chapter 23

Hum Bane hi the tabaah hone ke liye,

Aapka aana to sirf ek bahana tha.

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Chandni pov-

Don't touch me, he shouted and i saw his eyes turned red in anger,he removed his hand from my grip and stood up from the bed then grabbed his blazer and phone from the bed and immediately left my room.

I touched my mangalsutra which was in his hand some time back and how he was about to remove it , remembering this lone tear escaped from my eyes.

I saw my henna claided hand where his name was written and i slowly caress that place where his name was written.

"Abeer ",i slowly whispered his name, the name written on my hand unknowingly is my husband name

Too aapka naam Abeer Singh Rathore h.

Then i saw my hand that he just bandaged he didn't seem angry like how he was sometime ago but careful, he was turned as different person for minute he dressed my wound very slowly and carefully that i should not get hurt .

Pehle dard dete h phir khud mahram lagte h , i thought while rested my head on headstand and closed my eyes.

As i closed my eyes all those things that happened a moment ago started flashing before my eyes how he lifted me in his arms and made me sit on the bed and how close we were at that time .

I quickly opened my eyes and my breathing turns heavy i put my hand on my chest and gently rub it to control my heavy breathing.

Author

Don't think too much Chandni, he doesn't want to have any relationship with you , Chandni thought and tried to make her mind understand but somewhere she knew that she need to make her heart understand first.

She took out her pen and diary from the night stand drawer and started writing in that diary in which she wrote shayris and poetry about that one person who left her heart restless a while back she herself doesn't know how many shayari she wrote about him in these two years without any meeting.

Ye jo lafzon ki jagah aankhon se Alfaaz Baya karte h,

Yuu humhe har baar shab-e-intezar Diya karte h,

jaante h Chahat nahi bus sikyaat aapko humse,

Par thoda Qreeb aaye kuch apni kahyie kuch humari suniye,

Yuu baar baar har baar Bina kuch kahe nazron se dil-e-bekarar karna munasib too nahi.......!!!!!!

-chandni♡

(AN)

Chandni writes this and below it writes her name with a small heart and then she closes that diary and puts it back in the drawer.

Chandni pov-

I was about to take off my dupatta to put on the side when i remember how he removed the dupatta from my shoulder and just thinking about it i get goosebumps all over my body.

Forget it's Chandni nothing happened and i took out my dupatta and kept it on the side on the bed and then slowly lay on the bed without hurting my left hand.

He don't want me to stay here in his house, i have to leave.

But what will i say to suhana aunty and everyone but i have to find a way out i had promised myself that if anyone in the house would face any problem due to my stay here, i would leave this house.

Earlier i used to live here without any relation, now i can't stay here even if I have a relation with them.

Because the one with whom this relation is established, he himself is not ready to accept our relation.

I will go anywhere but can't stay here, i had to leave from here one day or other day then why not now? But before that i have to prove myself innocent in front him.

I don't know when I fall asleep thinking all this.

Morning

i opened my eyes and takes my phone from the nightstand to check the time.

And looking at the time, i looked at the wall clock, i saw that the same time as in my phone.

it's 8:39 hyy Mata Rani mein itni der tak soti rahi ,i thought and sat on the bed .

Everyone will be waiting for me downstairs for breakfast , i thought and got up from bed only then my eyes saw broken bangles on the floor.

That's why he picked me up in his arm's so that i don't get hurt in my feet .

Bure nahi h aap, i thought and looked at my bandaged hand.

I carefully picked up those broken bangles and threw them in the dustbin .

And after that i went towards the wardrobe and took a full sleeve dress so that no one could see this bandage and went to the bathroom to freshen up.

After freshening up I came out full dress up and went towards my venity.

(Chandni dress)

I left my hair down and applied moisturiser and kajal in my eyes because my eyes looked puffy so i put on then put on my earings.

I took out the Bule Bangles from the bottom drawer and put them on in one hand because my other hand was injured, i did not wear anything in it.

I put my mangalsutra inside my kurti and then took the vermilion box and filled my hairline and hidded it with my hair .

Hyy Mata Rani never give any girl the same fate as me......, I wished and tears fall from my eyes and immediately wiped them.

He will be also there how will i face him,Chandni don't think too much, one day other I have to face him to make everything clear taking a deep breath i came out of my room.

Thinking this, I started going downstairs and headed straight to the dining room but there was no one present .

Kaha gaye sab log , i thought and seeing no one present there and i started going towards the living room when i overheard suhana auntie and dadi voice in hallway and because of what I heard i froze in my place.

Maa last night I saw Abeer coming out of Chandni's room in anger ,aunty slowly said to dadi and listening this i was out of breath and my heart started beating fastly .

Aunty saw him leaving my room what must she be thinking.

When i asked why he had gone to Chandni room he angrily said that he does not want Chandni to stay here, aunty said to dadi.

I tried to make him understand that Chandni is a nice girl but he is not ready to listen anything ,aunty said .

Suhana, you already know that Abeer doesn't trust anyone easily and Chandni is still a stranger for him and you know that his mind was filled with hatred for girls and you also know the reason behind it why he doesn't trust anyone, dadi said .

you know that childhood wounds doesn't heal quickly it will take some time, when he starts to understand Chandni, he himself will understand that every girl is not bad and does not run after money, dadi said in little upset tone.

