30. Lo Siento

*Matty POV*

"Good Morning,"

Luca croaks as the warmth of the rising sun fall upon our bare chests while I snuggled him in my arms. My hand slowly roamed every nook and crevice of his soft skin, I propped myself up on my elbow to get a better look at him. In the sun his light brown freckles sparkled like he was from twilight and I swiped his cheek with my thumb, finding the sparkly substance had transferred.

"Are you wearing makeup?" I asked out of curiosity, avoiding the topic at hand. His big blue eyes looked so fucking beautiful in this light that I just wanted to hold him there forever.

"Mmm, it must be from my alter ego," He yawned and I kissed his shoulder, resting my chin on the hard muscle.

"I kind of liked Jose, he was so sexy, flirty, fun...not to mention amazing in bed by the way," I whisper in his ear as my hand moves down his chest.

"Are you saying I'm not all of those things?" Luca said sarcastically and his hand found mine, his thumb rubbing small circles on my arm.

"No angel, you're all those things and more," I kiss the base of his neck where there was a small bruise forming from last night and he shivers in my arms. Content just laying in my arms, Luca stays quiet for a few moments. Closing his eyes again to shield the sun as I covered him in small gentle kisses here and there, running my finger over the long scar on the left side of his back.

"I'm sorry," He whispers and I rested behind him with my forehead pressed to the back of his neck.

"It's okay Luca, I get it. There are some things you just want to keep between you and Thomas. I'm sorry for not understanding that." I apologize but he shakes his head.

"No, that's not what happened. You had every right to be pissed off." He says and turns onto his back so I could see his face.

"Then what really happened baby because I feel like I'm missing a lot of contexts," I told him and he sighed while I carefully raked my hand through his hair.

"What had happened that night, was I had another attack. This one was kind of bad but I only woke Thomas up and not you. Which I was thankful for because you needed your rest. But Thomas made me a bubble bath and we both got in," He confesses.

I didn't move, didn't say a word, I don't even think I was breathing for I was too afraid of ruining his train of thought.

"I don't think about it, never mind talk about it but since you're my husbands and the fathers of my children, I figure you should know now," He said and paused. His mind wondering and I pushed a single wave of his to the side, cupping his freckled cheek.

"Baby, you don't have to tell me. I know what you went through was something painful," I remind him and his hand comes over mine, giving it a gentle squeeze. Thankfully he couldn't see the concern on my face since he kept his eyes closed this whole time.

"Matthias, that night I was in the tub with Thomas, I wasn't talking about leaving you or whatever you were talking about in the closet. I was telling him the reason why I've had these attacks," He continues and I bite my lip, pulling as close to him as I possibly can.

"When I was five years old my brother Wyatt and I came home from school to find a crime scene. Our parents owed the local gang some money for drugs but my parents decided to buy us new uniforms instead and they were murdered. Wyatt and I were then placed in an orphanage, but I lived out in the countryside and this orphanage had connections to everywhere, the police, the schools, the church," He paused and let out a small sigh before continuing.

"When I was fourteen, I noticed that my friends were disappearing. After looking deeper, I found out the orphanage was selling kids to be sex slaves to the wealthy. Girls were sold when they were twelve and boys when they were fifteen. Wyatt and I were to go for one 10 Million each because of how beautiful we were and the fact we still had our virginity. The pedophiles liked that," He shivered as he said it and squeezed his eyes as tight as possible.

"The day before the yearly ceremony where my brother and I were to be put on auction, my brother had been planning our escape without telling me. Wyatt dug a hole under the fence and it was finally big enough for us to go through. That night, Wyatt and I ran as fast as we could but we tripped the alarm as soon as we got outside and they were coming for us. Since Wyatt is younger than me, I let him go first and he did so without a problem," he stops and small tears started to escape his watery eyes.

"But my shirt got caught on the fence and I couldn't get through no matter how hard my brother tried, so I told him to run. To run as fast as his legs would take him and never look back. To forget he even had a brother," he said and I wanted to say something but kept my big mouth shut.

"And he did. He did Matthias. He got away while I was dragged back inside that hellhole. His escape was the only thing that gave me solace because the next day I was sold to an old hideous looking doctor who walked with a limp. He renamed me Wesley and I became his sex pet for the next ten years of my life until your cousins found me,"

Luca finishes and finally opens his big blue eyes to see my reaction. Water drips onto his bare chest and he reaches up to wipe away the tears I didn't even know I was crying.

"Hey Matty, it's okay. I'm fine now. I'm happier now than I've ever been in my entire life. Do you know how happy you've made me my dearest love?" He asks as I broke down, weeping with overflowing emotions. He quickly pulls himself up and brings me to him in a warm embrace.

"How can I make you so happy when I'm always giving you so much shit," I sniffled through my tears and he chuckled against my back.

"Mmm you don't give me shit my love, that's just who you are and I love you just the way you are. I would never change anything about it because you keep me on my toes and your stubbornness, makes your love that much more meaningful," He says and pulls away from me, cupping my wet cheeks in his hands. He kisses the tip of my nose and smiles and knows that I know everything he's been through, I wonder how he manages to smile like he is now.

"You've also given me five amazingly beautiful drama queens and I love each and every one of our little ones with everything I have. Their so sweet, their innocence is untainted, and they have the very best we can give them," He says and I felt a small twinge in my heart, missing my babies.

But Luca's closeness catches me off guard, his breath just tickling my upper lip and I couldn't take it anymore as I engulfed his lips in mine and kissed him like there wouldn't be a tomorrow. I realized right then and there that my sweet, precious angel was given to me by whatever higher power above to make sure the rest of his life was just as beautiful as he is. I could never erase his past but I know I'll never let him go.

Through our deep, hungry, passionate kiss, I caressed the smooth skin of his cheek and slowly pushed him back onto the bed.

"I love you," I told him flat out and he caught his breath while staring straight at me with those beautiful light blue eyes that reminded me of the cerulean oceans of Italy where we first confessed our deepest feelings. As his head rested on the pillow, a halo of sunlight lit up his beautifully sculpted face, taking my breath away while he wrapped his arms around my neck.

"I love you too,"