Chapter 45 - Decision

Alexander Adams

People have to make a decision in their life, some of the decisions are very hard to take but it's also for the best. Meeting a precious person in your life is a bless, getting to know them more and being so close to them are a bonus. Some of them are click some of them aren't, but I feel so lucky that I've already met, and getting to know that person in my life.

That angel sleep on my bed, her body lays right next to me, covered by a grey blanket on top of her. Her long lashes fall onto those pinkish cheeks. Her sweet soft lips is my kind of addiction that I crave everyday. Her skin is smooth and soft and her touch brought me to the highest sky. She brings me to the very top of my imagination that I've never experienced before. This kind of feeling is real, and this time I cannot lie to myself.

Seeing a sweet angel like her being threatened bad because of the devil hurts me more, how can a person like her being threatened. She's so innocent and she doesn't deserve those terrors that haunted her for the past few month. I remember looking at her eyes, it was wet, she's scared, those eyes are asking for a freedom and crying for help. She doesn't deserve to be threatened like this, seeing her scared and sad making me pushing myself to think about the way out of all of these threatens and terrors.

I know at the end of the day, no matter how, I have to choose between a girl and my career. But she isn't just a girl, she means so much more to me. I want all the best for her, I want her to be happy, I want to set her free, I want to see those happy smiles and those sparkling eyes again. I love this girl so much, and I will not let her being depressed and sad.

I need to quit, I need to quit my job.

I know it since the start, the person behind all of this doesn't want me to be happy. I thought I will not have a special person in my life cause I thought it is going to put her in danger. But this time, it feels different. She's different and I will not let anything happen to her, I love her so much.

I've finished all of my work for this month way earlier cause I've been planning to quit. I know this is a very hard decision to take, but besides that, I know how much she really mean to me and how much it scares her. I cannot let her leave under depressions and terrors.

I got up from the bed and carry the paper that I've been typing for the last one month about my resignation letter from my own family company. I know it's going to be hard but I'm going to start my own company out of my family company's name.

The only person that know about this is Glenn, I told him that it's going to be a hard time for me to start over the company, so I told him if he wants to quit it is understandable, but being a loyal man or I can say a friend to me, he chooses to stay work with me. He asked me if I am sure with my decision or not and I've told him that I'm serious and this is my final decision.

I got into the elevator that bring me straight into my dad's office, my hands are holding on the paper that I've signed. I know it's going to be hard and it's one of the biggest decisions that I've ever made but her. Her appearance in my life is a bless and I will not, risk her life.

I've talked about this with my dad and he somehow didn't say anything, he just listened and didn't really think it is a big deal. But today he's going to know that I am serious with what I've said.

The elevator being opened right on my dad's office room floor. I walk out then knock on the door, I slowly got inside and found him working on his desk. He throw me a glance when I walk in,

"Sir," I formally said.

"Have a seat," He said.

"I am here for my resignation letter, I've signed the letter," I said while looking at him who's sitting right in front of me.

He stays in a silent before open up the file, he opens it then read it before his eyes looking up at mine.

"Are you sure about this?" He asked me.

"Yes sir," I said.

"Okay," he said.

I found it strange when he doesn't stop me from quitting but what should I expect? This is it, I've resigned.

"Thank you," I said.

"Your welcome," he said before I got up from the chair and left his room.

I want to pack my stuff from my office room so I make my way into my room first before got back to the penthouse.

When I got there, there's a feeling of sad when I pack my stuff. I've been working for this company like for a few years and now I'm quitting.

I was looking at the glass wall until the door being opened which make myself turn around to found Luna in my office room.

"Luna," I greeted her.

"I went here right after Glenn told me you're packing for your stuff," She said and I can see that she has a weird stare into the doorway, I wonder why but she looks curious because of god knows why.

"I left right after making a breakfast for your beautiful girlfriend who's still sleeping," She said.

"Thank you," I smile.

"You really sure you want to do this?" She asked me.

"I just did," I said.

"Do you want me to help you to pack up?" She asked me.

"Thank you so much Luna," I said.

"It's my job Alex," She said before started to help me pack.

"You haven't eat a breakfast you better have some and let me pack all of these stuff," Luna said.

"Thank you so much, you know me best," I said.

"Glenn will pick all of the stuff after you packed it up," I said.

"Not a problem," she smiles.