What happened because of which he hates girls and doesn't want to trust anyone except his family, i thought.

Maa i feel that because of the argument that happened last night beacuse of that Abeer is going from here , aunty said sadly.

He hates me that much because of me he was going somewhere

Maa i do not want my son to go away from me and i also do not want Chandni to go from here until she stands on her feet and learns to face people alone without any fear you know that Chandni is not like Ahana and Aditi she gets afraid of small things even if someone talks to her loudly, it took months for her to even mix with us, aunty said slowly and my eyes filled with tears .

Aunty loves me so much and here i am the reason her son is going away from her how bad I am....

Bua used to tell the truth, I am unlucky I spoil everything wherever I go.

Auntie and dadi were talking when I saw the three youngest members of the  family coming towards them and they were seems upset and I hid myself so they couldn't see me.

Maa Bhai ko rok len naa jaane se , aditi said sadly and other two nodded.

Haa badi maa, Bhai just came yesterday now again he was going somewhere, ahana said .

Badi maa humne Bhai se baat karne ki koshish ki wo naa jaaye but he is not listening to us , adi said .

Because of me he is going away from his family and also because of me everyone is sad .

Mujhe unse baat karni chahiye ager kisiko es ghar se jaana chahiye to wo mein hu ....

Without being seen by anyone i started going towards the second floor towards his room i never went towards that portion because that whole area belongs to him.

My heart started beating faster when I stepped into that area .

Kuch nahi hoga Chandni i just have to go and talk to him but he does not even let me speak just always yell at me

but i have to talk to him Mata Rani please be with me, taking a deep breath i started going inside .

I noticed that this area was completely different from the interior design of the house, everything was on black and white theme.

I could see two doors, one was slightly ahead and i was standing in front of the other door and that' door was slightly open i looked inside and i saw it looked like someone office room may be it's his .

It means that will be his room , i thought and slowly started walking towards his room.

Par mein aise unke room mein to nahi jaa sakti ,he will going to get mad at me and i have already come in his portion without his permission,i thought and stand in front of that door while clutched my dupatta in my hand tightly in nervousness.

i should wait here when he will came outside i will talk to him and i waited for a long time infront his door but he didn't come out.

Having no option i knocked on the door several times but there was no answer.

Kahyi wo chalye to nahi gaye ,i thought and put my hand on the handle of the door and opened it slowly .

i saw no one was in the room then i looked around the room, this very big room, probably the biggest room in the house in black and white theme even the bedsheet was of black colour.

And then my attention went to the photo on the wall above the bed there was a big frame of him and for minute i looked at that frame.

Then i saw my left there were two doors in that room.

It must be bathroom

I looked a little further to the right, it was a pay glass wall.

i couldn't see outside because it was almost covered by the curtain.

To see what is there, i start going towards that glass wall over there.

I slowly slides that curtain and wanted to see what is there.

For minute i forgot for what reason i came here .

When i heard the locking sound of door lock and my heart started pounding, i immediately turned and saw that he was standing there in his office attire

(Abeer outfit)

First you came to my house and now in my room without my permission ,he said and take steps towards me and it was clearly visible in his voice how angry he was because of my coming here and i clutched my dupatta tightly and take a step back because of my this act of mine, the sound of my bangles ecoed in the room.

I made a big mistake by coming here, i thought and looked at him coming towards me in anger.

Why are you here in my room  ,he asked while gritting his teeth and stand infront of me.

Woo.... Muj_he aap_se ba_at kar_ni th_i, i said while shuttering because he was standing too close to me and tried to take step back but my back hit the glass wall.

Tell me what you want to say,he said and looked at me intially and feeling his gaze I lowered my eyes.

Pleas_e me_ri waj_ah se yah_an se na jaay_e everyo_ne is sa_d ,i said and slowly looked at him.

Lagti kya tum meri? haa Jo mein tumhare liye apni family ko chod ker jauoo, he said in anger and listening this tears welled up in my eyes.

For a moment my heart i wanted to say that I am you're Wife .

but i could not able to say anything Because there is no point in saying that when he doesn't consider me as his wife.

Don't think to much,Itni ehmiyat nahi hai tumhari meri life mein, he said while angrily and he punched his one hand on that glass wall next to me and in fear i closed my eyes.

Aaaaa, the sound escaped from my mouth beacuse of his this act.

By the grace of God that glass wall did not break

I opened my eyes when i felt him walking away me.

Plea_se do_n't go ,i said in tears and unknowingly my hand clutched his blazer near his hand and he stopped.

Mujhe nahi pata meine Aisa kyu kaha and why i clutched his blazer but even thinking that he is going away from here from me i'm scared.

I don't want him to go away from me again .....

He didn't turn back just removed my hand from his blazer and took his luggage which was by the side of the bed and left his room.

Bahut bure h aap,i just murmured and i fall on my knees and cried.

He again left me.............

Kuch to khaas h tum mein

Warna itna maaf to meine khud ko bhi nahi Kiya ......

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Bye byeee 👋

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-AN