Chapter 154
If I Disobey the Duke
Broken (1)
His eyes were dazed and unfocused. âActually, your brother didnât say anything wrong.â
That day. That word. It was just one more time hearing what had always been said in his life. He just hated showing her the other him.
âItâs true that my bloodline is unacceptable. Half-human, half-human eating human flesh, a child resulting from rape.â
âNo, no! Such words⦠Donât say it.â She tried to hold back, but something hot rushed up.
It was like what sheâd been through. Unlike Lily, who couldnât control her bitterness, he was calm.
âItâs terrible. Why are you talking like that?  Whyâ¦.â
That indifference. It couldnât have been anything but painful, not when this was the first time the two of them were talking about it.
Vlad had realized too early that stabbing himself first before anyone else could hurt less.
Lily saw a little child in him.
One that didnât know what was going on and thought that he was a disaster. Even though he knew his parents hated him, he was filled with desperation.
He couldnât get out.
He was in a similar situation to a dog who got beaten but wagged his tail again at his owner.
Lily held his large hand tightly, afraid that he would disappear if she let go.
âHow the hell, ahâ¦.â
His breathing stopped for a moment. Vlad felt her hand trembling as Lily held him.
âHow⦠did you survive? It mustâve been so lonelyâ¦â Her eyes gleamed. Tears dripped down to the floor.
He gently stroked her trembling hand as if to care for wounds.
A bitter loneliness. His raw solitude, which had become a part of him, had finally been revealed in front of her.
âItâs not terrible. At least for me, neverâ¦â
A momentary force entered his hand, and then he quickly relaxed. He seemed to be holding back something.
As soon as the wind blew, Lilyâs cheeks were wet again. Her whole face looked like it was going to explode. The blurry vision was getting annoying. She wanted to see what kind of expression he hadâ¦
Lily wiped her tears with the back of her hand. New ones welled up in no time despite her efforts. âI am on your side. I am your wife. No matter what anyone says to you, Iâ¦â
ââ¦â
âWhatever you are⦠ I will never leave, I will be by your side. Iâll protect youâ¦â she said valiantly through her stuffy nose.
She closed her mouth in frustration, but her breathing was heavy. After a while, she heard the sound of a small laugh.
âItâs not that bad.â Vlad covered her cheeks with his large hands. His palms were warm. His long thumb brushed her cheek a few times. âThere were times when I thought that I would like you to laugh in front of me too.â
She was a woman who did not only smile in front of him. There was a time when his heart continued to soar because of that fact.
But it wasnât bad that she cried.
Ah.
The ugly nature that he was trying to suppress spread its crouched wings. He knew well about his lustful desires.
A woman weeping as she listened to his own story. He shouldnât have ruined this woman like that.
ââ¦It seems it is already too late.â
He wanted to have her all. His thirst was sure to never end no matter how much it was filled.
He leaned his head at an angle and kissed her, his tongue slipping into her mouth.
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Lily rolled her eyes anxiously.
âWhen someone comes⦠ What should I do?â
Was it because she cried for a long time or for some other reason? Her cheeks were red as she knelt in front of him and looked up at him cutely.
Vlad stroked her hairline. âNo one can come in without my permission.â
Lily understood what he was saying, but her expression still looked awkward. She was positioned near his legs, the two surrounded by garden trees. It seemed like they were not a legally married couple, but rather in a forbidden relationship.
More than anything. The scene that came into view was too obscene. She breathed heavily in front of him.
Eventually, as she bowed her blushing head, he reached down and grabbed her chin.