Chapter 188
Debut or Die
âDrink too muchâ, he said.
I looked at Bae Sejin with ridiculed eyes.
âI just took one can.â
I never drank too much when I drank alone.
I was not an idiot, and I had a schedule every day, so there was no way I would drink too much. Moreover, tomorrow was the last day of the concert in Seoul.
However, Bae Sejin replied with a nervous face.
ââ¦Itâs dangerous to drink while taking a bath. And not just today, you drink too often.â
âI drank once today to cheer myself up, I donât usually drink like this. I donât drink that oftenâ¦â
âNo, you drink often!â
Bae Sejin screamed. Then, in surprise, he glanced at the other rooms.
âWhat are you doing?â
As I looked at him with bitter eyes, Bae Sejin continued to talk in a slightly lowered tone.
âYou drank a few days ago. You drank last week, too.â
âIt was just one can.â
âItâs not the quantity that matters. â¦You, why did you drink?â
âWell, to relieve stressâ¦â
Bae Sejin clenched his hands tightly.
âTherefore⦠Youâve been drinking every three or four days to relieve stress!â
ââ¦!â
âYouâve been doing that lately.â
Bae Sejin looked down.
ââ¦Since you came back from America.â
ââ¦â
I felt like Iâd been stabbed in the back.
âI saw you did that too often while we were sharing a room.â
Listening to Bae Sejinâs testimony, I ran the calculation in my head.
âI⦠drink every three or four days.â
Right.
Bae Sejin was right. Twice a week. It was almost once every three days.
There were more days when I didnât drink than days when I drank, and I didnât feel it because I drank it quickly without thinking.
In other words, I drank to ârelieve stressâ every time like a habit.
âI-I did some calculations, and the frequency seemed to decrease a bit when you were receiving counseling. But⦠um, after you got hurt on vacation, you drink again often.â
ââ¦â
âAnd when someone touches your drink, you get irritated, and you get happy when someone gives you a drink⦠To me, you look too dependent on it.â
Dependent.
Come to think of it, isnât it too natural for me to drink beer when taking a break whenever I have a hard time?
âItâs worse than before entering Park Moondaeâs body.â
I couldnât help it.
âIt has good cost-effectiveness.â
Considering all the time, effort, and money, I couldnât help but know instinctively that there was no method as convenient as this.
âYou can try to relieve your stress in other ways. Seon Ahyeon also picked up embroideryâ¦â
I looked at the empty can in my hand, and I answered.
ââ¦Youâre right.â
ââ¦!â
âIâll be careful.â
âY-Yes!â
Bae Sejin seemed a little surprised, but he soon answered vigorously.
ââ¦Iâve been helped.â
I looked at Bae Sejin again.
âThank you for caring.â
âItâs not a big deal, I notice this kind of thing a little fasterâ¦â
Perhaps the problems at home had an impact. I nodded.
âThen Iâll throw this away and go to bed. I wonât drink anymore, so donât worry.â
âOkay. Go to bed quickly. Itâs already late. Um, uh, we should do well at the concert tomorrow.â
âOf course.â
I threw the empty can to the trash can in the kitchen.
Then I went back to my room and lay down on the bed.
Next to me, Cha Eugene was already lying upside down on the bed, completely asleep. It seemed he had fallen asleep while eating popcorn.
âNew hobbyâ¦â
I had to develop a hobby to relieve stress.
Still, I could choose regardless of money. Because I had a lot of savings.
âShould I buy some expensive food?â
Looking at the empty popcorn bag on Cha Eugeneâs bed, I reflexively thought of that first.
âMaybe adjusting the quantity would be betterâ¦â
I felt like I fell asleep after thinking about whether I should eat Korean beef or not.
And the next day.
Before going out early in the morning to prepare for the concert, I inadvertently opened the refrigerator and noticed a change.
The beer was gone.
Of course, there was only one person who could be suspected of being the culprit.
ââ¦â
Bae Sejin, who was sneaking into the kitchen, avoided my gaze and shouted quite brazenly.
âW-What?! You said you wouldnât drink.â
True.
âI must have had some real dependency symptoms.â
I got a little pissed off for a moment.
I shrugged, packed the soda as planned, and closed the refrigerator.
