five

second chance...

day 01.5 + 02

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"What are you doing?"

Ivan stopped, wondering if he heard Jeremiah's voice properly. His back was still to him and he questioned if he actually spoke.

Until Jeremiah turned around, looking down at him. His eyes narrowing upon him as Ivan still couldn't get used to the way he looked at him.

"What am I doing-?"

"Yes, what are you doing? Why are you still here?" Jeremiah glared at Ivan who continued to look at him in confusion. He remembered how he used to feel...remembering that if Ivan had done something like this before everything, he would've been so ecstatic.

Now just seeing him here filled him with frustration to his actions. He felt like he was only here to mess with him...to rub in his face that he just had their baby.

"I still need to speak to you. I wanted to wait until Tate was gone-."

"Tate is still here, he never left." Jeremiah interrupts him as he looked away from Ivan's stare. "I came out here because I had a feeling you were out here."

"So...you came out for me?"

"I came out to get you to go back home. You should be with Luka, not trying to ruin my life even further. Aren't you tired? Antagonizing me?" Jeremiah questioned him sharply, throwing off Ivan with his tone. "I...am trying to live my life after everything and you're still trying to fuck with me."

"No, I'm not. I'm here because I want to fix things-."

"You cannot be serious."

Ivan continued to look up at him, watching the way Jeremiah looked so upset. His hands ball up into fists as he looked at Ivan more and more.

He didn't understand what he used to like in him. Such a cruel and uncaring person. No morals attached and always trying to mess with someone's life - his life. Before it was all love for him and he cherished him with all of his heart.

Except he couldn't even look at him without feeling so...frustrated and upset.

Those words that Ivan said to him...they still tore away at him. The person he loved with all of his heart and who he knew loved him back, could say such horrible things? Say them so easily all because he became an Alpha and not him?

"Even if we get married...I will never see you as my Alpha and I will never love you."

Jeremiah couldn't understand how he could be so cruel, but that wasn't even the worst of it.

"I am. I am so serious that it's not even funny," Ivan began to smile at him despite Jeremiah's displeasure to him doing so, "I don't know what you're doing here, but I want to talk with you personally. One-on-one, away from this place. Away from Tate, because I know you're only with him because of me. I...I..."

Ivan faltered the longer he looked up at Jeremiah. Remembering the Jeremiah he once had and how much love he always had for him within his eyes.

Except the Jeremiah before him...despite it still being Jeremiah, wasn't his Jeremiah. Just the way he looked at him was like he wanted him to just disappear.

"I miss you."

Jeremiah's lips tightened together, not happy to hear that at all.

Ivan could smell the absolute anger within his pheromones and he frowned. He didn't understand why he was emitting such anger.

"Go...back home, now." Jeremiah said with a shakiness in his voice, having to clam himself down. He felt so upset by Ivan just saying that much more than he thought it would.

Even with him saying that, he felt like he was being played. Being messed with, that it wasn't genuine at all.

"I do-."

"Stop!" Jeremiah shouts over him.

Ivan's eyes lowered from his at him shouting. He never heard Jeremiah shout at him either.

"I'm not...your toy or someone to be played with anymore. I'm not letting you ruin me again... I won't." Jeremiah whimpered as Ivan remembered his Jeremiah saying that in his own reality.

"Ivan please...don't keep doing this to me. I am fine with you dominating me, but not like this. You aren't even trying to dominate me anymore, you're trying to ruin me. Please...don't be the ruin of me too."

Ivan felt his eyes watering at his words. Jeremiah noticing the tears that welled up in his eyes.

Looking away from such a sight, he tried not to let himself be affected by such a thing. He only started to resent Ivan eight months ago...around the time when he found out he was pregnant.

Not because he was pregnant with Luka, but because of how much he went out of his way to make sure he'd never be around their child. To stay away from him, to say such horrible things, to try and ruin him entirely...all because he was an Alpha.

It was still fresh...it felt like he was hearing those cruel words just yesterday. Every time he closed his eyes to sleep or blink, he saw the red face that shouted the most vile things at him. The blazing hazel eyes he once thought were beautifully enigmatic, were now uncomfortable to stare at.

Now that person...who hurt him so much, was just sticking around trying to "fix things"?

