Chapter 128
Dangerous Desires
128 Epiphany Stacy.
I spent three months missing Aesop. It was hard. Sometimes I wished I didnât leave, but I needed time
alone. All my life, I had been in someoneâs shadow. First, it was my parents, then Regan and then
Aesop. I never had the time to discover myself and learn my weaknesses and strengths. I never had the
time to love myself. I never had the time to stop and smell the roses. I was always on edge. I was always
trying to keep things together. My marriage, my reputation, my secrets; name it. I was always trying to
keep things, hoping they didnât fall apart. I was humiliated and abused for it. My mother abused me
mentally, emotionally and verbally. Regan abused me physically, mentally, sexually, emotionally, verbally
and financially. Then Aesop came into my life and abused me emotionally.
My life was filled with abuse, and soon it became a routine, a norm that shouldnât have been. Deep
down, I believe that was what love was about. Hurt and abuse until Tia and Luke. Watching the two
made me realise my life was twisted, and I was unlucky. I know Aesop loves me, but after all that had
happened, I was finally free and wanted to explore being my own woman. I loved it. I could go places
and get things done. I realised I did not need a man to complete or make me feel good. I discovered I did
not need a man to make things happen. Although I longed for companionship, love, affection and care, I
realised I could survive without it, a new strength I had discovered.
I longed for Aesop, and sometimes I wanted to pick up my phone and call him. One day I threw away my
cell phone, so I would no longer have his contact or anyone that could reach him, which was virtually
every contact on my phone. It was vital for me to go on the journey I wanted. He was right when he said I
might leave the country. I wanted to do so, but I couldnât. I loved him too much to move away from where
he was. I honestly thought I was replaceable in his life. With how he treated me, I thought he was with
me out of pity; after all, I had tricked him into conceiving Caleb, which was why he married me. I wouldnât
have been his wife if I did not get him drunk and sleep with him. When I walked away, I thought he would
move on and find someone else. When I returned to Woodclaw city, I wanted to go home, but I was
scared to see that he had moved on, so I decided to stay away. Seeing Tia at my door lifted my heart
because it meant I was important in their lives. When everyone visited Tia in the hospital, I wanted to slip
away. Still, I was shocked to see how much they missed me, especially my son, who cried for me for the
first time. Our time apart made us realise how important we were to each other.
As much as I want to return to Aesop, I do not wish to experience abuse again. I will rather be alone than
go through that whole experience again. I was torn between daring it and walking away with a broken
heart.
Tiaâs twins were beautiful. I suspected she would have twins, judging by how she and Luke could not
keep their hands off each other. I knew it would definitely have a double effect. I had brought them
together out of greed, but that was the only thing I was glad I did because I had never seen a love as
strong as theirs. I prayed to the goddess that I would experience that love one day. When everyone
kicked against me, leaving, I decided to sit down, knowing that Aesop was
definitely on his way. I wasnât stupid. The only reason they were acting the way they were, was to buy
time for Aesop to arrive. I did not know what to say or do when I saw him. As short as three months was,
it felt like an eternity, and if he could cut my heart open, he would know that he occupied every part of it. I
had just recently managed to carve a space for myself. It had always been just him. I never stopped
loving him, and I never will.
Finally, Aesop walked into the room and seeing him made me cry. I could not look at him a second time,
so I bowed my head. He was a shadow of himself. Even when he lost Chloe, he did not look this bad. I
felt him walk toward me, and I could not lift my head up because my heart was already breaking.
âStacy..â he managed with his deep voice., but it sounded weak and defeated. I looked up gradually, and
his eyes were filled with tears.
âI am sorry, Stacy. I was mean to you. I should have made more effort. I should have loved you harder. I
take all the blame,â he said, and I shook my head and stood up. I had my fair share of shortcomings too.
âI didnât make it easy. Forcing you into marriage by getting pregnant isnât a great way to start a
relationship,â I said, and he tried to smile. âLuke and Tia are doing fine, and so are Kimberly and Caleb.
Why canât we try?â He asked me, and I knew there was no point holding back on him.
âCome back to me, darling. I promise to do all you want. I will give you my world everything you want,â he
said, and I shook my head.
âYou still donât get it, Aesop. I do not want material things. I never have. I did all I did so I could survive.
Now I am free. All I want is love, real love. A love that can weather storms and stand the test of time.â I
said. He touched my hand and brought it to his lips. He kissed it and breathed me in.
âPlease come back to me, and I will love you unconditionally,â he said, and I knew he meant his words. I
looked past him to the rest of the room, and everyone had their eyes on us, urging us to make up. Today
was a beautiful day. Luke and Tia welcomed two beautiful Alphas into our lives. It was only natural that
we keep the spirit up. I knew I would get back with him anyway, so I looked at him and smiled,
remembering what Tia told me and choosing to try my luck
âI have terms and conditions,â I said, sounding like the old me and everyone began to laugh. Aesop
pulled me into a bear hug and bent to kiss his mark on my neck âAnything you want, darling. I will do it. I
will do anything to make it up to you and prove my love.â he said, and I wrapped my arms around and
leaned against him. There was no point holding back anymore. It was time to go back to my man.
Aesop sat next to me on the couch in Tiaâs hospital room. Mike and Tasha were the first to leave,
followed by Caleb, Kimberly and Emma. Paul remained in the room with his parents and siblings. Aesop
and I sat on the couch. He couldnât keep his hands off me. It was as if he felt I could leave again. I got
curious about the twins and decided to ask
âHave you two thought of a name?â I finally asked, and they looked at each other then Luke modded at
Tia and chalooled at me
âWe are thinking of naming our daughter Chloe Stacy Moon and our son James Aesop Moon,â She said,
and I was so shocked that I began to cry. I could not believe anyone in the Moon household would name
their child after me. Thinking of my crimes against them, it takes a lot of love and forgiveness for them to
do this. I was more than honoured. Aesop hugged me while I sobbed.
âThank you. Thank you so much for deeming my name worthy. I am truly sorry for all I did to both of you.
There is no time that I do not regret it.â I said, voicing out my truth.
âIt is all in the past now,â Tia said, and Luke nodded. Unlike his father, Luke had always been a man of
few words, even as a little boy. It was terrific how Tia got the best out of him.
We stayed with them for two more hours and decided to leave. Aesop followed me to my apartment
because I told him I needed to get some of my things from there. The moment we stepped into the living
room. He pulled me close and began to kiss me. His kiss was fierce, filled with love and passion. I
wanted him too, and I responded with passion and love too,
âWhere is your room?â he asked me in his deep masculine voice. I was too eager to think straight. It had
been a while since he touched me, and my body craved it. I managed to point in the direction of the
bedroom, and he lifted me bridal style and took me into my room. I was wet and ready. Knowing how
much time we had spent apart, I knew it would be a long evening.