Chapter 37
Dangerous Desires
37 Hurting Too
Tia.
Stacyâs words had struck home, and I knew she was telling the truth no matter how much Luke tried to
assure me. I am sure Alpha Aesop had assured her several times about Luke, and look where they were
now. Her son had nothing, and Luke had everything. What if the same happens to me and my children.
The child was still Lukeâs child, and I could not let Luke love the child less. Elisabeth will forever be a
permanent fixture in our lives because she was the mother of his child. Where will that leave me? Where
will that leave my children?
I ate my breakfast in silence while Luke tried to assure me. He touched my thighs and tried to tease me
like he usually did, but it had no effect on me. Stacyâs words kept playing in my mind. Soon we finished
and excused ourselves. While we walked back to our wing, Luke had a call, and it was from Bart. I began
to hope it was terrible news that Elisabeth had lost the baby. I know it was cruel, but my fear for myself
and my unborn children made me think that way.
âOkay, Thank you, Bart,â He said, and I knew she was alright because he did not exclaim or do anything
serious. The moment we entered our bedroom. I went to change my clothes to something casual. I was
silent all through, and there was tension in the air. Luke decided to break the silence.
âTia..â he said, and I shook my head. âDonât talk about it, Luke,â I said, trying to shut him up. âWhy
shouldnât I talk about it? You are all worked up because of it,â he pointed out, and I shook my head.
âDonât talk about it because I do not want to hold you to your word, Luke. Stacy is full of shit, but she is
right with this one. Whatever you say or promise does not change that the child is yours. I will not
recommend you love the baby less because of me. That child will always be a reminder that there was
someone before me. The child will be older than my children and will feel entitled. If you try to be
indifferent, the child will blame me for it and hate us for it. Elisabeth will poison that child and talk about
how Tia, the whore, stole her love from her. What if the child is a stronger alpha than mine. He will inherit
you, and where will that leave me and my children, Luke? Elisabeth won the moment she got pregnant
with your baby,â I said to him, and he bowed his head in shame. âI am the one that has to catch up and
try to meet up. I am second.â I said to him, and I did not know tears were streaming down my eyes. âYour
father has accepted the child as your heir before meeting the child. Where does that leave me, Luke?
Maybe you should have annulled the marriage when you found out she was pregnant. I feel guilty for
letting you claim me right now because I have just messed things up. Maybe I
shouldnât have children to make it easier,â I said, rambling because I did not know what to say, and I was
crying Luke pulled me close and held me to his chest. âI will put everything I have in your name Tia; you
know that our children will always come first, and they will inherit me. Do not let what Stacy says get to
you. Do not compare the way I am to my father with Elisabethâs child to me. My mother was my fatherâs
mate and wife. He married her and claimed her; I am a legitimate son. Elisabethâs child is illegitimate. My
father does not determine who will be my heir. I will, and it will be our children, Tia. All this love we have
for each other must amount to something. Our children will be the product of our love. How then will they
not be my heirs? They will be our legacy together, Tia. I meant what I said, and you can hold me to it.
Other than being Alpha of the pack. Our children will take it all. The pack isnât mine to give, so if her child
is a stronger Alpha, he will have to lead, but Diamond corp and everything we will build together will go to
our babies. I promise you, Tia. I promise to put it in writing if you do not believe me. As for Elisabeth, I
am cutting off from her completely.â He said, but I shook my head. âYou canât, Luke. You canât because
you have a child to raise together,â I said to him, and he held me tight because he knew I was right. Why
did Elisabeth do this to us? Why did she complicate our lives like this? I am sure he regrets having the
breakup sex with her. He should have left well
enough alone and walked away, but he had promised he would never touch me when he visited. Maybe
it was one for the road for him, and now it had turned sour, and he forever has a rerninder for it.
His phone rang again, and I broke the hug so he could answer it. It was Bart again, and from the way the
conversation was going, they needed him in the hospital. He hung up and looked at me, a bit worried,
not knowing how he would tell me what he wanted to say. âItâs okay, Luke, go,â I said, and he looked
worried. âDo you mind coming with me so we can go to check the house from there?â He asked, and I
wanted to say no, but I knew it took a lot for him to ask that question. Stacyâs words lingered on my mind,
and I decided I would apply myself and build something so my children would not be left empty in future.
All he was saying now were words, driven by his
emotions. He did not know how he would feel about the child when the baby arrived, and it will be cruel
of me to hold him to his words.
