Chapter-1

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The sun rays shove inside the room from the glass window and made their way towards the numerous photo frames lying on the floor, broken and with traces of blood.

A girl is sitting by the support of the bed on the wooden floor with the frames scattered around her and with scratches on her feet. Her legs are held against her chest with the support of her hands and her eyes, they look lifeless. She can't believe that what happened with her was true. Was that a bad dream? She just tries to comfort herself but nothing helps when she is left alone haunted by the memories which she earlier used to embrace.

Kaisi vo murad thi jo aaj jal gayi

She got up from the floor and ascended towards the bathroom with a knife in her hand. This morning everyone will wake up to continue their life and she will close her eyes for forever for she cannot bear this pain anymore.

Pariyon ke zehen mein jo aag ban gayi

There's no way that her pain can be healed, she doesn't have any life goal. What will she do by staying alive? She can't bear all this pain which her beloved gave her.

Dekhi na thi sapno khayalo mein kabhi aisi zindagi se mulakat ban gayi

She is sailing on a boat which is surrounded only by vast oceans and she couldn't seem to find the end of it. It's better to jump in the ocean and drown and end this life than to bear all pain, starving from hunger, threatened by the storm and then dying on the wooden boat facing the sky, her body rotting and no one to help her or at least be by her side. It kills her to know that what she was taking as life since past few years was just a hoax she was living on. How can he?...

Teri aankhon ki lehak ko na jaane na jaane kaisi raat mil gayi..

She stood under the shower and turned the knob on. The cold water fell on her hazelnut locks and straightened them out. Her eye lashes were battling to stay open in the running water. Her eyes paining a bit more and her hands shaking a lot more.

Na jaane kaisi raat mil gayi..

She slowly brought the knife against her wrist and closed her eyes shut, really tight.

Na jaane kaisi raat mil gayi...

But then opened them when she remembered something. Can she endure this pain as well? She questioned herself and like every time she struggled to answer herself this.

"Ye-yes.." she whispered in a low and trembling voice. Her voice sounded foreign to herself.

She shut her eyes again and made herself ready for what was coming ahead. She held the knife tight with her other hand and tried to slit her wrist surely this time and...she did it! But the cut which she made wasn't that deep. It just looked like a scratch. A few drops of blood fell off her hand and got mixed with the water going down the drain. She again tightened her grip on the knife and was ready for the second attempt when suddenly an image of her parents prompt in front of her closed eyes and she instantly opened them. Will they be able to endure this pain? She questioned again and whose answer was direct. No.

"I can't give others pain in order to end mine. No..."

The knife fell off her hand and made a loud noise. Her knees shook and she fell off her feet. The water was now drenching her white kurti even more. She brought her knees closer to herself and laid her head down on them crying even more. Her throat hurt to cry and she started shivering soon.

She changed the setting to hot water and kept sitting there under the shower with the water stinging and burning her skin. But what she was feeling was completely different. She felt somewhat relieved by that burning sensation and was enjoying it. She soon started feeling suffocated because of the steam and her head started spinning. She quickly turned off the tap and stood up with wobbling legs.

When she opened the door, she finally caught her breath and gasped for more air. She dried herself and changed into another set of clothes and ensured to hide the scratches on her legs and hands with the help of some concealer and, went down to see her parents. They knew about what she was feeling and experiencing but, there was nothing that they could help her with and they felt really helpless when they saw her pale face and lifeless eyes.

When she reached down she saw her mother preparing breakfast in the kitchen.

"Zoya, come have seat..breakfast is about to get ready..what would you like to have hmm? I will prepare anything for my princess.."

"Ammi..I'm not feeling hungry at all"

She said taking a seat and drinking some water. 'I'm not a princess Ammi..I realised it now and neither is this a fairy tale with happily ever after type endings..this is the real world which showed me its real self in just past few days.' She thought.

"Look at yourself Zoya...you look pale and weak..take care of yourself beta..how will live your life like this.."

'That's the thing Ammi..I don't want to live.' She thought but didn't get the courage to say all this.

Her mother came by her side and hugged her while caressing her hair ever so lovely with her hand.

"Everything will be fine dear..you can't just starve yourself and get locked in a room for your entire life..look at yourself you look dead from inside..does that man deserves this..does that man deserves you to cry over him..we are human bacche..we do make mistakes..maybe you did too..but life doesn't end by one mistake..it goes on..it doesn't wait for you to get used to it or get a break from it..it goes on.."

She sniffed her nose and hugged her mother back wetting her kurti.

"Whatever happened dear wasn't your fault..it was his..stop punishing yourself for the sin that he committed.."

"But Ammi..there has to be some fault of mine..other-otherwise why wou-would he step out from our marriage..tha-that too love marriage..Ammi..please tell me my fault na..I'm tired.."

She said whining like a small child.

"I thought that we loved each other..but..."

She said wetting her mother's kurti a bit more.

"I used to believe that I have a perfect life, a life filled with love and only love but see Ammi...it wasn't even quarter of what I used to think..I used to think that I know him in and out..I trusted him more than my life but see.."

"Shh...baccha...stop blaming yourself..when something breaks, it hurts..but remember that there's a morning after every night.."

She nodded her head.

"Now stop this crying.."

She said releasing her and wiping her tears with her thumb.

"Listen, tomorrow we will go out wherever you want..you will feel good and I will not take no as an answer..okay?"

"But Ammi.."

"No..you will come with me or I won't eat anything.."

"You are being like a kid.."

"So, you are saying that I'm getting old..hmm?"

She said faking anger and arching a brow at her.

"No no no-"

"So, get ready tomorrow.."

"Bu-"

She didn't wait for her to complete and resumed cooking the breakfast.

After sometime her father came and the three of them ate their breakfast together..her parents trying their best to make her laugh or just even smile.

"Roshnaq you know what happened when I was a kid.."

"How would I know Wasim.."

"Oh yeah...So, my father gifted me new skates on my birthday and I was so much tempted to try them but on that day it was raining and I couldn't go out to try them. So I waited for the rain to stop and when it finally stopped I went out with my cousin brother and wore my skates. I stood up and started walking wearing skates and as I told you that it was raining a few hours ago so the road was slippery and my skates picked up speed without me wanting them to and then.."

He looked at Zoya.

"Then what happened Wasim.."

"Then came a puddle and I fell into it.."

He said exploding into laughter.

"That was very well expected." He turned to Zoya to see if she there was some change in her expression or not. But there was none. It was same: blank.

"But please don't imagine my face covered with dark brown mud and what not.."

He said again laughing and watching Zoya's expression closely and there he saw a little smile creeping up on her face. His mission was accomplished. He looked at his wife and she gave him an assuring smile.

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