Knot Your Damn Omega: Chapter 18

I dropped my mouth onto Avery’s cock, savoring the spice and the sweetness. I’d woken with a craving for the taste of him, even though they were all asleep. It was the third day, or maybe the fourth? I couldn’t remember. It was a fog of sex and pleasure and wanting them more than I could remember wanting anything in my life.

Avery hardened in my mouth, a soft moan coming from him as he woke. “Baby girl, what are you doing?”

“I thought that was obvious.”

Moving, I licked down his shaft all the way to his balls, and I savored those too. He was a fucking lollipop. They all were. I was more familiar with all of their tastes now. The subtle variations.

“Come here.” Avery pulled me off his cock and up next to him, cuddling me in next to his side. “Is a wave coming?”

With a sigh, I nodded, not a little put out he was depriving me of his taste. But I was exhausted. We were all exhausted. As wonderful as it was, I wanted to sleep for twelve hours and not move. “I’m sorry.”

“Why?”

“I know you guys are as tired as I am.”

He laughed softly, nuzzling his mouth into the crook of my neck. “I don’t mind being tired because I’m fucking you. Believe me, if I’m going to be tired I’d rather it be from too much sex than anything else.”

“Okay.”

My back was cradled against his chest, and he moved enough to stroke his hand up under my hair and along my scalp. I sighed, relaxing into the feeling.

“And it’s okay to be tired and want it to be over.” He kept stroking through my hair. “None of us are wondering whether you’re enjoying yourself. We know you are. But you still don’t have a choice about being in heat.”

“I’m finding I like not having choices,” I mumbled, making him laugh again. This entire heat had woken up a different side of me. A softer side than the one I showed to the world. I’d already known I wasn’t the ice queen, ball-busting heartbreaker the paparazzi made me seem like, but I hadn’t known how deeply opposite my instincts were. That I loved having no control at all in situations like these.

I wondered what the headlines would say to that if they ever found out. They’d probably spin it into something awful too—Esme Williams A Total Pushover? The Ice Queen Melted and Now She’s Nothing!

Curling in on myself, I tried to push out all those thoughts. I knew they didn’t have a place in my head, but it was still impossible to stop them once they got going. Maybe the fact that they were coming back at all was a sign my heat was finally ending. It wasn’t over—I still felt it lurking beneath my skin, but we were reaching the end.

Avery kept stroking my hair until I dozed once more, taking the opportunity to rest while I could. It wouldn’t last forever, and it didn’t.

Painful need speared through my gut, and I hissed. Knot.

I pressed my face down into the cushions, which smelled like all of us now. “Avery.”

His hand was already stroking down my body and over my hip, sliding between my legs where I was newly wet. “Hmm, I wonder if I should get a taste before everyone wakes up?” The question wasn’t really directed at me. It was soft enough to just be an errant thought, but my thighs pressed together over his hand in response.

“That feels like a yes.”

“I—”

He smacked my ass lightly. Just enough to sting, and I gasped. With shocking clarity, I remembered we’d talked about spanking before my heat fully started. None of them had done that yet, and it did nothing to cool the temperature rising within me.

“Were you about to tell me I didn’t have to eat you out?” I hesitated, and his hand landed on my ass again, harder this time. “Don’t even think about lying, Esme.”

“Yes, I was.”

Another slap which had me arching into his hand and not away from it. Oh, god. This was a side of Avery which had been hovering at the edges but I hadn’t seen yet. He was the one who made sure I was taken care of. Eating. Drinking water. But there was a delight in this, too.

“First,” he said, rolling me fully onto my stomach and smacking the other side of my ass, “don’t ever lie to me. We don’t have secrets in this pack, or lies. Second, if you don’t want me to go down on you because you don’t feel like it, or anything else, that’s fine.”

Smack!

I yelped at that one, but his hand brushed over the heated skin and it transformed into rosy pleasure. “But if you say no because you think you’re not worth it, or I’m only doing it out of obligation? That’s not acceptable. I can choose what I want, and what I want is to taste this pretty pussy. And if I decide I want to eat your pussy for breakfast, lunch, and dinner, you will accept it’s what I want. Understood?”

I nodded, and his hand came down four more times, twice on both cheeks, and I was wriggling, trying to get away, but he wouldn’t let me, and I wasn’t really trying.

“Up on your hands and knees, baby girl.”

Now I obeyed, but he still spanked me again. “Dripping just for me. That spanking didn’t make you more wet, did it?” I felt his smile against my skin before his tongue plunged deep inside me, and I cried out, unable to form an answer to the question.

Avery wasn’t kidding. He consumed me, tasting every part of me from my clit to spearing his tongue so far inside me I thought it might disappear. There were more spanks too, until I could feel how red my ass was, warmth radiating from my skin.

