Chapter 14: If you love him...

Chapter 14

~Adrian’s POV~

I straightened up in bed, sliding the blanket off my legs when he entered the room. He was ringing his hands in front of him which told me he was nervous but he walked right in and came to a stop in the centre of the room.

“It’s okay you don’t have to get up.” He said when he saw that I was swinging my legs to the floor but I ignored his words and pushed up off the bed.

No way was I going to lay there looking weak and vulnerable in his presence.

I walked over to the only window in the room and stood there, observing him. His face was flushed and he licked his lips then cleared his throat yet said nothing.

“Ah…” Scottie began, looking between us as we stood silently. “I think I’ll go for a walk.” He said pushing up quickly from his chair and looking between us once again before exiting the room and pulling the door closed behind him.

There was silence as I continued to observe him, waiting for him to speak but he only looked around the room as if he had never seen the place before and I grew impatient.

“Is there something you wanted or did you just come to familiarize yourself with my room?” I questioned impertinently then watched as a blush spread across his cheeks and he bit his lip.

“Well I…” he began but I cut him off before he could continue.

“Let me guess, you want an apology for earlier? Or have you come to get rid of me?” I asked with a smile that didn’t reflect my emotions in the slightest.

“Actually I came to apologize.” He said finally, straightening up as if preparing to do battle.

My brows furrowed and I was sure I looked as confused as I felt. “Apologize?”

“Yeah, Carson overreacted, he shouldn’t have hurt you the way he did, I’m sorry.” He said, looking sincere and I bristled.

It’s as if he was implying I was some weakling who couldn’t take a hit from a little wolf. It annoyed me and I found myself glaring over at him as I spoke.

“Don’t think for a second that your boyfriend’s little stunt out there had much effect on me. I could have taken him if I’d actually put out the effort.” I lied but the boy only raised an eyebrow, looking completely amused; The little bastard.

“So you’re saying you let him break your ribs and punch your face in because you didn’t feel like putting out the effort?” Laken asked, a grin now plastered on his smug little face and I turned to him, my hands forming fists at my sides.

“Are you done? Did your Alpha send you to gloat then, Is that what this is?” I asked, my voice barely contained and the smile fell from the boy’s face. He raised his hands, palms up as if trying to calm me.

“No not at all, he’d kill me if he knew I was here actually.” He said then sighed, his hands falling to his sides as he looked at me seriously.

“I wanted to let you know that I get that he’s yours and despite what you might think, I’m not trying to move in on your territory.” He finished, looking me in the eyes with such sincerity I turned to look out the window and into the street below.

It wouldn’t take a genius to know that he was talking about Lucas but I wasn’t in the mood to hear it. “Anything else?” I asked gruffly making it clear as day that I couldn’t care less about anything he had to say to me but the kid didn’t take the hint.

“I’m serious I’m completely in love with Carson and Lucas is nothing but a friend to me, I’m just glad he’s happy, I only want the best for him.” Laken continued, taking a step closer as if our proximity would somehow make persuading me easier.

I chuckled; a cold harsh sound, then I moved away from the window so that I was fully facing him. “You want what’s best for him, Really? You broke his fucking heart.” I said harshly, my eyes glinting and the anger which I had held at bay surfaced.

He didn’t flinch from my words nor my glare, instead his  expression changed completely and I found myself looking into the eyes of  someone who clearly thought all fun and games were over.

“I didn’t break Lucas’s heart. He knew I had nothing to offer him the minute we met.” He said and I shook my head at his selfish words but he continued, standing his ground. “ I’m in love with Carson, I’ve always been in love with Carson, nobody else and Lucas knew that, if he got his heartbroken it’s because he refused to believe it and I won’t be blamed for it.” he said adamantly.

Looking at the kid you’d never know he had this side to him. He looked like you’d expect a werewolf would look in that moment; deadly and completely devoid of emotion but it didn’t faze me, if anything it fueled my disgust.

