Chapter 56
Debut or Die
âDid Park Moondae change his name?â
I didnât like the feeling of my backbone tightening.
Anyway, I shouldnât look awkward. I immediately picked up the microphone and said.
ââ¦Iâve always been Park Moondae since the register of my birth.â
âHahaha!â
The MCâs reaction was good.
This was true.
âAs soon as I entered this body, I took off a copy of the resident registration, the draft, and even the family relationship certificate.â
I wasnât stupid, that kind of thing was only natural.
Iâd looked for all the factors that might cause a problem.
Park Moondae continued to live under this name, and there were no other peculiarities. Except for the high school dropout thing that he wrote down himself, he was clean.
âHe dropped out because of bullying, according to the suicide note.â
This meant that it wasnât going to cause a problem with the debut.
But that specific âconfirmation of name changeâ⦠Something about it bothered me.
âIâll have to look up the Internet as soon as I am done with this.â
âOh~ they must have asked because your name is so unique!â
Feeling that there was nothing more to pick, the MC immediately wrapped up the question.
I waited for the filming to end, watching the other participants being asked questions.
* * *
I just found an in-depth SNS article on the Internet.
[Iâm curious about what Moon Puppy had been doing, but I canât find anything. No, maybe heâs an alien who changed his name]
âThis must have been the problem.â
It was a bit of a letdown.
Since the original account owner was a famous illustrator, it quickly became a meme in a short period of time. Although it was only within the fan community.
â (That⦠makes sense!)
â Since heâs serious about eating, heâs like an alien that has been sent to investigate the food culture of the Earth
â I saw dogâs ears on Moondae
It didnât matter if people laughed while making these jokes, but the situation itself raised some doubts.
âItâs not that I didnât expect it to not come out at all.â
Park Moondaeâs name and date of birth were written on his profile.
To be honest, I thought his high school life would be revealed during the broadcast.
At least something like, âI was in the same school, but he was a little weirdâ. I even expected words like âA child who dropped out of school after going around alone.â
These statements wouldnât harm me. Rather, the fans would be relieved that I wasnât the type to bully anyone since I was such a weakling at school.
âMaybe because my impression has changed a lot.â
This conjecture seemed to make the most sense.
When I first came into this body, Park Moondae was skinny and had shaggy hair. In addition, a completely different person (me) came in, so the way of speaking, movement, and atmosphere would have changed.
But maybe someday a story would come out. I didnât even use an alias.
âI hope it comes out after the program is over.â
It would be difficult to see the smartphone until the live broadcast.
After filming the talk show, I went back to the dorm and returned the smartphone as usual.
âLetâs just practice hard.â
Now there was only a week left until the final stage. There was no room for other thoughts.
â¦But even if there was no room for it, if there was a problem right away, I had no choice but to think about it.
It happened shortly after I noticed this.
* * *
It was two nights later that it happened.
While I was half dozing off and stuffing dinner into my mouth, an urgent call came from the production team.
From my experience so far, I thought I would get an interview cut. However, the atmosphere in the staff room was serious.
âMoondae-ssi.â
The writer who cast me in the karaoke room started talking in a tone that barely sounded concerned.
âOn the Internet now⦠An article came up.â
ââ¦Yes.â
I had a bad feeling.
The writer was even choosing her words in front of me as if she didnât know how to say this.
I held out my hands, feeling a headache creeping in.
âMay I just look at it myself?â
âUm, yes.â
The writer looked me up and down and handed me her phone.
I looked at the screen. A familiar interface appeared.
It was the community where controversy over Keun Sejinâs school bullying had been raised.
And at the top, I saw a title written in large font.
[Park Moondaeâs reason for dropping out of high school: got caught stealing sanitary padsã ã ]
ââ¦â
What kind of bullshit is this?
I was stunned by the unexpected title.
It had been a long time since I felt like my head was clogged up.
I checked the contents with a brain that didnât work due to the shock.
It has been revealed that Park Moondae is a graduate of Incheon Public High School, so Iâll skip the explanation. I graduated from that public high school, but Iâm the same age as Park Moondae. I was in class 3 with Park Moondae, and he was a gloomy weird kid. Actually, I didnât even know his name. I just knew he was Idol Inc. Park Moondae when I see him rising now.
Yes, but donât be relieved after reading this farã ã â Park Moondae dropped out after getting caught stealing sanitary pads from a girl in the class â
Even the girl whose sanitary pad was stolen dropped out shortly after because it turned into a strange rumor
And there are quite a lot of people who know this? It was such a mess, I wondered if there was going to be a school riot for a whileã But Park Moondae dropped out and ran away!
Iâll verify my graduation album and school uniform in case you donât believe me. But even if I donât do this, the people who know it will keep coming out.
[Photo] [Photo] [Photo]
Below that, there were a series of top comments by netizens who self-proclaimed to graduate from Incheon Public High School and claimed to know the case.
ââ¦â
A chill ran down my spine.
This⦠there was no answer.
Hitting someone or stealing money would be better than this. You stole a girlâs sanitary pad because you had nothing to steal?
Even if I met that kind of person in real life, I would have thought he was a hopeless bastard, but this happened to an idol audition participant.
âHave you read everything?â
I had read it, but I had nothing to say.
Isnât Park Moondae crazy?
âDid you commit such an idiotic thing and write down in your will that you feel unfair about being bullied?â
Yes, if he didnât steal it, he must have felt it was unfair. But right now, is there a way to prove that this bastard didnât steal it?
ââ¦Yes.â
I managed to answer.
