What Are We

AMANDA'S POV

I walk inside the house and my mother is already confronting me about the boyfriend I don't have.

I want to tell her so badly that I'm gay but I don't think she'll take it well. So I just deny it and go hide in my room.

A day later I'm out with my friends when Ollie says "I'm glad we finally get to hang out with you. Since you're always with your girlfriend."

"Michelle is not...my girlfriend... I don't think." I reply.

"Then what have y all been doing all this time?"

"Well we haven't made it official yet."

"Well, it's been about what? A month or two since you've been...let's say hanging out with Michelle. One of you need to make the first move."

"She has a point." Lisa chimes in. "I mean have you two been on a date yet?"

"Well we planned to go watch a movie."

"So did you go?" Ollie asks.

"Um..."

FLASHBACK

"Ahh mph..fuck Michelle!"

"You like that?"

I nod biting my lip as Michelle continues to finger me.

END OF FLASHBACK

"Uh...no."

"That sounds kind of bad." Lisa says.

"Not really. What is she like forty or something?"

"NO...she's thirty-six.

Ollie continues "Anyway her body is pretty much telling her, are we having kids or what?, and Amanda your body is like, yo you know we can have babies right. So that's why you two are fucking like rabbits."

"What the fuck are you on about Ollie!

Amanda, I think you need to communicate better with Michelle. Ask her what you two are. Communication is key to a healthy relationship."

"Thanks Lisa but what if she thinks that I'm pressuring her or something?"

"Well you two have already been intimate so you two are definitely something. It's better to know where your relationship is going before you end up getting your feelings hurt."

"Damn that's smart." Ollie blurts out.

...

MICHELLE'S POV

"Michelle there's someone here to see you." Abby our receptionist says.

I wasn't expecting anyone but I have time since it's my lunch break.

"Send them in please."

A couple of minutes later Abby enters my office and behind her is...

"Linda? What are you doing here."

"I came to take you out for a lunch date. Like we used to."

"Actually I was thinking of skipping lunch I have a lot of work to do."

"Aww. I came all this way. Please Michelle."

"Fine."

...

I take a sip of my cocktail, I know it's early for it but Linda insisted.

"So...who is Amanda seeing?" Linda asks causing me to choke on my drink. I really should stop drinking anything around Linda.

After getting rid of my coughing fit I finally answer "I didn't know she was dating."

"Come on I know that you've been driving her to her boyfriend. She told me. Do you know his name? Where does he live?"

"I really don't know what you're talking about Linda."

Linda squints her eyes and then sits back on her chair.

"I guess you don't. She probably just used you as an excuse to not get caught."

"Yeah, she must have."

"I mean what would you two even be doing together."

"Heh..."

"Anyway how have you been? I haven't seen you since you kicked me out of your house."

"Sorry about that."

"What got into you anyway?"

"Uh, I thought we already had discussed it."

"I don't remember."

"Well...I should be heading back to the office but please stay and have dessert. It's on me I'll let the waiter know. I'll talk to you later."

"Please do."

Linda grabs my hand.

"I'd like to be closer to you Michelle. You know like we used to be."

I grab my purse slowly pulling my hand away from hers and make my way back to the office.

AMANDA'S POV

I got a text from Michelle saying that she wanted to see me as soon as possible.

Ollie was kind enough drop me off at her place. It's a good opportunity to ask her about us.

Before I could even knock, Michelle pulls me inside and greets me with a long passionate kiss.

After she breaks kiss I blurt out "So, ah...what's up?"

Michelle smiles and guides me to her living room where she has a bunch of food across her coffee table. On the couch she has some pillows and a large blanket.

"What's this?"

Michelle lays down pulling me on top of her.

"I got some not so good news."

"Is everything okay?"

"I'll be gone for two weeks. It's for work I tried to get out of it but I couldn't."

"It's okay. I understand. I am going to miss you though. When are you leaving?"

"Tomorrow night which is why I arranged this so that we can have fun before I leave. So let me just put on a movie and enjoy our time together."

Michelle pulls me closer, her hands and lips roaming all over my body.

I then remember what my friends told me. Although I think given the situation I'll wait to ask Michelle about us.

A couple of minutes later my phone starts vibrating. I take it out of my pocket and see that it's Lisa calling.

"One sec." I say to Michelle answering the phone.

"Did you two talk yet?" Lisa says before I could even say "Hello?"

"No, not yet something's come up."

"What happened?"

"I'll tell you later I'll call you back."

I take a deep breath as Michelle's hands begin to explore my body.

"Wait, don't hang up, put me on speaker."

"Why?"

"Just do it, it's important."

I don't know why but I do it.

"Michelle?" Lisa asks.

Michelle looks at me very confused and slowly replies. "Yeah."

"WHY HAVEN'T YOU GONE ON A DATE WITH AMANDA! SHE NEEDS TO KNOW IF YOU TWO ARE TOGETHER OR IF YOU ARE PLAYING WITH HER FEELINGS!"

I try to hang up as quickly as possible but it's too late Michelle had already heard her I'm guessing by the way she quickly pulls her hands back.

