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IF IT'S YOU

Xiao Zhan P.O.V

Dad picked me up from work and took me home to change because we have a party to attend. We reached dad's house to pick up Madam Xiao and A-Chang. I don't really care about these parties but today I'm having a weird feeling. Whatever!

I wore a white suit that dad picked for me. And A-Chang got a purple suite. When we all reached the party dad started mingling with his friends and me and A-Chang went to the drinks table.

From the very moment I entered the party I felt like someone is watching me. I don't think I know someone in here. I haven't been in China for fifteen years. I don't think I've ever offended anyone to be watched. I tried to distract myself by drinking. But got back to my senses when A-Chang got himself a beer.

"What's that?" I point a finger at his drink.

"Oh! This? Beer!" He said as a matter of fact.

"I know what that is. But why are you drinking?"

"Well I think you didn't forget I'm already twenty." He raises his eyebrows. Then takes a sip of his beer. As if to show me that he can.

"A-Chang!" But I couldn't continue because suddenly someone came and stood in between me and A-Chang.

"Sean Xiao?" Wang Yibo? What is he doing here? Is it him that was looking at me all this time? Is that why I was feeling like this? "Oh! Didn't expect me I see!"

"Gege! Do you know him?" A-Chang brought me out of the trance I was in. I was looking at Yibo dumbfounded. I look at A-Chang and then at Yibo.

"Oh. I...... I..... Know him." Me stuttering surprised A-Chang but he excused himself giving us privacy to talk. Which gave me back a bit of my confidence. People might think why I lost my confidence when A-Chang is there. Well no matter what, he's still my brother. I still want to set a good example for him. And if he knew about my one night stand he might lose respect on me. But that aside. Right now Wang Yibo is in front of me.

"Zhan ge." I can't really tell what he's feeling right now. His face is always expressionless. But normally I can sense his feelings unlike right now. "Wanna get out of here?"

Wanna get out of here? He said!

And it took me merely a second to decide and accept him. And right now, I'm in one of the suites of the hotel that the party is being held, right under Wang Yibo, sheathing in pain and pleasure that his tongue and fingers and his manhood is providing me. Well I should never deny the fact how great this kid is in bed. Even being so young only a lots of experience can make someone be this good in bed. And that information alone gives me mixed feelings.

Don't know how long, after two rounds or maybe three, Wang Yibo let's go of me. I know he wasn't satisfied and to be honest I wasn't either. But both of us knew if we stay here longer we wouldn't like the consequence. So we had a silent understanding to let it end here for now. And maybe proceed some other time.

When we both reached back to the party nothing changed. Everyone is as they were. I went back to the drinks table again. Taking a glass of champagne I try to distract myself from the party. Which is damn hard given the fact that I'm in the party itself.

"You had to do that even in the party?" A sudden female voice startled me.

"Madam Xiao!"

"A-Zhan! Is it him?" Madam Xiao gives me a look I never thought she will ever give me! It looked like a mother trying to ask something to a son. Why does it feel like this?

I had nothing to say I suppose. So I just kept quiet. And getting the hint she left me alone. But not for long because my dad had other plans. He called both me and A-Chang to introduce us to his new investor in the hospital. And the shock that gave me compares to nothing else.

"Hello Mr. Wang. This is my family. My wife, my elder son Zhan, my younger son ZhuoChang."

Mr. Wang was shaking hands with us when I noticed his family standing with him. And there he was. Wang Yibo. So he's my father's investor's family?

"Well meet my family. This is my wife Carmen. That's my elder son HaiKuan. And my younger son Yibo." The said younger son never removed his eyes from me. He just kept looking at me. I didn't realize Mr. Wang was talking again. "Zhan should remember me. He came to few parties with you and his mother, right FanYu?"

Yes I do remember. I remember going to parties with mom and dad. I remember that pretty little shy boy who only stayed away and hung around only his butler. That little boy grew up to be this beast? Unbelievable! Well not like I didn't like being under this beast! But that needs to stop. I can't sleep with my boss's son.

I just tuned out the rest of the party. I only hung around the drinks table, though I only had juice. A-Chang stayed with me trying to figure out what it is I'm feeling. Trying to read my expressionless face. I felt Madam Xiao's scrutinizing gaze on me. But I just avoided it all.

I need to make up my mind. It can't go on like this. But why does it hurt? The thought of letting Yibo go, it hurts me. And I don't know why! I've always had control over myself, my feelings and my lifestyle and now I tend to lose control often. And this cannot happen. From now on I have to take control.

I have to talk to mom!

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Hey guys! Hello! Back with another chapter.... This one took me a while to write.... Maybe because I wasn't in a good state of mind.... I was really disturbed... I kept writing and then deleting and then writing again.... This process went on for weeks! So sorry that I failed to keep my promise!

This chapter probably shows a lot of my emotional turmoil... My emotions are all over the place now! I can't control it..... And being the person I am, I know signs of relapse when I see one... I try really hard not to dwell in that dark place, but for some twisted reason my mind keeps spiraling back there over and over and over again.....

Writing has always helped me.... And I'm going to try it now too! Hope you guys enjoy what I wrote!

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