Chapter 5: It's in your heart if not in your mind..

Chapter 5

~Lucas’s POV~

“Come on let’s get you to bed.” Adrian told his companion with a laugh and I bristled. He still hadn’t realized I was there and I debated whether I should make myself known or just get the hell out of there.

To say I was shocked was an understatement but I suppose it was ridiculous for me to be. After the way I had treated him what did I really expect? hugs and kisses? No he’d gone and gotten himself a little fuck buddy. I had no right being angry, yet I was.

My eyes blazed as I watched the two together, stumbling further into the room, hands all over each other. As I continued to watch the scene my hands clenched into fists at my sides and I gritted my teeth. Yes I’d hurt him but it certainly didn’t take him long to get over me huh?

I turned and grabbed my jacket off the kitchen stool and the keys jerked around inside the pocket causing Adrian’s head to snap up in my direction. I watched as his eyes widened and a split second later, his face broke out into a smile.

I took a breath. So that’s how it would be huh? He wanted to get back at me and was now flaunting his latest prize in my face? Well I certainly wasn’t going stand around and watch. I focused my eyes on the door at the front of the room, not even bothering to glance his way as I moved past him.

“Lucas? wait, where are you going?” Adrian questioned as I crossed the room and I shook my head. He was certainly milking the situation for all it was worth that was for sure and I had to say it hurt.

I felt the pain of what I couldn’t even call his betrayal working its way around my heart. It surprised me because while I knew that I cared deeply for Adrian it had never come to the point where I was ever hurt by anything he had done, jealousy had also never even been an issue for me and now I could feel my heart pounding in my chest as I imagined what they would be doing once I left his home.

A year ago I would have probably stayed and had it out with him, curse, shout, maybe even go as far as break off the relationship but I suppose the whole Laken situation had cured that for me. I’d been hurt before and I still wasn’t exactly sure I had recovered from that one so rather than stay and fight for something that was clearly over now and to save myself future pain and heartache I decided it was just best to walk away.

I felt absolutely retched but I held my head high as I made my way to the door, pulling together all the dignity I could muster.  I couldn’t understand the feeling though, how could my heart feel like it was breaking all over again when I was almost certain that all I felt for Adrian had yet to even amount to love? I couldn’t understand it and I swallowed hard and took a deep breath trying desperately to ease the pain that had settled in the region of my heart.

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~Adrian’s POV~

The last person I had expected to see standing in my kitchen this late at night was Lucas and that was only because he never came over without first giving me a heads up. So when I heard the rattling of what could only be keys knocking against each other my eyes widened in surprise as my head snapped up to meet Lucas’s gaze.

A smile blossomed on my face at the sight of him standing there and I shifted my arm around James, holding him firmly lest he fall over, but before I could even greet him like I’d planned he grabbed his jacket off a nearby stool and I watched as he proceeded to walk past me, his head held straight and his gaze fixed on a spot behind me as he went.

“Lucas?” I asked a bit uncertain and when he didn’t respond I spoke again, turning slightly to watch him as he went, “Wait, where are you going?” I questioned in confusion.

“I should have known something like this would happen.” I heard him mumble as he went.

“What do you mean? Where are you going?” I questioned, turning fully to look at him when he finally stopped at the door and turned to look at me, his expression cold.

“It certainly didn’t take long for you to find me a replacement.” Lucas said and I watched him with furrowed brows.

What was he talking about?

“I don’t understand.” I said in confusion and when I felt James shift in my hand, chuckling at God knows what it all fell into place. “Wait a minute Lucas, this is-” I started to explain myself but he cut me off with a growl.

“I don’t even want to hear it, after all I deserve this right?” he asked, his eyes blazing and I was speechless. “ All that shit you said about love, that’s all it was right? Just a load a crap?  I should have known after all you’re nothing but a criminal, it’s your job to con people am I right?” he questioned and I watched in horror as the anger melted off his face and his expression became one of anguish.

I pulled my hands away from James and he stumbled but I paid him no attention as I crossed the room. “Wait a second this isn’t what you think babe.” I said reaching out to him when I got close enough and upon hearing my words he recoiled as if he had been slapped.

“Now you take me for a fool? Fuck you Adrian!” he all but screamed in my face and I watched as he turned the knob and pulled the door open. The cold night air greeted us and I saw him shiver as he took his first step out the door but I grabbed his arm in a firm grip and  he turned on me his eyes murderous.

“You’ve proved your fucking point, I hurt you so you return the favor, I get it, now leave me alone!” he shouted and had I been a weaker man I would have flinched under his gaze but I simply stared at him, my expression calm and when I spoke my voice was equally calm.