There's an awkward silence before I break it.

"I'm sorr-"

"It's okay Amanda you don't need to apologize, it's a valid question. I hadn't thought about it."

Michelle stares blankly at the TV before turning to face me.

"I really like you Amanda and I would love it if you would go on a date with me."

"I'd love to."

"Come on then let's go get ready I'm taking you out." Michelle says turning off the TV and getting up from the couch.

"I don't have a change of clothes." I say still confused as to what's happening.

"You still have that beautiful dress you wore to my office's party. I took it to the dry cleaners. You can wear that. Is a dinner date alright with you?"

"Uh yeah."

"Okay, I'll make the reservation. You can use the shower first."

…

As I get out of Michelle's car I look over to the fancy restaurant Michelle brought us to.

I check Michelle out again in her red jumper with a black blazer over her shoulder. She stands next to me and it takes a couple of seconds for me to realize but I manage to catch on. I hook my arm with hers and we make our way inside the restaurant.

"How did you manage to get a reservation in such short notice?"

I ask Michelle after the waitress takes our order.

"I…know the owner."

"Ah I see."

"So, how's school going?"

"Good, it's going good."

"You are graduating soon right?"

"Yeah this upcoming spring."

"Save me a ticket?"

"Yes of course."

"Good. I went to the same school you know?"

"Really! So did my mother."

"I know, we had classes together."

"Is that how you meet?"

"Oh no I've known your mother for most if not my whole life."

"Right..." I felt the mood change. I don't really mind the age gap but hearing the person you like say that they've grown up with your mother puts stuff into perspective.

"It had to be addressed sooner or later." Michelle says, causing me to look up at her.

"Huh?"

"Our ages. I'm old enough to be your mother since I'm literally your mother's age."

I try to reply but the words aren't coming out.

I'm saved by the waitress bringing us our drinks.

I ordered a strawberry lemonade and Michelle ordered a red wine…like the whole bottle.

The waitress showed it to her and when Michelle nodded she opened it and held the cork close to Michelle's face.

Michelle nodded again after sniffing it and the waitress poured Michelle a glass.

I wasn't sure what was going on.

Thought the way Michelle smiled and nodded at her made me a bit jealous. I felt like they were flirting in a wierd way.

We took sips of our drinks in silence.

"Sorry I didn't mean to make this awkward but it's something we should address."

"I know." I reply, swirling my lemonade watching the pulp dance around.

"Does it make you uncomfortable?" I ask Michelle.

"I hadn't thought about it. I have just been on autopilot letting my feelings take control. I haven't been as happy as I have been since you entered my life. I want to be selfish for once and keep this feeling for as long as I can. What about you? Does it bother you?"

I quickly shake my head. "No, I was worried that it bothered you."

We continue to talk for the rest of our date. As we walk outside Michelle asks "Did you enjoy the food?"

"Yes, it was delicious, thank you."

"I'm glad you enjoyed it and also that you ate since you usually eat very little."

"Uh yeah…"

We drive for a bit until Michelle stops the car.

"This isn't your place."

"I know it's yours. I will be very busy so I won't be able to bring you home in the morning."

"Oh I get it. I just thought that maybe we were going to…"

Michelle chuckles and replies "We are taking things slow right? Don't worry when I return we'll go on another date okay?"

"Okay."

I go to kiss her goodnight but since we are taking things slow I go for a handshake.

Michelle smiles and pulls me in for a long kiss.

"You've sat on my face Amanda. I don't think we need to go all the way back before we kissed."

A day later I got a text from Michelle. It was a picture of her from the plane. Clouds can be seen from the airplane window. The caption read "On my way I can't describe how much I'm going to miss you."

…

Michelle's pov

I've been texting Amanda daily but it doesn't compare to having her next to me.

As I'm typing away on my laptop answering emails I get a notification on my phone.

It's from my security cameras.

I see Amanda and a couple more people go into my house.

Amanda had taken my offer to use my pool and asked if she could bring some of her friends.

I trust her so I said yes. I told my coworker, who was nice enough to check up on my house, to leave the keys under the mat for her.

As I go about my day, I keep getting notifications. I go to turn them off when I see Amanda talking with one of her friends near the garden. They are too close for my liking, so I turn on the sprinkler for a bit until they run inside.

I instantly regret it and I feel childish getting jealous like that.

…

It has been the longest two weeks in my life but after arriving back home I still had to take care of a few things before being able to see Amanda. She wanted to meet me at the airport, but I had to report back to the office first.

Night came and I picked Amanda from her house. We went to see a movie and had dinner. We arrived back at my house. I led Amanda to my room where I gently laid her down on my bed.

“I missed you so much.” I say placing kisses down her neck.

“I’ve mmh…missed you too.” Amanda replies between moans.

I take off her shirt peppering kisses all over her body. I unbutton her jeans and peel them off of her and admire her cute panties.

She seems to get embarrassed but it quickly goes away as my hands roam her body. I forgot how much effect Amanda’s moans had on me. I slide her panties off and I instantly get lost in her taste.

I spend the rest of the night making love to Amanda.