“I can’t believe you’re the little brat he fell in love with, you’re nothing but an ungrateful piece of-“

“I’ve been there for him since the moment I met him, just because I couldn’t give him what he wanted doesn’t mean I’m ungrateful and I definitely don’t deserve to be treated like some uncaring jackass just because you can’t see that!” he shouted and I reciprocated.

“So you say he knew the score right? That you didn’t lead him on yet you knew he loved you and you continued to text him and call him every day since then, what do you say to that? It was cruel and selfish to keep him hoping like that when you knew it wouldn’t come to anything!” I raged and he looked stricken by my words, “But that’s it, isn’t it? You wanted him to love you, you didn’t want him to let you go isn’t that right?”

“No I-“

I didn’t give him the chance to answer, “What? Carson’s love isn’t enough then? You need two guys fighting for your attention you greedy little-“

“He’s my friend!” Laken shouted cutting me off mid insult, “He needs me, I couldn’t just cut him off because he loved me, it would have killed him!” he yelled, trying desperately to justify his actions.

“He only needs you because you’ve allowed him to, he loves you, you’ve allowed him to hang on to the hope that it’ll work out, you haven’t even given him the chance to get over you with you constantly chatting him up.” I retorted and he fell silent, shaking his head and taking a step back.

“I- I thought he’d get over me since we weren’t seeing each other, that’s why he left, I was just showing him my support, he’s my friend.” Laken said, his voice cracking on the last word and I looked away. He looked guilty and I felt like if I said another word against him he’d burst into tears.

‘Look at me, fighting with a kid,’ it was pathetic. “Just get out.” I said softly and I was surprised when he didn’t budge, just looked at me like I’d slapped him.

“Please, I’m just trying to make this right…I care about him, I really do…I just…I’m trying to make peace with you because I’m glad he’s found someone, really I am and I figured since I’m his friend, it would make him happy if we got along.” He told me and I shook my head.

“My lover is still in love with you, what make you think I’d want anything to do with you?” I said scornfully and his brows furrowed as he looked at me in confusion.

“What are you talking about? Lucas was once in love with me yes, but he’s over that now, don’t you see the way he looks at you?” Laken asked his voice steady but gentle.

“So that’s why you hate me so much, I thought it was because you thought I was interested in him but it’s because you think he still has feelings for me, isn’t it?” he questioned.

“’I don’t think he has feelings for you I know he does.” I said wishing the kid would just disappear.

He chuckled and I momentarily housed the thought of reaching over and strangling him. “Lucas doesn’t love me Adrian, not anymore anyway. He was willing to put his life in danger for you and the way he looked at you when he was introducing us? There’s no doubt.”

“He couldn’t go a day without mentioning you name, he was always talking to you.” I said, my eyes narrowed and he shook his head.

“Neither can I but that’s only because he’s one of my best friends, it can’t be helped. Do you think we talked about feelings and love and all that shit? No it’s just normal convos about absolutely nothing important.” He told me then before I could speak he spoke up.

“I was wondering why you chose to bring up  the fact that he loved me but I was thinking you were still pissed that he used to love me, you’ve got this all wrong dude.” He said and then he was looking at me as if I’d lost my mind.

“A couple weeks ago he told me straight up that he loved you and that I shouldn’t ask him to choose between us because he’d choose you and now you’re telling me he’s over you? Yeah right.” I scoffed and Laken walked the short distance and lowered himself into the chair beside my bed.

“Well maybe he got over me in that time, it could happen.”

I only looked at him.

“Fine, are you saying he doesn’t love you at all then? How come you’re still with him if you don’t think so?” he asked confidently.

“Of course I know he loves me, I’m just saying he loves you more-”

“And I’m saying that’s bullshit. Whatever he had for me is gone, or at least not as strong as it was before and it doesn’t take a genius to know that.”