âThat doesnât taste good!â
Ignoring Cha Eugene who strongly recommended coke, I drank the soda.
My troubled thoughts last night resurfaced again.
âHobbyâ¦â
I never had anything like that.
Whatever. Letâs just end the concert for now.
* * *
âThank you!â
âLoviewer! I love you!â
âGo home safely! See you again!â
Since it was the last concert in Seoul, everyone seemed to be immersed in emotion, so the exit remark was long.
âSEE YA~â
Except for when Cha Eugene reached out and shook his hand outside the closing screen and almost got caught, it was a satisfying ending.
âYou idiot! You could get hurt doing that!â
âIâm not an idiot I have Passion.â
He was full of energy. I heard a few words from Ryu Chungwoo, who was equally energetic.
I drank water and wiped my face and neck with a towel. I could hear people catching their breath or chattering here and there.
âMoondae, your phone!â
âYeah.â
I could just go to the waiting room and get it, but he insisted on handing them out today.
I nodded my head to Keun Sejin, who was handing out the smartphones from the hands of the staff.
Eventually, as the cheers from above subsided and announcements began to appear, the guys started moving from backstage.
âAh, didnât it feel going more smoothly today? No, of course, I liked all the concerts, but was it because it was the last?â
âHaha. Probably. I liked it, too.â
âR-Really⦠It was great!â
âI thought Iâd like to sing one more song if it wasnât for overtime work for the staff and night noise problems.â
I didnât feel like refuting what I heard as I walked down the hallway.
âIt was fun.â
There were no accidents or difficult unexpected situations, and it was a performance that worked together.
It could be said that the best assumption was made because that was simply how it was.
Even the improvised performance during the talk show was like that. With a bit of luck and coincidence, an interesting situation was created.
âI didnât know weâd all get punished.â
Thanks to this, there was no stage for the winners, so we did one more encore.
It seemed the fans were plotting with each other to make us get punished, so they must be very proud.
âWhat do you think, Moondaemoondae?â
âIt was good.â
âOh~ Youâre going to cry again today⦠Cough.â
He was good at goofing and messing around every time.
As I walked past Keun Sejin who had a towel on his face, the manager approached me from the other side of the hallway.
âWell, ahem, Moondae!â
ââ¦? Yes.â
âWait, can I talk to you for a moment? Not for long!â
âAh, yes.â
Hmm, it was probably about the company.
I forgot about it for a moment because I was busy drinking and thinking about the concert, but the company was currently in a state of emergency due to the âIdol Inc season 4 Testar Concert Cameo incidentâ.
It might be slowly being added to the wiki in the âControversies and Accidentsâ section.
âBut I donât know why they picked me.â
Well, because of the industry spy case, they might have misunderstood me as the type who was good at picking things up from here and there.
I shrugged my shoulders, bowed to the others, and followed the manager.
The manager went to the restricted parking lot and offered me an iced Americano.
âUm, why donât you have a drink first?â
âAlright.â
I waited for the manager to get to the point while contemplating the benefits of drinking beverages as a hobby.
However, until the whole cup of Americano was gone and only ice remained, this guy hadnât opened his mouth
ââ¦?â
Looking at the manager who just stood awkwardly and pretended to be looking at his smartphone for no reason, I eventually opened my mouth first.
âWhat is it, hyung?â
ââ¦Ah~ Um, Moondae. Do you have any concerns these days?â
What are you saying, out of the blue?
âSince when did the company care about that?â
I replied hesitantly.
âWell, nothing in particular. Why?â
âNo~ Umm, ah, counseling! Do you have any plans to do something like counseling again?â
ââ¦â
I frowned, then smiled.
âWhy? Did the members tell you I need counseling?â
â⦠! Uh, itâs not like that~ You look tired these days!â
What do you mean itâs not like that?
âLooking at his attitude, someone has prodded him.â
And to use that as an excuse, it would have been right to do it when I was hospitalized.
I shook my head.
âItâs okay. Itâs hard to get counseling once the tour starts anyway.â
âUm, thatâs right. That⦠um, yes. But if you need it, just tell me!â
âYes.â
ââ¦.â
ââ¦â
No way, is it over already?