"Do you even know what you're trying to fix?" Jeremiah questions him quietly. "Because I don't believe in your intentions. You are...a cruel person, I don't trust anything you do Ivan. You are one of the most hateful people I've ever met in my entire life... Why...would I want that back?"

Ivan wiped his eyes quickly, noticing couples who would go in and out of the club. Some picked up on who he was and he knew he couldn't be out here for much longer.

He could tell that Jeremiah subconsciously tried to block them off from seeing him. Except the more upset he became the less his body shielded him from others view.

"I-."

"Why are you still here?"

Ivan found himself pushed back, seeing Tate come between him and Jeremiah. His eyes glaring at him as Ivan tried not to take his anger out on him.

"I was speaking to him."

"You don't think I noticed?" Tate snapped, having to hide his nerves.

He didn't know how long they had spoken, but he knew where Jeremiah stood in all of this. Even if Jeremiah said it wasn't the case, he knew how easily...Ivan could soften his heart for him again.

Simple words, even without an apology.

The fact that he had it that easy made him hate him more.

"I have the right to speak with my-."

"I don't know why you're persisting now. The damage has already been done. Now you want to come here as if things can be easily resolved within one sight of you? You always...did this. It won't work this time on him, I can promise you that much. Not with me here. I will actually love Jeremiah and treat him with the respect he deserves. I actually know how to appreciate someone's autonomy, him as an Alpha - unlike you." Tate explained proudly.

Ivan had nothing to say to Tate, his eyes looking over at Jeremiah. Only to see him not looking at either of them. Until his eyes lifted and he made eye contact with him.

"Maybe you do...maybe you have treated him better than me after all these years of him and I being best friends. Promised to end up together, to be together forever. But...it doesn't change the fact that he and I share a child. I don't doubt that he wants to see him, right?" Ivan looked over at Jeremiah again as he saw him look away quickly.

"Piss off, what exactly are your motives? Everything you do, comes off so disingenuous-."

"I'm not here to convince you, just him." Ivan interrupts, tired of hearing him speak. "You...mean nothing to me. I only care about him, that's it."

Jeremiah looked back at Ivan and saw that same look in his eyes that he gave towards those he didn't respect. Except when his eyes moved onto him, they softened into something else.

Something he'd never seen before.

"Jeremiah, let's go." Tate grabbed Jeremiah by the hand, pulling him back inside.

Ivan just standing there as he watched Jeremiah be pulled away. Except he saw Jeremiah look back at him this time, unlike the last time.

He sneered as he took himself back home.

Unaware of how much of an impact he already had on Jeremiah.

Jeremiah sat with Tate, sitting still as Tate watched him nervously. His hands held onto Jeremiah's one hand as his eyes looked elsewhere.

Tate already knew how respectable Jeremiah was. He wouldn't do anything that would hurt him or anyone else. He was different from other Alphas and he knew that. That's why he liked him so much, because of how different he was.

Except his difference was beginning to become exponentially clear.

Now that he was actually around him and helped him through what Ivan put him through, he saw how special he was. That specialness was something that could rarely be replicated. He was already aware of why...but that didn't change the fact of how special he was.

"I'm sorry." Jeremiah breathed, his eyes raising onto Tate who sighed.

"You...are already falling for it?"

"No, I'm not. I've just never seen him like that before. I...I forget that he still has a great power over me-."

"And that is exactly why you didn't want to get in a serious relationship...because you knew you'd never truly be with me. That your mind would still always be thinking about Ivan, despite how much of a shitty person he is." Tate states quickly and without hesitation.

Jeremiah doesn't respond to that, but he didn't need to.

"Answer me." Tate demands calmly.

What Ivan didn't realize is that Tate was the Omega that took the place of domination. Dominating Jeremiah's actions, thoughts, choices... Tate was the one that ended up taking that role, without words even being spoken.

"Yes, you're right." Jeremiah agrees honestly without hesitating. "You...don't know what power he holds over me."

"I do."

Tate let go of his hand, shaking his head as Jeremiah looked at him shyly. He could tell that he felt bad for putting him in some kind of 'predicament', but Tate joined knowing full well.

It was made clear to begin with, made clear by Jeremiah. He just didn't think that someone who treated someone so horribly...would still be on someone's mind so much.