I walk out of the room and I got a stares from my employee after I walked out, it seems like the news has been spread around the office after what I did.

Those stares somehow pulls me into my lowest position where I feel like I'm going to regret it, the stares of those people who's asking why did I do that. It is a really uncomfortable feeling, maybe this is the feeling where I step out of my comfort zone.

I got into the elevator without saying bye and everything to them. I don't know why, I used to be so independent in front of them but now being me without any position in this company makes me feel weak. I don't want anybody to see me at my weakest position and I hate when people feel sorry for me.

The elevator brought me back into my penthouse, I walk out with a weird feelings where I feel like I want to be mad but I cannot. Maybe this is the feeling of regret? Scared to start a new thing that we don't know will going well? Or what? My emotions when crazy after I left the place where I spent most of my time in.

I make my way into the living room, ignoring Bella who's just woke up and walking down the stairs. I turned on the Tv then throw myself onto the couch,

"Alex," Bella called my name, and from the way her voice speak, She doesn't sound the same.

I look up at her,

"Did you plan this?" She asked me.

I look at her but I know she's mad so I'm not brave enough to stare at those blue eyes for too long,

"Did you plan to cancel all of my schedule for the next two months?" She asked me.

I just did,

"Alex answer me," Her voice raised up.

"Yes I did! Why?" I said, my emotions started to loose control.

"Why?" She asked me.

"You asked me why?"

"It's my job Alex, if you're worried about me this isn't a right thing to do!" She said.

"I've worked hard for it, and what you did can destroy my agency's name and also my career," She said.

"I'm worried about you," I said.

"There are still so many ways other than doing this Alex," She said.

I stay in a silent while my eyes are stick to the Tv,

"This is for your safety bella, I'm canceling your schedule until it's safe," I finally found a word, cause her safety is my number one priority.

"Of course you can not," She said.

"Of course I can," I said.

"I'm protecting you Bella don't you know that?" I asked her.

"You better stay at home, I want to keep you safe," I said.

"You're not going anywhere without me," I said.

A tear slips from her eyes, She looks surprise when my voice suddenly raised up. I cannot control my emotions in this kind of situation,

"You can't do that," She said.

"This include my career and life Alex, you cannot just tell me what to do I'm not your employee!" She said.

She loves her job, I love mine too She just doesn't know what I've just done for her.

"But you're mine," I said.

"That's not how it works," She said.

"Yes it suppose to! This is for your own good!" I shout at her, and I don't know why my emotion taking all over me just like that, I shouldn't scream at her.

The silent in the room making the situation feel colder, the only thing that I can hear is the low sound from the Tv in the living room.

"I don't want to do this," her low voice suddenly speak, it sounds shaky.

"I don't want to do this anymore, I'm tired," she said.

What,

No..

I cannot loose her..

Right at the same time the elevator went open by Glenn who is about to enter the room. But Glenn suddenly stopped himself when he realizes it isn't the right time to talk,

"Glenn, wait," I told Glenn to stay.

I cannot believe for what she just said to me, I cannot believe she doesn't want to do this anymore, I'm surprised for what she just said.

"Are you leaving me?" I asked her, and I'm so scared to ask her that.

"Yes," She said.

I look at her and it feels like my world is falling apart, my heart feels shattered into pieces.

"Glenn," I called Glenn.

"Yes sir," Glenn said without looking at us, Glenn's eyes are staring down onto the floor and I know he must be feel very uncomfortable to be in this situation.

"Please take her wherever she wants to go, make sure that she's safe then you can go," I said to Glenn.

"Alright sir," Glenn said.

I got up from the couch, not really brave enough to look at those blue eyes that I've just hurt. I'm not ready to see her leave, but she just admitted that she's leaving me.

"Let me grab my stuff," I heard her saying those words to Glenn before she went to the second floor.

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I look at her walking down the stairs after one hour since our break up, she's ready to leave and I know I'm not ready for it.

"Alex," She called me.

"Guess this is a goodbye?" she said.

No please,

It feels like my mouth is locked and it cannot say any words, I turn my head around to look at her maybe for the last time.

"I should go," She turns around ready to get into the elevator where Glenn is already waiting for her.

I watch her get into the elevator, until the elevator door being closed. My eyes slowly got blurred until a tear finally fall from my eyes, I cannot believe I just lost two of my most important things in life because of my selfishness.

I lost my job,

And I still cannot believe that I lost her.