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HOLD ME TIGHT, SAY MY NAME

Wang Yibo P.O.V

I just entered Zhan ge's hospital room, when I saw the messy scene in front of me.

In the last two and a half months I've been here everyday. Literally everyone in the hospital knows about my schedule of being here. On the weekdays, I'd come here in the morning at around six and a half to let Qing Ayi go home for a few hours. Then when she comes back I'll go to my office. Work the whole day. And then at around five in the afternoon I'll leave the rest of my works to my secretary and come to the hospital again to stay until late at night.

In this gap of time Zhuochang would come to visit after college, Mrs. Xiao would visit at some point and uncle Xiao would visit him from time to time.

On the weekends I'd stay the whole day and then Saturday night through Sunday morning. Because Qing Ayi needs sleep and rest too. Though I tell her to go home and rest, she never does. She stays at the hospital waiting room. Well at least she gets the rest.

Qing Ayi stays with him nonstop. Without care for the world. When she learnt that coma patients can listen to us she started talking to Zhan ge. About this and that. Sometimes I would talk to him too. About how I miss him.

But the gist is always the same for all of us. Asking him to be strong and wake up.

But never once he showed a response. So I wasn't sure what type of response I expected. But whatever that is, it's definitely not this.

Today's been a hectic day at the office because of the meetings and we finalized the design of Zhan ge's lab. I was going to tell him about it today. So I reached there early at around two right after finishing my second meeting. But when I tiredly entered the hospital room I saw Qing Ayi trying to shake Zhan ge awake, and the heart monitor is going down with continuous beeping sound.

The green button to call the nurse near the head of the bed was alight. So I guess she already called for the doctor. So I just tried to help her wake Zhan ge up if that was even possible.

When the doctors came we were escorted aside and we both stayed put at the corner of the room. Watching the doctors trying to save Zhan ge.

Please don't leave, Zhan ge! Please! You don't have to wake up if you're not ready yet. But please stay! Don't leave me here alone. I'll be broken forever if you leave!

But maybe the God, if there was even one, had other plans about us.

The green line that indicates that my Zhan ge's heart was still beating became a straight line. With an unbearable beeping sound constantly mocking me about my fate. My bad luck. Mocking me about how I lost Zhan ge!

Again.

I could feel Qing Ayi freeze on the spot.

I wanted to tell her this isn't real. He's not.... He's here.... He's not going anywhere.... But no!

And what I did?

I ran.

I have to run far away. Far far away. If you can leave me, I can leave you too.

I'll go where nobody can find me.

Yeah! That way it'll not be true. At least it'll not feel true.

I took the car and just drove and drove and drove.

Because at this moment I didn't know anything else.

What would you do if you lose the only one you want in your life? What would you do when you can't even save them? What would you do?

I didn't know. It didn't make sense.

He was okay, he was getting better. Then why?

When I stopped the car, I didn't know where I was. Looks like it's the countryside. But I don't know the place.

So I left my car and started walking.

There's nobody around here. It's just rice fields and corn fields here.

What is this place?

When I reached the village, I saw some people engaged in their daily chores. When I reached the pottery shop which an old uncle making middium size rice pots continuously, I felt a set of small hands holding my leg.

I looked down to find a child two or three years old sitting on the dusty path holding my legs tight with both hands.

Instantly I got a flash of picture appear in front of me. A bouquet of forget-me-not and a face smiling at me. A mole right below their lips.

"Ba.....ba....."

"What?"

"He's the orphan of the Zhang couple from that house behind you." I didn't realize when the old potter has left his seat and came down to the yard looking at me with amused eyes. "You look like you're from the city. Are you here for some work?"

"Huh? Uh! Ye... Yes."

"People like you come here often." He looked at me with judging eyes through the round rimmed glasses. "If you're here to buy some lands and make some of your giants, leave right away."

And saying that he just goes back to his seat and starts working again.

"No. Actually. I'm not here for that." I sound desperate. But this place looks like somewhere I can hide for the rest of my life. So I just had to take the chance. "Will you help me?"

The dark eyes looked at me from behind the rimmed glasses but it now had something that I couldn't probably explain in words.

I knew I wouldn't be able to live without Zhan ge in my life. I've tried. But it wasn't easy. But then too Zhan ge was somewhere out there. I could listen about him from gege. I could look at him from the distance. But now, I couldn't live anymore.

But I knew this too that Zhan ge wouldn't want me to do anything stupid. No matter how much he didn't want to see me.

So I'll live. I'll find a life for myself. Where Zhan ge would be there in my heart! Always.

Where he'd be alive in me!

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Heyyyyyy! Lovely people! Here I am again with another chapter....

So I'm sooo sooo sooo sorry that I killed Zhan! Please don't hate me for it!

Cuz that's just life.... Nobody survives a stab at the heart! It's only natural..... So please understand!

That's it for today... Hope you don't hate me! Because I love you all!

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C 💕

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