Chapter 477

Chapter 467 An Accidental K*iss.

“Helel, you are not in your senses,” I said with a secret eye roll. I wasn’t dismissing his feelings, but his drinking so much was only going to make him act up. He paused after hearing me complain and pulled away, supporting his body with the wall of the entrance.

“You hate it when I drink? I will stop drinking forever. You hate it when I don’ t listen to you. I will only hear you from now on. You hate it if I breathe—I will stop breathing—,” his eyes suddenly got filled with tears before he forced a laugh and shook his head, “I am joking.” With those words leaving his mouth, he thought he had fooled me. I felt bad for him.

“Come on, let’s take you inside,” I insisted on holding his hand and walking him to the living room, but every time I tried walking into the mansion, he pulled away from me.

“No! it will suffocate me to death,” he scoffed, taking heavy breaths.

“What will?” I asked, following him as he made his way to the garden. He was constantly drinking, and I could tell he had a lot of drinks already, or else an alpha king was not easily intoxicated.

“The memories, Beatrice!” He paused just to pivot and look me in the eye. “The memories will kill me. I am beginning to remember everything–,” he said, big tears reddening his eyes.

“My mother-— when I didn’t know she was this evil, she was my mother. I used to cry on her lap until my father rejected her. And then I began to take care of Maddox. You know—he was not a bad child; he was just misunderstood. He had issues that he tried to hide behind the use of drugs. Mom used to be so angry at him. She would not miss a single chance to remind him that she did a lot for him and that she should have let him die. He took it all wrong. He thought his mother had become evil for him. Little did he know, she wanted him to die so that Zane would have never suffered,” Helel smiled while tears left his eyes.

“And Zane! He was always the privileged one. None of us used to say a word against him.”

I helped Helel when he was about to trip and sat him down on the bench, but he slid down to the grass instead. I sat down with him, feeling his pain as well as mine.

“We loved him so much. Whatever he liked. He got it. And it became his habit to the point that he took Maddox from us,” Helel dropped the bottle to cover his face in his hands as he cried loudly. My heart sank in my chest the instant I saw him like that. Ihad never seen him this weak before.

“Helel~! Please pull yourself together. Everything will be alright very soon. As for Gwen! Reign said she would take care of her,” I reached for his hand and whispered, but I noticed that he suddenly stopped crying, his eyes fixated on my hand.

“I was so confused by my love for you that I didn’t even care that I had impregnated a girl and left her at the mercy of my crazy brother. Zane tried to kill her so many times. She still didn’t tell us everything so that the brothers weren’t pushed against each other. She is such a nice person—,” he took a dramatic pause as he raised his head to look at me, “then tell me why is it that I am still not in love with her? Why is it that I am falling for you over and over again, even when you are not mine anymore?”

I didn’t have an answer to his question. I just kept staring at his face with heavy emotions and broken dreams. I had once thought of a world and a future with him.

“Helel, let’s take you inside,” I gulped and pushed the tears back, holding his hand to make him stand up. He didn’t say a word this time and followed me like a lost puppy.

Once I took him into the living room, he dropped on the couch before I could help him.

“I know you must hate me for always being in your sight with this stupid face and eyes that only look at you,” he zoned out when murmuring. Big tears must have blurred his vision because he blinked constantly to get rid of them.

“I will never hate you,” I whispered, standing close.

“But why don’t you love me anymore?” He asked through quivering lips. Being this helpless didn’t suit him. I liked him being all strong and douchey. I didn’t know seeing him in pain would hurt me so much.

“Helel!” I had only said his name and sighed when he got to his feet, and suddenly I found his lips against mine. His grip was so firm that I stayed frozen while he took my lips into his and s*ucked them like crazy.

After a few seconds’ pause, I gently placed my hands on his chest and forcibly broke the k*iss. He stared at my face in disappointment.

“That is wrong. I cannot do this, and you shouldn’t do this either,” I said, helping him sit down. As soon as he lay down again, he closed his eyes and passed out.

I was left with goosebumps all over my body. It was as if I had never forgotten how his lips tasted. But what he did was wrong.“Wow!” A call from behind me compelled me to turn around and look at Shiloh.

“So you literally want everyone for yourself. Fine then, since you already have this brother wrapped around your finger, I will comfort my Akin,” the way she came at me was so strong that I couldn’t respond to him at the time.

Not to mention, I was also extremely guilty of what just happened. Helel was drunk; he didn’t know what he was doing, but I should have kept my distance from him when he was feeling so strongly towards me