âDo you have anything else to say?â
âUm⦠yes, yes! Shall we go in now? Moondae, keep fighting in the future!â
âYes.â
How strange.
I looked at him with some doubts, but soon I put myself together.
âItâs not just once or twice that the company fools around.â
Well, even if he said it, I would pretend to evade the topic.
I returned to the waiting room with the silent manager and touched my smartphone.
âWouldnât it be better to post a speech at least?â
I turned on the camera application on the screen as I walked. And I turned it to selfie mode.
âNow Iâll take some pictures with this.â
Of course, I was skilled enough that my focus didnât falter when I walked.
Alright, letâs level it up.
Click. A proper picture was saved with a low sound.
âThis is fine.â
Letâs post this. I nodded my head inwardly and started typing.
Hello, Loviewer
I really enjoyed the concert. So much that I donât know how the three days went by
âAh, I forgot the introduction.â
As I added âThis is Moondaeâ in front of it instead of typing it down, something suddenly bothered me.
âHmm, it would be better to have a group shot than to post it alone.â
It was a concert, so doing that would make it more touching. It could also prevent sarcastic comments and useless comparisons between the members.
âLetâs take a picture as soon as we enter the waiting room.â
Just in time, the door to the waiting room was just around the corner.
Like a habit, I knocked and opened the door.
⦠But, suddenly, glitter flew in front of my eyes and covered my field of view.
Puufft! Puuuffft!!
Similar to the confetti I just saw on stage⦠It was an event firecracker.
ââ¦??â
When I came to my senses, I was covered in some kind of shiny threads.
As I was dumbfounded and speechless, a group of guys wearing cones of all colors suddenly appeared in front of me.
And in the hands of the two guys at the front⦠There was a cake.
It was chocolate, and a dark brown puppy decoration was on top of the mess.
The phrase was⦠âHAPPY BIRTHDAYâ.
âHappy birthday!â
âHappy birthday!â
ââ¦!!â
Birthday?
Suddenly, I calculated the date in my head⦠I was surprised.
December 8th.
It was my birthday.
In other words⦠It was not Park Moondaeâs birthday. It was my birthday.
The day Ryu Gunwoo was born.
âHow did youâ¦â
I didnât even know what I was saying now. I was about to say something useless, so I quickly stopped talking.
But my brain still didnât work.
What the hell is going on?
âHaha!â
As if I looked funny, Keun Sejin burst into laughter and hit me on the shoulder.
âHey, have you forgotten? Itâs your birthday next week!â
âW-When we were on the plane, you said back then⦠It would be nice to celebrate on the same dayâ¦!â
ââ¦â
Ah, I see.
âThatâs right. Thereâs no way youâd know.â
I broke out in a cold sweat. I understood a little bit now.
â¦Still, I didnât know how they chose this day.
Like the improvised stage where everyone got punished together⦠It was because of coincidence and luck.
âYes, and itâs also the last day of the concert!â
Ryu Chungwoo added with a smile.
âMoondae likes concerts so much.â
ââ¦â
âWe worked hard! The birthday cake! It was made by me and Kim Raebin!â
âCha Eugene has no skills. Strictly speaking, itâs more like I am the one who made it.â
âNo! Iâm good at drawing!â
The two maknaes insisted hard to win the cake decoration.
Keun Sejin grinned.
âAnyway, you look really surprised, donât you? The surprise is successful!â
âS-Successfulâ¦!â
âOh, my God.â
When I saw the manager who had slipped aside and looked at me with a happy face, I immediately understood what he had been doing.
âThen what you kept saying out of the blueâ¦â
âHey, these guys are asking me to buy some time~ What can I do? I just did whatever I was told to do, Moondae!â
ââ¦â
The manager showed his smartphone.
On the screen, there was a group message room filled with noises such as âJust talk about counselingâ and âWe need more timeâ.
By the way, the name of the message room was .
I could tell without looking whose naming sense it was.
When I looked at the giggling Keun Sejin, he reduced his laughter and spoke seriously.
âAnyways, happy birthday!â
âHappy birthday, bro~â
And a messy birthday song mixed with English and Korean filled the waiting room.
The staff who were present were also smiling and singing together.
ââ¦â
It felt really weird.
ââ¦No.â
Good.
Yeah, this was good.