I opened my mouth and closed it again.  He wasn’t the first person to say it and I didn’t know what else to say to convince him he was wrong.

“Maybe as time goes by you’ll figure it out for yourself, but I won’t stop talking to him just because you’re too blind to see it.” He said resting his head on the back of the chair. “You’re right about one thing though…I shouldn’t have kept in contact with him as much as I had, I just hadn’t realized it would have made it harder for him to move on, but I still don’t regret it, he’s a good friend and I want him in my life.”

I didn’t know what to say to that and so I said nothing at all.

Silence fell between us as we were both lost in our own thoughts but a few minutes later he spoke again.

“So did you get what you came here for then? Are you finally satisfied that I’m not a threat? That I only love Carson and I’m not trying to steal your man? because I don’t know what else to say to convince you.”

“Who said that’s what I came here for?” I asked suspiciously and he smirked.

“I may look small but I’m no fool Adrian. At first I thought you’d come here to make trouble because we asked Lucas to look into you but now it’s obvious you wanted to see for yourself who I was and now you have.” He said simply but I chose not to respond and he continued.

“I’m surprised though, I mean a drug dealer? I never thought Lucas would fall in love with someone on the other side of the law.” He shifted in the chair, trying to get comfortable “but I guess you can’t help who you love.” He finished and I scowled.

“Now you’re going to sit there and judge me?” I asked in annoyance and he shook his head.

“I don’t need to, you already have half the world doing just that and it may not be my place but can’t you do something else for a living?” he didn’t say it with malice, or disgust he seemed naturally curious but that didn’t stop my hackles from rising.

“What’s it to you?”

“Well your ‘work’ harmed my friends and I’m afraid to see what effect it could eventually have on Lucas, I mean you’re a criminal, there are probably a million people after you, haven’t you thought about the danger that could put him in?” he questioned seriously.

“Lucas knew what he was getting into the moment he agreed to be my lover, that hasn’t changed.”

“So you’re willing to risk him then? You’re okay with putting his life in danger for your job? And you call me selfish, I thought you loved him!” Laken blazed, jumping up from his chair.

“It’s none of your fucking business what we do, you say you don’t want him? Then back the hell off.”

“Lucas tells me everything and I mean everything, did you even stop to ask yourself why he never told me about you? Why he never even told me he was dating someone?” he asked, the anger back in his tone.

“Maybe because he was hoping one day you’d come back to him and he was afraid you wouldn’t make a move if he was shacked up with me.” I said the obvious answer but he only shook his head, looking at me almost with pity.

“Or maybe it’s because he’s ashamed of what you do, he was ashamed to tell me because he doesn’t want the world to know that he’s shacked up with a damn criminal.” He said with a sneer and I took a step toward him.

“We’re done here, get out.” I said firmly and he immediately turned to go but paused when he reached the door.

“He doesn’t deserve this life, if you love him you should do what’s best for him.” He said then exited the room, leaving me to stand alone in silence.

‘Fuck him anyway.’

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It was ten minutes later before I made my way down the stairs in search of food and the moment I entered the kitchen the front door burst open and Rivers popped his head around the corner.

“Hey you, I’ve decided to come keep your company.” He said cheerfully and I groaned.

“What is this? A fucking public toilet?” I asked in frustration. Everybody was just walking in like they owned the place; I just wanted to be alone.

“What? Can’t a hot guy come visit an equally hot guy on such a hot day?” he joked and I sighed, dropping myself on the nearby stool.

“Cheer up Adrian, you’re too handsome to go around frowning like that.” he told me with a pointed look then moved around me and pulled open the refrigerator door. “Come on I’ll make you something to eat.”

AUTHOR'S NOTES

YES! I GOT TO UPLOAD WHEW!

I HOPE YU ALL ENJOY THIS CHAPTER.

SHOUToUT TO SmugDevil whose story "The End" made me sit back and think about life and everything I need to accomplish before it's too late.

-DouBle.A

-unedited  as always.