âOkay,â I said and wore some flip-flops so we could go. I wasnât excited about the âholidayâ house again,
and with the way things were looking, we might not go to that house because Elisabeth might need help.
Luke drove, and we rode in silence. I guess Theoâs capture had given him some confidence again that
no one would come after us for now, but I was vigilant. He sped, and I knew whatever Bart had
called to tell him was serious, but he was too worried and afraid to speak. We got to the hospital, parked
our car, and started walking toward the centre. I noticed he wanted to move fast. âGo ahead of me. I am
behind you,â I said, and he looked at me.
âAre you sure?â he asked, and it wasnât like I had a choice. I nodded to help ease his conscience.
âPrivate ward 6,â he said and walked away briskly. I slowed down my pace ultimately, hoping they would
have finished by the time I got there. I honestly felt like an intruder. This was their moment. Elisabeth,
Luke and their unborn child. To that baby, I will be the reason his father left his mother. The reason he
will not grow up with his father. The one to break up their happy home. I wouldnât put it past Elisabeth to
feed him with lies. She had promised she would do just that, and she does not seem like the type to
make empty threats. I wandered until I got to the entrance. I went to sit in the reception, not wanting to
intrude. I wanted to waste more time before going to Elisabethâs room.
Thirty minutes later, I went to Elisabethâs room and stood by the Window. Luke was holding her hand
while the doctor was examining her. Bart stood and watched. There was a tray filled with used cotton
wool, and I wondered if the blood was from her. I had seen enough. I decided I wasnât going to enter the
room. I was about to move away when Luke saw me and pulled his hand away from hers, but I had seen
it. I smiled at him and nodded, pretending it was okay. There was no point getting
mad at him. We were stuck together, and Elisabeth will be a permanent fixture in our lives. His eyes
looked worried, and I did not know why until a tear rolled down my cheek. I wiped it away quickly. âI am
okay, Luke,â I linked him, and he did not say a word. I stood there for a bit, and soon the doctor left, and
Luke got up to leave., She grabbed his hands and held on tight, crying and screaming. Begging him to
stay with her, saying she needed a him. Threatening she would die without him. I had seen enough. I
moved away and began to walk toward the exit. I did not look back and walked quickly until I got to the
parking lot. I was already in tears. I touched the locket on my neck, and I felt confused. âTia, Tia, Please,
Tia,â I heard Luke saying behind me. I wiped away my tears and turned to look at him.
âI canât handle this, Luke. My heart canât take it,â I said to him, being honest. âNo matter how high your
love takes me, Elisabeth will always be there to crash it. She has a hold over you, and she is using that
pregnancy efficiently,â I said to him, so he would understand my mental state.
âThey needed me to sign some documents for a proceedure. She was going to lose the baby, and she
was bleeding. She did not allow anyone to attend to her, and she kept calling for me. I had to go to her
so she would let themâ¦â he said, and I shook my head because I did not want to hear anymore. â
âI want to go home, Luke,â I said, getting into the car. âWhat about our âHoliday home?â he asked me,
and I shook my head. âLet us not deceive ourselves, Luke. Elisabeth will do things that will make you
leave me alone in the house and come to attend to her..â I said, and he interrupted me. âMy father
promised to handle it,â he assured me. âThis is too much, Luke,â I said, tired of the whole
thing.
âPlease help me, Tia. I need your help and support, âhe pleaded with me, and I looked at him. âWho will
help and support me, Luke? Do you know the kind of mental trauma I am going through? Elizabeth is a
permanent reminder, Luke!â I said to him. He had teary eyes, and I knew he was frustrated, but I could
not say anything to help ease his pain because mine was there, and it was intense. That bitch had
spoiled my day. Both Elisabeth and Stacy had messed my day up, and as selfish as it may sound, I did
not wish Elisabeth well, and I hoped she would lose the baby eventually. Anything to get her out of our
lives. Her tantrums and need for attention were draining both Luke and me, and I had had enough. Luke
remained speechless, afraid to say something that would hurt me, He entered the car and began to
drive. He drove fast until we arrived at a small street with small bungalows. The houses looked like my
parentsâ house. We parked in front of one that looked exactly like my parentsâ house. Luke came out of
the car and asked me to join him. I did not want to be stubborn, so I obliged. âThis is us, Tia. You and
me. Elisabeth will never be here with us. He said and held my hand.
âPlease, Tia. I am sorry I did this to us but help me move on from that mistake. It is killing me.â he said to
me.