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THAT AWAITS ME

Wang Yibo P.O.V

He left me. He left me alone here. I told him don't leave me. But he left. Alone in the middle of darkness. I heard his footsteps but they were fading. As if he couldn't hear me. I couldn't see him. I felt like drowning in darkness. I wanted to extend my hands. To touch him. To feel him if he was there. But I couldn't move a single part of my body.

I felt like I was frozen and no part of my body was under my control. All I saw was darkness. All I felt was pure air. Trying to grab onto something but failing miserably, because the anchor that was holding me sane was gone now. And I didn't even know.

Suddenly a footstep caught my attention, but I couldn't move, so I couldn't see who it was. Is it Zhan ge? Can it be? Please be Zhan ge!

But why do I not hear anything anymore? Why isn't Zhan ge coming back?

When I have no control over my body I tend to rely on my hearing. But right now, there's nothing. I don't hear anything at all. Is it just me or is there nobody here? All these time I've spent with Zhan ge I've felt comfort in his presence, his fragrance. But now he too left me.

Then I heard something. A sound. A familiar voice!

Ge! He left me, ge! Please ge! Bring him back to me!

Can ge hear me? Can ge bring him back to me? Why isn't ge daing anything? A feeling of a distant call reaches me. As if coming from far far away. I feel his call. But I can't answer.

Slowly everything fades away and all that remains is black.

I don't remember how long time has passed, but slowly I open my eyes to see a white light. Which slowly fades to appear as a cemetery. Just not any cemetery, it's the cemetery where my grandparents are lying. But when did I come here?

There's nobody here. No sound, no nothing.

Can anybody hear me?

I try to call out, but I don't seem to hear my own voice. As if a void is absorbing my voice and all that remains is dead silence.

I keep walking and walking but the path doesn't seem to end. Then a figure becomes visible to me. They aren't too hard to reach. I keep walking and when I reach them I see them standing in front of my grandparents' tombstone. I try to reach out to them but still can't.

But when that person turns to me, I gasp.

Angel!

She looks at me as if I hurt her. I don't remember meeting her ever again after that one time. But why is she disappointed on me? What did I do?

Don't give up on him! He's a little lost. He'll come back. Just don't give up!

But everything seems to fade away again. Why is it happening to me? Angel! Don't go!

No you can't go!

Tell me who is he!

Don't go!

"Don't go!" I wake up with a start! That was just a dream? I'm not in the cemetery? I'm-

Wait, where am I?

I look around the white room. A hospital room? I look at the right side to find ge sitting on a chair, with his head at the side of my bed.

"Ge?"

Haikuan ge wakes up and instantly panicked.

"Are you ok, now? Does it hurt anywhere? Can you hear me? Yibo?"

"Ge! I'm okay!" It's the first time I'm seeing him panick like this. He's always been the taugh big guy. But right now he looks like a worried big brother. I wonder if I ever wanted to see him like this! No, I don't. "Did I scare you?"

"You're asking?" Haikuan ge looks at me, anger creeping up on his face. "Do you know how much you worried me? I couldn't even inform mom and dad!" His worry and anger wouldn't let him keep talking. He starts hyperventilating! Ge, hyperventilating? Oh, no! That's not a good sign!

"Ge! Ge! Calm down! I'm fine! See?" I hold him with my both hands. "Gege! I'm sorry, for worrying you too much!"

Gege hugs me for the first time after I don't know how many years! I'm sorry gege, for misunderstanding you for so many years! I'm sorry for always reminding you your regrets! I'm sorry for using Zanjin ge to gain an upper hand in our arguments! I'm sorry! I'm sorry I'm a bad didi!

"I'll call the doctor." Ge leaves the room. And after some times comes in with a doctor. The doctor that came inside isn't our family doctor.

"Hello, I'm Dr. Liu Chen. How are you feeling?"

"I'm good."

"Mr. Wang Yibo. Do you feel any pain?"

I try to think if I'm feeling any pain. "No."

"Now can you tell me Mr. Yibo, what happened to you?" She sits by my bedside. I want to tell her, but something stops me from within! I don't know why can't I say it, but it feels too hard.

But telling her everything is what I have to do. So I start. "I saw something." Saying this I look at ge nervously. Will he judge me?

"He can go out, if you want him to know!" The doctor sounded considerate.

I just nod. I don't have much strength to explain anything to him. And Haikuan ge leaves the room silently. Sorry ge! I can't tell you. As there's no way to avoid telling the doctor and that's not a wise choice either, I can at least keep it between me and the doctor for now. Telling the doctor everything will help me maybe. Will she bring me my Zhan ge? Can she?

After listening to everything I have to say, the doctor gave me a slight nod. "So you are saying, you need your Zhan ge to keep you away from those things you're seeing right?"

I look at her hopefully. But her face tells me she can't help me. She smiles at me and says, "But that's not really a good excuse. If you need them, you have to tell them. They won't know until you tell them right?" She has a warm smile! "Meanwhile I'll recommend you a new doctor who can help you find another solution, yeah?"

Well I don't think I have anything else to do other than nod. So that's what I did.

At least there's another solution!

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Hello lovelies! I'm back with another chapter! This chapter took me a while and this chapter contains contents from real life experiences..... The things that are happening to Yibo happened to someone I know in real life.... I just wanted to validate their struggles so that they know that there are people who support them...

Always be there for the people who need it... And if you are the one struggling, know that, it's okay not to be okay, it's okay to feel that there's something wrong.... And there's nothing wrong in that... I'm always here to listen to you if you want me to listen... And if it's too hard, it's okay, take a break and start again.... Maybe in a different way... But quitting is not an option....

I hope you like this chapter! Enjoy

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