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FINALLY YOU'RE HERE

Wang Yibo P.O.V

It's him. He's here. He's the friend I've been looking for. He's the one I've been looking up from distance. But the irony is we've been having sex for six months now. And it is at that moment I realized I love him.

The moment Uncle Xiao came up with his family, Xiao Zhan being there already gave me the idea who he is. And after Uncle Xiao introduced Zhan ge as is elder son I got the confirmation I needed. Finally I meet him. My eyes never leaving him. I'm not willing to let him out of my sight. He's perfect. He's everything I've ever needed.

But surprisingly after knowing who I was his face turned expressionless. He just went back to the drinks table like nothing happened. I mean I know he never really noticed me before. I wasn't exactly the type to be remembered either. But now we have something going on between us. I don't know how to name this thing we have. But have something, we do.

Taking occasional glaces at him I found his brother tense up around him and his new mother checking him up with a scrutinizing gaze that I wouldn't dare provoke. What is with you Xiao Zhan?

A sudden touch on my back startled me a great deal. "Hey! Yibo!" It's Jiaer. I don't know why but I got closer to Jiaer lately. He's in China for now. And will be staying for six more months. And in this time I got to know him a lot closely.

He's a really nice guy. He might be talkative but he's a lost soul when no one is around. I've seen him looking blankly at anything and he'd be totally lost. He doesn't open up that much either. But as far as I know him, he still loves the person from his school. He used to like that person but later he was moved to the US and never got to meet them. Who would have thought! I learned from him that love is patience. And somehow the room I share with no one became his too. We shared a few secrets with each other and I got to have a loving and caring cousin I never thought I needed. Irony, right?

"You look smitten!" Jiaer gave an encouraging pat on my shoulder. "Why don't you approach him? As far as I know him, he's really nice. Even he doesn't reciprocate your feelings he'll listen to you and be considerate about it. He doesn't like hurting anyone."

"Jiaer! Do you know he's the gege I've been waiting for all this time?"

"Really? Then what are you waiting for? Go! He's alone." Jiaer gives me a smile that removed all my worries and I looked to the direction of him. He was alone, facing the attendant of the drinks table. His body was looking taut and prominent under that white suit. His slender body was looking ready to be devoured and I was feeling the urge to touch him all over. I wasn't satisfied with just two round earlier today. He's appetizeing and extremely irresistible.

His brother was nowhere to be seen around him and Mrs. Xiao was now worriedly looking at both him and to the door to the balcony at the side of the hall. Well better take my chance now.

I walked up to him and find him distracted, his phone in his hand though he wasn't looking at it.

"Zhan ge!"

He got startled at my voice. "Yibo." He gives me a smile. And I knew at once that it was forced. I wouldn't have known that it was if it would have been few months back. But now I could clearly see through his emotions even he's hiding it well. I wanted to confess today, right here and now. But I probably shouldn't given the crowd and his expression.

"Zhan ge, pouvons-nous parler?" Well what can I say, I learned a little bit of French while all this time with him. I remember that one time he talked to his mom all in French and he told me he does that because it's convenient and the others won't know what they're talking about. It should have been a sign for me when I started learning a damn language for him which I would never imagine doing for a one night stand. He meant a lot to me even before I knew it, even before I realized my feelings for him.

"Mn." He stands up. "J'ai aussi quelque chose à dire." Well I didn't understand that much. But I could get two parts, 'me too'. So I follow him to a less crowded place. In the corridor by the side of the men's toilet was secluded enough and he turned towards me.

"You wanted to talk." Even though there were no one around he sticks to English, maybe to be cautious.

"You go first." I said that because I wanted to know what he had to say and my broken speaking level allowed as much. I needed to know the reason for his forced smile which he never needed before with me.

"But,..."

I cut him off. "It's okay, Zhan ge! You can say it first."

He nodded. Though he surely seemed conflicted. But it looked like he wanted to say it. And so he did. "Yibo we should stop sleeping around." Yes, I agree to that too sleeping around isn't healthy for any couple, even though we started off that way. But before I could say anything my body acted. I moved closer to him. And sparks flies and I connect my lips with his. In the heated moment he melted in the kiss. He likes me too. He'll accept my feelings. But he stopped responding and started struggling. Maybe he was having a hard time to breath. I let go of his mouth and we stayed like that for a few seconds, our foreheads touching, eyes closed, savoring the moment.

"Yibo, I can't do this."

I look at his eyes. And at this moment his eyes showed a lot of emotions. Fear, regret, hesitation and so much more!

"What do you mean?"

"Yibo, we shouldn't keep this thing up. We can't be fuck buddies anymore. I can't fuck my boss's son."

"Fuck buddies?" I felt hurt. Betrayed. I felt cold. So cold. As if a bucket of icy cold water was doused on me with so much force.

"We need to stop seeing each other. Next time we meet I'll act like we don't know each other." And then he stops, looks at my face, as if to gauge my reaction. As if! Then realisation hits him and he looks at me expectantly. "You wanted to tell me something."

"Huh?" I get out of the trance I was in. "Nothing."

He nods his head. "Ok."

I realized I was holding on to his left hand until he was leaving and wanted to take back his hand from my grasp.

"You really don't want to say it?" Zhan ge asked again. As if he was giving me a chance to rethink. To tell him everything. I say to his face how much I love him. How much I crave to see his face, his smile. Because if I leave those hands today I won't ever be able to hold them. If he turns his back today he won't ever come back. And I didn't want that. But I couldn't change the fact that I'm a coward. I lacked to confidence to hold onto him and never let go. I wasn't that arrogant bastard everyone see me as. I wasn't that sassy biker who can counterattack anyone with words. I lost in front of someone I love and I had no words to say to him. So I did the only thing I had to do. I let go of his hand.

Then shake my head. Say to myself in a whisper not intended for anyone to hear. "It's no use anyway."

He left there. Just like that. He didn't look back, not even once. But if he did, he would have seen it. He would have seen how broken he left me. How distressed and alone he left me. But they said, it's better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all. A whisper left my lips, as if coming from deep within my soul.

"I love you, Zhan ge."

"I love you Xiao Zhan."

"Please don't leave me."

But it was too late!

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