“Lucas, calm down, this is all simply a huge misunder-”

“What is this? Some kind of lovers spat then?” a slurred voice behind me asked and not a moment later I felt James’s  hand wrap around my shoulders as he came to stand next to be, a wide grin on his face. “Trust me, when you finally give in and lose yourself in a man you’ll never go back.”  James somehow quoted my earlier words in his drunken state, then went as far as to pat my chest as if to say he agreed with me.

I groaned and set my gaze firmly on Lucas’s face as I geared up to explain why James had said such a thing and how completely harmless the whole situation was, but before I could even get a word out I felt when Lucas wrenched his hand out of my grip and raised his fist , his eyes blazing  and a growl ripping from his throat as he slammed his fist into the side of my face.

I stumbled back causing James to fall flat on the ground and as I tried to regain my balance I stepped awkwardly over him and fell to the ground myself.

Lucas dove for my companion, gripping his shirt collar and pulling him off the floor. I jumped up as he held James inches off the ground, fully prepared to dish out the same punishment he had just given me but I was faster than his fist as I launched myself at him, slamming my body into his before he could deliver the blow. James was only human who knew if he’d survive a punch in the face from an angry shape shifter.

We both fell to the floor and Lucas instantly began fighting against me, we rolled around, both of us trying to get the upper hand. Lucas was possibly trying to kill me and I was trying to get him to calm down. It wasn’t quite working out that way though. He was pissed and he was clearly not thinking straight.

I dodged the next punch that came my way and brought my legs up to wrap around his waist, easily flipping him around so that I straddled him, then before he could make another move I grabbed both his hands in a iron grip, holding them on either side of his head.

He’d lost, we both knew it. I was a level four shape shifter after all while he was only level two which meant I was much stronger than he was yet he continued to thrash against my hold, fighting desperately to throw me off. I was unrelenting and after a while, he stopped moving all together, his breathing coming in loud pants then eventually dying down after he took a few deep breaths.

I continued to hold him choosing not to budge just in case he decided to try something but he simply remained still in my hand.

“You about done now?” I asked him and he glared at me, his eyes piercing mine.

“Lucas it’s not what you think, I swear it.” I said, my voice going from firm to persuasive.

“Fuck you, I don’t care, do whatever the fuck you want.” he said menacingly and I sighed.

“If you didn’t care then we wouldn’t be in this position right now.” I said softly and after a minute his eyes softened and he slackened under me, turning his head away from me so that his cheek resting against the floor.

“I shouldn’t have said those things to you yesterday.” He said in an equally soft tone but he still didn’t look at me.

“It’s okay, I got over it.” I assured him slowly releasing his hands and he brought them up to drag over his face with a sigh.

“I was cruel, I guess I understand why you’d turn to someone else.” He said his face darkening momentarily and he tilted his head to look at James who was still sprawled on my floor fast asleep.

I reached over to trail two fingers across his brow then ran them through his tousled hair and I froze when after a moment he looked up at me with tears in his eyes. To say I was shocked would have been an understatement and I pulled my hands away from him all together.

“Lucas?” I asked in horror. He was looking at me with such a heartbroken expression, tears threatening to fall and I could only stare at him wondering what the hell I should do.

“I don’t know why I feel like this. The last time I felt this way was when-“ and he broke off looking at me in shock as if he had just realized something and that’s the moment it came to me.

This whole time I’d taken his word for it, we’d both been too caught up with his whole relationship with Laken that we hadn’t even realized it. That would explain his anger, the anguish I’d seen on his face earlier and his tears. Lucas was in love with me.

“Was when Laken broke your heart.” I finished his sentence and rather than answering me he shifted under me, trying to get up and I moved off him to sit a short distance away.

“I told myself I’d never let myself get hurt again. I’m not supposed to feel this way.” He whispered more to himself than to anyone else, as if he was trying to come to terms with the situation and I knew that I should be happy at a moment like this, the love of my life just told me he loved me, but I guess the shock just hadn’t worn off yet. For either of us.

“James is just a friend. He’s in London on business and we decided to meet up for a drink. He’s straight I swear.” I told him rather than address the current issue at hand.

Lucas’s gaze travelled briefly to James but flittered away just as quickly and he looked over at me again. He didn’t look too happy at his recent discovery but I wasn’t surprised, after all yesterday he told me in no uncertain terms that he still cared for Laken and now he was in love with me? It had to be hard to digest.

There were so many things running through my mind in that moment, so many things I could say to him, ways to ease his fears, ways to get him to believe that James really was a friend or that I honestly loved him with everything I had, but  what I said was;

“What the hell happened to your neck?” when I spotted the angry bruises. If I didn’t know better I’d say they were prints of someone’s fingers and they certainly weren’t mine…

AUTHOR'S NOTES

EXAMS ARE COMING UP SO THE NEXT FEW CHAPS MIGHT ME ALITTLE LATE..BUT I'LL TRY MY BEST TO GET THEM UP ON TIME.

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-DoUbLe.A

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