Abruptly, he rolled me to my back and spread my legs, continuing the incredibly thorough meal he was making out of my pussy. And yet I hadn’t yet been pushed into an orgasm, and I wanted it. The heat was starting to drive me again. Lifting my hips into his mouth, Avery slapped the inside of my thigh.

The sting burned and eased into the rest of the fiery yearning. “Please?”

“I like the sound of you asking nicely,” he said, licking beneath my clit while he looked up at me. “But I think you need one more lesson.”

He sealed his mouth over me and sucked so hard I arched off the pillows. I didn’t know what the lesson was, but if it was coming on his tongue, then that was definitely, definitely going to happen.

Pleasure spiraled up from deep below. Closing my eyes, I focused on it, every pull of his mouth making it sharper and bringing it into focus. “Yes. Yes, yes.” I was so close and just when I was about to orgasm in a blaze of glory, he pulled away. “Wait—”

Avery’s hand came down on my pussy. The stinging sound was loud in the nest, fiery pain morphing into pleasure I couldn’t hold back. I screamed, body bowing toward the ceiling as I came. Another stinging blow directly on my clit, and another one before he licked me again, soothing away the pain and drowning me in fresh, golden bliss.

I was shaking when he pulled back and looked at me with an eyebrow raised, beard shining with my slick. “What was the lesson?”

“Don’t lie and don’t question if you want to eat me.”

Lifting my legs in one hand, he spanked me again, right at the place my legs met my ass. “That’s fucking right, baby girl. Never question it. If I tell you I want my tongue buried in your pussy, you believe it. If I tell you I want you impaled on my cock, believe it. Now come for me again.”

I wasn’t ready for the searing heat following the next slap on my clit. My body, already prepared to come, obeyed his words and his hands, throwing me down into pleasure so quickly I screamed again. My throat was raw with it after four days of begging them to take me over and over again.

Collapsing back onto the cushions, my breath was ragged. Avery was stroking my legs and hips in soothing motions. “Good girl. You took that so well. Was that too much pain? Or was it all right? You mentioned you liked spanking.”

“No, that was good.” My voice was ragged. “Really good. Really really good.”

He laughed, and Kade’s rough voice entered the mix. “That was the hottest thing I’ve seen in a long time.”

I looked over at him, meeting his dark eyes where he was watching me, now wide awake and stroking his cock. From here the silver studs of his piercings glimmered in the dim light, and my mouth watered. I’d tasted them all by now—multiple times—but Avery had pulled me off his cock, and I was craving one in my mouth, and Kade looked delicious.

His face pulled into a smirk. “What’s that look in your eye, baby?”

“I want you in my mouth.”

“I won’t say no to that.” He rolled toward me, rising up on his knees. I met him halfway, licking the broad head of his cock and savoring the flavor already leaking from him in anticipation.

Sealing my mouth against the side of his shaft, I worked my tongue against his piercings and down to the base of him. “I love your dirty mouth,” he muttered, and I proved to him exactly how dirty my mouth was, dropping down and sucking his balls between my lips.

Kade cursed, and if my mouth weren’t full of him I would have smiled. I liked it when they came undone just as much as they liked it when they made me scream.

A hand stroked down my spine. “Want more, sweetheart?” Luke’s voice was rough with sleep. All of us had barely left the nest. For food and the bathroom. On day two I had a shower I desperately needed and even then I ended up fucked twice against the shower wall, my voice echoing off the tiles.

“Yes,” I moaned the word against Kade’s growing knot. I couldn’t take him all the way I could with Luke between the curve of his cock and the piercings, but I was going to take what I could.

“Fuck,” the word was long and drawn out as Luke slid into me. It didn’t seem possible that after so much sex it could still feel this impossibly good, but it did. I was soaking for him, body silently begging for more. I arched my back, tilting my reddened ass up for him, and he took the bait, massaging with his palms.

It hurt, and it felt so good I nearly lost my focus on the delicious cock in front of me. I slipped my mouth over him, savoring the woodsy flavor of the wetness gathered at the tip, and he sank both hands into my hair.

“I feel left out,” Rylan said. I couldn’t see him, but I felt him suddenly underneath me, tongue teasing my clit even while Luke was beginning to fuck me.

Oh god. The slide and swirl around my clit rendered me helpless to do anything but feel, caught between the sensations echoing back and forth between tongue and cock.

Kade chuckled, tightening his hands in my hair. “Let me take it from here, baby. You just enjoy.”

I was doing that. Oh, I was so fucking doing that.

“You have the right idea, Ry,” Ben said, and I heard a smirk in the words seconds before I felt a hand on my ribs and his mouth close over one nipple.

