What are the odds

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I feel so awkward with the whole situation. I don't know if I have to push Ashnier off me or take Elijah's hand. But I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings, I don't think I can.

"Ashnier." Elijah intently looked at Ashnier for the longest time today that I can even feel the pressure building up. He looks like he can hurt someone anytime even though Ashnier is older than him.

I just realized that Ashnier is never the talkative type and neither is Elijah so I can't really understand what's so wrong about hugging each other when I can see them doing it most of the time when I'm not around. Am I not supposed to be touchy with them?

What's this awful feeling?

"Now now big seaweed brains~" Enzo shows up in front of me taking me off of Ashnier's hold and hugging me for himself. I looked like a doll being played on and pass through by their hands as I can't seem to concentrate in what's happening. I know I have to say or do something but the thought of Enzo holding me so tightly and his comforting sweet smell just shut my mind out of the conversation.

"Seems like you all forgot that Mom makes me in charge of little Sky~ for today! You have to wait until tomorrow before you snatch this soft and adorable beauty off of me." Enzo half yelled which makes them laugh well except Elijah and Ashnier, well Canary too. Canary seemed so fed up of everything and just walks off the room to go to the living room taking the minced Choco with him.

"We won't take lil' Sky from you baby mint flush cinnamon, well not yet." Dustin pinched Enzo in his nose before kissing both our forehead and walking off before everyone through the living room.

"Come on Sky~ We'll watch something today for now since I can't take you in a stroll downstairs. Since some stupid homophobes are littering Auntie Jennifer's resto." Enzo pulled me to the living room where everybody is, leaving Ashnier and Elijah in the kitchen.

"What do you mean? Is it Kevin again?" Vaughn asked looking furious and concerned. "Did he hit you anywhere?" He asked while inspecting for any signs of bruise or scratch.

Vaughn y' 10th as recall he was attending the same senior year as Enzo and Canary, everyone except Lantice and Linx as well as Jackson who have their own company are either college or have their own professional work. Well that's what they told me anyways.

Vaughn looks like he knew who Enzo were pertaining to, maybe he knows what happened earlier or...  does those guys did the same to him?

Just the thought of it makes my blood boil.

"No worries~ they can never hurt me. You of all people knows that." They both laugh afterwards, well maybe I don't have to worry, after all they are stronger compared to me. I can't do what they can after all.

"What are we watching?" Enzo asked as he positioned me in between his lap in the floor. He gave me a blue cute monster pillow which I hugged, mind you it smells just like him, sweet and minty. "Do you like Stitch?" I nodded, so the pillow has a name.

"How about Avengers?" Jack asked adjusting what Enzo called the projector.

"Then we have to start from the beginning since sky don't know the story." Elijah said sitting beside us and handling me a bowl full of strawberries and chocolates. He placed a big bowl of white stuff in his lap and eat some.

"W-what's that?"

"Oh this? It's called popcorn. We always have this when watching movies, do you want some?"

I nodded and he placed a piece in my mouth. It tastes kinda salty but sweet and it was crunchy I was surprised. It's truly delicious. He laughed at my reaction and feed some to Enzo as well since his hands can't seem to let go of me.

"It's delicious." I smiled brightly which earned a kiss in the cheeks from Elijah and Enzo, are they really this affectionate? Well it's not like I hate it, it's just that It felt weird everytime they kiss me.

I don't have much time processing what I feel as what they called movie started. The white wall glows with moving images coming from the projector as a loud sound came from somewhere and the room dimmed. I can't take my eyes off the square light and my heart seems to beat alongside the music. Wow... What's this? I feel so excited all of the sudden.

I looked at Elijah and Enzo to confirm what's happening. I can't seem to contain my excitement anymore and to my utter surprise they are already looking at me, are they watching me all this time? I'm so embarrassed all of the sudden. What if I made some weird face as I was curious and mesmerized by the moving images? I hid my face and I hugged Stitch closer.

"Hahaha, why are you so cute Sky~" they both laugh and I think I'm starting to turned into an apple with this red cheeks. I'm actually grateful that the room is dark and they can't see my face right now.

I watch and watch again, happy and amazed by the whole thing. I loved how the characters all stand and stayed strong amidst all the problem and how they protect others from the bad guys. Hoping although out the movie that I'm, even just a little bit stronger like them. I almost thought of it as real and asked Elijah if I'll see Iron Man if I go outside and look up the sky, they laughed but explained that everything is just a fictional character and was acted by the people called actors. I didn't know it's possible though but they said that it was due to great editing and props. It's commendable acting skills if ever.

It was our fourth movie that I looked around finding that most of them are already asleep. Elijah and Enzo are intently watching with me just an hour ago but they eventually excused themselves not so long ago. Is the movie boring? Or it's just that they already watched it? Well... Whatever.

I looked at everyone as they sleep comfortably leaning against each other in the couch and in the futons or in the floor.   The bags of chips they called are all over the place, Ashnier gave each a bag of plastic with food inside before the movie starts and I want to taste them now as my food are all gone. I was curious as to what they taste like  but my attention was caught by what I saw more next.

Dustin kissing Ashnier in the lips.

I was surprised, is that normal? I remembered what father used to say to me, though almost all of my memories of him disgusted me, this part stood out to be the most disgusting one.

"I really loved kissing you, it makes me so delighted that I can't seem to stop."

Do they feel good too? Is that okay? All my memories of kissing is traumatizing but looking at them makes me feel...

Weird.

I don't know what got into me but I can't seem to take my eyes off them. The thought of Ashnier kissing some girls I don't know of is repulsive for me earlier but as I saw him kissing Dustin... Somehow it makes something inside of me... Curl? I don't know what this is. Wanting?  I don't want to give in to this greed but...

I want to kiss them too, I want them to kiss me too, not in the cheeks or in my forehead like they used to but my lips. I want to feel their lips into mine, I want to compare what would I feel with them, what difference is their kiss compared to my father.

I looked intently forgetting the good movie I'm watching and watched what they're doing instead. They looked so happy and ....lustful in a good way that is unlike my father who molested and raped me against my own will. They seemed to enjoy each other's attention and kisses. Roaming and exploring unseen parts of their bodies. What's this? What am I feeling? I looked at myself unsure of the sudden changes in me. Why am I so hot? It's burning me just looking at them. I looked at them again. What would I feel though? What would I feel if they're the ones kissing me?

"What would..I ...feel?" I licked my lips unconsciously.

"Enjoying the movie lil naughty sky~" I suddenly got nervous as I turned around just to see Jackson looking at me dangerously.

"What are you doing Azure? Do you enjoy watching that instead of the movie?" He smirked at me as he touched my neck and corner me in between his arms and the couch, I awkwardly crouch underneath as I avoided his gaze.

"N-no "

"Oh? I thought you want to know how they feel?" He touched my lips that is wet from all the biting  making me look at him out of the habits. It was always like this. Would he hit me like my father did if I don't look at him or answer?

"You'll cut your cute lips, Sky. I'll probably bruised if you keep in biting it hard."

"I...I -i...uhm... I was-" I stuttered so much that I'm afraid he'll really hit me for being annoying.

"Oh Sky~ my lil sweet innocent sky. What should I do to you?"

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