The writer didnât uselessly mention whether it was ârealâ or not.
âYouâd better think about what to do right now.â
She meant to take care of it myself or get off.
I swallowed my saliva and answered.
ââ¦Give me a minute, Iâll think about it and tell youâ¦later.â
âYes, please do it quickly.â
I couldnât even speak properly.
I went back to the dorm in a state of madness. It was still time to practice, so the dorm room was empty.
I sat down on the bed because I was afraid that if I sat down on the desk, I would smash everything on the table.
And I tried to think as calmly as possible⦠Fu*ck, it sounded troublesome.
I hit the bed.
There was a dull âbam-bamâ sound, but it didnât relieve my anger at all.
âAm I going to die like this?â
What am I supposed to do with this sh*t?
You had locked me up in this flawed body while pretending it wasnât the case and patronizing me with the help of leveling up, you had pushed pressure on me to make my debut within a year; all these things do not make sense to me unless you intending to spite me.
My head hurt. I should have had that damn Unmoving Heart characteristic.
âNow⦠what do I do?â
What came after anger was, ironically, a deep sense of helplessness.
There was nothing I could do. Really.
Because I didnât know anything.
If I had a smartphone, I would have searched⦠No, this was crazy.
I wasnât going to look at public opinion, so this was how it ended.
No matter how much I lived without caring what others said, I couldnât guarantee that I would be fine after seeing an unspecified number of people mainly pouring out criticism.
Besidesâ¦
ââ¦Those people.â
I wonder what the people who supported Park Moondae were feeling.
They spent their time and money, and would never have imagined that they would be stabbed in the back like this.
It was even more ridiculous that I didnât do it. It was driving me crazy.
â¦It was the first time since I was an orphan that I felt so overwhelmed by the situation.
ââ¦â
Should I give up?
Shortly after that thought crossed my mind, someone creaked open the door to the dorm room.
âT-Thereâ¦â
ââ¦â
I thought I showed superhuman patience just by not telling them to go away now.
I didnât respond and continued to sit on the bed with my head down. It felt like my brain was boiling.
âHey, Park Moondae.â
Then, the door burst open and Keun Sejin came in.
The rumors must have circulated already. It wasnât strange that the quick-witted guy noticed it first.
âAre you serious about that?â
I donât know.
I thought I didnât answer, but it seemed that I couldnât control my mouth due to extreme stress. That bastard responded.
âWhy donât you know? Are you really dropping out because of that?â
âBecause I donât know.â
I donât know why youâre bothering me. Since thereâs only the final left anyway, isnât it better for me to get off?
ââ¦You know youâre talking nonsense right now, right?â
I clenched my teeth.
âI donât remember.â
âWhat?â
âF*ck. I woke up trying to commit suicide and I donât remember anything. Are you happy now?â
Thud.
The sound of Seon Ahyeon, who stood awkwardly on the side, dropping the chocolate bar he was holding was loud.
I sighed. I unnecessarily told the truth.
At least, I should consider it a relief that I didnât talk about changing my body and returning to the past. Even if said that I could see the status window, I couldnât take it out, so I was either a mythomaniac or a psychopath.
No, whatâs the use of all that now? If I didnât solve this problem, I wouldnât be able to debut within a year.
âR-R-Reallyâ¦â
âYeah, really.â
It was already difficult to stay calm, but you were making me use my energy for useless conversation.
âSince you already know⦠Leave it alone. Iâll take care of it.â
ââ¦If you donât even remember, how can you sort it out?â
âGet out.â
âIf you donât know anything, itâs better to have someone to discuss it with. You donât even have an agency.â
ââ¦â
That was true.
âItâs honestly hard to believe, but I donât think youâd lie about something like this. Rumors about stealing sanitary pads are even weirder..â
âT-Thatâs right.â
âI donât think a quick-calculating guy like you would do such a foolish thing.â
ââ¦!! N-No⦠I-I donât mean that, uh, t-thatâs whyâ¦â
Seon Ahyeon was broken. Keun Sejin ignored Seon Ahyeon.
âYeah. It would have been different if it was posted by the victim or her acquaintance. But looking at it, that doesnât seem to be the case.â
ââ¦â
My head cooled down a bit. I raised my head and looked at Keun Sejin.
Keun Sejin calmly sat on the floor on the opposite side.
I didnât know why this guy was being meddlesome.
âAnyway, youâre saying that youâre helping me.â
Still, it was surprising that it happened right before the final. I wasnât in a position to care about this right now.
âFirst of all⦠Letâs say you donât remember this incident. Do you remember what happened in high school?â
âI donât remember anything about high school. When I came to my senses, there was only a suicide note in front of me.â
There was silence for a while.
ââ¦Did you mention anything in your suicide note?â
âThere was no specific mention of the incident itself. There was an expression of unfairness, but thatâs something anyone can say at any time.â
âYouâre so cold-hearted even to yourself.â
Keun Sejin smiled helplessly.
I wanted to snort, but I couldnât afford to do so.
âT-There.â
Seon Ahyeon interrupted with difficulty.
âT-Then⦠F-Finding the party involved and confirming it⦠I-Is it difficult?â
ââ¦â
You mean the girl who dropped out.
âIf weâre filming now, thereâs no time or chance to find it⦠If I drop out, I donât know.â
â¦The more I spoke, the clearer the situation became.
It seemed that the survival rate was higher if I dropped out, turned off the urgent fire, and figured out the situation accurately.
ââ¦D-Donât.â
âWhat?â
âD-Donât quit, l-letâs wait a l-little bit.â