stop or help you. You can't keep being reckless and expect no response. So from here, you make your choice. You run...or you turn back around and just communicate." Luna tells him firmly.

With that, she fades away before his very eyes.

Luv stood there...as time began to move. He turned back around and saw Tate looking up at him still with concern.

"Are you going to answer my question?"

"Don't do this...please..." Ivan begged him pleadingly. "I just want my body back. I'll take us back and we can speak to him. Don't mess this up even more than you already have for not just yourself, but me. Because this my life, not yours."

Luv remained silent, the tears continuing to stream. The accumulation of all of the emotions at once began to be too much to bear.

All of the good choices felt bad and all of the bad choices felt good.

"Ivan-!"

"You were the one who was in love with my Primus, right?"

Tate frowned, "Who's Primus?"

Luv shoved past him completely now, ignoring Tate's calls.

He had already made his choice now.

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