And the scratch of Avery’s beard was at the other one. The whine which ripped out of me had all the Alphas purring in response. But I still couldn’t move. Couldn’t breathe. Every combination I couldn’t think of had happened in this nest, but nothing with all five of them.

I was a live wire waiting to explode, and it was so much sensation from so many directions, my brain short-circuited and shut off.

Kade’s hand curled under my throat, holding me so he could fuck deeper into my mouth, matching stroke for stroke with Luke, driving into my pussy. The three mouths beneath me, licking and sucking, grazing me with their teeth, I erupted.

There wasn’t one place the orgasm started—it felt like it came from everywhere and didn’t stop. I screamed around Kade’s cock, and the sound made every single one of them intensify. I came apart under lips, teeth, tongue, and cock. It didn’t stop.

This felt like the grand finale of a firework show, where everything was exploding at once and it was so fucking beautiful but you also couldn’t tell what was what.

Kade moaned, the sound setting me off again, another ripple of all that pleasure while my mouth filled with the hot richness of his cum. He wasn’t knotted, but he didn’t pull away, the presence of his cock forcing me to swallow, and god I wanted it.

My body shuddered, hands and legs shaking and weak from all the pleasure. Luke drove himself hard and deep, coming with a shout and knotting himself so deep I wasn’t sure he’d ever get out. Waves upon waves upon waves, and I couldn’t hold myself upright anymore.

Avery moved out of the way so I could collapse, Luke coming with me and holding me to his chest. There was still pleasure, but there was also sudden, sharp clarity and a cooling in my mind.

It had been the grand finale—the orgasm to end all orgasms, and the one to end the heat. It was over. Emotion rushed up so quickly I could barely hold it back. “Can I have a blanket, please?”

Kade handed me one, and I buried my face in it before the tears came. Deep, wracking sobs I couldn’t stop and couldn’t control. But it wasn’t entirely out of the ordinary for the comedown to affect me this way, even when I struggled through my heats by myself.

“Esme?” Luke asked.

I shook my head. “I’m fine.”

“That doesn’t sound fine.”

Wiping my eyes, I pillowed my face on the blanket. “I promise, it’s okay. It always happens when it’s over. The release of all the hormones and stuff. Almost like withdrawal.”

“It’s over?” Ben asked.

“Yeah. It is.” Those words made more tears come even though I really did feel fine and crying in front of them felt silly now. I was no longer an Omega in heat and I didn’t have the excuses. “And I’m okay. I’m a little sad it’s over, but it’s good. You guys can go back to your normal lives.”

“And courting you,” Avery said. “Don’t forget about that part.”

“Yeah.” My voice was quiet.

Luke’s knot loosened, and he slid out of me, turning me on my back and covering my body with his. “I hear doubts.”

“Welcome to life with Esme Williams. Fucked up and broken.”

His eyebrows rose, and I heard soft growls to my left. “You’re coming down pretty hard, but you’re going to be okay. The rest of the things we bought you were for right now, after you finished your heat, and we also have something to ask you.”

“What is it?” My stomach tightened, and I closed my eyes, wishing for once I could not anticipate the worst.

“While we’re courting you, and while we’re all learning more about each other, we’d like you to move in here. This is your nest. This can be your room. Until you decide whether you want to stay.”

I blinked up at him, not fully comprehending. “You want me to live here?”

“Until you decide if you want to stay,” he repeated quietly.

“That makes it sound like you already know you want me to stay,” I said.

He smiled, leaning down to kiss the corner of my mouth. “You hadn’t realized that already?”

“But you don’t even know me.”

The warm, steady sound of his purr filled my ears. Vibrated through my chest. He moved his mouth so it was pressed to my ear and only I could hear his words. “I’ll tell you as many times as you need until you believe it, but we’re not courting you hoping to send you away, little Omega. We’re courting you because our deepest instincts have already told us you’re ours. And yours are telling you too, and I want to string up every person who’s made you believe you’re not worth it.”

My whole body relaxed underneath the words and the purr. They wanted me to stay, and just the thought of packing up and going back to my house alone had tears pricking my eyes again.

I knew I would struggle, and I knew they were right. Everything had done a number on me. But just like the beginning of the heat, I wanted to try. I said they didn’t know me. But they did now. They knew me inside and out, just like I knew them. I knew the taste of their skin and the quiet sounds of their pleasure.

But I didn’t think they’d ever really know how much I wanted to stay.

I was just afraid.

It would take patience, but for the first time in forever, I felt hope I might have found a pack willing to work through it. Who saw me for me.

Finally, I smiled up at him. “I’ll stay.”

Not one of them held back, burying me in hugs and kisses until I was drowning in pleasure and purrs.