"I really do. I went to school with you two, and I saw how much you let him control your life. Control how you feel about yourself, about how you feel about being an Alpha, about everything. I'm not too surprised...that things are so messy right now." Tate got up from his seat, letting himself sit on Jeremiah's lap.

Jeremiah let his arm hook around Tate's waist, leaning his head upon his shoulder. Beginning to feel worse and worse the longer they sat.

Sat in the sexually loaded music and spreading pheromones. As if they didn't come here for one purpose. Except that was ruined and he couldn't even do anything now.

Feeling Tate's hand settle on his dick, he found himself embarrassed. Embarrassed that he couldn't find himself aroused...

"You can't even get it up."

"Because-."

"Not because you can't get it up for me, but because I'm not Ivan."

Jeremiah didn't say anything because it was pointless.

"You...may think that just because I saw him that all things are now fixed, but they are not. What he said to me...can't just be easily forgiven, it's not possible-."

"The problem is that it can be." Tate removed his hand from Jeremiah, sighing. "I hate him. I hate him for you."

"You don't have to."

Jeremiah sighed, resting his hand on Tate's thigh. He looked into his eyes and saw those blue eyes that wanted him.

Except those hazel eyes flashed through his mind suddenly, his eyes closing tightly as he looked away. Breathing heavily and unable to concentrate.

"I'm sorry...that you like me and I can't reciprocate my feelings right now."

"It's fine." Tate chuckled, despite Jeremiah's obvious concern. "I know in the end you'll truly see how horrible he is and never go back to him. You'll be with me, and then I can have your child. Have your child and actually let you be in their life."

Jeremiah just looked at him, Tate nodding to his words as he meant them. Only for Jeremiah to toss him over to the side.

Tate sitting up from the couch in shock as Jeremiah looked forward blankly.

"I refuse to have a child with anyone until I meet my first. No one...and I mean no one, can replace Luka for me. I'm incomplete until I meet my first. If it takes ten years for me to meet him, I won't have a child for ten years. That simple." Jeremiah states calmly as Tate looked at him in shock.

He could feel within himself that he wanted to have Jeremiah's child. To make him happy...to share that connection that comes with having a child with someone.

To show him that he was the one that he should be with, not Ivan.

"I didn't know you were passionate on that." Tate cleared his throat, sitting up as he scooted back over to Jeremiah.

"I am..." Jeremiah turned to him, grinning sadly as he brought Tate into his embrace. Leaning his head against his chest, hugging him as Tate caressed his back. "I'm sorry for tossing you over, I didn't mean anything by it."

"I know, it's okay. I forgive you," Tate smiled, hugging him closely as his legs went around Jeremiah's body, "I want you to kiss me."

Jeremiah peered up at him as he saw how much Tate wanted him still. Pulling him towards him, he pressed his lips to his.

Tate holding onto him, not wanting to let go. He knew deep down in his heart that he'd do anything...to be able to certify his place in Jeremiah's life. Even if it meant having to speak to Ivan to get him to see his child.

"If you were to see...Luca," Tate spoke between their kisses, Jeremiah faltering at his son's name, "you'd...be willing to have another baby?"

Jeremiah sighed, not really sure of how to answer that. He wanted to say yes...but if he was to have another child, he wouldn't want to have another one unless it was with Ivan.

Not that that would ever happen.

"Maybe."

Tate felt his face become hot, smiling excitedly as he captured Jeremiah's lips again. Except he didn't realize that he didn't ask if Jeremiah would be willing to have a baby with him. He just asked if he'd be willing to have another.

Because he would be, but most likely, not with Tate.

They weren't even together and he was asking such things of him. It put Jeremiah off more than Tate realized.

Not knowing that Tate had his own idea in mind to help him see Luka a lot sooner. Just so that he could possibly have the chance to certify his placement in Jeremiah's life.

And that was to go to Ivan himself and lie, just so that he could see Luka sooner.

His arms tightening around Jeremiah, he found himself even more excited. Because he would do anything for Jeremiah...but he also would do anything for himself just to have Jeremiah.

And that was the problem.

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if anything,

you're helping your least favorite.

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they always are.

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you may or may not suspect.

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